“
Maybe we should have this conversation in an alternate universe where Alternate Indy gives a shit what Alternate Lee wants her to wear.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
You want to marry me?”
“No. I’m gonna marry you.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Lee, you’re gonna have to get over this jealous-possessiveness thing.”
“Indy, you’re gonna have to get used to the fact that I’m the jealous-possessive type.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
How did Terrible Teddy’s face get like that?”
“Me.”
“You hit him?”
“He touched you, you said it hurt. I found him and beat the shit out of him.”
Oh… my… God.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
At the sight and realisation that I was sleeping next to a naked Liam Nightingale, I’m not embarrassed to admit, I think I had a mini-orgasm
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Jeez, we haven’t even slept together and already you don’t trust me.”
“I’ve known you all your life not to mention the fact that my idiot sister is in the next room and when you two get together it’s like Laurel and Hardy do Denver.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Fucking hell, India Savage wants hearts and flowers.”
I went up on my forearm. Hearts and flowers! As if! I was a Rock Chick!
“I do not!” I snapped.
He was grinning at me. “Yes you do.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
I had to soften him up because, for whatever reason, all the Rock Chicks had an alternate Hot Bunch guy, Indy's was Eddie. Roxie's was Vance. Jules was Luke. Ava's was Lee. Mine was Mace.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Reckoning (Rock Chick, #6))
“
At that promise, and him calling me “gorgeous”, an electric spasm went straight through my lower belly and he kissed me and that was it. I’m a slut. I don’t know what to say, even with the emotional scene, I gave in.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Okay, I’ve never done this. This is the guy’s department. What do I do? We need to get Lee’s size and we need industrial strength. Show me which ones to buy.”
Eddie looked at the display and looked at me. “You’re askin’ me to help you buy condoms for Lee?”
“Industrial strength condoms,” I reminded him.
...
“Let me get this straight,” he said and I could tell he was laughing, “you dragged Eddie to Walgreen’s to help pick out condoms for me?”
“Well, I didn’t know!”…
“Did you tell Eddie the part about long-lasting reliability?”
Oh Lord.
“Forget it,” I said.
“Indy?” he called.
“What?” I snapped, kinda pissy.
“I love you.” He still had laughter in his voice and there was something very cool about him laughing and saying I love you at the same time.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
They’re on Lee and Indy Sex Watch.”
“Come again?”
“They want to know when we’ve done it.”
Silence. I went on.
“If we don’t do it soon, they might force us to at gunpoint.”
“Christ.”
“I know. No pressure though. I told them we’re taking is slow.”
“You have to report in?”
“I kind of feel obliged.”
“How’s that?”
I didn’t want to tell him I’d recruited them both for Lee Maneuvres in the past, so I said, “Never mind.”
“If something doesn’t happen soon, it’s gonna be bad. I can’t keep focussed, all I can think of is what’s on your Victoria’s Secret credit statement.
“You need to keep focused,” I told him, “bad guys are after me.”
“Tell me about it.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Girlie, I'm front Texas. We shoot at each other to say good morning.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Lee on the other hand was not asexual. He might think of me as his little sister and could calmly sleep next to me without his nipples getting hard (or anything else getting hard for that matter) but I was pretty certain I could not do the same.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Lee has surveillance on Fortnum’s, cameras and bugs, twenty-four seven. He put it in when I was going through my drama and never took it out. The boys at the office watch for security purposes and… um, for kicks.” I stared at her.
“You’re joking,” I breathed.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
Lee nodded, his smile somehow bigger like he was trying not to laugh then his eyes moved to Hector and he said, “I tried to stop it.”
Hector looked at Lee then looked at me then he muttered, “Oh fuck.”
“It was Ally’s idea,” Lee told Hector.
“What was Ally’s idea?” Hector asked Lee.
“It was not Ally’s idea!” I cried.
“It wasn’t!” super-power-eared Ally yelled from the open back window of Lee’s Explorer. “It was Sadie’s idea. I just was offering moral support.”
“Shut up, Ally!” Indy shouted out the open passenger side window.
“I will not shut up! I’m not taking the fall for this one!” Ally shouted back.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Regret (Rock Chick, #7))
“
Once the door closed, Tod turned to me. “Girlie, he is fine. He’s fine times twelve. He’s the new definition of fine.” “I’ve been in love with him since I was five,” I told Tod. “I’m in love with him now. I want to have his children,” Tod told me.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Christ, don't go to the Haunted Houses with Ally and Indy. A few years ago, Indy went berserk and broke through the hay bales they had set up to make the haunted trail and headed into the cornfields. All the employees chased after her but since they were dressed like monsters, Indy lost her mind. They had to call the cops to settle her down."
I lost him at "cornfields".
"Cornfields?" I whispered.
"Yeah."
"They have a haunted trail through cornfields?"
"Yeah, up in Thornton. Best Haunted House in Denver. Indy and Ally go every year. Why?"
"Cornfields freak me out," I admitted.
Hank was silent.
Then, he said, "You're from Indiana. How in the fuck can cornfields freak you out?"
"Cornfields don't freak me out. Cornfields at night freak me out. Haunted cornfields at night freak me out."
"You been to many haunted cornfields?"
"Dude," I said low. "All cornfields are haunted. Trust me. I know... They whisper to you.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Redemption (Rock Chick, #3))
“
Rock'n'roll is a teenage sport, meant to be played by teenagers of all ages--they could be 15, 25 or 35. It all boils down to whether they've got the love in their hearts, that beautiful teenage spirit... -Calvin Johnson
”
”
Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground 1981-1991)
“
Then I said, “Matt’s got a big mouth.”
“They all got big mouths, girl, learn that quick. These boys talk more than a pack of women. I lost fifty bucks on you.”
I was stunned speechless again, this time it didn’t last as long.
“What?”
“See, Lee nailed Indy the first night they were together. Not nailed her nailed her but she was in his bed. Eddie, with Jet, it took a few days. Hank and Roxie, like, a day. Vance, like three, but Jules was a virgin and he had to interrupt the festivities once to go out and shoot someone.”
I was blinking rapidly and feeling kind of faint at the amount and sensitivity of information Shirleen was imparting, not to mention what it might mean to me.
“So we had a pool. Everyone threw down money on when they thought Luke would nail you. Mace won five hundred dollars.”
Ho-ly crap.
“So,” she went on. “Did he nail you nail you or did you two just sleep?”
For some reason, I answered her unbelievably nosy question. “We just slept.”
“New pool!” she shouted.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Revenge (Rock Chick, #5))
“
We need to boil water. We need clean towels,” Ava announced, following too. “She ain’t birthin’ no baby! She’s got a gunshot wound!” Indy shouted. “I know that!” Ava shouted back. “But we need a sterile environment.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Reckoning (Rock Chick, #6))
“
Girlie, you f*ck this up and I'm calling the boys in the white jackets. You let something that fine slip through your fingers, you deserve a padded room. Especially if he's good at relationship stuff. Most especially if he's serious about you. No one who looks like that and fills out a pair of jeans like that is good at relationship stuff. I don't care if he runs through seven circles of hell.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Jealousy always trumps schadenfreude! It’s a rule from the heartbreak version of ‘rock, paper, scissors.
”
”
Julie Klausner (I Don't Care About Your Band: Lessons Learned from Indie Rockers, Trust Funders, Pornographers, Felons, Faux-Sensitive Hipsters, and Other Guys I've Dated)
“
It’s funny how books can change you. You open up a book and one minute you are who you’ve always been, then you read some random passage and you become someone else.
”
”
Brian Joyce
“
I need his number,” I announced.
“What?” Roxie asked.
“Give me his cell number!” I shouted.
“Who’s got his number?”
Everyone started pulling out their phones.
“I have his number,” Indy told me.
“I don’t have his number,” Daisy said, but she was still digging through her purse as if she could help.
“I wish I had his number,” Tod put in.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Renegade (Rock Chick, #4))
“
Just a little pointer, Indy, girl to girl, if you want that week with Lee to last into two. He likes it
when you go down on him in the morning. He’s a fucking animal in bed but give him a morning BJ,
he’ll return the favor and rock your world.”
Every muscle in my body froze solid.
“What did she just say?” Stevie asked.
“She did not just say that in front of me,” Kitty Sue said.
“Holy crap,” Dolores said.
“Oh… my… gawd,” Tod said.
“You fucking bitch,” Ally said.
“This is more like it,” Tex said.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
I looked up at Lee when we stopped in front of Hector and informed him helpfully, “You might want to take your arm away. Blanca tells me Hector doesn’t like men touching me.”
“Blanca told you that?” Lee asked, his smile (and arm) still firmly in place.
“Yes. She’s known Hector, like, his whole life so I think she’s in the position to know.”
Lee nodded, his smile somehow bigger like he was trying not to laugh then his eyes moved to Hector and he said, “I tried to stop it.”
Hector looked at Lee then looked at me then he muttered, “Oh fuck.”
“It was Ally’s idea,” Lee told Hector.
“What was Ally’s idea?” Hector asked Lee.
“It was not Ally’s idea!” I cried.
“It wasn’t!” super-power-eared Ally yelled from the open back window of Lee’s Explorer. “It was Sadie’s idea. I just was offering moral support.”
“Shut up, Ally!” Indy shouted out the open passenger side window.
“I will not shut up! I’m not taking the fall for this one!” Ally shouted back.
I turned to the car, dislodging Lee’s arm and lifted both my hands and pressed down. “No one’s going to take a fall. Everyone calm down. It’s all okay. It’s rock ‘n’ roll!” I screamed.
“Righteous!” Ally screamed back.
“Rock on, sister!” Indy screamed too.
“It’s rock ‘n’ roll?” Lee asked, sounding as amused as he looked.
“You all wanna quit screamin’ at three o’clock in the mornin’ in my fuckin’ neighborhood?” Hector suggested.
Mm, well maybe we were being an eensy bit loud.
“Time for beddie by,” I announced (sounding like Ralphie), got up on tiptoe, kissed Lee’s cheek (like Ralphie and Buddy would do to me), turned and gave Indy and Ally a double devil’s horns (like Ava taught me) and shouted, “Rock on!”
They shouted back in unison, “Rock on!”
“Christ,” Hector muttered.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Regret (Rock Chick, #7))
“
Your Mom’s having a good time,” Indy noted. “You meet her?” I asked. “Yeah, she’s sweet,” Indy replied. “She’s the devil,” I said.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
Tex, you look like a serial killer in this picture!” I shouted.
“Yeah, so?” Tex answered.
I stared.
“You think people wouldn’t pay good money to have a serial killer make them coffee?” he boomed.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
There are moments in our lives that define the people we will become in the future, like a symptom before an ailment, or the catalyst before the cure.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
It was too hot for leather jackets even if you were a wannabe indie rock star in your very wildest dreams.
”
”
Sarra Manning (Unsticky)
“
Quinn spoke their language—all mystery and inside jokes, scarred souls and statement shirts. It was a beautiful moment for him—in his element and completely happy.
When they started playing, he leaned over and whispered in my ear. “See that guitar?”
I nodded.
“That’s a 1969 Martin D28. Hear me when I say if I had to choose between a beautiful girl and that guitar, I’d choose the guitar. Natch.” He took a huge gulp of water, clearly affected.
“Naturally,” I whispered. “It could be why you’re still single.
”
”
Laura Anderson Kurk (Perfect Glass)
“
would have let me break the color code for shoes at work. These were borrowed from Indy’s next door neighbor, who was Denver’s top drag queen. Luckily, he had small feet; or I liked to think that way. Not that my feet were large.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
Girl’s Night Out still on for tonight?” Kitty Sue asked me.
“Yep,” I said.
“I’ll take some of that action,” Tex said.
We all looked at him.
“It’s Girl’s Night Out, Tex,” I explained.
“So? What? Are there rules?” Tex asked.
“Yes. The rule is, it’s a night out, for girls,” I answered.
“Woman, you think I’m missin’ another bar fight or quick draw, you’re crazy. I’m comin’ out with you tonight.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
Just think of me as the shoe fairy.” Then he acted like he was bonking me on the head with an imaginary magic wand, “Make your own good memories in those shoes.” I gaped for a second, and then he winked at me. I couldn’t help it, so I smiled at him and then turned to Indy.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
[H]e asked Renee, “What does rock and roll have today that it didn’t have in the sixties?” Renee said, “Tits,” which in retrospect strikes me as not a bad one-word off-the-dome answer at all. The nineties fad for indie rock overlapped precisely with the nineties fad for feminism. The idea of a pop culture that was pro-girl, or even just not anti-girl -- that was a 1990s mainstream dream, rather than a 1980s or 2000s one, and it was real for a while. Music was not just part of it but leading the way -- hard to believe, hard even to remember. But some of us do.
”
”
Rob Sheffield (Love Is a Mix Tape: Life and Loss, One Song at a Time)
“
We’ve had the works. Indy’s kidnappings and murder. Jet’s kidnappings and rape attempt. Roxie’s kidnapping and stalking. Car bombs. Grenades. Knife fights. Female wrestling at Chinese restaurants. Mayhem at a haunted house. Gunshots at a strip club. Showdowns at society parties. Now we got a vigilante on our hands.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Renegade (Rock Chick, #4))
“
That, I suddenly understood, was the sad part: once all this had mattered so much more.
”
”
Jon Fine (Your Band Sucks: What I Saw at Indie Rock's Failed Revolution (But Can No Longer Hear))
“
Rock in general is about that emotional release,
”
”
Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
“
But girlfriend sounded stupid, considering the way he felt. No. He needed, not wanted, needed her to be his wife.
”
”
Hunter Snow (Rock Crush and Roll)
“
The price of coming from a small town is that everyone knows your story. Your book has been read, shelved, dusted, and re-read by everybody.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
Popularity is like a girl in class that you can't ignore. She give you eyes when no one looks then turns to her friends and laughs some more.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
Character isn't something you talk about; it's something you show through your actions-through your every day habits.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
Society gets by from the help of its citizens.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
I guess what's most important is that we chose to live with our hearts open and to let our experiences show us the way towards our brightest days.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
You okay?” I asked Rosie and Rosie gave me an “are you nuts, that lunatic just tied me up with duct tape” look.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
I looked at the hit man who was watching us closely and told him, “Don’t think in the crazy-ass soap opera that is my life that I’ve forgotten about you. Or you,” I said to Rosie.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick (Rock Chick, #1))
“
You know-portraits are odd things." "How do you figure?" I asked. "Well at the time, that portrait told the whole story. It told the truth. We were a family-a happy family. Now that same portrait just looks like a lie.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
You like him,” Indy said. She wasn’t looking at me like she wanted to strangle me anymore, which I took as a good sign. “Well…” I replied. “Yeah.” Liked him, no. Loved him and wanted to have his babies, um, shit yeah. Indy
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
Tyler’s chest tightened and her heart pounded through her sweater. Pull yourself together. It was just a peck on the lips, remember. She held her palm against her eye to stop it from twitching, a tell that she was freaking out.
”
”
Hunter Snow (Rock Crush and Roll)
“
Eventually, that feeling fades, but there is always the memory of those days. When you’re young, everything is butterflies. What I mean is—it’s all new. I guess he was telling you to still believe, to hold on to your butterflies.
”
”
Brian Joyce
“
I guess it was only fitting that to them PUNK was a four letter word. However, to people like Dylan and I-punk was our hearts-our souls. We grew up with a lot of uncertainties. To be a teenager isn't always pretty, and our music reflected that.
”
”
Brian Joyce (The B-Side Diaries)
“
Now, isn’t that neat.” Midwestern sarcasm, when it’s done correctly, can be a thing of rare beauty. It’s like performance art. Everywhere else in the world, you can identify sarcasm if you’re paying attention. Even if the hostility isn’t overt, you can read the signs. There’ll be slightly elongated syllables or a pitch that’s just a little off. It’s like a trombone player with a plunger head. There’s that slight “wah-wah” tone-bending to let you know not to take this too seriously. Midwestern sarcasm plays it straight and makes you listen more closely. You have to treat every conversation like a safecracker. Unless your ears have been trained to recognize it, you’ll miss the hint of a minor key. Sometimes you don’t realize what’s happened until hours later, when it’s 3:00 a.m. and you’re half-asleep, and it suddenly hits you. “Aw, crap, they didn’t mean any of that, did they?” Midwestern sarcasm becomes even more deadly when it’s combined with small-town isolationism. These women had been cheerleaders at our high school, they weren’t indie rock aficionados, and Wilco isn’t exactly a household name. So on the one hand, it wasn’t surprising that they hadn’t followed every turn in my career. It’s shocking that they even remembered I played music at all.
”
”
Jeff Tweedy (Let's Go (So We Can Get Back): A Memoir of Recording and Discording with Wilco, Etc.)
“
I felt like no one was really looking out for me, that I was marginal and incidental. I compensated by being spongelike, impressionable, and available to whatever and whoever provided the most comfort, the most sense of belonging. I was learning two sets of skills simultaneously: adaptation - linguistic and aesthetic - in order to fit in, but also, how to survive on my own.
”
”
Carrie Brownstein (Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl)
“
Boon and Watt had the bad—or perhaps good—fortune to come of age during one of rock’s most abject periods. “That Seventies stuff, the Journey, Boston, Foreigner stuff, it was lame,” Watt says. “If it weren’t for those type of bands we never would have had the nerve to be a band. But I guess you need bad things to make good things. It’s like with farming—if you want to grow a good crop, you need a lot of manure.
”
”
Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
“
I’d forgotten about them until this very moment, pushed out of my memory from years of dating boys in indie rock bands, boys who scoffed at my love of PJ Harvey, boys who saw my copy of Jagged Little Pill and asked why the fuck was I listening to her, boys who would’ve most certainly ridiculed my love of a cappella. And if they didn’t like my music, they wouldn’t like me, right? Right? If there are any young women reading this and those above sentences sound familiar, if you’re hiding parts of yourself to look cool or make someone love you, please repeat after me: fuck that noise. You are perfect. You matter. Hold on to what you love, the songs and books and style and obsessions and causes and questions that make you you. Find people who love these things, too. When you get lost, they’ll help you find your way back to yourself.
”
”
Megan Stielstra (The Wrong Way to Save Your Life: Essays)
“
I am not great in a crowd. I don’t see a lot of rock shows because sometimes I am afraid I won’t get out. I used to squeeze my little self into the scrum and jump around and cause tiny trouble. Now I just want to sit down and have someone perform my five favorite songs while I eat a light dinner and receive a simultaneous pedicure. Is there some kind of awesome indie/alt/hip-hop/electronica music tour that can do that?
”
”
Amy Poehler (Yes Please)
“
Okay, let me get this straight.” Annette stood in the doorway staring at us. “First, you al meet Roxie, now that’s after Indy got kidnapped a couple times, shot at and car bombs were exploding. And after Jet got shot at, kidnapped a couple of times and almost raped. Then came Roxie and I was around when Roxie was assaulted at a haunted house and held hostage at a society party after, of course, she got kidnapped. I leave and new girl Jules starts a vigilante war against drug dealers and ends up in ICU
with two bul et holes in her. Then new, new girl Ava survives a drive-by, gets kidnapped repeatedly and ends up on a wild ride, exiting a wrecked car right before it explodes.
Now all of you are getting shot at… at the same time?
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Reckoning (Rock Chick, #6))
“
There was balance, harsh and violent like the noxious air in a swamp. But balance, nonetheless. Then somewhere in the fickle mists of creation came humanity, clawing and afraid, grasping and ambitious. Enveloped in a dangerous world, these creatures lived as scavengers; afraid of the greater things of the world. They were beset by disease, lack of claws or fangs, and the lack of habitat to call their own. Lefeyhdie had not provided any particular prey or plant for them to eat. These fleshy, naked beings were doomed to die of attrition. Curiously, these beings never stopped Doing, or Thinking. Breeding to strengthen their numbers. Sharpening rocks, shaping wood, gathering leaves and sticks for clothing and shelter. Eventually they had settlements of great number, crude but effective tools of war. Ancient forces began to pay attention to the growing incursion, plaguing them, slaying stragglers at night. But still the humans held on to the edge of the precipice, knuckles white with effort'.
”
”
T.P. Grish (Steel, Magick and Faith (The Remus Rothwyn Chronicles, #1))
“
No way, Loopy Loo. You aren’t hoardin’ all the action.” He turned to Indy, “You’re drivin’ because we can all fit in your silly-ass car. When we see a break in the coffee action, I’ll go home and get my shotgun.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
Don’t worry, Jet. Just as long as we don’t get into any situations that require grenades, we’ll be fine.” Indy said this like she wasn’t joking.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
Uh-oh,” Indy, Ally and I said in unison.
”
”
Kristen Ashley (Rock Chick Rescue (Rock Chick, #2))
“
And I had other problems with Orestes, because he bought a dog.
”
”
Jon Fine (Your Band Sucks: What I Saw at Indie Rock's Failed Revolution (But Can No Longer Hear))
“
When Aeden told us his band was one of the opening acts for Palaye Royale, an up-and-coming fashion-art rock band out of Las Vegas, and asked if we wanted to “come oot and get ratarsed” I thought Poppy would beg off. Poppy might be cool, but I taxed my vivid imagination trying to envision Miss President of the Swifties getting ratarsed—drunk—at an indie rock concert.
”
”
Leah Marie Brown (Finding It (It Girls, #2))
“
I don’t see a lot of rock shows because sometimes I am afraid I won’t get out. I used to squeeze my little self into the scrum and jump around and cause tiny trouble. Now I just want to sit down and have someone perform my five favorite songs while I eat a light dinner and receive a simultaneous pedicure. Is there some kind of awesome indie/alt/hip-hop/electronica music tour that can do that?
”
”
Amy Poehler (Yes Please)
“
Although Mission of Burma and some of the other great Boston bands at the time were truly world class, the indie rock scene in Boston was pretty small and generally unknown to the populace at large,” says Kates. “In a city where money and education and insurance and things like that dominate the workforce, what we did wasn’t understood by the average person.
”
”
Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
“
At that moment, I knew what my next step needed to be. I admitted that I was indeed not well. Not physically, not emotionally, not mentally. I needed to find my way. I could not continue living in that spiral of darkness. I had already hit rock bottom. Now there was only one way left to go—up!
”
”
Émilie Macas (The Naked Truth of a Healer: The Path to My Authentic Self)
“
In November of 1997, the New Jersey–based independent radio station WFMU broadcast a live forty-seven-minute interview with Ronald Thomas Clontle, the author of an upcoming book titled Rock, Rot & Rule. The book, billed as “the ultimate argument settler,” was (theoretically) a listing of almost every musical artist of the past fifty years, with each act designated as “rocking,” “rotting,” or “ruling” (with most of the research conducted in a coffeehouse in Lawrence, Kansas). The interview was, of course, a now semi-famous hoax. The book is not real and “Ronald Thomas Clontle” was actually Jon Wurster, the drummer for indie bands like Superchunk and (later) the Mountain Goats. Rock, Rot & Rule is a signature example of what’s now awkwardly classified as “late-nineties alt comedy,” performed at the highest possible level—the tone is understated, the sensibility is committed and absurd, and the unrehearsed chemistry between Wurster and the program’s host (comedian Tom Scharpling) is otherworldly. The sketch would seem like the ideal comedic offering for the insular audience of WFMU, a self-selecting group of sophisticated music obsessives from the New York metropolitan area. Yet when one relistens to the original Rock, Rot & Rule broadcast, the most salient element is not the comedy. It’s the apoplectic phone calls from random WFMU listeners. The callers do not recognize this interview as a hoax, and they’re definitely not “ironic” or “apathetic.” They display none of the savvy characteristics now associated with nineties culture. Their anger is almost innocent.
”
”
Chuck Klosterman (The Nineties: A Book)
“
Renouncing sex, drugs, and drink was renouncing the unattainable rock & roll myth, making music relevant for real people—you couldn’t pursue the rock & roll lifestyle and then get up in the morning and go to school or work.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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And the indie rock and art scenes have a lot in common: in both, talent is one thing, but otherwise it’s all about making the right connections and orchestrating one’s own creations into discernible and desirable movements.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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Into the vacuum of my disinterest, music rushed to fill the void. It cracked a fissure, splintered a vein through the already precarious and widening rift between my mother and me; it would become a chasm that threatened to swallow us whole.
Nothing was as vital as music, the only comfort for my existential dread. I spent my days downloading songs one at a time off LimeWire and getting into heated discussions on AIM about whether the Foo Fighters’ acoustic version of “Everlong” was better than the original. I pocketed my allowance and lunch money to spend exclusively on CDs from House of Records, analyzing lyrics in the liner notes, obsessing over interviews with the champions of Pacific Northwest indie rock, memorizing the rosters of labels like K Records and Kill Rock Stars, and plotting which concerts I’d attend.
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Michelle Zauner (Crying in H Mart)
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None of us ever imagined that the band was a job,” Albini continues. “The band was always a diversion. It seemed unrealistic to think that we could make a living out of it. So we didn’t even entertain those notions.” “We didn’t want to save the world,” Riley concludes. “We just wanted to play in a punk rock band.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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The most punk rock thing about J’s stuff was how much he mixed all his influences,
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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My experience of it,” says Lunsford, “was having a feeling like there are people who are destined to be rock & roll stars and those are the people that make the music. It’s a special breed that feels it in them to scale the stage and climb up to be with the gods. I didn’t feel like I was capable of that.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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the urge to rock apparently outstripped the ability to do so.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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they weren’t kids anymore—they were pushing thirty; even more important, Lunsford had become a proud papa in 1990. “I had to say, ‘What are my primary commitments?’ ” he says. “Being in a seriously touring rock & roll band is difficult to do as a parent.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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seemed that the DIY ethos that gave birth to the indie rock movement was threatening to become its undoing. Now everyone was doing it themselves—and a lot of it was mediocre. And like an oversize herd of deer, there was simply too much of it for all to thrive.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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punk rock is unique and individual and is not for everybody. So almost by definition it can’t be popular.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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For a while, there effectively was no underground. “I thought that was the end of what you might call punk rock,” says Peter Prescott, “because punk rock is unique and individual and is not for everybody. So almost by definition it can’t be popular.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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Punk rock was an idea, not a musical style.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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the old idea that a rock band can be a vital, inspiring part of a community of people looking to improve society.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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A band should only think national,” he told Boston Rock. “Selling records to a local market is a hobby, like making records for your friends. It doesn’t justify the cost and effort.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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no careerist goals whatsoever. “I don’t think any of us wanted to be rock stars,” says Miller. “That was what I thought punk had set out to do—to get rid of rock stars.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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The greatest thing about punk rock for me, as an outsider, was that the concept that you had to be allowed in was no longer valid. You could be operating in a vacuum, you could be as fucked up an individual as you cared to be, and if you did something of worth, all these external conditions were immaterial.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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Fugazi’s particularly dogmatic slant emphasized pragmatism, modesty, and fair play—not the first concepts to come to mind when discussing the indisputably punk rock Sex Pistols, for example. Far from complicating their lives, Fugazi’s conditions actually simplified things. If no club in a particular city could agree to Fugazi’s terms, the band would simply skip that town. Occasionally the band would pull up to a club and learn that their conditions had not been met. And they’d start packing the van back up. Sometimes the promoter would relent, sometimes not. If not, he or she would get a good, long look at the band van’s taillights. “The power of ‘No,’ man, that’s the biggest bat we’ve ever wielded,” says Picciotto. “If it makes you uncomfortable, just fuckin’ say no. It’s made life so much easier for us, man. I think bands are fragile, particularly our band—we’re super fragile, we’re control freaks—if things upset us, we can’t deliver…. That’s what it’s about—all this shit, just setting it up so we can go out and play without cares, man. It eliminates everything. It just slashes through all that crap.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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And the indie rock and art scenes have a lot in common: in both, talent is one thing, but otherwise it’s all about making the right connections and orchestrating one’s own creations into discernible and desirable movements. Relationships are currency,
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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With their less-than-rudimentary musicianship, Beat Happening might have been making a conceptual point, but it was also the best they could manage. The way the music harked back to sounds from throughout the rock & roll timeline said much more about the inherent characteristics of rock music than it did about the breadth of the band’s record collection
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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rock & roll was an intrinsic part of a young person’s soul, an engine of social change and not just a consumer commodity.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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Underground rock protested not just with its sound but in the way it was recorded, marketed, and distributed
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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punk rock could be anything anyone wanted it to be.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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We” was a sprawling cooperative of fanzines, underground and college radio stations, local cable access shows, mom-and-pop record stores, independent distributors and record labels, tip sheets, nightclubs and alternative venues, booking agents, bands, and fans that had been thriving for more than a decade before the mainstream took notice. Beneath the radar of the corporate behemoths, these enterprising, frankly entrepreneurial people had built an effective shadow distribution, communications, and promotion network—a cultural underground railroad. “In an age of big entertainment conglomerates/big management/big media, touring the lowest-rent rock clubs of America in an Econoline is the equivalent of fighting a ground war strategy in an age of strategic nuclear forces,
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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I mean, rock music’s got to be something that your mom would hate—if you want it to be really satisfying. We made music that moms would really hate,
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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The band readily acknowledged that they borrowed ideas rather than making up their own. “That’s all you can do today,” Turner explained. “I think you’re kinda fooling yourself as a rock band if you think you’re doing something really original.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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KNOW THE SECRET: ROCK ‘N’ ROLL IS A TEENAGE SPORT, MEANT TO BE PLAYED BY TEENAGERS OF ALL AGES—THEY COULD BE 15, 25 OR 35. IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO WHETHER THEY’VE GOT THE LOVE IN THEIR HEARTS, THAT BEAUTIFUL TEENAGE SPIRIT…
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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punk rock as an alternative,” he says, “a real attempt to change the social order of the world.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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Gordon was an artist who simply transferred her highly refined aesthetic skills to rock music, a genre that, as punk proved, required a sensibility more than chops anyway.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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punk rock doesn’t have to mean hardcore or one style of music or just singing the same lyrics,” he said. “It can mean freedom and going crazy and being personal with your art.
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Michael Azerrad (Our Band Could Be Your Life: Scenes from the American Indie Underground, 1981-1991)
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The Blasters proved to be the most prominent and popular of these acts by far. Originally a quartet, the band was bred in Downey, just down the freeway from East L.A. In their teens, brothers Phil and Dave Alvin were bitten by the blues bug; they became habitués of the L.A. club the Ash Grove, where many of the best-known folk and electric blues performers played, and they sought out the local musicians who could teach them their craft, learning firsthand from such icons as Big Joe Turner, T-Bone Walker, and Little Richard’s saxophonist Lee Allen (who would ultimately join the band in the ’80s). But the Blasters’ style was multidimensional: they could play R&B, they loved country music, and they were also dyed-in-the-wool rockabilly fans who were initially embraced by the music’s fervent L.A. cultists. Their debut album, 1980’s American Music, was recorded in a Van Nuys garage by the Milan, Italy–born rockabilly fanatic Rockin’ Ronnie Weiser, and released on his indie label Rollin’ Rock Records, which also issued LPs by such first-generation rockabilly elders as Gene Vincent, Mac Curtis, Jackie Waukeen Cochran, and Ray Campi. By virtue of Phil Alvin’s powerful, unmannered singing and Dave Alvin’s adept guitar playing and original songwriting, the Blasters swiftly rose to the top of a pack of greasy local bands that also included Levi and the Rockats (a unit fronted by English singer Levi Dexter) and the Rockabilly Rebels (who frequently backed Ray Campi). Los Lobos were early Blasters fans, and often listened to American Music in their van on the way to their own (still acoustic) gigs. Rosas says, “We loved their first record, man. We used to play the shit out of that record. Dave [Hidalgo] was the one who got a copy of it, and he put it on cassette.
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Chris Morris (Los Lobos: Dream in Blue)
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The concert was magnificent. It was the second time she saw Floor and she loved them. Psychedelic rock. Indie. Hardcore. They always started with this great classic love song they sang a capella backstage while passing around some whisky. They each took a swig as they sang. The beautiful melodies that came out of this were amazing and the audience sang along. It was always a breathtaking moment.
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Ruth Ann Oskolkoff (Zin)
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One of the many musical distinctions of my lifetime that used to seem important and now is completely forgotten is the difference between “alternative” and “indie” rock.
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Steven Hyden (Long Road: Pearl Jam and the Soundtrack of a Generation)
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See this decade, it started with a bang, and ended with an explosion.What we wrestled out of the hands of the dullest cunts on earth…got taken back and they weren’t loosing it again. Corporate disguised itself as hipster, and indie just disappeared. They were gonna do whatever they wanted, no matter what the people thought.
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Alan McGee (Creation Stories: Riots, Raves and Running A Label)