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that I had to watch out for him. One time I was walking by his bedroom, and he was lying flat on his back. I saw how bloated his stomach was and it terrified me. A few days later I was in my room with my friends. We were in the hamburger bed, all watching that sad movie Brian’s Song. About halfway through the film, I suddenly got really worried about my dad and went into his bathroom, where I found him facedown. He had used the towel rack to hold on to, but it had broken and he’d fallen. I ran downstairs and got Delta; she called for help, and they got him up, gave him coffee, and got him walking. I watched them walk him around the room. He was clinging on to them. At one point his head was hanging down, but once he saw me in the chair, we locked eyes and his whole face lit up. He tried to get away from them to come over to where I was, but I could tell he was going to be sick. I said, “No, he’s going to throw up.” So they took him to the bathroom, and sure enough, he got sick. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t talk to anyone about anything. I just internalized it all.
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