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it took time to realize that i have to stop giving myself away as if i didnβt belong to myself.
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thereβs a universe swirling inside you. you have to learn to be your own earth, wind, fire and water. you are a natural phenomenonβ not a natural disaster.
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donβt shrink your truth to make it fit nice and neatly in others as if itβs origami. unfold and free yourself.
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they say that patience is a virtue but they never tell you that the heat of waiting will burn you if you linger too long.
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i am good at holding onto nothing like itβs all i have and running away from something like itβs the plague. i
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i chiseled away parts of myself trying to be everything to you until it could no longer be rendered as art.
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darling, find passion and self-worth within instead of locking them inside of men who like swallowing keys so they can keep you all to themselves. Β
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itβs time to give the love you denied yourself but frantically searched for in others. itβs time to realize that love was never trapped underneath their lips and fingertips. you held it hostage the entire time.
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iβve learned to kiss you with my eyes. there are times you do not see me as i kiss you with a quiet desperation that you would never understand. Β
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the galaxy is yours star your own sky. drink the shooting stars. lasso the moon. take a bite. feel the juice of self-love running down your chin and laugh madly. youβre still alive. youβre still alive. youβre still alive.
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your eclipsed heart will wail for my stars until you realize you need my cosmic grace. Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β Β chaos
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sheβs a starry night sky.
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your skin is dark as the velvet night. your starred eyes are tenants in constellations. even the moon swells whenever youβre near. all
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glitter flows through my veins and the stars in my eyes dilate and burst into delusions.
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dear depression
you are a swallowed island.
a continental shelf of grief.
an underwater prison.
a fog holding the sky hostage
and chasing away the blue...
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i would lasso the sun and sell her rays for profit so you wouldnβt be blinded by her anymore. i would eat all the stars just for you to see the light in my eyes. i would bounce my love off rainclouds just to soften your calcified heart.
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To be honest, I donβt know who I was before but I must do the work to find out
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entrails i already know how to set your body on fire and watch the trail of ashes smolder but i want to learn how to find a place in your heart.
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i thought our hues were created to fuse into one another,
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if he looks into her eyes when they make love or takes her behind like he does you. if he holds her closer than a secret but never hides her behind closed doors.
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i search for water in your mouth, fire in your eyes, earth on your body and wind when you whisper in my ear.
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i no longer wait for the sea
to whisper your waves back to me...
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you are a natural phenomenonβ
not a natural disaster.
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the art of letting you go hasnβt been a graceful one.
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Thereβs light at the end of the tunnel if she would just open her eyes
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i took the
scenic route
to your heart
and got lost
in your kiss
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i stared at the ceiling, dispossessed every feeling, and waited on god to arrive and deprive me of this unholy war. god
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resentment Β i
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you foolishly stay and collect dust until a nostalgic craving rises in his bones.
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i knew his heart was yours but i wanted to become an alchemist to make gold of the pieces i received because all i ever felt was the dark side of his leaded heart.
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the earth tones clinging to the flesh of my bones couldnβt compete with the beauty and geometry of a snowflake.
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all the makings of you are love at first sight. when i dream of you tonight, i will hold you hostage underneath my eyelids. Β
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we were predestined to align. play and rewind. asked to define a love supreme, malignant or benign.
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i used to
turn away
from her
but now
I'm turning
into her
slowly
like honey.
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i can already
smell
and taste
the ways
you'll hurt me
stay
away
from
me.
or you'll
become my
next muse.
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if you told me
to come to you
right now
I would drop
everything,
watch it shatter
like glass,
and crawl
on the broken pieces
to show you
how much
love hurts.
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i am nothing
but a season
blooming
and bearing fruit
that you only pick
when you crave
something sweet
and forbidden.
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it took time to realize
that I must stop
giving myself away
as if I didn't belong
to myself.
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A true friend watches you bloom and doesnβt resent the sunlight.
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harden and soften me.
flood and quench me.
break me like a levee
and take the shape
of my heart.
this is healing
from the bottom up.
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there are no paved roads to healing.
you must build one brick by brick.
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i am not a resting place
for your pleasure
I bring you back to life
when life becomes
too heavy
for you to carry,
I absord the salt
from your veins.
when your tongue
grows bitter,
I grant you my honey.
know this-
you hide more than
you desire
when you're inside of me.
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i would lasso the sun and sell her rays for profit so you wouldnβt be blinded by her anymore. i would eat all the stars just for you to see the light in my eyes. i would bounce my love off rainclouds just to soften your calcified heart. what are you willing to do for me? Β Β
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know thisβ that you hide more than your bones when youβre inside of me.
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What should I do with this longing? Tuck it away like a letter that I'm too afraid to send?
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I am good at holding onto nothing like it's all I have and running away from something like it's the plague.
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I'll disappoint you because it's all I know
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Healing requires every cell in your body but I'm so used to dealing with myself in fragments.
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Would I know what peace looked like if it gently knocked on my heart? Would I open the door or pretend I wasn't home?
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I had to abdicate my love for you so I could start loving myself.
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It's time to give the love you denied yourself but frantically searched for in others.
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manic depression
one moment life
is more pigmented
than technicolour.
glitter flows
through my veins
and the stars
in my eyes dilate
and burst
into delusions.
minutes, hours,
or days later
shades of blue and black
surround me like smoke.
glitter morphs
into shards of glass
and taunts every
breath i take.
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write me love letters
dripping with the blood
from your fermented heart.
i want to get drunk
off your words
and become undone
like ribbons
witch each and
every syllaable.
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you will realize
that I'm more than
sweltering heat.
i am a drought.
a wildfire.
an impending storm
you cannot control.
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you said
i was dead
to you
and buried me
and every memory
I scurried
to the surface
and offered truth
as reprieve
but you shoveled
more dirt on me
I never felt
more alive
and dead
at the same time.
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when they find out
you have aq mental illness,
they'll treat you like glass
and anticipate you breaking
at any given moment.
they'll measure their words
with a pinch of fear
being careful not to overrun
your tiny trembling
cup of sanity.
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when the tides of life toss you around, learn to be shaped by the highs and lows. you will emerge weathered but wiser.
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you are not wasted stardust.
do not collapse into yourself.
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mental illness is not a switch you can turn on and off.
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you used to find refuge in me but now youβre swimming against the current of us.
my desperation grows more teeth
trying to make you stay
and ripping the sinews of my heart.
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when they find out
you have a mental illness,
theyβll treat you like glass
and anticipate you breaking
at any given moment.
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Another helpful practice is to release yourself from the need to be understood, and, conversely, to also release yourself from the need to understand others.
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They say that patience is a virtue but they never tell you that the heat of waiting will burn you if you linger too long.
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Once a heart learns how to break, it does not know how to forget.
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you are a natural
phenomenonβ
not a natural disaster.
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Formless (haiku)
The water inside
Billowing and cascading
Takes different shapes
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At first sight
When your eyes meet
Theirs for the first time
You become an ocean,
Waves inside you crash
And drench you in a thing
Youβre too afraid to name
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Like water
I will always remember
To quench you
Be your stillness
And pour myself
Into you like water
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And it was so good
You opened a corner of my heart
And shined a light
And it was so good
You drop-kicked my shell
And made it safe to crawl out
And it was so good
You laced every room with love
Every time you smiles
And it was so good
I saw my soul reflected
In the river of yours
And it was so good
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For Nina Simone
The trembling
Water of your voice
Is a baptism
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Soluble
I search for water
In your mouth
To dissolve the salt
Others leave behind
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Ebbed
Your body ebbed
Away from mine
When i needed
water the most.
I wake up wading
In knee deep ache
Reaching for you in the dark
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Weightless
I want a love
That feels weightless
In the thick of it all
A hopeful horizon
To stretch my arms out to
A love that never leaves
Me empty handed
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