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don't get too close,
i'll turn you
into poetry
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Progress is dancing to the same song I used to cry to.
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Sometimes things must break
in order for the wishes
we've longed for the most
to come true.
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I was too busy
admiring the petals
that I forgot
about the thorns.
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I close my eyes just enough
to let go of the suffering
and allow myself
this moment
to feel everything.
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I was the only one watching myself fall apart; thatβs how I became the only one putting myself back together.
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women are brutally beautiful, they wear heaven in their eyes and hell on their tounges
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you are your home
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You are a dream and i don't want to wake up.
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you can't fight fire with fire,"
is something I always
tried reminding you;
yet, without a shadow of doubt,
we watched each other burn
and called it love.
:')
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What better way to feel something, or nothing at all, than to tell someone you love them when you donβt mean it.
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Distract me with your sugar-coated mouth And watch back as my teeth rot
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You can't fight fire with fire,"
is something I always
tried reminding you;
yet, without a shadow of a doubt,
we watched each other burn
and called it love.
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Never did I imagine seeking such satisfaction
in the smallness of being-
that is until
she looked over at me.
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you asked me to sing for you, and through my toothy smile I had to admit that I only sound pretty with the capo tuned on 2nd. watching me meticulously handcraft one from miscellaneous hotel souvenirs, I sang to you a song I wrote about someone once before you.
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Seeking closure for far too long made me pinpoint the fear that very much lived inside of me too.
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allow me to crawl inside your corpse and play a tender hymn with the keys growing along your spine.
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I wrote these words for him, but he never appreciated them. I wrote these words for her, but I was too afraid to admit it. I wrote these words in hope they would heal.
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Iβve longed to trace
my fingers
across your delicate terrain,
limbs entangled, heavy in
this bed weβve made.
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The reflection serves nothing more than a reminder that these are all the things I should feel so lucky to love and yet, Iβm still learning.
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I believe there are soul mates out there that donβt necessarily have to be your romantic partner.
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If weβre going to feel, letβs do so deeply.
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Itβs almost as if I was begging on my hands and knees to get my heart broken. But I mean, this is all for the sake of my very own character development, right?
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Maybe youβll forget about me and maybe Iβm okay with that.
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It was putting myself before anyone that I learned what self-love truly meant.
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If you do not tell the truth about yourself, you cannot tell it about other people.
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I am a paradox craving both attachment and distance from you, unknowing of our future we thought we were destined to.
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I canβt let go of the idea of losing my youth or the idea of you both becoming a prayer away.
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Holding you feels like reliving every sweet spring Iβve ever had all at once.
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Iβll follow you to heaven, Even hell if Iβm with you.
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I never knew how maternal instincts could possibly feel so early on in life, until I walked into that soundless hospital room to see a peaceful you sleeping soundly in the arms of my sister, and I realized that the universe needed us together even if you didnβt grow from my roots.
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As the dusk is settling in, Iβm reminded that my nights can sometimes feel unbearably lonely. The only visitors I have are the characters I read to life in the books that sit on my bedside table. Iβm still getting used to the quiet. But I just know that future-me will look back and envy this stillness. So Iβm trying to take it all in without sounding too selfish.
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Where do I make a home of these restless thoughts when all I want is to feel perceived as heavenly in the eyes of the ones I admire?
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An abundance of affection can feel intoxicating, too,
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we watched each other burn and called it love.
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The things that used to seem so mundane strangely enough begin to feel more sacred to you. Everything you thought you hated actually just came from a place of deep-rooted love.
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Nothing could compare to your first real love and first real loss. Itβs a tender chapter in character development that I so desperately needed. I think you needed it, too. Everyone is somebodyβs fool, and I donβt think Iβll ever grow out of being yours. Hereβs to another letter Iβll never send.
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Plagiarized affection, Iβm not the first to feel your suffering. The palms wrapped around my waist used to belong to her, too, once.
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my dreams failed to prepare me for someone like you.
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I donβt want to go back to the winters Iβve lived before you. Because once youβve seen in color, itβs impossible to imagine going back to black and white.
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How could I fool myself and say I donβt have an addictive personality while lying on your floor for the third time this week, waiting for you to kiss me? I sit at home, reluctant in my own company, itching for a fix of your regards even if itβs only temporary.
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I picked up my first cigarette that night because of you. I thought that maybe it would make me feel something because I would watch you from afar inhaling tobacco like therapy. Yet, at no chance was anything able to ease the pain you put me through
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Infatuated with my own desirable imagination,
I turned myself into a victim of my own romanticization.
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If I knew you'd become the person you promised you'd never be,
I don't think I'd be missing you anymore.
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Last night I was drunk on your words.
This morning I am hungover on your silence.
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If you asked him how he felt, he'd probably look away in fear of exposing any emotion. A coward hidden beneath his layers too afraid to convince, even himself, that it's okay to mourn.
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Would it kill you to just put your pride aside for the slightest second and ask me if I'm doing okay?
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I've become a master at burning the same bridges I wasted my time building.
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You can't trust a coward,
she said,
but you sure can fall in love with one.
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I knew I was addicted when it was 3 a.m.
and I was doing it by myself.
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