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There's no good place to break someone's heart.
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Constellations exist because someone saw them, pointed, and someone else said, Yes, I see it too.
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Being alive is nothing without being able to live.
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He laughs and hugs me and says that I shouldn't believe anyone who tells me it's gonna get better. "Ride the wave," he says. "Don't wait for it. Don't fear it. Just ride it.
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Consciousness is the monster and it wins.
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Until tonight , she thought death was for grandparents and goldfish.
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She says New York was like Sesame Street for grown-ups, everyone has big hearts and you can be anything you wanna be.
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You don't lose a person all at once. You lose them in parts.
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It's a pathetic thing, hope, hard to kill.
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If Van Gogh were walking around, everyone would run away because he had no ear, but if he was holding his paintings they would be nice to him. She's holding her paintings and she's good at it.
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Ride the wave...Don't wait for it. Don't fear it. Just ride it.
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When you want to make someone better, when you love someone, you do everything. Anything. Even if itβs crazy.
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In his depraved mind, power would be the inability to connect with anyone. It would mean rising above the need for affection, for human touch.
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The internet has eliminated so much wonder and romance.
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But isnβt it why you get married in the first place? So that someone can row the boat when youβre tired.
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only crazy people capitalize every word.
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Itβs the little things that seal the cracks in your heart.
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The atmosphere changes immediately. And thereβs an out of the way place where your mind stores things. You canβt reach it yourself. Itβs like the game Operation and you are the body and someone else has to have a steady hand, they have to poke that part of you, that hot spot. When you get what you want, what you always wanted, what it means to be you is to want this thing and now you have it and there is a roar. Love.
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Do you want people to think you're crazy? Because only crazy people capitalize every word.
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Love is hands, holding you.
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What other kid, what other boy, would like The Middle? He says itβs great because all the Hecks are smart and stupid at the same time. He says most other shows make you be one or the other.
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The wanting overwhelms me, the way it does sometimes. I hit the mute button and I feel my heartbeat quicken as I dial her number. I know I shouldnβt.
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I forgot how beautiful the world is when youβre a part of it this way, when the sun is relenting and the moon is rising and the night is magic, it can change your life if you let it,
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know I should apologize and tell her that sheβs right, that I do wish Jon would see me, that itβs eating me alive. But the thing about things that break your heart, itβs hard to validate them by saying them out loud.
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A heart doesnβt just break for no reason.
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He hugged me. It was comforting to feel his hands on my back.
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Sometimes I picture the crack in my heart. It flares up when something reminds me of Jon.
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what a horrible thing your body is, the way itβs doomed from day one, your fate is death no matter what you do.
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