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Don't bend; don't water it down; don't try to make it logical; don't edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.
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Franz Kafka
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A book must be the axe for the frozen sea within us.
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Franz Kafka
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I am a cage, in search of a bird.
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Franz Kafka
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Many a book is like a key to unknown chambers within the castle of oneβs own self.
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Franz Kafka
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Youth is happy because it has the capacity to see beauty. Anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old.
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Franz Kafka
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I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.
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Franz Kafka (The Metamorphosis)
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I am free and that is why I am lost.
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Franz Kafka
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I write differently from what I speak, I speak differently from what I think, I think differently from the way I ought to think, and so it all proceeds into deepest darkness.
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Franz Kafka
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The meaning of life is that it stops.
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Franz Kafka
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A First Sign of the Beginning of Understanding is the Wish to Die.
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Franz Kafka
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All language is but a poor translation.
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Franz Kafka
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I have spent all my life resisting the desire to end it.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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A non-writing writer is a monster courting insanity."
[Letter to Max Brod, July 5, 1922]
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Franz Kafka
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I have the true feeling of myself only when I am unbearably unhappy.
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Franz Kafka
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Slept, awoke, slept, awoke, miserable life.
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Franz Kafka
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By believing passionately in something that still does not exist, we create it. The nonexistent is whatever we have not sufficiently desired.
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Franz Kafka
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It's only because of their stupidity that they're able to be so sure of themselves.
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Franz Kafka (The Trial)
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You are the knife I turn inside myself; that is love. That, my dear, is love.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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Books are a narcotic.
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Franz Kafka
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Paths are made by walking
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Franz Kafka
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He is terribly afraid of dying because he hasnβt yet lived.
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Franz Kafka
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I think we ought to read only the kind of books that wound and stab us.
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Franz Kafka
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I think we ought to read only the kind of books that wound or stab us. If the book we're reading doesn't wake us up with a blow to the head, what are we reading for? So that it will make us happy, as you write? Good Lord, we would be happy precisely if we had no books, and the kind of books that make us happy are the kind we could write ourselves if we had to. But we need books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we loved more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea within us. That is my belief.
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Franz Kafka
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I miss you deeply, unfathomably, senselessly, terribly.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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You do not need to leave your room. Remain sitting at your table and listen. Do not even listen, simply wait, be quiet, still and solitary. The world will freely offer itself to you to be unmasked, it has no choice, it will roll in ecstasy at your feet.
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Franz Kafka
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I usually solve problems by letting them devour me.
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Franz Kafka
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Writing is utter solitude, the descent into the cold abyss of oneself.
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Franz Kafka
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There is an infinite amount of hope in the universe ... but not for us.
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Franz Kafka
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Iβm tired, canβt think of anything and want only to lay my face in your lap, feel your hand on my head and remain like that through all eternity.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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I never wish to be easily defined. Iβd rather float over other peopleβs minds as something strictly fluid and non-perceivable; more like a transparent, paradoxically iridescent creature rather than an actual person.
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Franz Kafka
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I am in chains. Don't touch my chains.
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Franz Kafka
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In a way, you are poetry material; You are full of cloudy subtleties I am willing to spend a lifetime figuring out. Words burst in your essence and you carry their dust in the pores of your ethereal individuality.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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Yours
(now I'm even losing my name - it was getting shorter and shorter all the time and is now: Yours)
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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How about if I sleep a little bit longer and forget all this nonsense",
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Franz Kafka (Metamorphosis (Illustrated))
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Now I can look at you in peace; I don't eat you any more.
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Franz Kafka
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As Gregor Samsa awoke one morning from uneasy dreams he found himself transformed in his bed into a gigantic insect.
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Franz Kafka (The Metamorphosis)
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I do not speak as I think, I do not think as I should, and so it all goes on in helpless darkness.
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Franz Kafka
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You are at once both the quiet and the confusion of my heart.
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Franz Kafka
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This tremendous world I have inside of me. How to free myself, and this world, without tearing myself to pieces. And rather tear myself to a thousand pieces than be buried with this world within me.
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Franz Kafka (Diaries, 1910-1923)
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Better to have, and not need, than to need, and not have.
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Franz Kafka
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They say ignorance is bliss.... they're wrong
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Franz Kafka
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I need solitude for my writing; not 'like a hermit' - that wouldn't be enough - but like a dead man.
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Franz Kafka
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I am constantly trying to communicate something incommunicable, to explain something inexplicable, to tell about something I only feel in my bones and which can only be experienced in those bones. Basically it is nothing other than this fear we have so often talked about, but fear spread to everything, fear of the greatest as of the smallest, fear, paralyzing fear of pronouncing a word, although this fear may not only be fear but also a longing for something greater than all that is fearful.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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In man's struggle against the world, bet on the world.
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Franz Kafka
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May I kiss you then? On this miserable paper? I might as well open the window and kiss the night air.
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Franz Kafka
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April 27. Incapable of living with people, of speaking. Complete immersion in myself, thinking of myself. Apathetic, witless, fearful. I have nothing to say to anyone - never.
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Franz Kafka (Diaries, 1910-1923)
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People label themselves with all sorts of adjectives. I can only pronounce myself as 'nauseatingly miserable beyond repair'.
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Franz Kafka (Diaries, 1910-1923)
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I canβt think of any greater happiness than to be with you all the time, without interruption, endlessly, even though I feel that here in this world thereβs no undisturbed place for our love, neither in the village nor anywhere else; and I dream of a grave, deep and narrow, where we could clasp each other in our arms as with clamps, and I would hide my face in you and you would hide your face in me, and nobody would ever see us any more.
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Franz Kafka (Franz Kafka's The Castle (Dramatization))
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Written kisses don't reach their destination, rather they are drunk on the way by the ghosts.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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I was ashamed of myself when I realised life was a costume party and I attended with my real face
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Franz Kafka
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It would have been so pointless to kill himself that, even if he had wanted to, the pointlessness would have made him unable.
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Franz Kafka (The Trial)
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Beyond a certain point there is no return. This point has to be reached.
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Franz Kafka
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Most men are not wicked... They are sleep-walkers, not evil evildoers.
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Franz Kafka
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You can hold yourself back from the sufferings of the world, that is something you are free to do and it accords with your nature, but perhaps this very holding back is the one suffering you could avoid.
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Franz Kafka
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I am not well; I could have built the Pyramids with the effort it takes me to cling on to life and reason.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Felice)
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We photograph things in order to drive them out of our minds. My stories are a way of shutting my eyes.
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Franz Kafka
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L'Γ©ternitΓ©, c'est long ... surtout vers la fin.
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Franz Kafka
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Love is a drama of contradictions.
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Franz Kafka
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First impressions are always unreliable.
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Franz Kafka
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I dream of a grave, deep and narrow, where we could clasp each other in our arms as with clamps, and I would hide my face in you and you would hide your face in me, and nobody would ever see us any more
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Franz Kafka (The Castle)
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From a certain point onward there is no longer any turning back. That is the point that must be reached.
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Franz Kafka (The Trial)
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Iβm doing badly, Iβm doing well, whichever you prefer.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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You are free and that is why you are lost.
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Franz Kafka (Letter to His Father)
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Do you know, darling? When you became involved with others you quite possibly stepped down a level or two, but If you become involved with me, you will be throwing yourself into the abyss.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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sleep is the most innocent creature there is and a sleepless man
the most guilty.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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Last night I dreamed about you. What happened in detail I can hardly remember, all I know is that we kept merging into one another. I was you, you were me. Finally you somehow caught fire.
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Franz Kafka
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I am dirty, Milena, endlessly dirty, that is why I make such a fuss about cleanliness. None sing as purely as those in deepest hell; it is their singing we take for the singing of angels.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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What am I doing here in this endless winter?
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Franz Kafka (The Metamorphosis and Other Stories)
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All I am is literature, and I am not able or willing to be anything else.
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Franz Kafka
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Kill me, or you are a murderer.
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Franz Kafka
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Was he an animal, that music could move him so? He felt as if the way to the unknown nourishment he longed for were coming to light.
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Franz Kafka (Metamorphosis)
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Just think how many thoughts a blanket smothers while one lies alone in bed, and how many unhappy dreams it keeps warm.
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Franz Kafka (The Complete Stories)
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You are at once both the quiet and the confusion of my heart; imagine my heartbeat when you are in this state.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Felice)
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They're talking about things of which they don't have the slightest understanding, anyway. It's only because of their stupidity that they're able to be so sure of themselves.
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Franz Kafka (The Trial)
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it is not necessary to accept everything as true, one must only accept it as necessary.' 'A melancholy conclusion,' said K. 'It turns lying into a universal principle.
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Franz Kafka (The Trial)
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For myself I am too heavy, and for you too light.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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Every thing you love is very likely to be lost, but in the end, love will return in a different way.
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Franz Kafka (Kafka's Selected Stories: A Norton Critical Edition (Norton Critical Editions))
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I want in fact more of you. In my mind I am dressing you with light; I am wrapping you up in blankets of complete acceptance and then I give myself to you. I long for you; I who usually long without longing, as though I am unconscious and absorbed in neutrality and apathy, really, utterly long for every bit of you.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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Please β consider me a dream.
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Franz Kafka
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I long for you; I who usually longs without longing, as though I am unconscious and absorbed in neutrality and apathy, really, utterly long for every bit of you.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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My peers, lately, have found companionship through means of intoxication--it makes them sociable. I, however, cannot force myself to use drugs to cheat on my loneliness--it is all that I have--and when the drugs and alcohol dissipate, will be all that my peers have as well.
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Franz Kafka
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Logic may indeed be unshakeable, but it cannot withstand a man who is determined to live.
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Franz Kafka (The Trial)
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My guiding principle is this: Guilt is never to be doubted.
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Franz Kafka
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The truth is always an abyss. One must β as in a swimming pool β dare to dive from the quivering springboard of trivial everyday experience and sink into the depths, in order to later rise again β laughing and fighting for breath β to the now doubly illuminated surface of things.
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Franz Kafka
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The Kafka paradox: art depends on truth, but truth, being indivisable, cannot know itself: to tell the truth is to lie. thus the writer is the truth, and yet when he speaks he lies.
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Franz Kafka
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I have hardly anything in common with myself and should stand very quietly in a corner, content that I can breathe.
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Franz Kafka
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I can love only what I can place so high above me that I cannot reach it.
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Franz Kafka
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Dear Milena,
I wish the world were ending tomorrow. Then I could take the next train, arrive at your doorstep in Vienna, and say: βCome with me, Milena. We are going to love each other without scruples or fear or restraint. Because the world is ending tomorrow.β Perhaps we donβt love unreasonably because we think we have time, or have to reckon with time. But what if we don't have time? Or what if time, as we know it, is irrelevant? Ah, if only the world were ending tomorrow. We could help each other very much.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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The limited circle is pure.
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Franz Kafka
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You misinterpret everything, even the silence.
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Franz Kafka (The Castle)
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Iβm thinking only of my illness and my health, though both, the first as well as the second, are you.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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We need the books that affect us like a disaster, that grieve us deeply, like the death of someone we loved more than ourselves, like being banished into forests far from everyone, like a suicide. A book must be the axe for the frozen sea inside us.
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Franz Kafka
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If I could drown in sleep as I drown in fear I would be no longer alive.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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I am always trying to convey something that canβt be conveyed, to explain something which is inexplicable, to tell about something I have in my bones, something which can be expressed only in the bones.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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One of the first signs of the beginning of understanding is the wish to die. This life appears unbearable, another unattainable. One is no longer ashamed of wanting to die; one asks to be moved from the old cell, which one hates, to a new one, which one willl only in time come to hate. In this there is also a residue of belief that during the move the master will chance to come along the corridor, look at the prisoner and say: "This man is not to be locked up again, He is to come with me.
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Franz Kafka (Blue Octavo Notebooks)
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We are as forlorn as children lost in the wood. When you stand in front of me and look at me, what do you know of the griefs that are in me and what do I know of yours? And if I were to cast myself down before you and tell you, what more would you know about me that you know about Hell when someone tells you it is hot and dreadful?
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Franz Kafka
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He thought back on his family with deep emotion and love. His conviction that he would have to disappear was, if possible, even firmer than his sister's. He remained in this state of empty and peaceful reflection until the tower clock struck three in the morning. He still saw that outside the window everything was beginning to grow light. Then, without his consent, his head sank down to the floor, and from his nostrils streamed his last weak breath.
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Franz Kafka (Metamorphosis)
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When one is alone, imperfection must be endured every minute of the day; a couple, however, does not have to put up with it. Arenβt our eyes made to be torn out, and our hearts for the same purpose? At the same time itβs really not that bad; thatβs an exaggeration and a lie, everything is exaggeration, the only truth is longing. But even the truth of longing is not so much its own truth; itβs really an expression for everything else, which is a lie. This sounds crazy and distorted, but itβs true. Moreover, perhaps it isnβt love when I say you are what I love the most - you are the knife I turn inside myself, this is love. This, my dear, is love.
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Franz Kafka (Letters to Milena)
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We are as forlorn as children lost in the woods. When you stand in front of me and look at me, what do you know of the griefs that are in me and what do I know of yours. And if I were to cast myself down before you and weep and tell you, what more would you know about me than you know about Hell when someone tells you it is hot and dreadful? For that reason alone we human beings ought to stand before one another as reverently, as reflectively, as lovingly, as we would before the entrance to Hell.
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Franz Kafka
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Franz Kafka is Dead
He died in a tree from which he wouldn't come down. "Come down!" they cried to him. "Come down! Come down!" Silence filled the night, and the night filled the silence, while they waited for Kafka to speak. "I can't," he finally said, with a note of wistfulness. "Why?" they cried. Stars spilled across the black sky. "Because then you'll stop asking for me." The people whispered and nodded among themselves. They put their arms around each other, and touched their children's hair. They took off their hats and raised them to the small, sickly man with the ears of a strange animal, sitting in his black velvet suit in the dark tree. Then they turned and started for home under the canopy of leaves. Children were carried on their fathers' shoulders, sleepy from having been taken to see who wrote his books on pieces of bark he tore off the tree from which he refused to come down. In his delicate, beautiful, illegible handwriting. And they admired those books, and they admired his will and stamina. After all: who doesn't wish to make a spectacle of his loneliness? One by one families broke off with a good night and a squeeze of the hands, suddenly grateful for the company of neighbors. Doors closed to warm houses. Candles were lit in windows. Far off, in his perch in the trees , Kafka listened to it all: the rustle of the clothes being dropped to the floor, or lips fluttering along naked shoulders, beds creaking along the weight of tenderness. It all caught in the delicate pointed shells of his ears and rolled like pinballs through the great hall of his mind.
That night a freezing wind blew in. When the children woke up, they went to the window and found the world encased in ice. One child, the smallest, shrieked out in delight and her cry tore through the silence and exploded the ice of a giant oak tree. The world shone.
They found him frozen on the ground like a bird. It's said that when they put their ears to the shell of his ears, they could hear themselves.
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Nicole Krauss (The History of Love)