Jessica Watkins Quotes

Don't diss the caterpillar and then sweat it when it starts to turn into a beautiful butterfly.

Four days ago, I realized that being alone was better than living every day lonely with him.

Before the dick, I had my shit together. I had goals, dreams, and aspirations. But after the dick, I was lost, turned out all over again, and needed Iyanla to fix my life.

I only hoped that now that he thought I was pregnant, he would ejaculate into me freely and I would eventually really be pregnant.

After killing Aeysha, I left Chicago like Simone told me to. I ended up in Minnesota, where most niggas went when they wanted to come up.

He’d always had a crush on me. I never liked him because he wasn’t a challenge.

Had Ringo or Capone died during that exchange, it would have taken a piece of my heart, when I had a piece left only big enough to keep it beating. “C’mon,

Karma is a bitch, and it will humble you when it comes back around.

I was learning in rehab that I could no longer allow things to get to me so bad that I tried to fix it with temporary happiness. “Hey,

And I was not going to tell him about the pregnancy. As far as I was concerned, even though I didn’t know what I was going to do, Damion was never going to know about this baby. “Hey,

She had a right to be hurt, confused, and seeking closure. What she did not have the right to do was act like I wasn’t supposed to be with the man that fathered my child and who I had been in love with for damn near ten whole years. Just as

Compared to a Dom in the BDSM world, Marcel taught me that Daddy Doms are the gentlest type of Dom. Versus spanking, whips, and chains, in a dominance and submission relationship, Daddy Doms are more concerned with their Submissive’s goals and needs; not spanking or torturing her.

Matthew Watkins At the first Thanksgiving, one of the bloodiest battles ensued when it was discovered that the deliveryman forgot to bring extra duck sauce. Finn Is God is, on this enchanted evening, in love with a wonderful guy. Julie Seagle Going to write a book called “Binge, Screw, Loathe.” It will be about a hateful woman who travels across the US visiting all-you-can-eat brothels.

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In those fleeting seconds, our hearts whispered secrets and our souls danced to an invisible rhythm.

When you love a man romantically, there is no way that you would be comfortable sharing him.

mirror

a drunk mind really does speak a sober truth.

think…If you don’t have his respect, you will never have his heart. And don’t hold onto a man that clearly doesn’t want you. The longer you hold on to someone that isn’t for you, the longer you ensure you won’t receive the person that is for you.

I just want you to be smart when it comes to men. I want you to be strong and use your heart wisely,” I told her. “Don’t give your heart to a man that doesn’t want it or doesn’t deserve it. No matter how much you might love a man, you can’t make him love you back.

sometimes a man’s purpose in a woman’s life is to make her a better woman for the next man.

Well, hey there, Mrs. Campbell.” We squealed and hugged each other tight in the doorway of Derek’s, and now Faye’s, three-thousand square foot home.

A man that will never fix his mouth to hurt me the way that you have. I deserve that.

But a child is a gift from a woman to a man for never leaving, not an excuse to make one stay.

I felt even more useless because I was asking God for things that I should have easily been able to give myself.

I took care of that son of a bitch. I gave him somewhere to lay his head when all he had was that filthy ass motel to sleep in. I cooked him meals when he didn’t even have a fucking dollar to buy a double cheeseburger off the dollar menu at McDonald’s.

They say that everything happens for a reason. Maybe one day, I will know what that reason is. Until then, I would live everyday correcting my wrongs.

Murder,

how can a man love a woman with the same hands that he is willing to kill her with?

you,

I was pregnant by some crazy ass psycho guard. I didn’t know what I was going to do.

No matter Blood’s status, I have never had a chick be as bold as to call my phone or show up at my house. I

defense. I had a huge guard up against Amiel because I knew that how he made me feel was inappropriate. With

The more Vince and I got back to how we used to be, the more I got high. I

Again, I was feeling bad for not loving Blood in the same way that he loved me, for not being there unconditionally for him as he was for me and my family.

Besides, I knew that free cocaine from Derrick was in exchange for me sleeping with him. That was his way of taking care of me and ensuring some pussy.

Though Jahleel was alive, he was barely alive.

Even as I saw Jahleel and Jolanda in the halls at Kraton, as long as I was ignoring their existence, I was able to forget my past. Now, as Jesse sat across

She just put up with Raven because she didn’t want to risk losing James by giving him an ultimatum.

Once Jesse made that announcement, I got up and got out of there. I no longer cared about Jahleel’s recovery.

After Blood’s recent release from prison, Lieutenant Fyte was determined to do whatever necessary to gain sufficient evidence to lock Blood away for the rest of his life- including infiltrating Blood’s cartel with undercover officers. Therefore,

Despite my funny feeling about her, I regretfully obliged to his interest in pursuing a sexual relationship with her. I knew James only wanted the pussy, but I could see in Raven’s eyes that she wanted more.

The thought that these two lying motherfuckers had been deceiving me this whole time made me want to throw more of a tantrum than I threw in Bliss. The

Despite the fact that my household had been turned upside down by my stupidity, this fool was holding my daughter hostage.

I could only see Derrick at odd times; very early in the morning or in the afternoon when Vince was too busy to notice my absence. Initially,

Prisoners weren’t allowed to have hangers; one of the “deadly weapons” that we were refrained from using like regular people. She

When his lies, infidelity, and plain ‘ol ability to get on my nerves had caused me to shed the catering and trusting woman that I use to be, for the last seven months she had been showing him that she was ready and willing to go over and beyond the call of duty to be to him what I wasn’t. She

I wasn’t feeling Iyana. For some reason, she completely rubbed me the wrong way.

I don’t know. The older Ariana gets, the more I feel bad for purposely keeping her father out of her life. You can’t pay my father to want a relationship with me, so who am I to purposely keep that away from Ariana?” “True.

Until getting high, I never knew how it felt to live without that constant burden and grief on my shoulders.

Luckily, Malik was one of the cool guards that actually joked with the prisoners and treated us like people. As

I know it seems a little over and beyond, but I wanted no contact with those children- absolutely none.

there. By the time I was done peeing, I felt it- the ecstasy, the peace, the tranquility.

When I was high, I feared nothing and yearned for no one. As

To an ordinary person, what I did was wrong.

It was time for me to break the cycle. I didn’t want Ariana falling in love with a father figure that may be gone in a few years.

One side of me was hoping that he would finally get the chance to see his daughter, and then end up being a deadbeat dad, making it so that I don’t have to explain this secret encounter to Blood.

That is when I realized that, no matter the decisions that he had to make for his family, maybe he really was in love with me back then. I

Being there with Amiel made me feel so stupid for keeping Ariana away from him. I had acted like a child who didn’t get her way; throwing a tantrum and running away.

Tricey eventually forgave me for falling in love with Taij, but Lyric never did. “Besides,

frustration. I was actually upset that I didn’t love this man as much as he loved me.

Blood knew that I didn’t love him how I should, that’s why he suddenly didn’t want me to communicate with Amiel. And knowing that this man has never asked twice about taking care of and loving me, but knew that I didn’t love him like I should, hurt me to the core. I knew that feeling. Amiel was the birth of that feeling in my heart. It

In result of the crash, Vince suffered swelling on the brain and stress fractures in his right leg.

Though I didn’t want a relationship with Jahleel, I didn’t want to see anything happen to him either, as with any child in this school. In

Being on parole was like gaining an additional parent that made you sit through a therapy session monthly.

I assumed that much, but for him to literally begin distancing himself as soon as we got off that plane was a smack in the face. He didn’t even call me to let me know that he made it home after dropping me off at home once we left the airport. I

You can talk to your friends about stuff, but with a therapist, there are no holds barred and you get unbiased advice. Plus,

Undercover cops, bodies in lakes, and paying off the police was indictment list status. This

tired. I knew that dating a drug dealer came with certain dangers.

Cory was like every other woman, thinking that just because a man did it to other women that it was something about our snatch that made him not do it to us.

Despite the fact that his intentions were still unknown, I didn’t like feeling like a paid whore when I was with him.

But after I found out the real story about Devin, Derrick, and Iyana, I figured why deny myself when Blood obviously took it upon himself to choose to be loyal to me when he wanted to. I

Nearly five weeks pregnant, it was becoming very difficult to deal with the morning sickness and nausea every time I ate anything, along with running around after Ariana and Mauri.

No matter what- no matter what Blood had done and no matter how much Damion was sweeping me off of my feet – I wasn’t ready to leave my stability.

It would have haunted me for the rest of my life if I had never visited my father when he was coherent enough to remember me. And

Monday night, I miscarried. Just as the doctor explained, I took the pill that afternoon and by sometime in the wee hours of the morning, I miscarried. Vic was there with me for support.

It was funny how he treated me like a stepchild when he assumed the worse of me, but when his shit was in black and white, he acted like I was a complete bitch for not forgiving him. I

I had given myself a life sentence of loneliness, but I didn’t have to accept that anymore. I

In order to avoid Lyric at all costs, I went to the William’s funeral home an hour before the wake began. Slyly,

And what I also couldn’t take anymore was this look of disgust on Lyric’s face as she stared at me like this was all my fault. She seemed repulsed at the possibility of Tim being my father.

You could have told me, but you were loyal to them. But being in that room knowing that they were coming and arguing with Roxy showed me that you were loyal to me too.

All I know is that you went to jail because of your loyalty; loyalty to the wrong motherfuckas, but still loyalty. I’ll take loyalty ova anything, any day.”     Twenty

flux. I no longer cared about the beef that I had with her. As someone that she grew up with and knew exactly what she had gone through with her mother and Jesse, I just wanted to be there for her and help her get to the truth. Neither

I just found out that the woman that I have been mad at for over ten years could be my sister. Therefore, I didn’t have time for this foolery!

It was Tricey this time, so I was about to turn the damn thing off just as a text message from Taij came through. It read: Come here. I am in the dressing room on the second floor. Immediately

This grimy ass motherfucker told me that if I wanted that search warrant to go away forever, that I had to kill Blood. From what he told me, he already had it out for Blood, but once his Undercovers went missing, he knew that Blood had something to do with it.

Since the NBA season started, Damion had very little time to spend with me. Between early morning practice, workouts and games, I was able to see him one or two times a week for a few hours before he had to go to sleep early,

I knew that Tricey was fucking around on me. Taleyi was the one that told me. Right after Tricey and I got back from Mexico, Taleyi hit me with a bomb.

Regardless of me fucking Taleyi, or any other bitch that threw me pussy because of the money, I loved Tricey to death. She was my ride or die bitch, the Bonnie to my Clyde. But Taleyi burst that bubble when she happily showed me that picture of Tricey and Damion.

Daughter or not, her mother was more loyal to me, the man that pays her and feeds her habit, than her daughter. One day, she told me about Taleyi being so

It had been almost four weeks since Taij left Kim at the altar to rekindle our relationship.

They both knew that, for me, rekindling this friendship would be easy with an apology, but attacking the real issue would be tough. “I

Strangely, Taij and I had been dating for the past month like normal people; going on dates, spending quality time, and getting to know one another intimately all over again. However, when it came to the physical, it was Taij’s decision to leave that part out of our relationship for a while. He said that it was very important to him that our relationship was based on love, not lust. Given

Taij felt responsible because I lost that friendship because of my love for him.

Engulfing myself in fixing Vic and Lyric’s relationship had helped me take my mind off of things. However, now that that was done, I had to fix my own shit. “Hey.

Our relationship had gotten to the point that the only thing that I felt while with him was history.

Since Lieutenant Fyte had been able to successfully penetrate my camp with undercover cops, I didn’t trust nobody with my shit but Lucky. But, just

Fyte’s beef with me started when I first got out of jail. As soon as I started flipping weight again, he was on my ass. I knew it wasn’t legit because of the way he would pop up where I was without warrants, never searching or arresting me.

On the one hand, I felt like, as his woman, I should take my ass back downstairs and put her out. On the other, I felt sorry for how she must have felt when her dream was snatched away from her.

About a year ago, Devin, his right hand man, and Devin’s girlfriend, Iyana, went missing along with five hundred thousand dollars.