Jessica Watkins Quotes

Don't diss the caterpillar and then sweat it when it starts to turn into a beautiful butterfly.

Four days ago, I realized that being alone was better than living every day lonely with him.

After killing Aeysha, I left Chicago like Simone told me to. I ended up in Minnesota, where most niggas went when they wanted to come up.

Before the dick, I had my shit together. I had goals, dreams, and aspirations. But after the dick, I was lost, turned out all over again, and needed Iyanla to fix my life.

Had Ringo or Capone died during that exchange, it would have taken a piece of my heart, when I had a piece left only big enough to keep it beating. “C’mon,

I was learning in rehab that I could no longer allow things to get to me so bad that I tried to fix it with temporary happiness. “Hey,

Karma is a bitch, and it will humble you when it comes back around.

He’d always had a crush on me. I never liked him because he wasn’t a challenge.

And I was not going to tell him about the pregnancy. As far as I was concerned, even though I didn’t know what I was going to do, Damion was never going to know about this baby. “Hey,

She had a right to be hurt, confused, and seeking closure. What she did not have the right to do was act like I wasn’t supposed to be with the man that fathered my child and who I had been in love with for damn near ten whole years. Just as

Matthew Watkins At the first Thanksgiving, one of the bloodiest battles ensued when it was discovered that the deliveryman forgot to bring extra duck sauce. Finn Is God is, on this enchanted evening, in love with a wonderful guy. Julie Seagle Going to write a book called “Binge, Screw, Loathe.” It will be about a hateful woman who travels across the US visiting all-you-can-eat brothels.

you,

how can a man love a woman with the same hands that he is willing to kill her with?

Murder,

I took care of that son of a bitch. I gave him somewhere to lay his head when all he had was that filthy ass motel to sleep in. I cooked him meals when he didn’t even have a fucking dollar to buy a double cheeseburger off the dollar menu at McDonald’s.

They say that everything happens for a reason. Maybe one day, I will know what that reason is. Until then, I would live everyday correcting my wrongs.

I just want you to be smart when it comes to men. I want you to be strong and use your heart wisely,” I told her. “Don’t give your heart to a man that doesn’t want it or doesn’t deserve it. No matter how much you might love a man, you can’t make him love you back.

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think…If you don’t have his respect, you will never have his heart. And don’t hold onto a man that clearly doesn’t want you. The longer you hold on to someone that isn’t for you, the longer you ensure you won’t receive the person that is for you.

a drunk mind really does speak a sober truth.

I felt even more useless because I was asking God for things that I should have easily been able to give myself.

was on a mission. My mouth went on a search inside of her pussy to find the doubt she had in me. I went searching for the anger that she was feeling. I found the insecurity that cheating on her made her feel. Then I sucked, kissed and licked every doubt, all the anger, and every insecurity away until it all came out of her in milky satisfaction. Aeysha was literally squealing at a high pitch. I chuckled with a mouth full of pussy as I figured that Eboni and her kids could probably hear Aeysha. “Oh shiiiiiiiit!” Aeysha was fighting with me, trying to push my head away from my meal, but I wouldn’t let her. I slid two fingers inside of her, found her G-Spot, and attacked it until my baby was cumming everywhere. I kissed her real quick before leaving her out of breath in the bed while I hopped in the shower and got ready for work.

two broken hearts that had finally found pieces of another heart to help their broken hearts mend.

He won’t be the last man to break your heart. You just make sure that next time it doesn’t hurt so bad.

them, and they forget. Teach them, and they may remember. Involve them and they learn.’... That’s the motto

Four days ago, I realized that being alone was better than having his sorry ass company making me miserable every fucking day. Four days ago, I realized that being alone was better than living every day lonely with him.

I was pregnant by some crazy ass psycho guard. I didn’t know what I was going to do.

No matter Blood’s status, I have never had a chick be as bold as to call my phone or show up at my house. I

defense. I had a huge guard up against Amiel because I knew that how he made me feel was inappropriate. With

The more Vince and I got back to how we used to be, the more I got high. I

Again, I was feeling bad for not loving Blood in the same way that he loved me, for not being there unconditionally for him as he was for me and my family.

Besides, I knew that free cocaine from Derrick was in exchange for me sleeping with him. That was his way of taking care of me and ensuring some pussy.

Even as I saw Jahleel and Jolanda in the halls at Kraton, as long as I was ignoring their existence, I was able to forget my past. Now, as Jesse sat across

Though Jahleel was alive, he was barely alive.

I could only see Derrick at odd times; very early in the morning or in the afternoon when Vince was too busy to notice my absence. Initially,

Prisoners weren’t allowed to have hangers; one of the “deadly weapons” that we were refrained from using like regular people. She

When his lies, infidelity, and plain ‘ol ability to get on my nerves had caused me to shed the catering and trusting woman that I use to be, for the last seven months she had been showing him that she was ready and willing to go over and beyond the call of duty to be to him what I wasn’t. She

I wasn’t feeling Iyana. For some reason, she completely rubbed me the wrong way.

Despite my funny feeling about her, I regretfully obliged to his interest in pursuing a sexual relationship with her. I knew James only wanted the pussy, but I could see in Raven’s eyes that she wanted more.

The thought that these two lying motherfuckers had been deceiving me this whole time made me want to throw more of a tantrum than I threw in Bliss. The

After Blood’s recent release from prison, Lieutenant Fyte was determined to do whatever necessary to gain sufficient evidence to lock Blood away for the rest of his life- including infiltrating Blood’s cartel with undercover officers. Therefore,

She just put up with Raven because she didn’t want to risk losing James by giving him an ultimatum.

Once Jesse made that announcement, I got up and got out of there. I no longer cared about Jahleel’s recovery.

Despite the fact that my household had been turned upside down by my stupidity, this fool was holding my daughter hostage.

Every time the doorbell rang, every time we saw a cop, we saw my life ending.

Funny thing was, being around him didn’t give me the insecure feeling that I had felt with Omari or Tre.

love. I am a woman of the fatherless tribe, so I love differently. I am submissive, attentive, and willing in my love.

Shon has been his right hand for the last five years. Shon was his best friend and like a brother to him- not just someone who worked for him.

Sweetie, this is my husband, Amiel. We’re going to help you. You’re going to be okay.”            

Apparently that speech struck a chord in Delilah, because ever since, she has been in this office spilling her guts out. This is fine because that was my purpose of becoming a high school counselor. I didn’t merely want to guide children into good grades and help them fill out college applications. I wanted to be that shoulder, that advice, that parent that I was missing when I was in their very shoes when I walked these halls. However,

Usually she goes overboard to look like a bum so Sean won’t feel insecure when he drops her off at work. Yes, drops her off.

Though Crystal has never caught Sean’s dick in the other women’s vagina, there has always been text messages, weird phone numbers, and times when Sean has tip-toed into the house at five o’clock in the morning. “What

Lyric still holds a grudge against me for what I did to Tricey. I not only affected Tricey when I pulled that deceitful move about eight years ago.

Saturday was the monthly Black Swingers Club party. James and I joined Black Swingers Club a few months ago.

Now the only other women that he slept with were the women that both he and I were interested in or a woman that I approved of.

Veronica is loyal, and I am sure that it’s hard to realize that I love someone else more than I love her. But I have never required her commitment. Her loyalty has never been a must. “I

Veronica has always been so supportive of Bradley and Lyric’s relationship. She’s always been by their side, right along with me, cheering them on and being so pleased with Lyric’s happiness.

While Taij and I were together, I made sure to keep up my appearance since his lack of an erection always made me feel like something was wrong with me.

During the past year of escorting and hustling, I was able to save twenty thousand dollars. That wasn’t enough, though. I needed enough money to take care of Jordan and myself for at least another year.

no funeral, no body, and no way to say goodbye.

Investing in his business would have put me in the position to make a lot more bread a lot faster. But at what cost?

Ever since Tammy got killed, I had been with Simone as much as I could. I felt like a jerk when she told me that she knew about Aeysha.

You can talk to your friends about stuff, but with a therapist, there are no holds barred and you get unbiased advice. Plus,

Nearly five weeks pregnant, it was becoming very difficult to deal with the morning sickness and nausea every time I ate anything, along with running around after Ariana and Mauri.

No matter what- no matter what Blood had done and no matter how much Damion was sweeping me off of my feet – I wasn’t ready to leave my stability.

Though broke and homeless, Chance was free to change his life for the better, to move about life without somebody weighing him down. Though

The way she begged made my skin crawl. I walked into the house wondering how truly confused she had to be to be a woman dressed like a man acting like such a pussy. “No.

I had never been hit before in my life, and for the first time to be with my live-in lesbian lover was further proof that my love life needed a renovation. I

In order to avoid Lyric at all costs, I went to the William’s funeral home an hour before the wake began. Slyly,

And what I also couldn’t take anymore was this look of disgust on Lyric’s face as she stared at me like this was all my fault. She seemed repulsed at the possibility of Tim being my father.

Mercedes, who was in the bedroom getting dressed, was a new chick that Trina begged me to put on since she was the sister of one of her baby’s fathers. I was so distraught about my sister that I just said yes without getting a full rundown on this chick, so I looked at Trina for an explanation. With

You could have told me, but you were loyal to them. But being in that room knowing that they were coming and arguing with Roxy showed me that you were loyal to me too.

All I know is that you went to jail because of your loyalty; loyalty to the wrong motherfuckas, but still loyalty. I’ll take loyalty ova anything, any day.”     Twenty

Amiel knows the depth of my love for him because I’ve spared no moment to show him. Amiel has professed his love for me over and over again. He

Rick?! Is she serious?! What a way to get me back. There is no fucking way that she slept with him because she “likes him.” She “likes” her dog. She “likes” her new pair of Prada boots that she got on sale at Nordstrom last weekend.

Crystal is my friend, but we’re not as close as I consider Sugar and Tricey to be to me.

For the first time in a long time, I was nervous around a man. Vince and I have been rather close for the past year, but it’s been an emotional connection. This

From the moment of penetration to last night, we’ve been spending so much quality and physical time together. It’s as if no sooner than we had sex, it was instant relationship; add water and stir. Though

For the fifth time this evening, I was ignoring Veronica’s phone call. I can’t count how many times she’s called me over the weekend. I

Had Veronica told me that she was interested in someone, I would have gladly agreed to her new love interest.

The uncertainty in his expression brought back the guilt of how I’ve been so deceitful to him and further let me know that Veronica had no right to feel betrayed. If I had betrayed anyone with my actions, it was this adorable man sitting next to me. “Of

Amiel was always sure to spend the holidays with me. I assume it’s to prevent me from feeling like the typical chick on the side that never gets the holidays.

What I fear is being her age and being single, never been married and almost fifty with not even a prospect.

Though I no longer lived with Jessie, this city itself was a constant reminder of my mother, the beatings, the molestation, and the attempted suicide.

Granted, I made the same mistakes by constantly going back to someone who was beating the crap out of me, but I was fourteen/fifteen when I was making those dumb ass decisions- not twenty-eight. “Seriously,

But regrettably, I assumed that our chemistry would overpower anything that she thought she felt for Bradley. I

It may seem dirty and deceitful, but considering Lyric’s heartless actions, I don’t give a fuck. I am finally more interested in fulfilling my needs than Lyric’s, and if that means allowing her fiancé’s friend to fulfill them, oh well.  

Vic was referring to Blood’s death. It was a hard pill to swallow, but I had also began to think that maybe his death was meant to lead me to happiness with Smith. “True.

Being on parole was like gaining an additional parent that made you sit through a therapy session monthly.

I assumed that much, but for him to literally begin distancing himself as soon as we got off that plane was a smack in the face. He didn’t even call me to let me know that he made it home after dropping me off at home once we left the airport. I

I hadn’t seen her since Aeysha was killed. We’d stayed in contact because she refused to let me slip past the point of no return. Day in and day out, Simone was talking to me,

Rae had turned into a very ugly person over the years. As

My only experience was being with men with no loyalty, honesty, or commitment, who eventually fucked me over to the point of unbelievable heartbreak. I

It’s crazy how I never once felt guilty for setting up Aeysha’s murder.

Every time I looked at Dahlia, I saw Aeysha. Not only did Dahlia look just like that bitch, but Omari treated her just like he treated Aeysha.

Despite my loyalty, I still ended up on the streets penniless and homeless. Something

Everything that led me to fall for her in the first place was evaporating before my eyes. I

No matter what, we would consistently end up in arguments like this because there was something wrong in her that I could not fix, nor was I willing to. 

It would have haunted me for the rest of my life if I had never visited my father when he was coherent enough to remember me. And

Monday night, I miscarried. Just as the doctor explained, I took the pill that afternoon and by sometime in the wee hours of the morning, I miscarried. Vic was there with me for support.