Santo Quotes

No one is ever quite ready; everyone is always caught off guard. Parenthood chooses you. And you open your eyes, look at what you've got, say "Oh, my gosh," and recognize that of all the balls there ever were, this is the one you should not drop. It's not a question of choice.

Who am I? Who am I?” “You’re Jude St. Francis. You are my oldest, dearest friend. You’re the son of Harold Stein and Julia Altman. You’re the friend of Malcolm Irvine, of Jean-Baptiste Marion, of Richard Goldfarb, of Andy Contractor, of Lucien Voigt, of Citizen van Straaten, of Rhodes Arrowsmith, of Elijah Kozma, of Phaedra de los Santos, of the Henry Youngs. You’re a New Yorker. You live in SoHo. You volunteer for an arts organization; you volunteer for a food kitchen. You’re a swimmer. You’re a baker. You’re a cook. You’re a reader. You have a beautiful voice, though you never sing anymore. You’re an excellent pianist. You’re an art collector. You write me lovely messages when I’m away. You’re patient. You’re generous. You’re the best listener I know. You’re the smartest person I know, in every way. You’re the bravest person I know, in every way. You’re a lawyer. You’re the chair of the litigation department at Rosen Pritchard and Klein. You love your job; you work hard at it. You’re a mathematician. You’re a logician. You’ve tried to teach me, again and again. You were treated horribly. You came out on the other end. You were always you.” "And who are you?" "I'm Willem Ragnarsson. And I will never let you go.

Sometimes he wakes so far from himself that he can’t even remember who he is. “Where am I?” he asks, desperate, and then, “Who am I? Who am I?” And then he hears, so close to his ear that it is as if the voice is originating inside his own head, Willem’s whispered incantation. “You’re Jude St. Francis. You are my oldest, dearest friend. You’re the son of Harold Stein and Julia Altman. You’re the friend of Malcolm Irvine, of Jean-Baptiste Marion, of Richard Goldfarb, of Andy Contractor, of Lucien Voigt, of Citizen van Straaten, of Rhodes Arrowsmith, of Elijah Kozma, of Phaedra de los Santos, of the Henry Youngs. “You’re a New Yorker. You live in SoHo. You volunteer for an arts organization; you volunteer for a food kitchen. “You’re a swimmer. You’re a baker. You’re a cook. You’re a reader. You have a beautiful voice, though you never sing anymore. You’re an excellent pianist. You’re an art collector. You write me lovely messages when I’m away. You’re patient. You’re generous. You’re the best listener I know. You’re the smartest person I know, in every way. You’re the bravest person I know, in every way. “You’re a lawyer. You’re the chair of the litigation department at Rosen Pritchard and Klein. You love your job; you work hard at it. “You’re a mathematician. You’re a logician. You’ve tried to teach me, again and again. “You were treated horribly. You came out on the other end. You were always you.

It's a well-known fact. All women are clinically insane, but especially ballet dancers. Psycho. extremely psycho. Trust me.

Walkout kapag alam mong sinasaktan ka na at wala nang patutunguhan ang relasyon niyo. Walkout kapag ikaw na lang ang laban ng laban. Walkout kapag mukha ka nang tanga.

There's a kind of holiness to love, requited or not, and those people who don't receive it with gratitude are arrogant beyond saving.

I spoke, I listened, and my heart broke, which is to say that it didn't break at all but became suddenly aware of its own wholeness in such a way it hurt like hell.

Even if someone wasn't perfect or even especially good, you couldn't dismiss the love they felt. Love was always love; it had a rightness all its own, even if the person feeling the love was full of wrongness.

Jimmy Stewart is always and indisputably the best man in the world, unless Cary Grant should happen to show up.

Bakit kaya ganun? Liligawan nila tayo. Papakitaan ng magandang ugali. Yung gagawin pa tayong prinsesa ng buhay nila. Yung ipaparamdam nila sa atin na hindi nila kayang mabuhay kung wala tayo. Tapos kapag na-fall na tayo at handa na natin silang mahalin, bigla na lang mababago ang lahat. We're not princesses anymore.

You try every trick in the book to keep her. You write her letters. You drive her to work. You quote Neruda. You compose a mass e-mail disowning all your sucias. You block their e-mails. You change your phone number. You stop drinking. You stop smoking. You claim you’re a sex addict and start attending meetings. You blame your father. You blame your mother. You blame the patriarchy. You blame Santo Domingo. You find a therapist. You cancel your Facebook. You give her the passwords to all your e-mail accounts. You start taking salsa classes like you always swore you would so that the two of you could dance together. You claim that you were sick, you claim that you were weak—It was the book! It was the pressure!—and every hour like clockwork you say that you’re so so sorry. You try it all, but one day she will simply sit up in bed and say, No more, and, Ya, and you will have to move from the Harlem apartment that you two have shared. You consider not going. You consider a squat protest. In fact, you say won’t go. But in the end you do.

I can't stand lies. Probably no one can. Probably everyone is, to varying degrees, allergic to them, both spiritually and physically. Lies make me feel low and ignoble, and also itchy, like there's sand under my skin. The only thing that feels worse than hearing a lie is telling one.

Happiness isn't what happens when you whistle along, pretending bad things don't exist. . . Happiness is earned, like everything else. It's achieved.

People in love feel that way all the time, like they don't know what they've done to deserve each other.

But some things, no matter how unlikely, are just supposed to happen. You know what I mean. Some things just smack of the future and feel part of an overarching rightness.

There are people whose deaths make you ache with sadness. And then there are people whose deaths prevent the sun from rising, deaths that turn the walls black in every room you walk through, deaths that send storm clouds and a wail swirling through your head so that you can't hear music and you can't recognize your furniture or your own face in the mirror.

Necesitaba un cómplice, y eso es lo que eres tú. Un aliado en mi vida. Me salvaste, me protegiste, me ayudaste, me liberaste cuando menos sabía de qué santo colgarme.

I don’t think love is blind, true love is probably the most clear-eyed state of being there is.’ ‘Maybe you’re right. Maybe with true love, you see and you love anyway…

When in doubt, walkout!

Everything turned on the word "we", a synonym for love, the thing that saves us all.

Pienso que sólo debemos leer libros de los que muerden y pinchan. Si el libro que estamos leyendo no nos obliga a despertarnos como un puñetazo en la cara, ¿para qué molestarnos en leerlo? ¿Para que nos haga felices, como dice tu carta? Cielo santo, ¡seríamos igualmente felices si no tuviéramos ningún libro! Los libros que nos hagan felices podríamos escribirlos nosotros mismos, si no nos quedara otro remedio. Lo que necesitamos son libros que nos golpeen como una desgracia dolorosa, como la muerte de alguien a quien queríamos más que a nosotros mismos, libros que nos hagan sentirnos desterrados a los bosques más remotos, lejos de toda presencia humana, algo semejante al suicidio. Un libro debe ser el hacha que rompa el mar helado dentro de nosotros. Eso es lo que creo”.

Yes, it’s true, what I said earlier: A real life doesn’t mean geting what you want; the achievement, the privilege, too, is knowing what you love.But getting what you love? Having what you love love you back? Oh, my friend, it’s miracle: your one tiny life’s head-on collision with divinity.

I don't think love is blind, but wanting to be in love, that's probably blind.

But sometimes, a boat needs to rock; a boat needs to head straight for the heart of a storm and come out on the other side, weather beaten but with flags flying.

We talked and talked and talked. Maybe love comes in at the eyes, but not nearly as much as it comes in at the ears, at least in my experience. As we talked, lights flicked on inside my head; by the end of the night I was a planterium.

We're in the real world na hindi uso ang forever at lahat may expiration date..

After graduation, due to special circumstances and perhaps also to my character, I began to travel throughout America, and I became acquainted with all of it. Except for Haiti and Santo Domingo, I have visited, to some extent, all the other Latin American countries. Because of the circumstances in which I traveled, first as a student and later as a doctor, I came into close contact with poverty, hunger and disease; with the inability to treat a child because of lack of money; with the stupefaction provoked by the continual hunger and punishment, to the point that a father can accept the loss of a son as an unimportant accident, as occurs often in the downtrodden classes of our American homeland. And I began to realize at that time that there were things that were almost as important to me as becoming famous for making a significant contribution to medical science: I wanted to help those people.

Happiness, when it comes, is stronger than all the jerk girls in Santo Domingo combined.

Sometimes, happiness feels so fragile…So what do we do about it?...Live. Forget that it’s fragile. Live like it isn’t

What do you do when you're in love with the last man in the world you can have? You plan a life, a real life, without him.

It might interest you that just as the U.S. was ramping up its involvement in Vietnam, LBJ launched an illegal invasion of the Dominican Republic (April 28, 1965). (Santo Domingo was Iraq before Iraq was Iraq.)

Don't ask for the moon -- we have the stars!" Pardon my saying so, but fuck the fucking stars!

Los buenos recuerdos que una persona deja en la vida de otra son el mejor regalo que pueden hacernos.

In certain situations, you can't worry about how people will react. You just have to be as honest as you can and let what happens afterward happen.

¿Son conscientes las piezas del ajedrez de que todas sus acciones, todos sus triunfos y sus derrotas, nunca les han pertenecido?

Lo que escribo no es para ti, ni para mí, ni para los iniciados. Es para la niña que nadie saca a bailar, es para los hermanos que afrontan la borrachera y a quienes desdeñan los que se creen santos, profetas o poderosos".

Aquello era un verdadero milagro: Dios había sacado del infierno a un adorador del diablo y había hecho que se bautizara en el nombre del Padre, y del Hijo, y del Espíritu Santo. Realmente era un milagro. Sólo Dios podía hacer algo así.

Merda! Her lace panties had snagged on his ring, the signet ring he'd inherited from his father, Giacomo Casanova. His father had seduced hundred of women without any problems whatsoever, and he was having trouble with just one. This was the real reason he never used the Casanova name. He could never live up to his father's reputation. The old man was probably laughing in his grave. Nine circles of hell," Jack muttered. Hell?" Lara asked. "I thought I was the Holy Land." You're paradise. Unfortunately, I am stuck there." Her eyes widened. "Stuck?" Normally, I would love being stuck to your lovely bum, but it would look odd if we go sightseeing with my hand under your skirt. Especially in the basilica." She glanced down. "How can you be stuck?" My ring. It's caught in the lace. See?" He moved his hand down her hip, dragging her undies down a few inches. Okay, stop." She bit her lip, frowning, then suddenly giggled. "I can't believe this has happened." I assure you, as much as I had hoped to get your clothes off, this was not part of my original plan." She snorted. "No problem. Just rip yourself loose." Are you sure?" It will destroy you undies." She narrowed her eyes with a seductuve look. "Rip it." Very well." He jerked his hand away, but the panties came with him. He yanked his hand back and forth, but the lacy, latex material simply stretched with him. "Santo cielo, they are indestructible." Lara laughed. He continued to wage battle, but to no avail. "They could use this material to build spaceships.

Ama-me como se me perdesses amanhã

Not every story has a happy ending, but that doesn't mean it's not worth telling.

You know what I mean. That moment in a relationship in which, at the same time you discover you've been floating in air for 5 and 1/2 weeks you also discover that your feet have dropped a little closer to earth.

If you're going to rip someone off, it might as well be Audrey Hepburn.

I stand here on this spring day in the center of my life. Chaos, din, and beauty. For a moment, I am still.

El amor es, en muchas cosas, como la música: llega allí donde las palabras sobran

Santo Rita Meata Mater Ringo Jonah Tito Marlin Jack Latoya Janet Michael Dumbledora the Explorer! Santo Rita Meata Mater Ringo Jonah Tito Marlin Jack Latoya Janet Michael Dumbledora the Explorer! I've summoned you from the depths of Hell. Show yourself!" (Britain) "You kolled?" (Russia) "I wasn't calling you!" (Britain) -Britain and Russia

Lo contrario del amor no es el odio, sino la indiferencia

A vida foge-nos, escapasse-nos como água entre os dedos. Morremos a cada respiração, a cada palavra, a cada olhar, momento a momento encurta-se a distância que nos separa do nosso fim, nascemos e já estamos condenados à morte. A vida é breve, não passa de um instante fugaz de um brilho efémero nas trevas da eternidade

Judgment…is one of the ego’s tools to foster separation through comparison.

Since you left there's been a you-shaped space beside me, all the time. It never goes away.

Me gustaría que pensaras en algo: Si hoy fuera tu último día en la tierra, ¿dónde pasarías la eternidad? No hay manera de escapar del tribunal del cielo. Si rechazas al Santo, quien derramó Su sangre al morir en la cruz y sobre el cual Dios derramó Su ira contra todo pecado, tendrás que rendir cuentas en el juicio final.

I am who I am, I don't follow my friends. I am who I am, I don't follow the trends. I am who I am, I don't try to pretend. I am who I am, til the very end.

To understand that you have blown it, that you can never fix it is one of the worst feelings ever.

A real life doesn't mean getting what you want; the achievement, the privilege, too is knowing what you love.

You know what he said? He said that being away from me is less like being away from a person than being away from other people is. I don't know anyone else who would say something like that. And he was right. When we were apart, I missed him all the time, but he didn't feel faraway. He felt closer than the kids at school."... Certain people are like that, I guess. They're together no matter where they are. They just belong to each other.

Age is a number to keep track of how many years you've been on the planet, not a tool to judge people by.

When he looked up, he said, "Clare told me about Christmas." And I swear the boy's face began to shine. I recognized what I saw there: that a person's name could be infinitely precious, that just saying it could make you feel singled out for glory.

Experience builds knowledge, not age.

But every time, what brought me to my senses was my conviction that before a person dropped a new life into this world, she should probably get a real one herself.

I lean forward and pinch his nostrils closed again, press my lips to his, and blow in more air. I think about all those times he stole my breath away. Why doesn't he use it now?

She is sixteen and her skin is the darkness before the black, the plum of the day’s light, her breasts like sunsets trapped beneath her skin, but for all her youth and beauty she has a sour distrusting expression that only dissolves under the weight of immense pleasure. Her dreams are spare, lack the propulsion of a mission, her ambition is without traction. Her fiercest hope? That she will find a man. What she doesn’t yet know: the cold, the backbreaking drudgery of the factorias, the loneliness of Diaspora, that she will never again live in Santo Domingo, her own heart. What else she doesn’t know: that the man next to her would end up being her husband and the father of her two children, that after two years together he would leave her, her third and final heartbreak, and she would never love again.

All those films in which the woman doesn't get her man, those films of yearning unsatisfied, hearts unappeased. You like them; I've liked them too. But I'll tell you what: try belonging body and soul to a man who will never belong to you; see how well you like those films then. "Don't ask for the moon-we have the stars!" ... "Pardon me saying so, but fuck the fucking stars!

Clare wasn't worried anymore about their being mean to each other. She imagined that someday she'd be part of a friendship in which she and the friend thought so highly of each other and were so sure of this that they could say anything.

Magic can happen in a car, a warm, intimate magic born of being in an enclosed, particular place and, simultaneously, being nowhere, passing throu. No one leaves her troubles behind, not really, but you can believe you have. You can believe you're in an inbetween space where trouble can't find you. . . .

penitenziagite! watch out for the draco who cometh in futurum to gnaw your anima! death is super nos! pray the santo pater come to liberar nos a malo and all our sin! ha ha, you like this negromanzia de domini nostri jesu christi! et anco jois m'es dols e plazer m'es dolors...cave el diabolo! semper lying in wait for me in some angulum to snap at my heels. but salvatore is not stupidus! bonum monsasterium, and aqui refectorium and pray to dominum nostrum. and the resto is not worth merda. amen. no?

(...) pensou na impermanência da vida, na transitoriedade das coisas, na efemeridade do ser; diante dele, a existência fluía como um sopro, sempre em mutação, tudo muda a todo o instante e nada jamais volta a ser o mesmo. Não há finais felizes, reflectiu de si para si. Todos temos um sétimo selo para quebrar, um destino à nossa espera, um apocalipse no fim da linha. Por mais êxitos que somemos, por mais triunfos que alcancemos, por mais conquistas que façamos, para a última estação está-nos sempre reservada uma derrota. Se tivermos sorte e nos esforçarmos por isso, a vida até pode correr bem e ser uma incrível sucessão de momentos felizes, mas no fim, faça-se o que se fizer, tente-se o que se tentar, diga-se o que se disser, aguarda-nos sempre uma derrota, a mais final e absoluta de todas....

Instead, she sat there, smiling that small, small inscrutable smile, like Mona Lisa herself, although I must say that until that moment, I'd never found Mona Lisa's smile particularly interesting or even particularly a smile. Looking at Lake, I understood what probably everyone else already knows about the woman in that painting: we are drawn to her not because of what the smile gives us but because it gives us nothing. We are waiting to get past the smile. We are waiting--we've spent centuries waiting--for the woman to speak.

Na vida, concluiria um dia, todos têm direito a um grande amor. Uns achá-lo-iam num cruzamento perdido e com ele seguiriam até ao fim do caminho, teimosos e abnegados, até que a morte desfizesse o que a vida fizera. Outros estavam destinados a desconhecê-lo, a procurarem sem o descobrirem, a cruzarem-se numa esquina sem jamais se olharem, a ignorarem a sua perda até desaparecerem na neblina que pairava sobre o soliário trilho para onde a vida os conduzira. E havia aqueles fadados para a tragédia, os amores que se encontravam e cedo percebiam que o encontro era afinal efémero, furtivo, um mero sopro na corrente do tempo, um cruel interlúdio antes da dolorosa separação, um beijo de despedida no caminho da solidão, a alma abalada pela sombria angústia de saberem que havia um outro percurso, uma outra existência, uma passagem alternativa que lhes fora para sempre vedada. Esses eram os infelizes, os dilacerados pela revolta até serem abatidos pela resignação, os que percorrem a estrada da vida vergados pela saudade do que podia ter sido, do futuro que não existiu, do trilho que nunca percorreriam a dois. Eram esses os que estavam indelevelmente marcados pela amarga e profunda nostalgia de um amor por viver.

My life - my real life - started when a man walked into it, a handsome stranger in a perfectly cut suit, and, yes I know how that sounds.

But you're wrong. Happiness is EARNED, like everything else. It's achieved.

Whatever word you use to describe diving into the deepest part of a human. Take your pick; they're all woefully inadequate, but they're also all we have.

Writing can be a splendid headache. Fun when words spill forth like a raging river and a catastrophic, hair-pulling experience when they won't.

I think there are certain people who change the way time moves.

Soldiers in the heat of battle; death-row prisoners; explorers stranded in deserts, jungles, on mountaintops; anyone sick or lost or just tired and bewildered: we all wanted our mothers.

It's ok to feel happy, right? She hoped he'd know what she meant.

Before you can write a single sentence, you must first create an entire world to support it.

When the guy turned around, Amy began stuttering. Silently. It was a feat only Amy could manage, and only Dan could notice. And it only happened in front of boys who looked like this one. He had brown hair and caramel-colored eyes, like Dan's friend Nick Santos, who made all the sixth-grade girls turn into blithering idiots when he looked their way--in fact, would even say Watch, lean make them turn into blithering idiots, and then he'd do it. Only older. "He. Is. Hot," Nellie said under her breath. "You too?" Dan hissed.

I've always found allegories kind of comforting. When you encounter people named Liar and Abstinence, you might not be crazy about them, but you know exactly what you're getting into.

Have you met Diana?” Theo said. “Diana, this is my father, Michael Santos. The savior of Keralis Labs. He’s quite the strategist, but not what I would call a lot of fun.” Michael ignored him and offered Diana his hand. “A pleasure. Are you one of Alia’s friends from Bennett? She’s usually with that pudgy little Indian girl.” “I’m not sure who you mean,” said Diana, feeling her anger prickle. “I’ve only met her friend Nim, the brilliant designer.

-[...]-Geralt -dijo Stregobor-, cuando escuchábamos a Eltibaldo muchos de nosotros teníamos dudas. Pero decidimos escoger el mal menor. Ahora soy yo el que te pide una elección similar. -El mal es el mal, Stregobor- afirmó serio el brujo mientras se levantaba-. Menor, mayor, mediano, es igual, las proporciones son convenidas y las fronteras son borrosas. No soy un santo ermitaño, no siempre he obrado bien. Pero si tengo que elegir entre un mal y otro, prefiero no elegir en absoluto.[...]

I was there to get a Ph.D. in English literature. That's not true. I was there to read a lot of books and to discuss them with bright, insightful, book-loving people, an expectation that I pretty quickly learned was about as silly as it could be. Certainly there were other people who loved books, I'm sure there were, but whoever had notified them ahead of time that loving books was not the point, was, in fact, a hopelessly counterproductive and naive approach to the study of literature, neglected to notify me. It turned out that the point was to dissect a book like a fetal pig in biology class or to break its back with a single sentence or to bust it open like a milkweek pod and say, "See? All along it was only fluff," and then scatter it into oblivion with one tiny breath.

It was the first time! Just because there weren’t fireworks the first time doesn’t mean there will never be fireworks. We’re human; we’re adults; we teach each other; we communicate; fireworks don’t just go off, wham-bang; fireworks evolve!’ Awestruck by the utter, asinine nonsense of this metaphor, everyone is still. Into the stillness, the ample woman drops the word ‘Wrong.’ Then she says it again. ‘Wrong…I’m talking about science…Pheromones.’ The woman turns to Cornelia. ‘The chemicals in his body call out. The chemicals in your body answer. It either happens or it doesn’t.’ On top of being dumb, Cornelia is dumbfounded.

I know how syrupy this sounds, how dull, provincial, and possibly whitewashed, but what can I do? Happy childhoods happen

The examples seemed to fall into two categories: girls who used sweetness and girls who used pluck.

In my experience, people love what they love. They just do.

I think love is an imperative. It obligates you.

tratava-se de uma daquelas mulheres que não despertam uma imediata e animalesca volúpia sexual, mas uma terna e incurável paixão platónica.

His worst nightmare had become real; life was no more than a fragile breath, a fleeting instant od light in the eternal darkness of time

A Beleza é a cor de que se pinta a Verdade

I like honesty more than my ego does.

And yet every so often, the heart of America, shuddering with indignation, sends a nervous spasm through the gentle back of the Andes, and tumultuous shock waves assault the surface of the land. Three times the cuppola of proud Santo Domingo has collapsed from on high to the rhythm of broken bones and its worn walls have opened and fallen too. But the foundations they rest on are unmoved, the great blocks of the Temple of the Sun exhibit their gray stone indifferently; however colossal the disaster befalling its oppressor, not one of its huge rocks shifts from its place.

The sight made her ache. How can I not touch you? she thought hopelessly, and then she was doing it, her fingers on his wrist. He didn't jump or even look at her, just stopped writing. Neither one of them moved, nothing moved, and the whole thing lasted three or four seconds at most, but when Pen took her hand away and started to breathe again, her chest hurt, as though she had been holding her breath for a very long time.

the wilderness should be preserved for political reasons. We may need it someday not only as a refuge from excessive industrialism but also as a refuge from authoritarian government, from political oppression. Grand Canyon, Big Bend, Yellowstone, and the High Sierras may be required to function as bases for guerrilla warfare against tyranny...The value of wilderness, on the other hand, as a base for resistance to centralized domination is demonstrated by recent history. In Budapest and Santo Domingo, for example, popular revolts were easily and quickly crushed because an urbanized environment gives the advantage to the power with technological equipment. But in Cuba, Algeria, and Vietnam the revolutionaries, operating in mountain, desert, and jungle hinterlands with the active or tacit support of a thinly dispersed population, have been able to overcome or at least fight to a draw official establishment forces equipped with all of the terrible weapons of twentieth century militarism.

Embora não nos apercebamos disso, a Terra é um ser vivo constituído por biliões de seres vivos, as células, a Terra é um ser vivo constituído por biliões de seres vivos, a fauna e a flora. Por exemplo, se a temperatura mudar muito na Lua ou em Vénus, isso é indiferente para esses planetas, uma vez que estão ambos mortos, não passam de pedra e poeira. Tanto lhes faz que faça muito frio como muito calor, os planetas mortos são como esculturas de mármore. Mas as alterações térmicas não são indiferentes para a Terra, que se encontra viva e que, por isso, está constantemente a regular a sua temperatura e composição

Its hard to say what was happening inside her head. Her brain doesn't function quite like most people's to begin with and maybe, under a lot of stress, she just lost the ability to hope. Dev pondered this, hope as an ability. I guess that's what's so hard for me to get to, the no hope. To think that, of all the potential scenarios out there, there's not a single good one? It just seems like we- as human beings- know so much, but its nothing compared to what we don't know. The universe surprises us, right? That's just what it does. So how could she be so one hundred percent positive that nothing good would happen?

But I've always been a sucker for externals alone: the shape, the shine, what the surface suggests to my palm. So mechanically disinclined it's verging on criminal, I never understood the beauty of an object's workings until Linny sat my reluctant self down one day and showed me her camera. Within fifteen minutes, I had fallen hard for the whole gadgety, eyelike nature of the thing: a tiny piece of glass slowing, bending, organizing light - light - into your grandmother, the Grand Canyon, the begonia on the windowsill, the film keeping the image like a secret. Grandmother, canyon, begonia tucked neatly into the sleek black box, like bugs in a jar. My mind boggled.

La puta, la gran puta, la grandísima puta, la santurrona, la simoníaca, la inquisidora, la falsificadora, la asesina, la fea, la loca, la mala; la del Santo Oficio y el Índice de Libros Prohibidos; la de las Cruzadas y la noche de San Bartolomé; la que saqueó Constantinopla y bañó de sangre Jerusalén; la que exterminó a albigenses y a los veinte mil habitantes de Beziers; la que arrasó con las culturas indígenas de América; la que quemó a Segarelli en Parma, a Juan Hus en Constanza y a Giordano Bruno en Roma; la detractora de la ciencia, la enemiga de la verdad, la adulteradora de la Historia; la perseguidora de judíos, la encendedora de hogueras, la quemadora de herejes y brujas...

Sometimes he wakes so far from himself that he can’t even remember who he is. “Where am I?” he asks, desperate, and then, “Who am I? Who am I?” And then he hears, so close to his ear that it is as if the voice is originating inside his own head, Willem’s whispered incantation. “You’re Jude St. Francis. You are my oldest, dearest friend. You’re the son of Harold Stein and Julia Altman. You’re the friend of Malcolm Irvine, of Jean-Baptiste Marion, of Richard Goldfarb, of Andy Contractor, of Lucien Voigt, of Citizen van Straaten, of Rhodes Arrowsmith, of Elijah Kozma, of Phaedra de los Santos, of the Henry Youngs. “You’re a New Yorker. You live in SoHo. You volunteer for an arts organization; you volunteer for a food kitchen. “You’re a swimmer. You’re a baker. You’re a cook. You’re a reader. You have a beautiful voice, though you never sing anymore. You’re an excellent pianist. You’re an art collector. You write me lovely messages when I’m away. You’re patient. You’re generous. You’re the best listener I know. You’re the smartest person I know, in every way. You’re the bravest person I know, in every way. “You’re a lawyer. You’re the chair of the litigation department at Rosen Pritchard and Klein. You love your job; you work hard at it. “You’re a mathematician. You’re a logician. You’ve tried to teach me, again and again. “You were treated horribly. You came out on the other end. You were always you.” ― Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

You told her I was gay." "Yes, but see--" "And she BELIEVED you!" he asked with horror. "Yes, of course. Why would she think I'd lie about something like that?" she asked with exasperation. "Julius," Marguerite chastised gently when his father muffled a guffaw. "Sorry, darling, but he gave me such grief over wooing you that I can't help but think this is funny," Julius said, slipping his arm around Marguerite. "It isn't funny," Christian growled. "She told my lifemate I'm gay." Zanipolo gave a bark of laughter. "And she BELIEVED it." Christian scowled at the man, considering violence until Gia said, "Actually, at first I just said my cugino was gay and didn't tell her which one. She thought it must be you before I said it was Christian.." "What?" Zanipolo cried. "Why would she think that? Do I look gay?" Christian growled impatiently, and turned on Gia. "I don't see how her thinking I am gay is supposed to help." "Is it my hair that made her pick me for the gay one, do you think?" Zanipolo asked suddenly. "Maybe I should cut it." "It could be," Santo said, eyeing him consideringly. "Nah. Christian has long hair too," Raffeale pointed out.

Io mi diverto ad avere trent’anni, io me li bevo come un liquore i trent’anni: non li appassisco in una precoce vecchiaia ciclostilata su carta carbone. Ascoltami, Cernam, White, Bean, Armstrong, Gordon, Chaffee: sono stupendi i trent’anni, ed anche i trentuno, i trentadue, i trentatré, i trentaquattro, i trentacinque! Sono stupendi perché sono liberi, ribelli, fuorilegge, perchè è finita l’angoscia dell’attesa, non è incominciata la malinconia del declino, perché siamo lucidi, finalmente, a trent’anni! Se siamo religiosi, siamo religiosi convinti. Se siamo atei, siamo atei convinti. Se siamo dubbiosi, siamo dubbiosi senza vergogna. E non temiamo le beffe dei ragazzi perché anche noi siamo giovani, non temiamo i rimproveri degli adulti perchè anche noi siamo adulti. Non temiamo il peccato perché abbiamo capito che il peccato è un punto di vista, non temiamo la disubbidienza perché abbiamo scoperto che la disubbidienza è nobile. Non temiamo la punizione perché abbiamo concluso che non c’è nulla di male ad amarci se ci incontriamo, ad abbandonarci se ci perdiamo: i conti non dobbiamo più farli con la maestra di scuola e non dobbiamo ancora farli col prete dell’olio santo. Li facciamo con noi stessi e basta, col nostro dolore da grandi. Siamo un campo di grano maturo, a trent’anni, non più acerbi e non ancora secchi: la linfa scorre in noi con la pressione giusta, gonfia di vita. È viva ogni nostra gioia, è viva ogni nostra pena, si ride e si piange come non ci riuscirà mai più, si pensa e si capisce come non ci riuscirà mai più. Abbiamo raggiunto la cima della montagna e tutto è chiaro là in cima: la strada per cui siamo saliti, la strada per cui scenderemo. Un po’ ansimanti e tuttavia freschi, non succederà più di sederci nel mezzo a guardare indietro e in avanti, a meditare sulla nostra fortuna: e allora com’è che in voi non è così? Com’è che sembrate i miei padri schiacciati di paure, di tedio, di calvizie? Ma cosa v’hanno fatto, cosa vi siete fatti? A quale prezzo pagate la Luna? La Luna costa cara, lo so. Costa cara a ciascuno di noi: ma nessun prezzo vale quel campo di grano, nessun prezzo vale quella cima di monte. Se lo valesse, sarebbe inutile andar sulla Luna: tanto varrebbe restarcene qui. Svegliatevi dunque, smettetela d’essere così razionali, ubbidienti, rugosi! Smettetela di perder capelli, di intristire nella vostra uguaglianza! Stracciatela la carta carbone. Ridete, piangete, sbagliate. Prendetelo a pugni quel Burocrate che guarda il cronometro. Ve lo dico con umilità, con affetto, perché vi stimo, perché vi vedo migliori di me e vorrei che foste molto migliori di me. Molto: non così poco. O è ormai troppo tardi? O il Sistema vi ha già piegato, inghiottito? Sì, dev’esser così.

- Sim, é talvez tudo uma ilusão... E a Cidade a maior ilusão! Tão facilmente vitorioso redobrei de facúndia. Certamente, meu Príncipe, uma ilusão! E a mais amarga, porque o Homem pensa ter na Cidade a base de toda a sua grandeza e só nela tem a fonte de toda a sua miséria. (...) Na Cidade perdeu ele a força e beleza harmoniosa do corpo, e se tornou esse ser ressequido e escanifrado ou obeso e afogado em unto, de ossos moles como trapos, de nervos trémulos como arames, com cangalhas, com chinós, com dentaduras de chumbo, sem sangue, sem febra, sem viço, torto, corcunda - esse ser em que Deus, espantado, mal pode reconhecer o seu esbelto e rijo e nobre Adão! Na Cidade findou a sua liberdade moral: cada manhã ela lhe impõe uma necessidade, e cada necessidade o arremessa para uma dependência: pobre e subalterno, a sua vida é um constante solicitar, adular, vergar, rastejar, aturar; e rico e superior como um Jacinto, a Sociedade logo o enreda em tradições, preceitos, etiquetas, cerimónias, praxes, ritos, serviços mais disciplinares que os de um cárcere ou de um quartel... A sua tranquilidade (bem tão alto que Deus com ela recompensa os santos ) onde está, meu Jacinto? Sumida para sempre, nessa batalha desesperada pelo pão, ou pela fama, ou pelo poder, ou pelo gozo, ou pela fugidia rodela de ouro! Alegria como a haverá na Cidade para esses milhões de seres que tumultuam na arquejante ocupação de desejar - e que, nunca fartando o desejo, incessantemente padecem de desilusão, desesperança ou derrota? Os sentimentos mais genuinamente humanos logo na Cidade se desumanizam! Vê, meu Jacinto! São como luzes que o áspero vento do viver social não deixa arder com serenidade e limpidez; e aqui abala e faz tremer; e além brutamente apaga; e adiante obriga a flamejar com desnaturada violência. As amizades nunca passam de alianças que o interesse, na hora inquieta da defesa ou na hora sôfrega do assalto, ata apressadamente com um cordel apressado, e que estalam ao menor embate da rivalidade ou do orgulho. E o Amor, na Cidade, meu gentil Jacinto? Considera esses vastos armazéns com espelhos, onde a nobre carne de Eva se vende, tarifada ao arratel, como a de vaca! Contempla esse velho Deus do Himeneu, que circula trazendo em vez do ondeante facho da Paixão a apertada carteira do Dote! Espreita essa turba que foge dos largos caminhos assoalhados em que os Faunos amam as Ninfas na boa lei natural, e busca tristemente os recantos lôbregos de Sodoma ou de Lesbos!... Mas o que a cidade mais deteriora no homem é a Inteligência, porque ou lha arregimenta dentro da banalidade ou lha empurra para a extravagância. Nesta densa e pairante camada de Idéias e Fórmulas que constitui a atmosfera mental das Cidades, o homem que a respira, nela envolto, só pensa todos os pensamentos já pensados, só exprime todas as expressões já exprimidas: - ou então, para se destacar na pardacenta e chata rotina e trepar ao frágil andaime da gloríola, inventa num gemente esforço, inchando o crânio, uma novidade disforme que espante e que detenha a multidão como um monstrengo numa feira. Todos, intelectualmente, são carneiros, trilhando o mesmo trilho, balando o mesmo balido, com o focinho pendido para a poeira onde pisam, em fila, as pegadas pisadas; - e alguns são macacos, saltando no topo de mastros vistosos, com esgares e cabriolas. Assim, meu Jacinto, na Cidade, nesta criação tão antinatural onde o solo é de pau e feltro e alcatrão, e o carvão tapa o céu, e a gente vive acamada nos prédios como o paninho nas lojas, e a claridade vem pelos canos, e as mentiras se murmuram através de arames - o homem aparece como uma criatura anti-humana, sem beleza, sem força, sem liberdade, sem riso, sem sentimento, e trazendo em si um espírito que é passivo como um escravo ou impudente como um Histrião... E aqui tem o belo Jacinto o que é a bela Cidade! (...) -Sim, com efeito, a Cidade... É talvez uma ilusão perversa!