β
I have work to do, and I am afraid not to do it.
β
β
John O'Hara
β
Now I am quietly waiting for the catastrophe of my personality to seem beautiful again, and interesting, and modern.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
oh god itβs wonderful
to get out of bed
and drink too much coffee
and smoke too many cigarettes
and love you so much
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
The land is the only thing in the world worth working for, worth fighting for, worth dying for, because it's the only thing that lasts".....Gerald O'Hara, Gone With The Wind.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell
β
He had never known such gallantry as the gallantry of Scarlett O'Hara going forth to conquer the world in her mother's velvet curtains and the tail feathers of a rooster.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
I loved something I made up, something that's just as dead as Melly is. I made a pretty suit of clothes and fell in love with it. And when Ashley came riding along, so handsome, so different, I put that suit on him and made him wear it whether it fitted him or not. And I wouldn't see what he really was. I kept on loving the pretty clothesβand not him at all.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
I am the least difficult of men. All I want is boundless love.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
Kerouac: You're ruining American poetry, O'Hara.
O'Hara: That's more than you ever did for it, Kerouac
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
It is easy to be beautiful; it is difficult to appear so.
I admire you, beloved, for the trap you've set. It's like a final chapter no one reads because the plot is over.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
My eyes are vague blue, like the sky, and change all the time; they are indiscriminate but fleeting, entirely specific and disloyal, so that no one trusts me. I am always looking away. Or again at something after it has given me up.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
When I die, don't come, I wouldn't want a leaf
to turn away from the sun -- it loves it there.
There's nothing so spiritual about being happy
but you can't miss a day of it, because it doesn't last.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
How wonderful to know someone who was bad and dishonorable and a cheat and a liar, when all the world was filled with people who would not lie to save their souls and who would rather starve than do a dishonorable deed!
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
Now I am quietly waiting for
the catastrophe of my personality
to seem beautiful again,
and interesting, and modern.
The country is grey and
brown and white in trees,
snows and skies of laughter
always diminishing, less funny
not just darker, not just grey.
It may be the coldest day of
the year, what does he think of
that? I mean, what do I? And if I do,
perhaps I am myself again.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
The stars fell
one by one into his eyes and burnt.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
She saw in his eyes defeat of her wild dreams, her mad desires.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
In times of crisis, we must all decide again and again whom we love.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
I am ashamed of my century, but I have to smile.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (The Collected Poems of Frank O'Hara)
β
I love you. I love you,
but Iβm turning to my verses
and my heart is closing
like a fist.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
After the first glass of vodka
you can accept just about anything
of life even your own mysteriousness
you think it is nice that a box
of matches is purple and brown and is called La Petite and comes from Sweden
for they are words that you know and that is all you know words not their feelings or what they mean and you write because you know them not because you understand them because you don't you are stupid and lazy and will never be great but you do what you know because what else is there?
β
β
Frank O'Hara (The Collected Poems of Frank O'Hara)
β
I embraced a cloud,
but when I soared
it rained.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
I wish to Heaven I was married," she said resentfully as she attacked the yams with loathing. "I'm tired of everlastingly being unnatural and never doing anything I want to do. I'm tired of acting like I don't eat more than a bird, and walking when I want to run and saying I feel faint after a waltz, when I could dance for two days and never get tired. I'm tired of saying, 'How wonderful you are!' to fool men who haven't got one-half the sense I've got, and I'm tired of pretending I don't know anything, so men can tell me things and feel important while they're doing it... I can't eat another bite.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
Scarlett O'Hara was not beautiful, but men seldom realized it when caught by her charm as the Tarleton twins were.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell
β
Each time my heart is broken it makes me feel more
adventurous (and how the same names keep recurring on that interminable list!), but one of these days there'll be nothing left with which to venture forth.
Why should I share you? Why don't you get rid of someone else for a change?
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
This woman is Pocahontas. She is Athena and Hera. Lying in this messy, unmade bed, eyes closed, this is Juliet Capulet. Blanche DuBois. Scarlett O'Hara. With ministrations of lipstick and eyeliner I give birth to Ophelia. To Marie Antoinette. Over the next trip of the larger hand around the face of the bedside clock, I give form to Lucrezia Borgia. Taking shape at my fingertips, my touches of foundation and blush, here is Jocasta. Lying here, Lady Windermere. Opening her eyes, Cleopatra. Given flesh, a smile, swinging her sculpted legs off one side of the bed, this is Helen of Troy. Yawning and stretching, here is every beautiful woman across history.
β
β
Chuck Palahniuk (Tell-All)
β
I can't even enjoy a blade of grass unless I know there's a subway handy, or a record store or some other sign that people do not totally regret life. It's more important to confirm the least sincere. The clouds get enough attention as it is...
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
Life was not easy, nor was it happy, but she did not expect life to be easy, and, if it was not happy, that was woman's lot. It was a man's world, and she accepted it as such. The man owned the property, and the woman managed it. The man took credit for the management, and the woman praised his cleverness. The man roared like a bull when a splinter was in his finger, and the woman muffled the moans of childbirth, lest she disturb him. Men were rough of speech and often drunk. Women ignored the lapses of speech and put the drunkards to bed without bitter words. Men were rude and outspoken, women were always kind, gracious and forgiving.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
Scarlet O'Hara was not beautiful, but men seldom realized it when caught by her charm as the Tarleton twins were. In her face were too sharply blended the delicate features of her mother, a Coast aristocrat of French descent, and the heavy ones of her florid Irish father. But it was an arresting face, pointed of chin, square of jaw. Her eyes were pale green without a touch of hazel, starred with bristly black lashes and slightly tilted at the ends. Above them, her thick black brows slanted upward, cutting a startling oblique line in her magnolia-white skin-that skin so prized by Southern women and so carefully guarded with bonnets, veils and mittens against hot Georgia suns.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
That's not a run in your stocking, it's a hand on your leg.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
Having a Coke with You
is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, IrΓΊn, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne
or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when Iβm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 oβclock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles
and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them
I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway itβs in the Frick
which thank heavens you havenβt gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didnβt pick the rider as carefully
as the horse
it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
My stepfather, John O'Hara, was the goodest man there was. He was not a man of many words, but of carefully chosen ones. He was the one parent who didn't try to fix me. One night I sat on his lap in his chair by the woodstove, sobbing. He just held me quietly and then asked only, "What does it feel like?" It was the first time I was prompted to articulate it. I thought about it, then said, "I feel homesick." That still feels like the most accurate description - I felt homesick, but I was home.
β
β
Sarah Silverman (The Bedwetter: Stories of Courage, Redemption, and Pee)
β
Even trees understand me! Good heavens, I lie under
them, too, don't I? I'm just like a pile of leaves.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
β¦ and Iβll be happy here and happy there, full
of tea and tears
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
To Scarlett, there was something breath-taking about Ellen O'Hara, a miracle that lived in the house with her and awed her and charmed and soothed her.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
I won't need you to rescue meM. I can take care of myself, thank you. - Scarlett O'Hara.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
She could see so clearly now that he was only a childish fancy, no more important really than her spoiled desire for the aquamarine earbobs she had coaxed out of Gerald. For, once she owned the earbobs, they had lost their value, as everything except money lost its value once it was hers.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
Leaf! you are so big!
How can you change your
color, then just fall!
As if there were no
such thing as integrity!
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
I'm becoming
the street.
Who are you in love with?
me?
Straight against the light I cross.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
Grace / to be born and live as variously as possible
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
And
always embrace things, people earth
sky stars, as I do, freely and with
the appropriate sense of space.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
It's a bright summer day, and I want to be wanted more than anything else in the world.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
She couldn't survey the wreck of the world with an air of casual unconcern.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
...but it is good to be several floors up in the dead of night wondering whether you are any good or not and the only decision you can make is that you did it...
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
Oh! kangaroos, sequins, chocolate sodas! / You really are beautiful! Pearls, / harmonicas, jujubes, aspirins!
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
I am moved by the multitudes of your intelligence and sometimes, returning, I become the seaβ in love with your speed, your heaviness and breath.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
I wonder if the course of narcissism through the ages would have been any different had Narcissus first peered into a cesspool. He probably did.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Early Writing)
β
I was tops at the Scarlet O'Hara school of emotional distancing. I always thought about the uncomfortable stuff tomorrow, and, as everyone knows, tomorrow never comes.
β
β
Karen Chance (Hunt the Moon (Cassandra Palmer, #5))
β
There should be so much more, not of orange, of words, of how terrible orange is and life.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
when
I think of all the things Iβve been thinking of
I feel insane
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
If I am ever to find these trees meaningful
I must have you by the hand. As it is, they
stretch dusty fingers into an obscure sky,
and the snow looks up like a face dirtied
with tears. Should I cry out and see what happens?
There could only be a stranger wandering
in this landscape, cold, unfortunate, himself
frozen fast in wintry eyes.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
all I want is a room up there
and you in it
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
His voice stopped and they looked for a long quiet moment into each other's eyes and between them lay the sunny lost youth that they had so unthinkingly shared.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell
β
They say great themes make great novels.. but what these young writers don't understand is that there is no greater theme than men and women.
β
β
John O'Hara
β
I wouldnβt want to be faster
or greener than now if you were with me O you
were the best of all my days!
β
β
Frank O'Hara (The Collected Poems of Frank O'Hara)
β
When I first met you, I thought: There is a girl in a million. She isn't like these other silly little fools who believe everything their mammas tell them and act on it, no matter how they feel. And conceal all their feelings and desires and little heartbreaks behind a lot of sweet words. I thought: Miss O'Hara is a girl of rare spirit. She knows what she wants and she doesn't mind speaking her mindβor throwing vases.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
He would never be any different and now Scarlett realize the truth and accepted it without emotionβthat until he died Gerald would always be waiting for Ellen, always listening for her. Her was in some dim borderline country where time was standing still and Ellen was always in the next room. The mainspring of his existence was taken away when she died and with it has gone his bounding assurance, his impudence and his restless vitality. Ellen was the audience before which the blustering drama of Gerald O'Hara had been played Now the curtain had been rung down forever, the footlights dimmed and the audience suddenly vanished, while the stunned old actor remained on his empty stage, waiting for his cues.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
Destroy yourself, if you don't know!
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
Fiddlesticksβ is Scarlett OβHaraβs way of saying βFuck this shit.
β
β
Mary Norris (Between You & Me: Confessions of a Comma Queen)
β
the only thing to do is simply continue
is that simple
yes, it is simple because it is the only thing to do
can you do it
yes, you can because it is the only thing to do
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
You just go on your nerve.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
A man was the cause of it.
An unarmed man with a weapon.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
The trouble is people leave too much to luck. They get married and then trust to luck. They should be sure in the first place.
β
β
John O'Hara
β
I have been to lots of parties
and acted perfectly disgraceful
but I never actually collapsed
oh Lana Turner we love you get up
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
[T]he merciful adjustment which nature makes when what cannot be cured must be endured.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
The moon passes into clouds
so hurt by the street lights
of your glance oh my heart
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
America may be unique in being a country which has leapt from barbarism to decadence without touching civilization.
β
β
John O'Hara
β
it is hard to believe when Iβm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 oβclock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
My Heart
I'm not going to cry all the time
nor shall I laugh all the time,
I don't prefer one "strain" to another.
I'd have the immediacy of a bad movie,
not just a sleeper, but also the big,
overproduced first-run kind.
I want to be at least as alive as the vulgar. And if some aficionado of my mess says "That's not like Frank!," all to the good! I don't wear brown and grey suits all the time, do I? No. I wear workshirts to the opera,
often. I want my feet to be bare,
I want my face to be shaven, and my heart--you can't plan on the heart, but
the better part of it, my poetry, is open.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
life perpetuated in parti-colored loves
and beautiful lies all in different languages.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
I seem to be defying fate, or am I avoiding it?
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
I've got to get out of here. I choose a piece of shawl and my dirtiest suntans. I'll be back, I'll re-emerge, defeated, from the valley; you don't want me to go where you go, so I go where you don't want me to.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
and I have mastered the speed and strength which is the
armor of the world.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
There is a geography which holds
its hands just so far from the breast
and pushes you away, crying so.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
Iβm so damned literary
and at the same time the waters rushing past remind
me of nothing
Iβm so damn empty
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
Life is full of tough choices between less-than-perfect alternatives.
β
β
Maryanne O'Hara (Cascade)
β
Nighttime is really the best time to work. All the ideas are there to be yours because everyone else is asleep.
β
β
Catherine O'Hara
β
War and marriage and childbirth had passed over her without touching any deep chord within her and she was unchanged.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
willow trees, willow trees they remind me of Desdemona
I'm so damned literary
and at the same time the waters rushing past remind
me of nothing
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
Like so many of the other books I read, it never seemed to me like a book, but like a place I had lived in, had visited and would visit again, just as all the people in them, every blessed one β Anne of Green Gables, Heidi, Jay Gatsby, Elizabeth Bennet, Scarlet O'Hara, Dill and Scout, Miss Marple, and Hercule Poirot β were more real than the real people I knew.
β
β
Anna Quindlen (How Reading Changed My Life)
β
You learn to forgive (the South) for its narrow mind and growing pains because it has a huge heart. You forgive the stifling summers because the spring is lush and pastel sprinkled, because winter is merciful and brief, because corn bread and sweet tea and fried chicken are every bit as vital to a Sunday as getting dressed up for church, and because any southerner worth their salt says please and thank you. It's soft air and summer vines, pine woods and fat homegrown tomatoes. It's pulling the fruit right off a peach tree and letting the juice run down your chin. It's a closeted and profound appreciation for our neighbors in Alabama who bear the brunt of the Bubba jokes. The South gets in your blood and nose and skin bone-deep. I am less a part of the South than it is part of me. It's a romantic notion, being overcome by geography. But we are all a little starry-eyed down here. We're Rhett Butler and Scarlett O'Hara and Rosa Parks all at once.
β
β
Amanda Kyle Williams
β
George Gershwin died on July 11, 1937, but I donβt have to believe it if I donβt want to.
β
β
John O'Hara
β
I canβt even find a pond small enough
to drown in without being ostentatious
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Lunch Poems)
β
I don't believe in god, so I don't have to make elaborately sounded structures. ... Pain always produces logic, which is very bad for you. ... As for measure and other technical apparatus, that's just common sense: if you're going to buy a pair of pants you want them to be tight enough so everyone will want to go to bed with you. There's nothing metaphysical about it.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (The Selected Poems of Frank O'Hara)
β
Anarchy does not simply mean no laws, it means no need for laws. Anarchy requires individuals to behave responsibly. When individuals can live in peace without authorities to compel or punish them, when people have enough courage and sense to speak honestly and equally with each other, then and only then, will anarchy be possible.
β
β
Craig O'Hara (The Philosophy of Punk: More Than Noise!)
β
...all the bullying instincts in her nature rose to the surface. It was not that she was basically unkind. It was because she was so frightened and unsure of herself she was harsh lest others learn her inadequacies: and refuse her authority.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
You must be more gentle, dear, more sedate,' Ellen told her daughter. 'You must not interrupt gentlemen when they are speaking, even if you do think you know more about matters than they do. Gentlemen do not like forward girls.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell
β
Looking backward through life, one can see the points of change like great locks through which one glides on a flood wave, so smoothly, on such irresistible power that one is hardly aware of any movement. But life is never the same again. One has gone through the lock and lives on a new level.
β
β
Mary O'Hara (Green Grass of Wyoming (My Friend Flicka #3))
β
For Grace, After a Party"
You do not always know what I am feeling.
Last night in the warm spring air while I was
blazing my tirade against someone who doesnβt
interest
me, it was love for you that set me
afire,
and isnβt it odd? for in rooms full of
strangers my most tender feelings
writhe and
bear the fruit of screaming. Put out your hand,
isnβt there
an ashtray, suddenly, there? beside
the bed? And someone you love enters the room
and says wouldnβt
you like the eggs a little
different today?
And when they arrive they are
just plain scrambled eggs and the warm weather
is holding.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (The Collected Poems of Frank O'Hara)
β
Suddenly she hated them all because they were different from her, because they carried their losses with an air that she could never attain, would never wish to attain. She hated them, these smiling, light-footed strangers, these proud fools who took pride in something they had lost, seeming to be proud that they had lost it.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind)
β
Being an Irishwoman means many things to me. An Irishwoman is strong and feisty. She has guts and stands up for what she believes in. She believes she is the best at whatever she does and proceeds through life with that knowledge. She can face any hazard that life throws her way and stay with it until she wins. She is loyal to her kinsmen and accepting of others. She's not above a sock in the jaw if you have it coming.
β
β
Maureen O'Hara ('Tis Herself)
β
I loved her fright, which was against me
into the air! and the diamond white of her forelock
which seemed to smart with thoughts as my heart smarted
with life!
and she'd toss her head with the pain
and paw the air and champ the bit, as if I were Endymion
and she, moon-like, hated to love me.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
A memory came to me. One time, in middle school, a famous author came to talk to our class and give a writing workshop. One of the things she told us about writing a novel was that the story should be about what the main character wants. Dorothy wants to go home to Kansas. George Milton wants a farm of his own. Amelia Sedley wants to marry her darling George and live happily ever after. The end of the story, according to the famous author, is when the character either gests what he wants or realizes heβs never going to get it. Or sometimes, she said, like Scarlett OβHara in Gone With the Wind, realizes she doesnβt actually want what she thought she wanted all along.
pg. 324 of Bewitching
β
β
Alex Flinn (Bewitching (Kendra Chronicles, #2))
β
I take this
for myself, and you take up
the thread of my life between your teeth,
tin thread and tarnished with abuse,
you shall still hear
as long as the beast in me maintains
its taciturn power to close my lids
in tears, and my loins move yet
in the ennobling pursuit of all the worlds
you have left me alone in, and would be
the dolorous distraction from,
while you summon your army of anguishes
which is a million hooting blood vessels
on the eyes and in the ears
at that instant before death.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
After ten whole minutes of painful silence, I finally raised my hand and told Mr. O'Hara I loved Miranda Blythe's romance novels, and I decided I liked him immediately when he didn't laugh or reassure me that we'd be reading real books. Like Mrs. Andrews had last year.
He did say, 'I'm afraid Ms. Blythe is not on the curriculum this semester. We'll be starting your education with the epic poetsβboring, I know, but necessary building blocks. However, an extra-credit book report is always welcome, and you're free to choose whatever topic you like.'
Then Mr. O'Hara added, 'I think Ms. Blythe's works would be a particularly interesting topic for a report. In fact, if you want an example of the archetypal hero journeyβ'
'Wait, wait, wait.' Fred raised his hand. 'You read romance novels?'
'My dear boy,' Mr. O'Hara replied, 'I read everything.
β
β
Caitlen Rubino-Bradway (Ordinary Magic)
β
Now I am quietly waiting for
the catastrophe of my personality
to seem beautiful again,
and interesting, and modern.
The country is grey and
brown and white in trees,
snows and skies of laughter
always diminishing, less funny
not just darker, not just grey.
It may be the coldest day of
the year, what does he think of
that? I mean, what do I? And if I do,
perhaps I am myself again.
β
β
Frank O'Hara (Meditations in an Emergency)
β
Too many poets act like a middle-aged mother trying to get her kids to eat too much cooked meat, and potatoes with drippings (tears). I don't give a damn whether they eat or not. Forced feeding leads to excessive thinness (effete). Nobody should experience anything they don't need to, if they don't need poetry bully for them. I like the movies too. And after all, only Whitman and Crane and Williams, of the American poets, are better than the movies.
β
β
Frank O'Hara
β
She raised her chin and her pale, black-fringed eyes sparkled in the moonlight. Ellen had never told her that desire and attainment were two different matters; life had not taught her that the race was not to the swift. She lay in the silvery shadows with courage rising and made the plans that a sixteen-year-old makes when life has been so pleasant that defeat is an impossibility and a pretty dress and a clear complexion are weapons to vanquish fate.
β
β
Margaret Mitchell (Gone with the Wind: Part 1 of 2)
β
How funny you are today New York
like Ginger Rogers in Swingtime
and St. Bridgetβs steeple leaning a little to the left
here I have just jumped out of a bed full of V-days
(I got tired of D-days) and blue you there still
accepts me foolish and free
all I want is a room up there
and you in it
and even the traffic halt so thick is a way
for people to rub up against each other
and when their surgical appliances lock
they stay together
for the rest of the day (what a day)
I go by to check a slide and I say
that paintingβs not so blue
whereβs Lana Turner
sheβs out eating
and Garboβs backstage at the Met
everyoneβs taking their coat off
so they can show a rib-cage to the rib-watchers
and the parkβs full of dancers with their tights and shoes
in little bags
who are often mistaken for worker-outers at the West Side Y
why not
the Pittsburgh Pirates shout because they won
and in a sense weβre all winning
weβre alive
the apartment was vacated by a gay couple
who moved to the country for fun
they moved a day too soon
even the stabbings are helping the population explosion
though in the wrong country
and all those liars have left the UN
the Seagram Buildingβs no longer rivalled in interest
not that we need liquor (we just like it)
and the little box is out on the sidewalk
next to the delicatessen
so the old man can sit on it and drink beer
and get knocked off it by his wife later in the day
while the sun is still shining
oh god itβs wonderful
to get out of bed
and drink too much coffee
and smoke too many cigarettes
and love you so much
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Frank O'Hara
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The dismal fact is that self-respect has nothing to do with the approval of others β who are, after all, deceived easily enough; has nothing to do with reputation, which, as Rhett Butler told Scarlett OβHara, is something people with courage can do without.
To do without self-respect, on the other hand, is to be an unwilling audience of one to an interminable documentary that deals with oneβs failings, both real and imagined, with fresh footage spliced in for every screening. Thereβs the glass you broke in anger, thereβs the hurt on Xβs face; watch now, this next scene, the night Y came back from Houston, see how you muff this one. To live without self-respect is to lie awake some night, beyond the reach of warm milk, the Phenobarbital, and the sleeping hand on the coverlet, counting up the sins of commissions and omission, the trusts betrayed, the promises subtly broken, the gifts irrevocably wasted through sloth or cowardice, or carelessness. However long we postpone it, we eventually lie down alone in that notoriously uncomfortable bed, the one we make ourselves. Whether or not we sleep in it depends, of course, on whether or not we respect ourselves.
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Joan Didion
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Morning Poem"
I've got to tell you
how I love you always
I think of it on grey
mornings with death
in my mouth the tea
is never hot enough
then and the cigarette
dry the maroon robe
chills me I need you
and look out the window
at the noiseless snow
At night on the dock
the buses glow like
clouds and I am lonely
thinking of flutes
I miss you always
when I go to the beach
the sand is wet with
tears that seem mine
although I never weep
and hold you in my
heart with a very real
humor you'd be proud of
the parking lot is
crowded and I stand
rattling my keys the car
is empty as a bicycle
what are you doing now
where did you eat your
lunch and were there
lots of anchovies it
is difficult to think
of you without me in
the sentence you depress
me when you are alone
Last night the stars
were numerous and today
snow is their calling
card I'll not be cordial
there is nothing that
distracts me music is
only a crossword puzzle
do you know how it is
when you are the only
passenger if there is a
place further from me
I beg you do not go
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Frank O'Hara (The Collected Poems of Frank O'Hara)
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Nobody ever got started on a career as a writer by exercising good judgment, and no one ever will, either, so the sooner you break the habit of relying on yours, the faster you will advance. People with good judgment weigh the assurance of a comfortable living represented by the marinersβ certificates that declare them masters of all ships, whether steam or sail, and masters of all oceans and all navigable rivers, and do not forsake such work in order to learn English and write books signed Joseph Conrad. People who have had hard lives but somehow found themselves fetched up in executive positions with prosperous West Coast oil firms do not drink and wench themselves out of such comfy billets in order in their middle age to write books as Raymond Chandler; that would be poor judgment. No one on the payroll of a New York newspaper would get drunk and chuck it all to become a free-lance writer, so there was no John OβHara. When you have at last progressed to the junction that enforces the decision of whether to proceed further, by sending your stuff out, and refusing to remain a wistful urchin too afraid to beg, and you have sent the stuff, it is time to pause and rejoice.
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George V. Higgins