β
You do not write your life with words...You write it with actions. What you think is not important. It is only important what you do.
β
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
There is not always a good guy. Nor is there always a bad one. Most people are somewhere in between.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
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Stories are wild creatures, the monster said. When you let them loose, who knows what havoc they might wreak?
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Your mind will believe comforting lies while also knowing the painful truths that make those lies necessary. And your mind will punish you for believing both.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
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We are the choices we make.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Don't think you haven't lived long enough to have a story to tell.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Stories are important, the monster said. They can be more important than anything. If they carry the truth.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
It's not that you should never love something so much that it can control you.
It's that you need to love something that much so you can never be controlled.
It's not a weakness.
It's your best strength.
β
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
Without a filter, a man is just chaos walking.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Stories are the wildest things of all, the monster rumbled. Stories chase and bite and hunt.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
To say you have no choice is to relieve yourself of responsibility.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
I wish I had a hundred years, she said, very quietly. A hundred years I could give to you.
β
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
You were merely wishing for the end of pain, the monster said. Your own pain. An end to how it isolated you. It is the most human wish of all.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
It's not how we fall. It's how we get back up again.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
Stories don't always have happy endings."
This stopped him. Because they didn't, did they? That's one thing the monster had definitely taught him. Stories were wild, wild animals and went off in directions you couldn't expect.
β
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
There was once an invisible man who had grown tired of being unseen. It was not that he was actually invisible. It was that people had become used to not seeing him.
And if no one sees you, are you really there at all?"
β
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
A bookβ¦ itβs a world all on its own too. A world made of words, where you live for a while.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
Sometimes people need to lie to themselves most of all.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Conor held tightly onto his mother.
And by doing so, he could finally let her go.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
If you speak the truth, the monster whispered in his ear, you will be able to face whatever comes.
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β
Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
In this world of numbness and information overload, the ability to feel, my boy, is a rare gift indeed.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
But a knife ain't just a thing, is it? It's a choice, it's something you do. A knife says yes or no, cut or not, die or don't. A knife takes a decision out of your hand and puts it in the world and it never goes back again.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Faith with proof is no faith at all.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
War makes monsters out of men.
β
β
Patrick Ness
β
The monster showed up just after midnight. As they do.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
The first thing you find out when yer dog learns to talk is that dogs don't got nothing much to say.
About anything.
"Need a poo, Todd."
"Shutup, Manchee."
"Poo. Poo, Todd."
"I said shut it.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Here's what I think," I say and my voice is stronger and thoughts are coming, thoughts that trickle into my noise like whispers of truth. "I think maybe everybody falls," I say. "I think maybe we all do. And I don't think that's the asking."
I pull on her arms gently to make sure she's listening.
"I think the asking is whether we get back up again.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Hope may be the thing that pulls you forward, may be the thing that keeps you going, but that it's dangerous, that it's painful and risky, that it's making a dare in the world and when has the world ever let us win a dare?
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Know yourself and go in swinging.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
But what is a dream, Conor O'Malley? the monster said, bending down so it's face was close to Conor's. Who is to say that it is not everything else that is the dream?
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Choices may be unbelievably hard but they're never impossible. To say you have no choice is to release yourself from responsibility and that's not how a person with integrity acts.
β
β
Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
War is like a monster," he says, almost to himself. "War is the devil. It starts and it consumes and it grows and grows and grows." He's looking at me now. "And otherwise normal men become monsters, too.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
The justifications of men who kill should always be heard with skepticism, said the monster.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Iβll find youβ
Keep calling for me, Violaβ
Cuz here I come.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
Real life is only ever just real life. Messy. What it means depends on how you look at it. The only thing youβve got to do is find a way to live there.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
You be as angry as you need to be,β she said. βDonβt let anyone tell you otherwise. Not your grandma, not your dad, no one. And if you need to break things, then by God, you break them good and hard.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Cuz how do you know yer alive if you don't hurt?
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
You can't say everything, so you don't say nothing.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
The Noise is a man unfiltered, and without a filter, a man is just chaos walking.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Men lie, and they lie to theirselves worst of all.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Because humans are complicated beasts, the monster said. How can a queen be both a good witch and a bad witch? How can a prince be a murderer and a saviour? How can an apothecary be evil-tempered but right-thinking? How can a parson be wrong-thinking but good-hearted? How can invisible men make themselves more lonely by being seen?
"I don't know," Connor shrugged, exhausted. "Your stories never made any sense to me."
The answer is that it does not matter what you think, the monster said, because your mind will contradict itself a hundred times each day. You wanted her to go at the same time you were desperate for me to save her. Your mind will believe comforting lies while also knowing the painful truths that make those lies necessary. And your mind will punish you for believing both.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
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We have to lie to ourselves to live. Otherwise, we'd go crazy.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
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You said we all want there to be more than this! Well, there's always more than this. There's always something you don't know.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
And if one day,' she said, really crying now, 'you look back and you feel bad for being so angry, if you feel bad for being so angry at me that you couldn't even speak to me, then you have to know, Conor, you have to that is was okay. It was okay. That I knew. I know, okay? I know everything you need to tell me without you having to say it out loud.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Many things that are true feel like a cheat. Kingdoms get the princes they deserve, farmersβ daughters die for no reason, and sometimes witches merit saving. Quite often, actually. Youβd be surprised.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Feelings don't try to kill you, even the painful ones. Anxiety is a feeling grown too large. A feeling grown aggressive and dangerous. You're responsible for its consequences, you're responsible for treating it. But...you're not responsible for causing it. You're not morally at fault for it. No more than you would be for a tumor.
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Patrick Ness (The Rest of Us Just Live Here)
β
I wanted so badly for there to be more. I ached for there to be more than my crappy little life.' He shakes his head. 'And there was more. I just couldn't see it.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
I promised to keep on going but maybe keep on going means coming back first.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Because sometimes there are problems bigger than this weekβs end of the world and sometimes you just have to find the extraordinary in your ordinary life.
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Patrick Ness (The Rest of Us Just Live Here)
β
To live is to fight, to preserve life is to fight everything that man stands for.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
Knowledge is dangerous and men lie and the world changes, whether I want it to or not.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
There's always beauty, if you know where to look.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
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Being a leader is making the people you love hate you a little more each day.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
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Yer the only friend I got, pigpiss... Ain't that the biggest tragedy you ever heard?
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
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Not everyone has to be the Chosen One. Not everyone has to be the guy who saves the world. Most people just have to live their lives the best they can, doing things that are great for them, having great friends, trying to make their lives better, loving people properly. All the while knowing that the world makes no sense but trying to find a way to be happy anyway.
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Patrick Ness (The Rest of Us Just Live Here)
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When luck ain't with you, it's against you.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
If you ever see a war," she says, not looking up from her clipboard, "you'll learn that war only destroys. No one escapes from a war. No one. Not even the survivors.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
Four lines, and the world went quiet.
I'm sorry for telling everyone about your mum, read the first line.
I miss being your friend, read the second.
Are you okay? read the third.
I see you, read the fourth, with the
I
underlined about a hundred times.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
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Worst is the one who knows better and does nothing.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
Stories were wild, wild animals and went off in directions you couldn't expect.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
I did not come to heal her, the monster said. I came to heal you.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
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Life equals running and when we stop running maybe that's how we'll know life is finally finished.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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It's not the mistakes I made but how I responded to them
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
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We are the choices we make. And have to make. We arenβt anything else.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
Do we hate paradise so much we need to make sure it becomes a trash heap?
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
Conor was no longer invisible. They all saw him now.
But he was further away than ever.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
You're never more alive than in battle."
"Never more dead after," I say.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
And here was a man who lived on belief, but who sacrificed it at the first challenge, right when he needed it most.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
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But,' he thinks, 'it's possible to die before you die.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
Don't deceive me. Never leave me.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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Knowledge is dangerous.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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You think I tell you stories to teach you lessons? the monster said. You think I have coming walking out of time and earth itself to teach you a lesson in niceness?
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
Ow, Todd? Ow?
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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People see stories everywhere...We take random events and we put them together in a pattern so we can comfort ourselves with a story, no matter how much it obviously isn't true...We have to lie to ourselves to live. Otherwise, we'd go crazy.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
Belief is half of all healing.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
And she says, βThen letβs just take the effing road and get ourselves to Haven.β
I smile, a little. βYou said effing,β I say. βYou actually said the word effing.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
Because I'm not blind to how Harry works, you know," she said. "A bully with charisma and top marks is still a bully." She sighed, annoyed. "He'll probably end up Prime Minister one day. God help us all.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
And it feels like, finally.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
β
Life ain't fair.
It ain't.
Not never.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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People ask for what they need in different ways. Sometimes by not even asking for it at all.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
A monster, I think, remembering what Ben told me once. War makes Monsters of Men.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
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We share out craziness, our neuroses, our little bit of screwed-up-ness that comes from our family. We share it. And it feels like love.
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Patrick Ness (The Rest of Us Just Live Here)
β
You know that your truth, the one that you hide⦠is the thing you are most afraid of.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
A knife is only as good as the one who wields it.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
You starting to feel hope yet?" Viola asks, her voice curious.
"No," I say, fuddling my noise. "You?"
Her eyebrows are up but she shakes her head. "No, No."
"But we're going anyway."
"Oh, yeah," Viola says. "Hell or high water."
"It'll probably be both," I say.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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His noise is getting quieter, but I can still see it there still-
See how he feels the skin of my hand against his, see how he wants to take it and press it against his mouth, how he wants to breathe in the smell of me and how beautiful I look to him, how strong after all that illness, and how he wants to just lightly touch my neck, just there, and how he wants to take me in his arms and-
"Oh, God," he says, looking away suddenly. "Viola, I'm sorry, I didn't mean-"
But I just put my hand to the back of his neck-
And he says, "Viola-?"
And I pull myself towards him-
And I kiss him.
And it feels like, finally.
β
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
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There's so much wonder in the world. Don't let no one tell you otherwise.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
β
So we forgive each other?" The crooked smile climbs up one more time. "Again?"
And I look right into his eyes, right into him as far as I can see, because I want him to hear me, I want him to hear me with everything I mean and feel and say.
"Always," I say to him. "Every time.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
β
Who am I? the monster repeated, still roaring. I am the spine that the mountains hang upon! I am the tears that the rivers cry! I am the lungs that breathe the wind! I am the wolf that kills the stag, the hawk that kills the mouse, the spider that kills the fly! I am the stag, the mouse and the fly that are eaten! I am the snake of the world devouring its tail! I am everything untamed and untameable! It brought Conor up close to its eye. I am thils wild earth, come for you, Conor O'Malley.
"You look like a tree," Conor said.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
The mistake of every young person is to think they're the only ones who see darkness and hardship in the world."
...
"The mistake of every adult, though, is to think darkness and hardship aren't important to young people because we'll grow out of it. Who cares if we will? Life is happening to us now, just like it's happening to you.
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Patrick Ness (The Rest of Us Just Live Here)
β
I feel like I'm way down this deep, deep hole and I'm looking up and all there is is this little dot of light and I have to shout at the top of my lungs for anyone to hear me and even when I do, I say the wrong thing or they don't really listen or they're just humouring me.
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Patrick Ness (The Rest of Us Just Live Here)
β
Who cares even if I didn't?!" Conor shouted back. "They're just stupid berries. Woo-hoo, so scary. Oh, please, please, save me from the berries!"
The monster looked at him quizzically. How strange, it said. The words you say tell me you are scared of the berries, but your actions seems to suggest otherwise.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)
β
What's important is that I know how much you worry about shit. And what's also important is that I know a big part of your worry is that, no matter what group of friends you're in, no matter how long you've known them, you always assume you're the least-wanted person there. The one everyone else could do without.
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Patrick Ness (The Rest of Us Just Live Here)
β
Viola?" he says.
And I turn to look at him -
And when I do, I can hear everything he's thinking.
Everything.
Clearer than before, clearer than seems possible -
And I'm not even sure I'm supposed to, but I look him in the eyes and I see it -
In the middle of everything he's feeling -
Even after we fought -
Even after I doubted him -
Even after I hurt him -
I see how much he loves me.
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Patrick Ness (Monsters of Men (Chaos Walking, #3))
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And I put my hand on her arm to stop her rowing.
Aaronβs Noise roars up in red and black.
The current takes us on.
βIβm sorry!β I cry as the river takes us away, my words ragged things torn from me, my chest pulled so tight I canβt barely breathe. βIβm sorry, Manchee!β
βTodd?β he barks, confused and scared and watching me leave him behind. βTodd?β
βManchee!β I scream.
Aaron brings his free hand towards my dog.
βMANCHEE!β
βTodd?β
And Aaron wrenches his arms and thereβs a CRACK and a scream and a cut-off yelp that tears my heart in two forever and forever.
And the pain is too much itβs too much itβs too much and my hands are on my head and Iβm rearing back and my mouth is open in a never-ending wordless wail of all the blackness thatβs inside of me.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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He is sorry-
For everything-
For Prentisstown-
For Viola-
For Ben-
For every failure and every wrong-
For letting his pa down-
And he's looking up at me-
And he's begging me-
He's begging me-
Like I'm the only one who can forgive him-
Like it's only me who's got the power-
Todd?-
Please-
And all I can say is "Davy-"
And the fright and the terror in his Noise is too much-
It's too much-
And then it stops.
Davy slumps, eyes still open, eyes still staring back at me, eyes still asking (I swear) for me to forgive him.
And he lies there, still.
Davy Prentiss is dead.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
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I rub the ears of my dog, my stupid goddam ruddy great dog that I never wanted but who hung around anyway and who followed me thru the swamp and who bit Aaron when he was trying to choke me and who found Viola when she was lost and who's licking my hand with his little pink tongue and whose eye is still mostly squinted shut from where Mr. Prentiss Jr. kicked him and whose tail is way way shorter from where Matthew Lyle cut it off when my dog - my dog - went after a man with a machete to save me and who's right there when I need pulling back from the darkness I fall into and who tells me who I am whenever I forget.
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Patrick Ness (The Knife of Never Letting Go (Chaos Walking, #1))
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He's seeing the actual Milky Way streaked across the sky. The whole of his entire galaxy, right there in front of him. Billions and billions of stars. Billions and billions of worlds. All of them, all of those seemingly endless possibilities, not fictional, but real, out there, existing, right now. There is so much more out there than just the world he knows, so much more than his tiny Washington town, so much more than even London. Or England. Or hell, for that matter.
So much more that he'll never see. So much more that he'll never get to. So much that he can only glimpse enough of to know that it's forever beyond his reach.
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Patrick Ness (More Than This)
β
He looks up and the loss in his Noise is so great it feels like I'm standing on the edge of an abyss, that I'm about to fall down into him, into blackness so empty and lonely there'd never be a way out.
"Todd," I say again, a catch in my voice. "On the ledge, under the waterfall, do you remember what you said to me? Do you remember what you said to save me?"
He's shaking his head slowly. "I've done terrible things, Viola. Terrible things-"
"We all fall, you said." I'm gripping his hand now. "We all fall but that's not what matters. What matters is picking yourself up again.
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Patrick Ness (The Ask and the Answer (Chaos Walking, #2))
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There was once an invisible man, the monster continued, though Conor kept his eyes firmly on Harry, who had grown tired of being unseen.
Conor set himself into a walk.
A walk after Harry.
It was not that he was actually invisible, the monster said, following Conor, the room volume dropping as they passed. It was that the people had become used to not seeing him.
"Hey!" Conor called. Harry didn't turn around. Neither did Sully nor Anton, though thet were still sniggering as Conor picked up his pace.
And if no one sees you, the monster said, picking up its pace, too, are you really there at all?
"HEY!" Conor called loudly.
The dining hall had fallen silent now, as Conor and the monster moved faster after Harry.
Harry who had still not turned around.
Conor reached him and grabbed him by the shoulder, twisting him round. Harry pretended to question what had happened, looking hard at Sully, acting like he was the one who'd done it. "Quit messing about," Harry said and turned away again.
Turned away from Conor.
And then one day the invisible man decided, the monster said, its voice ringing in Conor's ears, I will make them see me.
"How?" Conor asked, breathing heavily again, not turning back to see the monster standing there, not looking at the reaction of the room to the huge monster now in the midst, though he was aware of nervous murmurs and a strange anticipation in the air. "How did the man do it?"
Conor could feel the monster close behind him, knew that it was kneeling, knew that it was putting its face up to his ear to whisper into in, to tell him the rest of the story.
He called, it said for a monster.
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Patrick Ness (A Monster Calls)