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When you choose to be a poet,
you become a place that people walk through
and then leave when they are ready
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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you wouldn't let me
love both of us
at the same time
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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He sketches you as the antagonist and suddenly his transgressions become deleted scenes. He blames you for his sadness. And this is how the wolf cries boy.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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And the answer is
not every building that shakes
will collapse.
The answer is
not everything that chips
will crumble.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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If I could I would nail these hands to the edges of stars. I would sacrifice this body to the sky hoping to resurrect as someone spiteful enough to not care about you.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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She tells me about dreams. She says my dreams are helium and balloons, and I've made the mistake of letting go a few to many times, but I still got this one. Tied around my finger like a wedding ring because even though I don't believe in marriages, I'm gonna bring this one home.
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Shane L. Koyczan (Silence Is A Song I Know All The Words To)
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On the day you couldn't hold yourself together anymore,
you called for me, voice crackling like two sets of knuckles
before an altercation.
I found you, looking like a damaged wine glass.
I hugged your shatter, I cut all of my fingers
trying to jigsaw puzzle you back together.
When it was over,
you looked at the stains on the carpet
and blamed me for making a mess.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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To Have Without Holding:
Learning to love differently is hard,
love with the hands wide open, love
with the doors banging on their hinges,
the cupboard unlocked, the wind
roaring and whimpering in the rooms
rustling the sheets and snapping the blinds
that thwack like rubber bands
in an open palm.
It hurts to love wide open
stretching the muscles that feel
as if they are made of wet plaster,
then of blunt knives, then
of sharp knives.
It hurts to thwart the reflexes
of grab, of clutch, to love and let
go again and again. It pesters to remember
the lover who is not in the bed,
to hold back what is owed to the work
that gutters like a candle in a cave
without air, to love consciously,
conscientiously, concretely, constructively.
I can't do it, you say it's killing
me, but you thrive, you glow
on the street like a neon raspberry,
You float and sail, a helium balloon
bright bachelor's buttons blue and bobbing
on the cold and hot winds of our breath,
as we make and unmake in passionate
diastole and systole the rhythm
of our unbound bonding, to have
and not to hold, to love
with minimized malice, hunger
and anger moment by moment balanced.
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Marge Piercy
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I know that our hands break things just as frequent as we can fix them. And we often forget that sexism / is a family heirloom that we've been passing down for generations. As men, it is important that we start asking ourselves / What will the boys learn from us?
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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Love is clumsy, and my heart refuses to wear a helmet.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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The most destructive instruments can still create a melody worth dancing to.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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When you are the only black man
in the whole neighborhood,
your skin is that one friend who
meets everyone before you do.
It wears a wife beater
and house shoes,
it knocks over the
neighbor's mailbox,
it cusses in front of the kids
and plays the music too loud,
but you actually don't do
any of those things.
It's 7 PM.
It's Wednesday
and you are just
walking home.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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I enjoy....
laughing
for absolutely no reason at all,
but I don't allow myself to cry
as often as I need to.
I have solar-powered confidence
and a battery-operated smile.
My hobbies include: editing my life story,
hiding behind metaphors,
and trying to convince my shadow
that I'm someone worth following.
I don't know much,
but I do know this:
Heaven is full of music,
and God listens to my heartbeat
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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Remember we are never given anything that we can't handle. When the world crumbles around you, sometimes you gotta look at the wreckage and then build a new one out of all the pieces that are still here. Remember that you are still here. The human heart, it beats approximately 4,000 times per hour. And each pulsin' and each throbbin' and each palpitation is a trophy engraved with the words "you are still alive.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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And sometimes
it all arrives at once.
The anxiety, the fear,
the voices that scratch
your confidence like
a chalkboard and somehow
all the oxygen in the room
suddenly becomes water
and you begin to wonder if
you have what it takes
to grow gills. You wonder
if you can blend in with the fish.
You wonder if you
will ever breathe again.
And the answer is
not every building that shakes
will collapse.
The answer is
not everything that chips
will crumble.
The answer is
this is temporary
and yes, you will.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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I held you the way a boat holds water.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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When I call
you brother,
it means you have
at least four fists
during any fight
you can't walk
yourself out of.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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I don't know much,
but I do know this:
Heaven is full of music,
and God listens to my heartbeat
on his iPod. It reminds him
that we still got work to do.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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So I've never caught a live grenade
with my bare hands.
So I don't know exactly how it feels,
but I imagine it's a lot like getting a text
that says, "Hey we really need to talk.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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In one of my earliest memories,
I am eight years old,
I have a fistful of afternoon,
and I am asking the summer
if it will always be this glorious.
I remember taking a deep breath.
Trying to get as much July into my lungs
as humanly possible and thinking maybe
I'd be able to convince it that 31 days just isn't enough.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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Tell me a story
and let's laugh like it's the only
think keeping us alive.
Play a song
and give the stereo
permission to use its
outside voice.
Let's sing loudly,
offbeat and out of tune.
Let the world know
we don't care how it sounds
because the only key we need
is already in the ignition.
Let the sky turn the windshield
into a stage. Watch it dance like he scenery
is auditioning to be part of our story.
Let's just go.
Drive until our troubles
phantom in the rearview mirror
and we forget the exist,
at least
for a moment.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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To the man standing on the corner holding the sign that said
βGod hates gays.β
Iβve never seen,
exactly
who it is that you paperclip your knees,
meld your hands together and pray to
But I think I know what he looks like:
I bet your God is about 5β10β.
I bet he weighs 185.
Probably stands the way a high school diploma does when itβs next to a GED.
I bet your god has a mullet.
I bet he wears flannel shirts with no sleeves,
a fanny pack
and says words like βgetrdun.β
I bet your godβI bet your godβI bet your god watches FOX news,
Dog the Bounty Hunter, voted for John McCain, and loves Bill OβReilly.
I bet your god lives in Arizona.
I bet his high school served racism in the cafeteria
and offered βhate speechβ as a second language.
I bet he has a swastika inside of his throat,
and racial slurs tattooed to his tongue
just to make intolerance more comfortable in his mouth.
I bet he has a burning cross as a middle finger and Jim Crow underneath his nails.
Your god is a confederate flags wet dream
conceived on a day when the sky decided to slice her own wrists,
I bet your god has a drinking problem.
I bet he sees the bottom of the shot glass more often than his own children.
I bet he pours whiskey on his dreams until they taste like good ideas,
Probably cusses like an electric guitar with Touretteβs plugged into an ocean.
I bet he yells like a schizophrenic nail gun,
damaging all things that care about him enough to get close.
I bet there are angels in Heaven with black eyes and broken halos
who claimed they fell down the stairs.
I bet your god wouldβve made Eve without a mouth
and taught her how to spread her legs like a magazine
that she will never ever ever be pretty enough to be in.
Sooner or later you will realize that you are praying to your own shadow,
that you are standing in front of mirrors and are worshipping your own reflection.
Your God stole my godβs identity and I bet heβs buying pieces of heaven on eBay.
So next time you bend your knees,
next time you bow your head
I want you to
tell your godβ
that my god
is looking for him.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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I was 18 wen I started driving
I was 18 the first time I was pulled over.
It was 2 AM on a Saturday
The officer spilled his lights all over my rearview mirror,
he splashed out of the car with his hand already on his weapon,
and looked at me the way a tsunami looks at a beach house.
Immediately, I could tell he was the kind of man
who brings a gun to a food fight.
He called me son
and I thought to myself,
that's an interesting way of pronouncing "boy,"
He asks for my license and registration,
wants to know what I'm doing in this nieghborhood,
if the car is stolen,
if I have any drugs
and most days, I know how to grab my voice
by the handle and swing it like a hammer.
But instead,
I picked it up like a shard of glass.
Scared of what might happen if I didn't hold it carefully
because I know that this much melanin
and that uniform is a plotline to a film that
can easily end with a chalk outline baptism,
me trying to make a body bag look stylish for the camera
and becoming the newest coat in a closet full of RIP hashtags.
Once, a friend of a friend asked me
why there aren't more black people in the X Games
and I said, "You don't get it."
Being black is one of the most extreme sports in America.
We don't need to invent new ways of risking our lives
because the old ones have been working for decades.
Jim Crow may have left the nest,
but our streets are still covered with its feathers.
Being black in America is knowing there's a thin line
between a traffic stop and the cemetery,
it's the way my body tenses up
when I hear a police siren in a song,
it's the quiver in my stomach when a cop car is behind me,
it's the sigh of relief when I turn right and he doesn't.
I don't need to go volcano surfing.
Hell, I have an adrenaline rush every time an officer
drives right past without pulling me over
and I realize
I'm going to make it home safe.
This time.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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The Pressure Cooker by Stewart Stafford
We arrive at the sweltering park,
And disturb a larcenous squirrel,
Trash can raider with easy spoils,
He scampers away down the back.
Solo lady in the gazebo watches,
An outdoor Mrs. Bates silhouette,
As a tuft of angel hair rolls along,
I give the thirsty baby hydration.
Transfixed by a burst helium balloon,
Rocking itself to the unheard beats,
Arid breeze, now ceiling conductor,
Our squirrel pal returns to spy on us.
Β© Stewart Stafford, 2022. All rights reserved.
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Stewart Stafford
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It's like crawling into a cave
I always knew was there
but never explored.
I remember putting my head
into his salesman's briefcase
when I was young.
This time the bright eye
I entered pulls
away, a helium balloon.
The musty air wheezes, sighs
trapped for years in old motel rooms.
Further down the sound
turns to grey drippings
that fall on my cheeks.
Some boy has been here before.
Burned matches in a corner,
a tennis shoe, unreadable scratchings
on the walls. This is far
enough. Turning to find my way
out, I tiptoe along a narrow black stream
where white hands are rising,
sinking.
I find myself stepping
into the water: like slipping
my small feet into large dark shoes, it is
deeper than I expected. Up
to my knees, my waist,
I see the opening againβ
a circle of sky cut with a dull car key,
a blue mouth singing a melody
I know by heart
but have never heard before.
As I go
under, my arms,
thick as my father's,
reach above the surface
then return
to embrace me.
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William Meissner
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I was born and raised in California.
And here, our models and rivers
look like they're on the same diet.
Throughout the years,
I've watched both get smaller and now
I can see their ribs when they exhale.
In California,
our freeways are decorated with signs
that ask us to be careful about how
we use the water.
They hang like an eviction notice
from the environment. I wonder
how long it will take the planet
to tell us we can't live here
and the locks are changed.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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I wonder if the next generation
will know water the way I did.
The way it ruins through the fingers,
the way it wrinkles the hands,
cools the skin, the way it freezes,
flakes and kisses the ground
on the cheek.
I wonder if my grandkids will
ever throw a penny in a fountain
and hear it splash
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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Yesterday, I injured myself
and the explanation didn't make sense.
I said, "Well, I was walking..."
and that was the end of the story.
At this age,
my body is a stranger that I
keep meeting over and over again.
The words "I am" are slowly
transforming into "I used to be
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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Yesterday I tripped
over my self-esteem, landed on my pride
and it shattered like an iPhone
with a broken face. Now I can't even tell
who's trying to give me a compliment.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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Somewhere someone's uncle or father,
a man wearing sandals and khaki shorts
who says "back in my day" far too often,
is on the grill. He is watching the food
like he's afraid it'll change its mind
about being a meal and decide to run off
when no one's looking. The kids are playing
a game that they made up themselves
and changing the rules every five minutes.
Their smiles are so big, you can fit history
inside of them and still have room for right
now and the future.
The adults hate all the new music,
but still want the teenagers
to teach them the dances. The cupid Shuffle
is common ground and the wobble
is a peace treaty signed by both generations.
There are no rallies today, no blood
on this street, no hashtags here, but there is
barbecue, potato salad and greens. The only
tears you will see
is when someone lifts the foil
and all the mac and cheese is finished.
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))
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Liberty
In 1983, illusionist David Copperfield
made the Statue of Liberty disappear.
He placed a curtain in front of the monument
and when he pulled it down the 3,000-foot
statue was no longer there.
I think about how this magic trick
has become too familiar. Liberty
just vanishing without any explanations
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Rudy Francisco (Helium (Button Poetry))