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The trauma said, ‘Don’t write these poems.
Nobody wants to hear you cry about the grief inside your bones.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
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My mouth is a fire escape.
The words coming out
don’t care that they are naked.
There is something burning in there.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
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Remind me that the most fertile lands were built by the fires of volcanoes.
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”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
The nutritionist said I should eat root vegetables.
Said if I could get down thirteen turnips a day
I would be grounded, rooted.
Said my head would not keep flying away
to where the darkness lives.
The psychic told me my heart carries too much weight.
Said for twenty dollars she’d tell me what to do.
I handed her the twenty. She said, “Stop worrying, darling.
You will find a good man soon.”
The first psycho therapist told me to spend
three hours each day sitting in a dark closet
with my eyes closed and ears plugged.
I tried it once but couldn’t stop thinking
about how gay it was to be sitting in the closet.
The yogi told me to stretch everything but the truth.
Said to focus on the out breath. Said everyone finds happiness
when they care more about what they give
than what they get.
The pharmacist said, “Lexapro, Lamicatl, Lithium, Xanax.”
The doctor said an anti-psychotic might help me
forget what the trauma said.
The trauma said, “Don’t write these poems.
Nobody wants to hear you cry
about the grief inside your bones.”
But my bones said, “Tyler Clementi jumped
from the George Washington Bridge
into the Hudson River convinced
he was entirely alone.”
My bones said, “Write the poems.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
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I wish for a heart you can see straight through, for a voice that glows in the dark, and a few really good friends to say, “That’s the way to go.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
Love
isn't always magic.
But if I offered my body to the magician,
if I told him to cut me in half
so after that I could come to you whole
and ask for you back
would you listen
for this dark alley love song?
For the winter we heated our home
from the steam off our own bodies?
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
..when a war ends, what does that look like exactly?
do the cells in the body stop detonating themselves?
does the orphanage stop screaming for its mother?
when the sand in the desert has been melted down to glass
and our reflection is not something we can stand to look at
does the white flag make for a perfect blindfold?
yesterday i was told a story
about this little girl in Iraq, six-years-old,
who cannot fall asleep
because when she does
she dreams of nothing
but the day she watched her dog
eat her neighbor's corpse.
if you told her war is over
do you think she can sleep?
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
We were the letters sent to the wrong address,
but opened anyway.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
It's turning the thunder into grace,
knowing sometimes the break in your heart
is like the hole in the flute.
Sometimes it's the place
where the music comes through.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
I like imagining your body is Saturn,
my body ten thousand rings wrapped around you.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
Listen, I know you run your mouth so your mind can rest.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
Some days my heart beats so fast
my ribcage sounds like a fucking railroad track
and my breath is a train I just can't catch.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
We have all fought for our lives
more than we know,
survived our own questions.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
It is incredible what kind of mess I can make
with a nine-hour drive and an unanswered text.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
My mouth is a fire escape.
The words coming out
don't care that they are naked.
There is something burning in here.
When it burns I hold my own shell to my ear,
listen for the parade from when I was seven,
when the man who played the bagpipes
wore a skirt.
He was from Scotland.
I wanted to move there.
Wanted my spine to be the spine
of an unpublished book,
my faith the first and last page.
The day my ribcage became monkey bars
for a girl hanging on my every word
they said, "You are not allowed to love her."
Tried to take me by the throat
to teach me, "You are not a boy."
I had to unlearn their prison speak,
refusing to make wishes on the star
on the sheriff's chest.
I started taking to the stars in the sky instead.
I said, "Tell me about the big bang."
The stars said, "It hurts to become.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
Picasso said he'd paint with his own wet tongue
on the dusty floor of a jail cell if he had to.
We have to create.
It is the only thing louder than destruction.
It's the only chance the bard are gonna break,
our hands full of color
reaching towards the sky,
a brush stroke in the dark.
It is not too late.
That starry night
is not yet dry.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
I started talking to the stars in the sky instead. I said, “Tell me about the big bang.” The stars said, “It hurts to become.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
I do not wear a welcome mat on my chest just so people can walk all over it fumbling with the keys to the locks they keep building for the doors I keep opening hoping someone will see the rainforest growing in my living room.
”
”
Andrea Gibson
“
Let me say right now for the record,
I’m still going to be here
asking this world to dance,
even if it keeps stepping on my holy feet.
You, you stay here with me, okay?
You stay here with me.
Raising your bite against the bitter dark,
your bright longing,
your brilliant fists of loss.
Friend, if the only thing we have to gain in staying is each other,
my god that is plenty
my god that is enough
my god that is so so much for the light to give
each of us at each other’s backs
whispering over and over and over,
“Live. Live. Live.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
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Tell me we'll be naming our children Beautiful and nothing else.
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
If love did not exist I would be so goddamn sane my poems would be billboards. Suburbia would be enough. I would not have to gut myself to find my spine crushed into powder and brushed on her cheekbones. My hair would not be a hummingbird’s nest. My mind would not have to move so fast to rest.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
My mother says it is totally fine
if I blow off steam
as long as I speak in an octave
my kindness can still reach.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
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This life is built almost entirely of love and losing, isn’t it?
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
If you told her the war is over do you think she'd sleep?
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
When 28,000 buildings fall do you know how many walls are no longer there?
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
I listened to the bells on the door
and stole more than enough bottles for myself
to understand that everyone's chest
is a living room wall
with awkwardly placed photographs
hiding fist-shaped holes.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
Tell me how they will no longer
have to hide beneath burkas.
How you will wrap them in lace
‘til they are all as conveniently rape-able
as women in the States.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
I like imagining your body is Saturn,
my body ten thousand rings wrapped around you.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
Next time I will know it’s normal to have a hard time breathing when you shake the dust. We make everything so complicated. Sometimes, the message in the bottle is “Don’t drink so much — there’s too much Novocaine in our wisdom teeth already.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
My grandfather went to Heaven.
I know this because he taught my mother
how to wiggle her ears.
I know this because my mother walks the same way
my grandfather did
and on the days my mother cannot get out of bed
her single comfort
is knowing she has his blood.
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
Love, you will never lose me to the wind. You are the lightning that made me fill my chest with candles. You are the thunder clapping for the poem nobody else wants to hear. You are an icicle’s tear watering a tulip on the first day of spring. You melt me alive. You kiss me deep as my roots will reach, and I want nothing more than
”
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Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
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Now my heart is a pressed flower in a tattered Bible. It is the one verse you can trust.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
A doctor once told me I feel too much. I said, “So does God. That’s why you can see the Grand Canyon from the moon.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
My mouth is a fire escape. The words coming out don’t care that they are naked. There is something burning in here.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
The nutritionist said I should eat root vegetables.
Said if I could get down thirteen turnips a day
I would be grounded, rooted.
Said my head would not keep flying away
to where the darkness lives.
The psychic told me my heart carries too much weight.
Said for twenty dollars she’d tell me what to do.
I handed her the twenty. She said, “Stop worrying, darling.
You will find a good man soon.”
The first psycho therapist told me to spend
three hours each day sitting in a dark closet
with my eyes closed and ears plugged.
I tried it once but couldn’t stop thinking
about how gay it was to be sitting in the closet.
The yogi told me to stretch everything but the truth.
Said to focus on the out breath. Said everyone finds happiness
when they care more about what they give
than what they get.
The pharmacist said, “Lexapro, Lamicatl, Lithium, Xanax.”
The doctor said an anti-psychotic might help me
forget what the trauma said.
The trauma said, “Don’t write these poems.
Nobody wants to hear you cry
about the grief inside your bones.”
But my bones said, “Tyler Clementi jumped
from the George Washington Bridge
into the Hudson River convinced
he was entirely alone.”
My bones said, “Write the poems.
”
”
Andrea Gibson (The Madness Vase)
“
... the taxonomic division of animals in a lost Chinese encyclopedia...
(a) those that belong to the emperor; (b) embalmed ones; (c) those that are trained; (d) suckling pigs; (e) mermaids; (f) fabulous ones; (g) stray dogs; (h) those that are included in this classification; (i) those that tremble as if they were mad; (j) innumerable ones; (k) those that are drawn with a very fine camel's hair brush; (l) etcetera; (m) those that have just broken the flower vase; (n) those that at a distance resemble flies.
”
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Joe Roman
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Shrieking with rage and frustration she attempted to trace the mysterious symptoms to their source, but the students told her stubbornly they were suffering “Umbridge-itis.” After putting four successive classes in detention and failing to discover their secret she was forced to give up and allow the bleeding, swooning, sweating, and vomiting students to leave her classes in droves. But not even the users of the Snackboxes could compete with that master of chaos, Peeves, who seemed to have taken Fred’s parting words deeply to heart. Cackling madly, he soared through the school, upending tables, bursting out of blackboards, and toppling statues and vases.
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J.K. Rowling (Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Harry Potter, #5))
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Peeves, who seemed to have taken Fred’s parting words deeply to heart. Cackling madly, he soared through the school, upending tables, bursting out of blackboards, toppling statues and vases; twice he shut Mrs Norris inside a suit of armour, from which she was rescued, yowling loudly, by the furious caretaker. Peeves smashed lanterns and snuffed out candles, juggled burning torches over the heads of screaming students, caused neatly stacked piles of parchment to topple into fires or out of windows; flooded the second floor when he pulled off all the taps in the bathrooms, dropped a bag of tarantulas in the middle of the Great Hall during breakfast and, whenever he fancied a break, spent hours at a time floating along after Umbridge and blowing loud raspberries every time she spoke.
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J.K. Rowling (Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Harry Potter, #5))
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I felt rippling wheat field and crows circling within me. I was a vase of sunflowers ready to spit seeds like weapons at the world. I understood how a man could be mad enough to slice off his own ear, just to get back the person he loved most in the world.
”
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Jodi Baker (Trust (Between the Lions #1))
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AMANDA: I said ridiculous ass!
ELYOT [with great dignity]: Thank you. [There is a silence. AMANDA gets up, and turns the gramophone on] You'd better turn that off, I think.
AMANDA [coldly]: Why?
ELYOT: It's very late and it will annoy the people upstairs.
AMANDA: There aren't any people upstairs. It's a photographer's studio.
ELYOT: There are people downstairs, I suppose?
AMANDA: They're away in Tunis.
ELYOT: This is no time of the year for Tunis.
[He turns the gramophone off.]
AMANDA [icily]: Turn it on again, please.
ELYOT: I'll do no such thing.
AMANDA: Very well, if you insist on being boorish and idiotic.
[She gets up and turns it on again.]
ELYOT: Turn it off. It's driving me mad.
AMANDA: You're far too temperamental. Try to control yourself.
ELYOT: Turn it off.
AMANDA: I won't. [ELYOT rushes at the gramophone. AMANDA tries to ward him off. They struggle silently for a moment, then the needle screeches across the record] There now, you've ruined the record.
[She takes it off and scrutinizes it.]
ELYOT: Good job, too.
AMANDA: Disagreeable pig.
ELYOT [suddenly stricken with remorse]: Amanda darling, Sollocks.
AMANDA [furiously]: Sollocks yourself.
[She breaks the record over his head.]
ELYOT [staggering]: You spiteful little beast.
[He slaps her face. She screams loudly and hurls herself sobbing with rage on to the sofa, with her face buried in the cushions.]
AMANDA [wailing]: Oh, oh, oh-
ELYOT: I'm sorry, I didn't mean it -- I'm sorry, darling, I swear
I didn't mean it.
AMANDA: Go away, go away, I hate you.
[ELYOT kneels on the sofa and tries to pull her round to look at him.]
ELYOT: Amanda -- listen -- listen --
AMANDA [turning suddenly, and fetching him a welt across the face]: Listen indeed; I'm sick and tired of listening to you, you damned sadistic bully.
ELYOT [with great grandeur]: Thank you. [He stalks towards the door, in stately silence. AMANDA throws a cushion at him, which misses him and knocks down a lamp and a vase on the side table. ELYOT laughs falsely] A pretty display I must say.
AMANDA [wildly]: Stop laughing like that.
ELYOT [continuing]: Very amusing indeed.
AMANDA [losing control]: Stop--stop--stop-- [She rushes at him, he grabs her hands and they sway about the room, until he manages to twist her round by the arms so that she faces him, closely, quivering with fury]--I hate you--do you hear? You're conceited, and overbearing, and utterly impossible!
ELYOT [shouting her down]: You're a vile-tempered, loose-living; wicked little beast, and I never want to see you again so long as I live.
[He flings her away from him, she staggers, and falls against a chair. They stand gasping at one another in silence for a moment.]
AMANDA [very quietly]: This is the end, do you understand? The end, finally and forever.
”
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Noël Coward (Private Lives: An Intimate Comedy in Three Acts)