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Julia, hanging back, says, βHow have you been, Stephen?β
I want to tell her everything. I want to find out what sheβs been doing, what she plans to do but, at this fated moment, a vision of my stomach floats before me. It is a soggy marsh, green rushes growing round the edges, gas bubbles surfacing all over and bursting. The bubbling of the marsh is set to the music of creation, the percussive glottal stops of the Big Bang. I realize I have, at best, one complete sentence left in me. βJulia,β I begin, composing in my head a deranged paean of love that I can never utter. βI regret that I am not myself today. Terry has poisoned me.β
βYou should go home,β she says.
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