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You don't understand," gasped Eli. "No one understands."
"When no one understands, that's usually a good sign that you're wrong.
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What gives you the right to play judge and jury and executioner?
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Serena hadn't told Sydney to go home. She hadn't told her to run away. She told her to go somewhere safe. And over the course of the last week, safe had ceased to be a place for Sydney, and had become a person.
Specifically, safe had become Victor.
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I have a hacker, a half-dead dog, and a child. Itβs hardly an arsenal.
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Victor was the first to speak, and when he did, it was with an eloquence and composure perfectly befitting the situation. βHoly shit.
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We are all immortal until proven otherwise?
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Lifeβthe way it really isβis a battle not between Bad and Good, but between Bad and Worse. βJoseph Brodsky
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You arenβt some avenging angel, Eli,β he said. βYouβre not blessed, or divine, or burdened. Youβre a science experiment.
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You're the hero...," she said, finding his eyes,"...of your own story anyway.
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Everything starts with belief. With faith.
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VICTOR smiled. He was having a fabulous time killing Eli.
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You want to live,β he told his reflection. His reflection looked unconvinced.
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If he weren't currently in the back of a cop car, he would have wanted to make a thesis note.
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I hope Victor hurts him,β she said cheerfully. βA lot.β βJesus. Three days and youβre already taking after him.
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You asked me if I ever wanted to believe in something. I do. I want to believe in this. I want to believe that thereβs more.
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You remember me, and Iβll remember you, and that way we wonβt be forgotten.β βThatβs shit logic, Vic.β βItβs perfect.
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Eli screamed, and the sound made Victor feel good.
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And Ulysses stopped up his ears against the sirenβs song,β recited Victor, pulling the plugs from his own ears as Serena collapsed to the dirt lot, βfor it was death.
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Never put off till tomorrow what you can do today.β βI get the feeling thatβs not what Thomas Jefferson meant,β muttered Mitch.
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And after ten years of waiting, it was Victorβs turn, to get into Eliβs head and do some ruining.
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Someone could call themselves a hero and still walk around killing dozens.
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Victor Vale was not a fucking sidekick.
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Are you afraid yet? he would ask when the floor was slick with Eliβs blood. Are you afraid?
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You were dead," said Victor. "Now, thanks to my friend Sydney, you're a bit less dead.
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You canβt kill me today,β she called back. βIβm late for class.
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That we could be more. Hell, we could be heroes.β βWe could be dead,β said Eli. βThatβs a risk everyone takes by living.
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Be lost. Give up. give In. in the end It would be better to surrender before you begin. be lost. Be lost And then you will not care if you are ever found.
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Well, when you wonder something,β said Eli, βdoesnβt that mean part of you wants to believe in it? I think we want to prove things, in life, more than we want to disprove them. We want to believe.
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He?β asked Victor incredulously. He wasnβt in the mood for God. Not this morning. βAccording to your thesis,β he said, βan influx of adrenaline and a desire to survive gave you that talent. Not God. This isnβt divinity, Eli. Itβs science and chance.β
βMaybe to a point, but when I climbed into that water, I put myself in His handsββ
βNo,β snapped Victor. βYou put yourself in mine.
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Eli, who believed in God and had a monster inside just like Victor, but knew how to hide it better.
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This isnβt divinity, Eli. Itβs science and chance.
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It was like watching two people, one hiding in the otherβs skin.
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Said my power went against nature. Against God.β βCharming, isnβt he?
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No one is going to hurt you. Do you know why?β She shook her head, and Victor smiled. βBecause Iβll hurt them first.
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She felt like a god. She dreamed of people who could fight back. Of wills strong enough to resist her.
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SYDNEY Clarke died on a cool March day. It was just before lunch, and it was all Serenaβs fault.
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The steps to solving a problem, from elementary math to breaking out of a police station, remained the same.
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There are no good men in this game,β said Mitch. But Sydney didnβt care about good. She wasnβt sure she believed in it. βIβm not afraid of Victor.β βI know.β He sounded sad when he said it.
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THUD.
Thud.
Thud.
The shovel hit wood, and stuck.
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Yes, I killed him, Serena. He was very dead.
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Serena hated to admit how easy and addictive it was, getting her way, even when it made her miserable.
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she realized that she wasnβt a ghost, or a god. She was a monster.
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All Eli had to do was smile. All Victor had to do was lie. Both proved frighteningly effective.
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If Eli really was a hero, and Victor meant to stop him, did that make him a villain?
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I put my life into His hands.β βWell,β said Victor, earnestly, βletβs hope He gives it back.
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He wanted to see the look in Eliβs eyes when he lit them up with pain. He wanted his attention.
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You make cheating death sound so simple.β βWe do seem awfully good at it,β said Victor cheerfully. He lifted his glass. βTo never dying.β Eli lifted his. βTo being remembered.β Their glasses clinked as Eli added, βForever.
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Maybe youβre right,β said Victor. He was willing to admit that he felt different. βBut if Iβm missing something, then so are you. Life is about compromises. Or did you think because you put yourself in Godβs hands that He would make you all you were and more?β
βHe did,β growled Eli, pulling the trigger.
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Death takes something with it. What did it take from you?β Eli lifted the gun again. βMy fear.
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He wished for the first time in his life that he believed in God.
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The calm troubled him; the fact that the physical absence of pain could elicit such a mental absence of panic was at once unnerving and rather fascinating.
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The worst part of going numb was that it took away everything but this, the smothering need to hurt, to break, to kill, pouring over him like a thick blanket of syrup until he panicked and brought the physical sensations back.
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And this girl, this monster, had a dangerous, complicated gift.
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He thought it particularly foolish to endow inmates with a detailed sense of the positions of vital organs, but there you go.
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No, Sydney,β he said. βI need you to stay here.β βWhy?β she asked. βBecause you donβt think Iβm a bad person,β he said. βAnd I donβt want to prove you wrong.
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Trouble followed him like a shadow, clinging to him no matter how much good light he tried to stand in. In his hands, good things broke and bad things grew.
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If she was willing to risk her eyebrows, that was her own business.
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Victor was sinking, straight through his skin and the bed and the floor, right down into black.
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Arenβt you picturesque.β The voice was cool and warm at once. Serena clutched her books to her chest and looked down at him. βWhat were you thinking about?β she asked.
βKilling you,β he said. It was almost freeing, not being able to lie.
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Everything looked the same, and that felt wrong, like the world should have registered the events of the last few days, should have changed the way she had changed.
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Victor wished he could trade abilities with Eli. But first he wiped the blood from the counter, and poured himself another drink.
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Sydney didnβt trust stillness. She had come to believe that it was a bad thing. A wrong, unnatural, dead thing.
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It was like cooking, not baking. Baking took a sense of order. Cooking took a flare, a little art, a little luck.
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Sheβd been betrayed, shot, saved, healed, hurt, healed again, forced to resurrect two men, only to witness the reassassination of one of them.
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She went back to middle school, and tried not to touch anything dead.
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Spotted with stale blood, but with her hypothesis confirmed. Sydney Clarke could raise the dead.
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What's his power?'
'Self-righteousness,' Victor said.
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He might be mentally cut out for a desk job, but he doubted heβd fit behind most desks.
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The glorious quiet that filled the air as his broken bones healed and his torn skin closed, and he knew that God approved.
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Victor watched his friend, mesmerized by the transformation. He himself could mimic most emotions and pass them off as his, but mimicking only went so far, and he knew he could never match thisΒ β¦ fervor.
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Heβd seen enough nature specials on the common room set to know that prey had eyes on the sides of their head, were constantly on guard, but predatorsβ eyes were forward-facing, close together, unafraid.
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I see you met Eli,β said Victor. βHeβs always been a bit trigger happy.
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Look at the bright side,β said Victor. βYouβre alive.β βNightβs still young,β said Mitch under his breath as they crossed the street.
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Iβm cold,β she said. βIβm Victor,
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Victor had never been good, or sweetβheβd always had a sharp edge; Eli had been drawn to the metallic glint of itβ
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You think that if you die, and manage to come back, youβll turn into what, one of the X-Men?
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Thud. Thud. Thud.
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He begged Angie but the words were cut short by the strap and the dial turning up again and the sound in the air like cracking ice and shredding paper and static.
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He wondered about life, and people, and science, and magic, and God, and whether he believed in any of them.
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You must make time for that which matters,β he recited, βfor that which defines you: your passion, your progress, your pen. Take it up, and write your own story.
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It had been harder to make them dead again.
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it meant she was broken the way Serena was broken, the way Eli was broken. Missing pieces.
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Tell you what,β said Victor. βYou remember me, and Iβll remember you, and that way we wonβt be forgotten.
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It was the only time the heavy panic set in, panic that she would never leave, never get to go home. She would be forgotten here, wearing the same pale clothes as everyone else, blending in with the patients and the nurses and the walls, and her family would be outside in the world and she would bleed away like a memory, like a colorful shirt washed too many times.
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Who was she to judge or decide or grant or deny? Simply because she could, did that mean that she should?
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He lifted his glass. βTo never dying.β Eli lifted his. βTo being remembered.β Their glasses clinked as Eli added, βForever.
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Need could be as powerful as any emotional bond. Need could be simple, as primal as fear or pain. Need could be the foundation of allegiance.
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Easy meant dangerous. Easy led to mistakes.
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He wanted you to rob a bank to prove you were a hero?β Skepticism dripped from Victorβs voice. βAnd then what?β
βWhat the fuck does it look like, ass hat?β Barry gestured down at his body. βHe killed me! The bastard walks right up in the middle of a demonstration he told me to do, and he shoots me.
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The moments that define lives arenβt always obvious. They donβt always scream LEDGE, and nine times out of ten thereβs no rope to duck under, no line to cross, no blood pact, no official letter on fancy paper. They arenβt always protracted, heavy with meaning.
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He hadn't meant to do it. That is to say, he hadn't set out in his car with the /intent/ to kill the janitor. But he /had/ unearthed Sykes's rotation schedule, and he /had/ gotten in his car at the same time that Sykes clocked out of his once-a-week night shift, and he /had/ seen him crossing the road, and he /had/ sped up.
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