“
Oh, my daughter,
at times you have to fight,
but preferably
not with your fists.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Mother says,
People share
when they know they have escaped hunger.
Shouldn't people share
because there is hunger?
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
This year I hope
I truly learn
to fly-kick
not to kick anyone
so much as
to fly.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Whoever invented English
should have learned
to spell.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Would be simpler
if English
and life
were logical
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
People living on others' goodwill cannot afford political opinions.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Mother tells me,
They tease you
because they adore you.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
How can we scramble away like rats, without honor, without dignity, when everyone must help rebuild the country?
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Mother warns
how we act today
foretells the whole year
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Paperwork, paperwork with a woman who pats my head while shaking her own. I step back, hating pity, having learned from Mother that the pity giver feels better, never the pity receiver.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Why no s for two deer,
but an s for two monkeys?
Brother Quang says
no one knows.
So much for rules!
Whoever invented English should be bitten by a snake.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Our lives
will twist and twist,
intermingling the old and the new
until it doesn't matter
which is which.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Everyone knows the ship could sink, unable to hold the piles of bodies that keep crawling on like raging ants from a disrupted nest. But no one is heartless enough to say stop because what if they had been stopped before their turn?
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I step back,
hating pity,
having learned
from Mother that
the pity giver
feels better,
never the pity receiver.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I hate being told I can't do something because I'm a girl!
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
No, Mr. Johnston doesn't have a horse, nor has he ever ridden one. What kind of a cowboy is he?
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Being stubborn won't make you fluent. Practicing will! The more mistakes you make, the more you'll learn not to.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
She was promised to Father at five. They married at sixteen, earlier than expected. Everyone’s future changed upon learning the name H Chí Minh.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
No one would believe me but at times I would choose wartime in Saigon over peacetime in Alabama."-Inside Out and Back Again
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
My curse: rebellious in my head but oh-so-lovely in real life.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
I’m practicing
to be seen.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
We glide and I feel as if I'm floating.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Black seeds spill like clusters of eyes, wet and crying.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Mostly, I wish I were still smart.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Should 'sleep' be plural? No, sleep is an idea, like love, no s. So many decisions in a single simple sentence. Exhausting, this elaborate dance of words.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Butterfly Yellow)
“
I tell you of loss, my child, so you will listen, slowly, and know that in life every emotion is fated to rear itself within your being. Don't judge it proper or ugly. It's simply there and yours. When you should happen to cry, then cry, knowing that just as easily you will laugh again and cry again. Your feelings will enter the currents of your core and there they shall remain
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
Life is easy and hard, beautiful and ugly.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
I can't make my brothers
go live elsehwere,
but I can
hide their sandals.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Oh, my daughter, at times you have to fight, but preferably not with your fists.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Mostly I wish I were still smart.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Whoever invented English should have learned to spell.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Why does one human being have too much and another human being cling to life in desperation?
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
People share when they know they have escaped hunger. Shouldn’t people share because there is hunger?
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
...every language has annoyances and illogical rules, as well as sensible beauty.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Some verbs
switch all over
just because.
I am
She is
They are
He was
They were
Would be simpler
if English
and live
were logical.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
When you should happen to cry, then cry, knowing that just as easily you will laugh again and cry again. Your feelings will enter the currents of your core and there they shall remain.” I
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
I tell you of loss, my child, so you will listen, slowly, and know that in life every emotion is fated to rear itself within your being. Don’t judge it proper or ugly. It’s simply there and yours.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
MiSSS SScott
points to the numbers
along the wall.
I count up to twenty.
The class claps
on its own.
I’m furious,
unable to explain
I already learned
fractions and how to purify water.
So this is what dumb feels like. I hate, hate,
hate it.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
At first the weight of loss was thrust upon me so harshly I could only take a short breath, just enough to endure the next few seconds, only to find I must inhale again. Every person in turmoil thinks the boulder on her chest will never lift. Yet the same boulder awakens an equally strong urge to live.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
I wish
our cowboy could be persuaded
to buy a horse,
that I could be invisible
until I can talk back
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
All day
I practice
squeezing hisses
through my teeth.
Whoever invented
English
must have loved
snakes.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
The gray guilt had grown heavy, refusing to pause its relentless infusion into her joints and marrow. After all, it was her fault her brother was taken.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Butterfly Yellow)
“
People living on
others' goodwill
cannot afford
political opinion.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
all indulgent emotions have long remained on pause. She has yet to mourn her father or mother. Not until she finds her brother. She stared at her uncle and repeated Bà’s wish.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Butterfly Yellow)
“
I’m practicing to be seen.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Fate did not grant him the privilege to see our children reach adulthood or the pleasure to witness our wrinkles writing stories on our faces, but in the time we were allowed, we knew our treasures.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
We pretend
the monsoon
has come early.
In the distance
bombs
explode like thunder,
slashes
lighten the sky,
gunfire
falls like rain.
Distant
yet within ears,
within eyes.
Not that far away
after all.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I'm trying to tell
MiSSSisss WaSShington
about our ceremony for Father.
But it takes time to
match every noun and verb,
sort all the tenses,
remember all the articles,
set the tone for every s.
MiSSSisss WaSShington says
if every learner waits
to speak perfectly,
no one would learn
a new language.
Being stubborn
won't make you fluent.
Practicing will!
The more mistakes you make,
the more you'll learn not to.
They laugh.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
I need the lessons.
I’m hiding in class
by staring at my shoes.
I’m hiding during lunch
in the bathroom,
eating hard rolls
saved from dinner.
I’m hiding during outside time
in the same bathroom.
I’m hiding after school
until Brother Khôi
rides up to
our secret corner.
With Vu Lee
I squat in
weight on legs,
back straight
arms at my sides,
fingers relaxed,
eyes everywhere at once
I’m practicing to be seen.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Do not waste....Don't waste the vegetable-washing water, splash it on the grapefruit tree instead....Don't waste anything made of glass or plastic because glass and plastic can be reused ad nauseam....Don't waste...a string for retying, a rubber band for conquering dry noodles or hair, rice bags for dishcloths, fish bones for fertilizer....Anything that comes out of the earth must be returned to the earth...."If everyone uses more than their share, how can the earth support us?"
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Whoever invented English
should be bitten
by a snake.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Can I hit them?
Oh, my daughter,
at times you have to fight,
but preferably
not with your fists
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
“
I tell you of my loss, child, so you will listen, slowly, and know that in life every emotion is fated to rear itself within your being. Don't judge it proper or ugly. It's simply there and yours.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
I squatted low and sturdy then.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
They laugh. Shame on them! Challenge them to say something in Vietnamese and laugh right back
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
The Unwanted by Kien Nguyen Inside Out & Back Again by Thanhha Lai It’s a Living: Work and Life in Vietnam Today edited by Gerard Sasges Mai’s America, a documentary by Marlo Poras These
”
”
Helen Hoang (The Bride Test)
“
I also hope after you finish this book that you sit close to someone you love and implore that person to tell and tell and tell their story.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
People living on others’ goodwill cannot afford political opinions.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Father would appear in my class speaking beautiful English as he does French and Chinese and hold out his hand for mine.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I understand every word, but again what is he talking about?
The detective calls us. The guard pats my hand and smiles in a hesitant, regretful way that conveys the world doesn't make more sense just because you get older.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Listen, Slowly)
“
Mother says, People share when they know they have escaped hunger.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I’m afraid to look at MiSSSisss WaSShington. You hate me?
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I hate everyone!!!!
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Y'all have a song?'
H nods. 'Bất-tơ-phơ-lai de-lồ.'
'Butterfly yellow? You mean yellow butterfly.'
H starts to explain but pulls out her notebook. The most prepared notetaker on earth.
Bướm = butterfly, vàng = yellow.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Butterfly Yellow)
“
No one can sweep,
for why sweep away hope?
No one can splash water,
for why splash away joy?
(celebration of Tet)
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
One cannot justify war
unless each side
flaunts its own
blind conviction.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
In the distance
bombs
explode like thunder,
slashes
lighten the sky,
gunfire
falls like rain
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
South Vietnam no longer exists.
One woman tries to throw
herself overboard,
screaming that without a country
she cannot live.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Then by chance Mother learns
sponsors prefer those
whose applications say, "Christians."
Just like that
Mother amends our faith,
saying all beliefs
are pretty much the same.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
People living on
other's goodwill
cannot afford
political opinions.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
The pity giver
feels better,
never the pity receiver.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Misss Scott
shows the class
photographs
of a burned, naked girl
running, crying down a dirt road
of people climbing, screaming.
desperate to get on
the last helicopter
out of Saigon
of skeletal refugees, crammed aboard a
sinking fishing boat,
reaching up to the heavens for help
of mounds of combat boots
abandoned by soldiers
of the loosing side.
She's telling the class
Where I'm from.
She should have shown
something about
papayas and Tet.
No one would believe me
but at times
I would choose
wartime in Saigon
over
peacetime in Alabama.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I thought I would love
seeing him in pain.
But
he looks
more defeated than weak,
more helpless than scared,
like a caged puppy
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Mother says
if the price of eggs
were not the price of rice,
and the price of rice
were not the price of gasoline,
and the price of gasoline
were not the price of gold,
them of course
Brother Khoi
could continue hatching eggs.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
At this point,
Mother closes her eyes,
eyes that resemble no one else's,
sunken and deep like Westerners'
yet almond-shaped like ours.
I always wish for her eyes,
but Mother says no.
Eyes like hers can't help
by carry sadness;
even as a child
her parents were alarmed
by the weight in her eyes.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Mother wants to sell
the amethyst ring
Father brought back
from America,
where he trained
in the navy
before I was born.
She wants to buy
needles and thread,
fabric and sandals
from the camp's
black market.
I have never seen her
without this purple rock.
I can't fall asleep
unless I twist the ring
and count circles.
Brother Quang says,
NO!
What's the point of
new shirts and sandals
if you lose the last
tangible remnant of love?
I don't understand
what he said
but I agree.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Then by chance Mother learns
sponsors prefer those
whose application say "Christians."
Just like that
Mother amends our faith,
saying all beliefs
are pretty much the same.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I step back,
hating pity,
having learned
from Mother that
the pity giver
feels better,
never the pity receiver.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
Whoever invented English must have loved snakes.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)
“
I repeat, Há, and wish I knew enough English to tell her
to listen for the diacritical mark, this one directing the tone downward.
”
”
Thanhhà Lại (Inside Out & Back Again)