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I found a special person in my life. I always thought that he is the right mentor, right director & very much inspiration for me (Always, always, always, always, always in professional way, in right way). I expected that he is the one who can give path to my dreams. His words reminded me that I have a pending work & I have to complete it. That was something about responsibility, particular work, passion, excellence & exploration. I had so much in my mind to complete everything which I left behind. I had planning, I had visions, I had ideas, I had knowledge, I was ready to do the experiments, trials, results & celebrations. Sudden slap awaken me. The realization of something stopped me. Reality frighten me. Something wrong made me right. I was alone at all. I'm alone at all. That consideration was fake. That special was never exist for me. That specialism was not me. I was never a specialist. First time in my life I was stuck somewhere. I was shocked, questioned & I don't know I have been treated like I can't say the taste of it. There was only one answer in terms of I don't know, I still have the same answer I don't know. Sometimes, life teach you that lessons which you never want to experience. No matter how much honest you are, your honesty & goodness remains for you. I took lot of time to heal, to convince myself, to be normal. I'm somehow learning to know that I'm special person in my life. I can do it again. Yes, I can do. Yes, I can work. Yes, I can learn. Yes, I can dream again. I have new life to see new things. I know, I can't believe in somethings again but I'm able to believe in something, something called as God. I believe in my God not in that God which I saw in the past in a person. Yes, I fear my past.
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