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Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
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What immortal hand or eye
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Itβs a profoundly strange feeling, to stumble across someone whose desires are shaped so closely to your own, like reaching toward your reflection in a mirror and finding warm flesh under your fingertips. If you should ever be lucky enough to find that magical, fearful symmetry, I hope youβre brave enough to grab it with both hands and not let go.
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There are several ways to react to being lost. One is to panic: this was usually Valentina's first impulse. Another is to abandon yourself to lostness, to allow the fact that you've misplaced yourself to change the way you experience the world.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Listen, sometimes when you finally find out, you realize that you were much better off not knowing.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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You're the oddest person I've ever met, you couldn't get rid of me if you tried.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Why do you have a cigarette lighter in your glove compartment?" her husband, Jack, asked her. "I'm bored with knitting. I've taken up arson
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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What is more basic than the need to be known? It is the entirety of intimacy, the elixir of love, this knowing.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?
In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare sieze the fire?
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Sometimes a thing isβtoo muchβand it has to be isolated and put away." Martin shrugged. "So what's in the boxes isβemotion. In the form of objects."-Her Fearful Symmetry
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Audrey Niffenegger
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I'm bored with knitting. I've taken up arson.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Is it sad to fancy David Tennant when you're dead?
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He was not in the house. He did not come back that night. Days went by, and at last she understood that he would not return at all.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Even her name seemed empty, as though it had detached itself from her and was floating untethered in his mind. How am I supposed to live without you? It was not a matter of the body; his body would carry on as usual. The problem was located in the word how: he would live, but without Elspeth the flavour, the manner, the method of living were lost to him. He would have to relearn solitude.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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He thanked her and left the house in the mood of a shipwrecked man who has allowed the rescue ship to pass him by.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Thatβs the thing about living vicariously; itβs so much faster than actual living.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Thatβs the thing about living vicariously; itβs so much faster than actual living. In a few minutes weβll be worrying about names for the children.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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He had never realized, while Elspeth was alive, the extent to which a thing had not completely happened until he told her about it.
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In the dim light of the computer screen he seemed otherworldly; Julia thought him beautiful, though she knew it was the beauty of damage.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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I think play must have been invented so we wouldn't go mad thinking about certain things.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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I don't want to boss anyone and I don't want to be bossed.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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I guess no matter what your family is like, you're not surprised.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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He would say her name over and over until it devolved into meaningless sounds - mah REI kuh, mah REI kuh - it became an entry in a dictionary of loneliness.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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That is what madness is, isn't it? All the wheels fly off the bus and things don't make sense any more. Or rather, they do, but it's not a kind of sense anyone else can understand.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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There was only the cemetery itself, spread out in the moonlight like a soft grey hallucination, a stony wilderness of Victorian melancholy.
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Not because theyβre dead. Though unattainability is always attractive.
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Sometimes a thing is---too much---and it has to be isolated put away.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Martin said, "It feels as though part of my self has detached and gone to Amsterdam, where itβsheβis waiting for me. Do you know about phantom-limb syndrome?" Julia nodded. "There's pain where she ought to be. It's feeding the other pain, the thing that makes me wash and count and all that. So her absence is stopping me from going to find her. Do you see?
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Being in love isβ¦anxious,β he said. βWanting to please, worrying that she will see me as I really am. But wanting to be known. That isβ¦youβre naked, moaning in the dark, no dignity at allβ¦I wanted her to see me and to love me even though she knew everything I am, and I knew her
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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When we were that young we invented the world, no one could tell us a thing.
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We're squirrels in human form, she whispered. And so are you.
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I've been called many things in my time, but never a conduit of divinity- Cedric MacKinnon, My Fearful Symmetry
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Jessica put out her hand and braced herself against the door jamb. She experienced one of those rare moments when understanding of the world alters and a previously impossible thing is admitted, if not understood.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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A bad thing about dying is that I've started to feel as though I'm being erased. Another bad thing is that I won't get to find out what happens next.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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It wasn't quite raining, but it wasn't exactly not raining either. She heard the driver squelching along the path behind her.
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animals are indeed more ancient, more complex and in many ways more sophisticated than us. They are more perfect because they remain within Nature's fearful symmetry just as Nature intended. They should be respected and revered, but perhaps none more so than the elephant, the world's most emotionally human land mammal.
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The kissed surprised him because it had been so long since he'd kissed anyone but Elspeth. It surprised Valentina because she had hardly ever kissed anyone that way - to her, kissing had always been more theoretical than physical. Afterwards she stood with her eyes closed, lips parted, face tilted. Robert thought, She's going to break my heart and I'm going to let her.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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You're my phantom limb, Mouse. I keep looking for you. I forget. I feel stupid, Mouse. Haunt me, find me, come back from wherever you are. Be with me.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Each of them warmed to the sound of the other's voice. They lay in the dark together, in distant cities, each of them thinking, We were lucky this time. And they pressed their phones closer to their ears, and both of them wondered how much longer this separation could go on.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Iβm curious about things that people arenβt supposed to seeβso, for example, I liked going to the British Museum, but I would like it better if I could go into all the offices and storage rooms, I want to look in all the drawers andβdiscover stuff. And I want to know about people. I mean, I know itβs probably kind of rude but I want to know why you have all these boxes and whatβs in them and why all your windows are papered over and how long itβs been that way and how do you feel when you wash things and why donβt you do something about it?
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Everything is still out there: the rooftops and chimneys, the graffiti, the office towers and the cyclists; soon there will be sheep and that immense sky the keep out in the countryside... Once I thought there were two realities, inner and outer, but perhaps that's a bit meagre; I'm not quite the same person I was last night...
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Being in love isβ¦anxious,β he said. βWanting to please, worrying that she will see me as I really am. But wanting to be known. That isβ¦youβre naked, moaning in the dark, no dignity at allβ¦I wanted her to see me and to love me even though she knew everything I am, and I knew her.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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He didn't take care of you; you had to take care of yourself.
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For the first time in months I felt my body slacken. I had been carrying myself like a gun, cocked, alert, ready for trouble, fearing it.
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Elspeth stood in the sun, letting it pour through her, watching the Kitten sleep. I want you. Elspeth felt depressed. She had never thought of herself as someone who would kill a beautiful white kitten while it napped. But apparently she was that sort of person. Don't you worry, Kitten. I'll put you right back.
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You didnβt answer my question. I asked you about being in love. You said what it was like when your wife went away.β
Martin sat down again. How young she is. When we were that young we invented the world, no one could tell us a thing. Julia stood with her hands clenched, as though she wanted to pound an answer out of him. βBeing in love isβ¦anxious,β he said. βWanting to please, worrying that she will see me as I really am. But wanting to be known. That isβ¦youβre naked, moaning in the dark, no dignity at allβ¦I wanted her to see me and to love me even though she knew everything I am, and I knew her. Now sheβs gone, and my knowledge is incomplete. So all day I imagine what she is doing, what she says and who she talks to, how she looks. I try to supply the missing hours, and it gets harder as they pile up, all the time sheβs been gone. I have to imagine. I donβt know, really. I donβt know any more.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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She's going to break my heart and I'm going to let her.
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He remembered a version of himself untrammeled by expectation, unimpeded by Ego. He had suffered in the many years since then, seeking to return to that original self, if, in fact, it ever existed. And yet, he was helpless but to regard that unmistakable fear that gripped him in his dream as a sign that his unevenness lent him now to utter incongruity with this specter of past.
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I fell asleep. But later that night I woke up. There was moonlight coming through the window, and shadows of tree branches fell onto the bed, waving gently in the breeze."
"And then you saw the ghost?"
James laughed. "Dear chap, the branches WERE the ghost. There weren't any trees within a hundred yards of that house. They'd all been cut down years before. I saw the ghost of a tree.
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And so the twins had remained virgins. Julia and Valentina watched all of their high school and college friends disappear one by one into the adult world of sex, until they were the only people they knew who lingered in the world of the uninitiated. "What was it like?" they asked each friend. The answers were vague. Sex was a private joke: you had to be there.
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He had never realised, while Elspeth was alive, the extent to which a thing had not completely happened until he told her about it.
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Wisdom is the central form which gives meaning and position to all the facts which are acquired by knowledge, the digestion and assimilation of whatever in the material world the man comes in contact with.
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How delicately language skirts the issue. How meaningless it is.
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Audrey Niffenegger (Her Fearful Symmetry)
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Everything hurt but she did not mind.
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I'm going to fall apart...I cant--I don't know what to feel.
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No.β Valentina closed her eyes. Of course not. βItβll be great, Mouse. Weβll have our own apartment, we wonβt have to work,
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Is it sad to fancy David Tennant when youβre dead?" Elspeth
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Ahem," she said. "What are you doing?" Jessica had a voice that rose and fell like a swooping kite. The children instantly stopped what they were doing and looked self-conscious, like cats that have fallen off something ungracefully and now sit licking themselves, pretending nothing has happened.
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Stonewall Jackson was master of all he surveyed. Two Union forces were withdrawing from his front. There was a certain beautiful symmetry to it. The campaign, which started with a single enemy army pursuing Jackson southward through the valley, would end with two beaten Union armies withdrawing from him in a northerly direction. A week later, Jackson advised his mapmaker, Hotchkiss, to 'never take counsel of your fears.' A person who followed such advice would be doomed to a short life.
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Art is neither good nor bad, but a clairvoyant vision of the nature of both, and any attempt to align it with morality, otherwise known as bowdlerizing,is intolerably vulgar...Unimaginative realism evokes only the smug pleasure of recognition.the painter becomes popular because he assures everyone else that he sees no more than they see...Art is suggestive rather than explicit: it makes no attempt to persuade into general agreement or provide mediocre levels of explanation...the bold imagination produces great art; the timid one small art. But the healthy eye does not see more broadly and vaguely than the weak eye; it sees more clearly...a real miracle is an imaginative effort which meets with an imaginative response.
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Now Melkor began the delving and building of a vast fortress, deep under Earth, beneath dark mountains where the beams of Illuin were cold and dim. That stronghold was named Utumno. And though the Valar knew naught of it as yet, nonetheless the evil of Melkor and the blight of his hatred flowed out thence, and the Spring of Arda was marred. Green things fell sick and rotted, and rivers were choked with weeds and slime, and fens were made, rank and poisonous, the breeding place of flies; and forests grew dark and perilous, the haunts of fear; and beasts became monsters of horn and ivory and dyed the earth with blood. Then the Valar knew indeed that Melkor was at work again, and they sought for his hiding place. But Melkor, trusting in the strength of Utumno and the might of his servants, came forth suddenly to war, and struck the first blow, ere the Valar were prepared; and he assailed the lights of Illuin and Ormal, and cast down their pillars and broke their lamps. In the overthrow of the mighty pillars lands were broken and seas arose in tumult; and when the lamps were spilled destroying flame was poured out over the Earth. And the shape of Arda and the symmetry of its waters and its lands was marred in that time, so that the first designs of the Valar were never after restored.
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