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You don’t have to be good, or useful, for someone to care about you.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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People who love you for your usefulness don't love you at all.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Which is more intricate?” he mused. “The designs of men, trying to reach gods, or that of gods, trying to reach men?” My hammer collided with a chunk of granite. “What is either to the intricacies of women, who reach both?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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You want to throw me down. And I, prideful, disdainful, godless, want to drag you into the dirt with me.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Fear not, Bartholomew! Every day has its dog.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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If you only ever look up at something, can you ever see it clearly?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Glamour is fueled by the dreams and imagination of mortals. Writers, artists, little boys pretending to be knights - the fey are drawn to them like moths to flame. Why do you think so many children have imaginary friends?
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Julie Kagawa (The Iron King (The Iron Fey, #1))
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You know this story, Bartholomew, though you do not remember it. I'll tell it to you as best I can and promise to be honest in my talebearing. If I'm not, that's hardly my fault. To tell a story is in part to tell a lie, isn't it?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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When you do the right thing for the wrong reason, no one praises you. When you do the wrong thing for the right reason, everyone does, even though what is right and wrong depends entirely on the story you’re living in. And no one says they need recognition or praise or love, but we all hunger for it. We all want to be special.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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It is easier, swearing ourselves to someone else's cause than to sit with who we are without one.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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It's hard to see who I am when I am lost in what's expected of me.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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To the child in each of us, yearning to be special. Take my hand, you strange little creature, and together we shall walk beyond the wall.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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It sounds awful when I say it out loud.” “True things often do.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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You are more special than you realize. I don’t even know your name”—he drew in a breath—“and I would do anything for you.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I was losing my faith in everything. But the two of us meeting… it felt almost divine.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I cannot decide which I like best. The sunrise, or the sunset. They are like life, and her quiet companion, death.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I confess horses are not the intelligent beasts I imagined them to be. Though I don’t think that merits the abuse they suffer postmortem.” That one took me a moment. “No one actually beats dead horses, gargoyle. It’s an expression.” “Really? How morbid.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Just as well. Sometimes, Bartholomew, I think her quite the bitch.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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No honor among thieves, and even less among gods.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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How undignified.” The gargoyle let out a whimper. “Did anyone see me fall?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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To tell a story is in some part to tell a lie, isn’t it?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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My armor may dent, my sword may break, but I will never diminish.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Please, Rory. Take it off. I want someone to see me.” I whispered against his lips. “I want it to be you.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I’ll do anything you ask of me.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Will everyone kindly leave my fucking boots alone—
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Which one, Diviner?” Rory’s voice was deathly calm. He looked over his shoulder at me. “Which one marked up your face?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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You’re an incomparable fiend, Rodrick Myndacious. A truly accomplished asshole.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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You want to throw me down,” Rory said, eyelids dropping as he whispered into my parted lips. “And I, prideful, disdainful, godless, want to drag you into the dirt with me.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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The pretty one.” Rory’s eyes flitted to me. But the King’s finger, the knighthood’s collective gaze, was trained on Four.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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She's a guest of the king's. Affront her in any way, the knighthood will answer. Attempt to look beneath her shroud, and she and the gargoyle will respond as they see fit. With full immunity to any carnage tended."
The gargoyle batted his eyes. "Oh, Bartholomew. He's dreamy.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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By the seat of my skirts." He grasped my waist, smiled, and then on mighty feet, the gargoyle sprang from the ground. His wings spread, beat the air, stirring smoke. I held to his neck, and he to my waist, and then we were soring.
"Seat of my pants," I called over the wind.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Pith, you think there’s something wrong with me—” “I don’t.” Rory’s voice was gravel. “I was wondering what it would be like. Watching you unravel.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I dreamed of a knight with gold in his ears and charcoal around his eyes, who did all the ignoble things I asked of him.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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If you value your friend when he fights your battles for you - when he is rogue and ruthless- you must value him when he is gentle, too. Otherwise you do not value him at all.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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No is a sufficient answer.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I don’t want him touching you like he did last night. I don’t want him within a fucking mile of you.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Dead as a doorhanger?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Am I all that you imagined?” I said, looking down at her. “Or am I so much more?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I washed the Divining robes this morning." The gargoyle led me down the nave. On the final pew, six silk robes waited. "It was an abundant chore. I am within myself with fatigue."
"Beside," I murmured, peeling off my clothes. " 'Beside myself with fatigue' is the proper expression."
The gargoyle's stone brow knit. "If I were beside myself, there would be two of me, and the washing would have taken half the time.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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He held me in his gaze like he needed to. “Do you want to know how it ends?” “Does it end?” He nodded. “It ends a handful of minutes from now. After you’ve won, and there is one less Omen in the world.” He grinned. “It ends when you kiss me.” “You mean it ends after I’ve won, and there is one less Omen in the world—and I hit you as hard as I can.” “With your mouth.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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It is important for a squire to carry a knight’s weapons,” he said, the words so stoic I wondered if he’d practiced them on the flight back. “I will carry them for you, Bartholomew. I will shoulder any weight you give me.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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You’d like me better if you called me Rory.” “I’d like you better if you were on your back again.” He smiled. An unfamiliar heat burrowed into my face. “From throwing you and your inferior strength down, obviously.” “Loud and clear, Diviner. I hear you loud and clear.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Turns out fucking someone just to spite you leaves a lot to be desired.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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There was something enticing about hitting something again and again and not breaking it.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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That was part of their appeal. Gods that couldn’t be seen, even in dreams, were effective. You never knew when they were watching.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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If I am wonderful and wretched for learning the truth of the Omens, your hands are marked by the blood of my metamorphosis.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Would that things were different.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Fear is not an outward pointing compass....You should not let it guide your way.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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My body had always been strong—and ever just enough. But whatever my soul was made of was frail. Like birch bark, like gossamer, like the wings of a moth.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Starving things make for loyal pets, so long as you feed them just enough.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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To tell a story is in some part to tell a lie, isn't it?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Once, there was a foundling boy who didn’t believe in anything. He grew up, became a worldly knight, and still he struggled to believe. He bore hardly any hope, and a mountain of disdain. And that should have been the end.” He took my hand, squeezed it, tightening my hold on my hammer. “But then he came to a cathedral upon a tor, and met a woman there. And all the tales he’d troubled himself with about cruelty, about unfairness and godlessness… he started to forget. He was afforded another chance, as if by magic, to believe in something. He’d never be a very good knight, but every time he looked at the woman, he had the distinct faith”—his eyes roved my face—“that things could be better than they’d been.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Sounds like a beggar's barge-in."
I wrinkled my nose. "It's 'beggar's bargain,' gargoyle.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Swords and armor are nothing to stone.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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If you treat her like she’s fragile,” Benji said pointedly, “she’ll start to think that of herself. Let her remain as she is, strong and fearsome—
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I would not blame you. It is easier, swearing ourselves to someone else’s cause than to sit with who we are without one.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Violence is a craft. So is compassion.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Faith requires a display. The greater the spectacle, the greater the illusion.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Anger is a fine weapon, Diviner,” she said, quiet enough so the others wouldn’t hear. “So long as you don’t point it at yourself. Now have some soup.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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And what a useless thing pity is, for a guest is always a kind of trespasser.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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It’s not true, you know,” he said. “You don’t have to be good, or useful, for someone to care about you.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I am a battlefield of admiration.” He nodded at the horizon. “I cannot decide which I like best. The sunrise, or the sunset. They are like life, and her quiet companion, death.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Not everything had to hurt to be holy. Bad, to be good. But damn me if I wanted it to sometimes.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I don’t.” Rory’s voice was gravel. “I was wondering what it would be like. Watching you unravel.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Her care came with conditions. You bent yourself to fit them, and now… now you see yourself as this terrible burden. Like you’re nothing if you’re not the best, the most useful version of yourself.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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He was muttering to himself again. “Tell me at least you have something for your feet.” “Like what?” “Like what—like shoes, you twit. Boots. Slippers. Clogs fashioned by your stupid chisel. Anything.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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A Mystic And A Drunk
The Universe turns on an axis.
Let my soul circle around a table
like a beggar, like a planet
rolling in the vast, totally helpless and free.
The knight and the castle move jaggedly
about the chessboard, but they're actually
centered on the king. They circle.
If love is your center, a ring
gets put on your finger.
Something inside the moth
is made of fire.
A mystic touches the annihilating tip
of pure nothing.
A drunkard thinks peeing is absolution.
Lord, take these impurities from me.
The lord replies, First, understand
the nature of impurity. If your key is bent,
the lock will not open.
I fall silent.
King Shams has come.
Always when I close, he opens.
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Jalal ad-Din Muhammad ar-Rumi (The Essential Rumi)
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I hated dreaming,” I said. “I hated it so much I decided I’d be perfect at it so that no one ever knew.” She faced me. “Why do we do these things to ourselves?” “The answer is rather simple.” The gargoyle swatted birch branches as we passed them by. “When you do the right thing for the wrong reason, no one praises you. When you do the wrong thing for the right reason, everyone does, even though what is right and wrong depends entirely on the story you’re living in. And no one says they need recognition or praise or love, but we all hunger for it. We all want to be special.” “That is a very keen thing to say, gargoyle.” Maude put her uninjured hand on his shoulder. “How is it you came to know so much more about life than the rest of us?” His chest puffed with pride. “I am years beyond my wisdom.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Discussing things with that equine proved quite a bore.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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gargoyle’s echoing cry. The Heartsore Weaver’s breath went out. “That’s it. The foundling upon the tor. The first Diviner.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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You are not a dream. You’re just a man, paid like a king to playact as a god. A facade, hoarding wealth, yet claiming to starve.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Just the way you like me.” Rory nipped the pad of my thumb. “Now run it again.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Which is more intricate?” he mused. “The designs of men, trying to reach gods, or that of gods, trying to reach men?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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the only god of men is coin.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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You touch my feet, you die.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Don’t embarrass yourselves. Don’t drink too much or gamble or fight—Tory, I’m looking at you.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Take it off.” “No.” “Why not?” “No is a sufficient answer.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Overhead, the gargoyle was soaring and spinning, bidding “welfare” instead of “farewell” to the fading night.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Your foot-gloves are perfectly unscathed.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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We are all supplicants. Whether craftsman or a king, knight or foundling or Diviner -- faith is the same.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I was losing my faith in everything, but the two of us meeting... it felt almost divine.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I think I would like to stop promising myself away, or else there will be nothing left of me to give, King Castor.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Don’t look to dreams, and don’t look for signs. Just look forward. Tomorrow will go well.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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For the first time since before I could remember, I cried. It hurt more than drowning.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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He always seemed to open the door to himself the moment I needed somewhere to go.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Don’t worry, Bartholomew,” the gargoyle called. “If you accidentally kill her, I will not be upset.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Sadness, like birch bark, had all the appearance of frailty. And yet… The tree prevailed.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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First, you unravel,
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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If you value your friend when he fights your battles for you -- when he's rogue and ruthless -- you must value him when he is gentle, too. Otherwise you do not value him at all.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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He screamed. “Sprites and spoons—you startled me, Bartholomew.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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The second was a woman, and she kissed me so well beneath my dress that I thought myself in love—but then she tried to take off my shroud after I told her I could not, and I lost all my ardor.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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It is not like me to be the bearer of bad tidings,” the gargoyle said. “Bartholomew does not know how to swim. But worry not—” He looked up at me. Smiled proudly. “She has always excelled at drowning.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Reached for his cheek—dragged the corner of his mouth up with my thumb until he wore an absurd half smile. “That’s better. Still foul and unknightly, though.” “Just the way you like me.” Rory nipped the pad of my thumb.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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I confess horses are not the intelligent beasts I imagined them to be. Though I don’t think that merits the abuse they suffer postmortem.” That one took me a moment. “No one actually beats dead horses, gargoyle. It’s an expression.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Do you mind?” the stranger snapped. “I’m here to rescue you.” Michonne—Michi for short—stared at the man rubbing his chest. “Who are you?” Other than ridiculously handsome with dark hair and blue eyes. “Your fucking knight in shining armor.
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Eve Langlais (First Mate's Accidental Wife (Gypsy Moth, #1))
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Do you understand the lesson of the sword and the charge I have laid on you?” “Yes, mother. Kill heretics, don’t sleep around, obey the king. But… we don’t have kings in America, and I think being a heretic is protected by the First Amendment.
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John C. Wright (Swan Knight's Son (The Green Knight's Squire #1; Moth & Cobweb #1))
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Held it up to Aisling Cathedral’s looming edifice. “Which is more intricate?” he mused. “The designs of men, trying to reach gods, or that of gods, trying to reach men?” My hammer collided with a chunk of granite. “What is either to the intricacies of women, who reach both?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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Rory rolled his eyes. Brought his wax-laden thumb to my mouth. “You don’t like it when I’m a bad knight,” he muttered, “and you don’t like it when I’m a good one.” I reached out. Smudged blood he’d shed sparring from his own bottom lip and wiped it on my dress. “Have you considered that’s because I don’t like you at all?
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))
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This isn’t a particularly unique tale of woe. Perhaps you, too, have experienced something good and, in its aftermath, in a moment of sickness or tiredness or humanness, thought, Well, that’s it—my skill is spent. All that’s left to do now is fail. I am but a frayed piece of thread. Spilled ink. A sad little butterfly crushed upon a wheel.
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Rachel Gillig (The Knight and the Moth (The Stonewater Kingdom, #1))