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sometimes bad things happen to make good things happen.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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People think they have to say something, and it never makes me feel better.” “I know. I’ve decided language isn’t as advanced as we think it is. We’re still apes trying to express our thoughts with grunts while most of what we want to communicate stays locked in our brains.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Art is supposed to represent how you see the world, not exactly copy it.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Nothing like stars to show us our little arguments are meaningless.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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The horrific crush of humanity on my soul. Haven’t you ever felt it?” “I think I have—in Walmart.” “Yes! That place is the worst!
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Why do men often call smart women devious?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I’m sick. I can’t just ‘recover and move on.’” “If you believe that, you won’t.” “Like most people who’ve never experienced it, your view of depression is optimistically misguided.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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survivors can live and love more fully than people who haven’t stared death in the face.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Gabe started to live as Ursa did, in an infinite present disconnected from the past or future.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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If she’d learned one thing in the last two years, it was that life could be hard enough without adding petty resentments.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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As always, words fail when you most want to say the right thing.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Remember that feeling you described—the ‘horrific crush of humanity’ on your soul—maybe that’s another way of saying you’re afraid people will hurt you if you let them get close.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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the flower whisperer who made everyone and everything around her bloom. Her light is still with us, growing love across the universe.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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We’re at the creek catching fish with a holey net. Understandably, this may take some time. Come join us if you enjoy frustration.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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She’s kind of like a baby. She didn’t know she was supposed to grow up, and that makes her more fun than other grown-up people.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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PLEASE DON’T LITTER. SPAY AND NEUTER YOUR CRITTER!
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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When I knew my mother would be dead in a few months, I had two choices . . .” She looked at him. “I could distance myself from the pain or get closer to it. Maybe because I’d lost my dad without getting a chance to tell him what he meant to me, I decided to get closer. I got so close, her pain and fear became my own. We shared everything and loved each other like we never had when death was some distant thing. In the end, part of me died with her. I’m not recovered from it even now, but I made the conscious choice to enter the darkness with her. Everyone I know who’s lost someone they love has voiced regrets—they wish they’d done this or that or loved them more. I have no regrets. None.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Lots of crazy people are smart.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Dealing with the pain was a day-by-day ordeal.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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there was a big amazing world beyond the borders of my sad little country—
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Why won’t you believe I’m from the stars?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Like most people who’ve never experienced it, your view of depression is optimistically misguided.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I’ve decided language isn’t as advanced as we think it is. We’re still apes trying to express our thoughts with grunts while most of what we want to communicate stays locked in our brains.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Jo had absorbed many of her parents’ philosophies, and one of them was the belief that children deserved to be told the truth as much as possible.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Art was a form of self-soothing for Ursa. When she wanted something or missed someone, she would often draw whatever it was to satisfy her need.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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You don’t have to say anything.” He sat back in his chair. “I won’t. As always, words fail when you most want to say the right thing.” “People think they have to say something, and it never makes me feel better.” “I know. I’ve decided language isn’t as advanced as we think it is. We’re still apes trying to express our thoughts with grunts while most of what we want to communicate stays locked in our brains.” “This from the son of a literature professor?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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The horrific crush of humanity on my soul. Haven’t you ever felt it?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I’m from another planet. My people can make good things happen.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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You don’t have to say anything.”
He sat back in his chair.
“I won’t. As always, words fail when you most
want to say the right thing.”
“People think they have to say something, and it never makes me feel better.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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He brought leftover cauliflower in cheese sauce for dinner.
“Not yuckyflower!” Ursa said. “Jo made me eat it last night!”
“This has gooey cheese on it,” he said, “and gooey cheese makes anything, even dirt, taste delicious.”
“Can I eat dirt instead?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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but I made the conscious choice to enter the darkness with her.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Ursa couldn’t take her eyes off the tiny birds. “This is a miracle! This is it, the first miracle!
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Anyway, your face has a lot of your mother in it. Your eyes are like hers.” “I know. I tried to grow the beard over them, but it wouldn’t take.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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When Ursa walked away she’d said, I’m going where you want me to go.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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What we have doesn't happen every day. I am afraid it will never happen again in my life.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Kids are smarter than we think. They know how to survive the shit that’s dealt them better than some welfare worker who never spent a day in one of those kids’ shoes.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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What was Ursa doing?” “She was watching TV in the living room. There was a movie on—that one where the twins meet at camp.” “Parent Trap.” “Ursa liked that movie.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I've decided language isn't as advanced as we think it is. We're still apes trying to express our thoughts with grunts while most of what we want to communicate stays locked in our brain
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Of course, later, they decided my problem was mental illness.” “You say that like you don’t believe it anymore.” “I feel so much better with you. Is that temporary, do you think?” “I can’t say.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Their jeans and T-shirts blended in, but Jo’s AMERICAN ORNITHOLOGICAL SOCIETY shirt certainly outed her.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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The forest around Kinney Cottage was glorious, every leaf and bough sparkling with raindrop jewels of golden sun.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I wonder if I’d get arrested for indecent exposure if a forest ranger happened by,” Jo said. “Is it indecent when you don’t have anything to expose?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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She looked at her phone. 2:17 a.m. Just a few hours into her mother’s birthday. She would have been fifty-one.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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We look like starlight. It’s not exactly a body.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Such was life with a double dose of analytical genes.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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The horrific crush of humanity on my soul.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Literary Agency. I thank her for her commitment to getting it published, and also for her early pruning of my convoluted backstories.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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But it’s not just that they can forgo society, it’s more like they need to. For people like that, the natural world is vital, a spiritual experience
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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but sometimes bad things happen to make good things happen.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Jo loved it. They were already like old friends, playing off each other’s humor.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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His eyes, the only feature that stood out in his heavily bearded face, were as sharp as shattered blue glass.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Why not? We can't see gravity, and it has a strong effect on us.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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The horrific crush of humanity on my soul. Haven’t you ever felt it?” “I think I have—in Walmart.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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When Ursa put away the butter, she surveyed the beer cooling in the refrigerator. “Are the ornithologists alcoholics?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I’m a Shakespeare reader who sells eggs on the road—which amounts to about the same.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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The stuttering beat in her chest returned. Was it hormonal, something to do with the surgeries? Why did a man coming on to her—a kindhearted, good-looking one, at that—make her body react like she was confronting a pissed-off grizzly?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I’m not recovered from it even now, but I made the conscious choice to enter the darkness with her. Everyone I know who’s lost someone they love has voiced regrets—they wish they’d done this or that or loved them more. I have no regrets. None.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Are you going to finish you lunch?” the nurse asked Ulsa.
“I don’t like it.”
“You asked for macaroni and cheese.”
“You have to make it from the blue box,” Ursa said, “and the shapes make it taste better.”
“Try Star Wars shapes next time,” Jo told the nurse.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Maybe it has something to do with how they can turn their backs on the comforts of society for long periods of time. But it’s not just that they can forgo society, it’s more like they need to. For people like that, the natural world is vital, a spiritual experience.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Why do you hate him so much now that you know the whole story? George and your mother obviously stayed with people they didn't love to make their partners happy. Maybe they realized they shouldn't have done that, but by then, they had children who would be hurt by a divorce.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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But take me out of my realm and kaplooey.” “Is that why you hate the grocery store?” He nodded. “If the line is long, sometimes I have to leave.” “Why?” “The horrific crush of humanity on my soul. Haven’t you ever felt it?” “I think I have—in Walmart.” “Yes! That place is the worst!
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I’d known, I’d have been here in a heartbeat.” He folded his long body into the chair in front of hers. “Is your brother here?” “I talked to him last night. He wanted to come, but I told him I was perfectly fine and I’d be pissed if he came.” “Perfectly fine?” Shaw said, looking at her propped
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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As always, words fail when you most want to say the right thing.” “People think they have to say something, and it never makes me feel better.” “I know. I’ve decided language isn’t as advanced as we think it is. We’re still apes trying to express our thoughts with grunts while most of what we want to communicate stays locked in our brains.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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When You're Not Here and When You Are"
Waking early, alone,
I crave the ripening hay in your field,
the smell of weeds tangled in brine, and along
the inland road, honeysuckle, sharp as juice
sucked from raw crabs by the cove.
Oh, the fine wet inside of your flowers
in your field after rain. The acrostic
of sifting earth with moist fingers, separating
essence from essence, a pebble
rolling in soil. I could lie around all day
wanting the brush of your lips. Between your lips,
the dark field meets a night sky. I am inside
each ragged breath and the pause between. Your legs—
a bridge to the twilight where, overhead,
stars pulse. On such cold nights
you take me as if I were spice in your coffee,
stir me, your beautiful strong arms,
your unbearable aching. I rely on the warmth of your voice
to illuminate the dark. Like a forest
that parts and cinches a road.
A clasp undone. The cat purrs.
A rustling as the leaves stir.
In the yielding light,
a pale sky warms. There.
The grassy rise is splashed with rain.
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Carole Glasser Langille (Late in a Slow Time)
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It is the story of God.” God’s real name is Charlie, he told us. He was born in York, Pennsylvania, in 1776, in the summer of the signing, when temperatures were high as rockets and humid as seas. Charlie was the son of a poor miller, a mean man with a gammy leg and a spray of powder burns over his right temple from the war. When Charlie was just becoming something more than a boy, he went out into the creaking, old-growth forest to collect firewood. He came upon a stream that fell away, suddenly, into the earth. Charlie wanted to see where the water went. He leaned down and peered in. A spark. An alien pulse of light. He stared, transfixed, as every star, every galaxy in the universe flicked across his vision. The rings of Jupiter. The broken, sunburned back of Mars. Sights no human had ever captured with their eyes. And, just as suddenly, the feeling of every cell of every living organism hovering just beneath his fingertips, like piano keys. He could touch each one, if he wanted. He could control them. There are some who insist Charlie was simply lucky. That anyone who happened to walk by that stream on that morning, curious enough to lean over the odd water gushing into the ground, would be made God. They are wrong. Charlie was God before he was even born. It was only a matter of him finding out. Charlie lives in every generation. When he dies, he is reborn nine months later, a baby God. At any moment, you might meet him. He has been a Confederate soldier. He has been a bank teller. He has sat behind an oak desk in wire-rimmed glasses and a day’s growth of beard graying his cheeks. He has cooked dinner for his mother. He has driven to the ocean. He has fallen in love.
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Stephanie Oakes (The Sacred Lies of Minnow Bly)
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When I knew my mother would be dead in a few months, I had two choices . . .” She looked at him. “I could distance myself from the pain or get closer to it. Maybe because I’d lost my dad without getting a chance to tell him what he meant to me, I decided to get closer. I got so close, her pain and fear became my own. We shared everything and loved each other like we never had when death was some distant thing. In the end, part of me died with her. I’m not recovered from it even now, but I made the conscious choice to enter the darkness with her. Everyone I know who’s lost someone they love has voiced regrets—they wish they’d done this or that or loved them more. I have no regrets. None.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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You don’t have to say anything.” He sat back in his chair. “I won’t. As always, words fail when you most want to say the right thing.” “People think they have to say something, and it never makes me feel better.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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She said survivors can live and love more fully than people who haven’t stared
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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I knew a woman who made love in a graveyard had to be an incredible romantic.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Tabby hugged her. “I’ll stick to weather and politics. But, wait . . . is he liberal or conservative?” “You know, I’m not sure.” “What? That’s the first thing I have to know!” “It hasn’t come up,” Jo said.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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You see, that’s the problem with people now. They glimpse a little color in their gray fast-food world and they panic. Places like this are too real for them. But this is the kind of place where the really interesting stories of humanity play out.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Pick up your water,” Tabby said. “Why?” “We’re doing a toast.” Jo lifted her battered blue water bottle, predictably situated next to her. “Ready?” Tabby said. “Ready,” Jo said. “Happy birthday to Eleanor Teale, the flower whisperer who made everyone and everything around her bloom. Her light is still with us, growing love across the universe.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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You’d rather live in the woods?” he said. “Of course. Or the mountains or on a lake. I want nature out my front door.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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You know . . . sick. No hair and all that.” When she didn’t respond, he twisted his neck from side to side to crack it, his standard nervous gesture. “Was I wrong . . . ?” “You were right. I didn’t want to see anyone.” If she’d learned one thing in the last two years, it was that life could be hard enough without adding petty resentments.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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No moon, clear atmosphere, your blacked-out utility light inviting burglars to your gun-less home . . .
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Most adults don’t realize kids are listening or how much they understand.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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You know what she told me? She said survivors can live and love more fully than people who haven’t stared death in the face.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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She said I had to remember there was a big amazing world beyond the borders of my sad little country—she used those exact words.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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If the line is long, sometimes I have to leave.” “Why?” “The horrific crush of humanity on my soul. Haven’t you ever felt it?
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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For people like that, the natural world is vital, a spiritual experience.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Like a child who obsessively colors within the lines, she had to regulate her every move or she might end up in the terrifying universe that lay beyond the shape she’d drawn to contain herself.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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More like he was dumped out of a car by someone who didn’t want him.” “Will you go back for him?” “No.” “You’re mean.” “Yep.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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She made me do lots of weird things when my mother was dying. She said I had to remember there was a big amazing world beyond the borders of my sad little country—she used those exact words.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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In the end, part of me died with her. I’m not recovered from it even now, but I made the conscious choice to enter the darkness with her. Everyone I know who’s lost someone they love has voiced regrets—they wish they’d done this or that or loved them more. I have no regrets. None.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Many people couldn’t name one beyond cardinal, and even those were often called redbirds.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Today she contemplated the living,
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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even now, but I made the conscious choice to enter the darkness with her. Everyone I know who’s lost someone they love has voiced regrets—they wish they’d done this or that or loved them more. I have no regrets. None.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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People think they have to say something, and it never makes me feel better.” “I know. I’ve decided language isn’t as advanced as we think it is.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Detective Kellen grinned. “Our wills and fates do so contrary run,” he said. “Hamlet, great line,” Gabe said.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Lots of people don’t understand mental illness.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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always, words fail when you most want to say the right thing.” “People think they have to say something, and it never makes me feel better.” “I know. I’ve decided language isn’t as advanced as we think it is. We’re still apes trying to express our thoughts with grunts while most of what we want to communicate stays locked in our brains.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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When I knew my mother would be dead in a few months, I had two choices . . .” She looked at him. “I could distance myself from the pain or get closer to it. Maybe because I’d lost my dad without getting a chance to tell him what he meant to me, I decided to get closer. I got so close, her pain and fear became my own.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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But Jo couldn’t find her, that self-possessed woman she used to be, and the discovery of her absence made her shudder like a fever had come over her. She had to hug her arms around her body to try to make it stop.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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We’re still apes trying to express our thoughts with grunts while most of what we want to communicate stays locked in our brains.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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Savoring his first relationship, Gabe started to live as Ursa did, in an infinite present disconnected from the past or future.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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If the line is long, sometimes I have to leave.” “Why?” “The horrific crush of humanity on my soul. Haven’t you ever felt it?” “I think I have—in Walmart.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)
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waif looked down at her lavender star-spangled pants.
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Glendy Vanderah (Where the Forest Meets the Stars)