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Until we kissed the other night, it had been over a year and a half since a man had touched me. I’ve had a lot of time to fantasize about some boundaries I want to test. I’m not asking you to tie me up and hit me or anything….” I take a breath. How do I explain this? “I have to be in control all the time—of my reactions, of my emotions. It’s exhausting pretending to not be as scared as I feel. So, I just want to give up control of this. If you want me, then take over. Use me, however you want.
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