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I think that our younger self is so key to who we are and a heartbreaking thing to look at. I’m often struck by the damage I inflicted on my younger self. Why was I beating her up? I would never do that to you. I would never look at a child or a teenager, and say, “Hey, you’re broken. There’s something wrong with you.” You know? What an atrocious way that we treat ourselves. Especially women in this society. The amount of time wasted for a young woman wondering, “Am I fat? And is that a reason I should wanna be dead?” is so harrowing to consider. Just the wasted years of a lifetime. We live and we die and that’s it. I will say that finally now, at 39, I’m so relieved to be older. That we put so much preciousness on the teenage woman’s body and the 20-year-old woman’s body—fuck all of that. It’s so unfair and so minimizing to our true worth. We’re all in our own little weirdo fucking bodies with our own little weirdo faces and our own little weirdo ideas.
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