β
you kill your future by mourning the past
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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nothing is louder
than overthinking
after midnight
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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I hate it
the way the heart
takes too long
to figure out what the mind
already knows
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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be good to yourself
you're the only you
you'll ever get
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
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you are the light
that most men
will never deserve
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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Loving the wrong person is self-harm
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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I hate the moments between
meeting someone and leaving
someone
thereβs this brief feeling of trust
before the paranoia that seeps in
once you begin to realize that
theyβre just like everyone else
youβve met before
different person
same bullshit
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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my most dangerous habit
is overthinking
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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I'm just a fucked-up lover
searching for someone who
will understand my scars
and never leave my side
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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you can't force someone to realize
that you're what's best for them
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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it's funny how much a person's
true colors shine
after they've gotten
what they wanted from you
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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smiling with sad eyes Iβve seen what youβve been hiding
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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talk about her mind
compliment her eyes more
she's too rare
for average compliments
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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I donβt remember the time where a smile actually meant happiness sadly, so many of my peers only smile to hide things
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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my mind whispers
to itself
all those lovers
but none of them
loved you
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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she wants a man
who doesn't want
anyone else but her
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
β
encouragement IV.
instead of teaching women how to keep a man
let's encourage them to be the greatest things to and for themselves
a woman's value is not validated by her ability to attract and or keep a man
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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you are strong, intelligent you are worth it, you are beautiful and you deserve so much more than you have allowed and accepted
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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sometimes I wish you waited for me
instead of wasting your efforts
on temporary distractions
until I arrived
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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with lightning. she is a storm a magnificent force writing her lifeβs story in lightning
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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she kept dancing. the ground beneath her shaking the foundation she stood upon began to crumble unbothered by the destruction she danced like flames at a bonfire
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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your strength is your magic never lose it
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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absence and peace. your absence taught me how to live without you time away taught me to find peace in being alone
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
emotional CPR. we try our hardest to force life
into things that must die and
thatβs what hurts the most
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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The library is therapy for those with minds like mine.
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
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Iβm just a fucked-up lover searching for someone who will understand my scars and never leave my side
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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truth of self. to be honest with myself I was never what you wanted I was just the one you settled for
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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Forgiveness
I'm still trying to forgive myself
for all the things I failed to become.
I'm still trying to make peace
with all the broken pieces of my past.
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
bargaining using sex
either way
you get screwed
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words & a Shovel I)
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14kt. woman you are a poem written in ink derived from gold
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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I was searching for peace in the middle of chaos. I was searching for a love in the midst of hate.
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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thank you for seeing
the stars within my soul
when all I saw was pain
scars and darkness
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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deadly habit. my most dangerous habit is overthinking
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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(self-love)
One day your love for yourself
will outweigh the love
that keeps you holding onto someone
who chooses to hurt you;
one day the love for yourself
will be your strength-
that love will be more than enough reason
for you to walk away for good.
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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I've always given myself in
small doses and sometimes
nothing at all
careful not to share the best
parts of myself with someone
who could turn out to be the
wrong person
protective in terms of my heart
and soul
understanding that most of the
people I meet will fall short of
my expectations
and so I've learned to expect
nothing
sometimes my emotional switch
remains off
you can't get hurt if you feel
nothing
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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no words. silence says the things we struggle to say
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
falling for someone doesnβt mean theyβll catch you loving someone doesnβt make them deserve you
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
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just because sheβs patient doesnβt mean you should make her wait
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
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silent thought.
forced to feel like
my all was less than enough
I struggle with the idea
of anyone loving me unconditionally
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words, and a Shovel I)
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I witnessed her heart shatter into
a million pieces as I struggled to
watch but even after all of that even after the tears drowned
whatever joy she had left she found the strength to pick
up the pieces and that was truly
beautiful she is strong, she is you
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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the heart vs. the mind. I hate it the way the heart takes too long to figure out what the mind already knows
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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more. sheβs not easily impressed shallow compliments have no meaning it takes a bit more work to flatter her she needs more she deserves more
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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I usually become a ghost to those who no longer deserve my time
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words, and a Shovel I)
β
notes to the neglected ones II. no one taught you to love you and thatβs your biggest problem searching for validation in people who will never accept you for you being made to feel like youβre not good enough trying to prove yourself to those who will never be good enough for you
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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before any proposals.
the idea of getting married
scares me
but not in the way youβd think
my fear stems from realizing
that I am truly alone
and that Iβll have no family
in attendance
my fear is in being reminded
that I have nothing more to offer
than myself
and throughout time
that has never been enough for anyone
including my family
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words, and a Shovel I)
β
canβt be life. sadly, so many people are setting the bar really low in terms of their personal lives working a job they hate content with struggling settling for relationships that arenβt actual relationships life for so many is not living at all and thatβs the problem you get what you allow watching others live life instead of living your best life and they wonder why everyone is self-medicating suppressing their pain pretending to be happy instead of trying to cultivate a lifestyle that brings them peace
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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Drown
Overwhelmed by a sea of emotions.
Sometimes you have to drown
to learn how to swim.
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Broken but magic
There's still magic in a heart that's been broken
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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And still
Your heart is fractured but it's still valuable.
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
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Magic
One day someone will look at you with magic in their eyes because that's what you are.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
and I refuse to allow myself
to provide an emotional reaction
to those who are not worthy
of my energy
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
under stars.
meet me here
beneath the stars
near the moon
in the dark
Iβve been waiting
for someone like you
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
beneath everything
love me to the bone
beneath the nerves
beyond my mistakes
beneath my veins
and even as my heart breaks
love me entirely
or not at all
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
β
good book
a good book is something
you can reread over and over
yet it never loses its intrigue
that's the type of love I want
that's the type of love I deserve
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
β
I am, you are
I am enough
just not for you
and that's okay
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
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Comparisons
I compared her to the moon
because even in darkness
she remained beautiful.
I compared her to a sunrise
because I'd awake before her
to witness the opening of her eyes.
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
gift of the broken.
it hurts but I find myself
pretending to be fine
"Iβm okay" has become my favorite lie
and my smile is usually a mask
that hides the truth in what I feel
Iβll say nothing because
youβll think Iβm weak
Iβll say nothing and let
my silence speak
the gift and curse of the broken
being able to hide behind lies
of happiness
the gift of being strong in a moment
of weakness
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words, and a Shovel I)
β
Often pretending
Sometimes it hurts to be strong.
Sometimes it hurts
to be the one who seemingly
never needs help.
Drowning in your own emotions.
Pretending to enjoy the rain while hoping
for more sunshine.
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
it rarely gets easier the late nights under the moon restless, unable to retrieve peace slowly losing yourself so far from who you were and though it doesnβt get any easier you find yourself strengthened by the pressures of the world
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
used to it
you're so used to being hurt
that you don't know how to
allow real love in
you're so used to the heartache
that your heart anticipates being
broken
you're so damn used to the lies
that even the truth appears to be
unbelievable
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel III)
β
oh, broken soul
you're a mess.
you've been broken.
you're guarded.
you have baggage, but I'm not afraid to stand beside you.
I'm willing to help carry
whatever it is that may be dragging you down.
I'm willing to climb the wall you've built.
I love you for who you are.
even when you think your soul isn't good enough to reap the benefits of my love.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
thereβs just something about her the type of high my mind craves. She is the feeling of late night after hours on Fridays. Sheβs my good time girl whenever Iβm stressed out she she helps me cope, like an actor doing lines. Sheβs always been my Coke.
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
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encourage her to be the type of woman that sounds weak man running the other way
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β
R.H. Sin (WHISKEY WORDS & A SHOVEL II)
β
reminders.
you kill your future
by mourning the past
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
all lies.
they were all lies, she thought to herself while picking up the pieces of her own heart
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
a war with self.
it's difficult
it's been painful
it's been weighing you down
you know it's time to let go
you know you deserve more
you know he's not who he used to be
blinded by love
your emotions betray you
every time
it's the constant battle
between
what you know
and how you feel
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
just be. woman be strong be educated be opinionated be independent you will only offend the weak you will only frighten the closed-minded and you will never be appreciated by those who donβt deserve your presence and thatβs completely fine
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β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
life is too short to lose sleep
over a living nightmare
β
β
R.H. Sin (WHISKEY WORDS & A SHOVEL II)
β
and you were a nightmare
wrapped in something beautiful
a disaster presented as a gift
β
β
R.H. Sin (WHISKEY WORDS & A SHOVEL II)
β
loving someone
doesn't make them the one
β
β
R.H. Sin (WHISKEY WORDS & A SHOVEL II)
β
betrayal makes the heart fragile
handle yourself with care
β
β
R.H. Sin (WHISKEY WORDS & A SHOVEL II)
β
unhealthy relationships are dead
things
waiting to be buried
β
β
R.H. Sin (WHISKEY WORDS & A SHOVEL II)
β
I was faced
with the realization
that I never needed you
β
β
R.H. Sin (WHISKEY WORDS & A SHOVEL II)
β
I was faced
with the realization
that I never needed you
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
women are made
to appear crazy
by the very men
who drive them
to a place of insanity
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
being cold was better than the warmth
you failed to provide
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
she's full of pain
but filled with fight
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
loving you meant
that I didn't love myself
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
buried alive
under my own
expectations
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
I fear loving the wrong person
and so I choose to not
love at all
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
he moved on she stayed there waiting afraid to be alone though loneliness was all sheβd ever felt while being with him
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
one day your love for self will outweigh the love that keeps you holding on to someone who chooses to hurt you one day the love of self will be your strength that love will be more than enough reason for you to walk away for good
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
you were everything I should have avoided but I stared into your potential instead of paying attention to our reality the truth is, you were never the one and I can finally admit it
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
sadly, so many people are setting the bar really low in terms of their personal lives working a job they hate content with struggling settling for relationships that arenβt actual relationships life for so many is not living at all and thatβs the problem you get what you allow watching others live life instead of living your best life and they wonder why everyone is self-medicating suppressing their pain pretending to be happy instead of trying to cultivate a lifestyle that brings them peace
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
insanity driven. women are made to appear crazy by the very men who drive them to a place of insanity
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
t.b.h. sometimes I wish you waited for me instead of wasting your efforts on temporary distractions until I arrived
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel I)
β
Silence, my friend
I've been hurting and I can't find the words to explain what I truly feel.
And if I could, I don't believe you'd be able to comprehend the words within my soul.
This is why I say nothing.
As if silence is my only friend.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
after 3.
it's after 3 a.m.
and I can't sleep.
my mind won't quiet down,
and my soul can't help but wander.
lying here, still appearing peaceful.
But there's chaos deep within me.
Struggling to close my eyes.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
my scars
these scars
remind me that I survived
everything meant to
destroy me
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Sleep
You know what's painful
sleep is no longer a means of rest.
It's something most of us do in
order to forget the things that tear us up emotionally.
Something that most fail to achieve.
Lying there wide awake,
drowning in an ocean of their own thoughts.
We're all the same.
We're all seeking relief.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Release
Sometimes crying means
letting go.
Sometimes the only way to empty yourself of a person is to shed tears.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Strength
Truth is
you're not okay,
but you will be.
You'll hold on, but you'll let go.
It'll be difficult, but you'll do it.
You're feeling weak, but be strong.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Painful truth
I've come to realize that those who smile the most usually shed the most tears in secret.
And those who laugh the hardest are usually the ones who cry the loudest.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Interlude for the survivor
the pain means you're alive.
the scars mean you've survived.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Too much
Too tired to sleep.
Too tired to start over.
Too depressed to say a word.
I've been there.
It gets better.
Just give it time.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Heavy heart
Every day
a war zone.
You're constantly fighting
for your own sanity
in search of your own peace.
Smiling instead of crying.
Laughing instead of breaking down.
You deserve a break.
This night is yours.
Tonight your heavy heart
deserves the light.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
Avoidance
You are rare.
I mean, there's something inside you that can't be found elsewhere.
Avoid anyone who treats you like you're ordinary.
Avoid anyone incapable of seeing what you've always seen in yourself.
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey Words & a Shovel II)
β
put your phone down.
social media
has made us less social
we observe the lives of others
instead of living out our own
dreaming instead of doing
liking what we see
while hating what we do
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words, and a Shovel I)
β
connections.
connect with someone
who makes time
to connect with you
β
β
R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words, and a Shovel I)
β
midnight noise.
nothing is louder
than overthinking
after midnight
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R.H. Sin (Whiskey, Words, and a Shovel I)