β
A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle.
β
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Irina Dunn
β
The truth is always an insult or a joke, lies are generally tastier. We love them. The nature of lies is to please. Truth has no concern for anyone's comfort
β
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
We werenβt ourselves when we fell in love, and when we became ourselves β surprise! β we were poison. We complete each other in the nastiest, ugliest possible way.
β
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Gillian Flynn (Gone Girl)
β
People are fascinated by the rich: Shakespeare wrote plays about kings, not beggars.
β
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Dominick Dunne
β
That's life for you," said MacDunn. "Someone always waiting for someone who never comes home. Always someone loving some thing more than that thing loves them. And after a while you want to destroy whatever that thing is, so it can't hurt you no more.
β
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Ray Bradbury (The Fog Horn (Classics Stories of Ray Bradbury))
β
They thought to use and shame me but I win out by nature, because a true freak cannot be made. A true freak must be born.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
I've tried
to become someone else for a while,
only to discover that he, too, was me.
β
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Stephen Dunn
β
The man had a smooth voice, like velvet. βIβm Detective Inspector Me. Unusual name, I know. My family were incredibly
narcissistic. Iβm lucky I escaped with any degree of humility at all, to be honest, but then Iβve always managed to exceed expectations. You are Kenny Dunne, are you not?β
βI am.β
βJust a few questions for you, Mr Dunne. Or Kenny. Can I call you Kenny? I feel weβve become friends these past few seconds. Can I call you Kenny?β
βSure,β Kenny said, slightly bafο¬ed.
βThank you. Thank you very much. Itβs important you feel comfortable around me, Kenny. Itβs important we build up a level of trust. That way Iβll catch you completely unprepared when I
suddenly accuse you of murder.
β
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Derek Landy (Death Bringer (Skulduggery Pleasant, #6))
β
All a woman actually wants is to feel special.
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Matt Dunn (The Ex-Boyfriend's Handbook (Ed & Dan, #1))
β
Can you be happy with the movies, and the ads, and the clothes in the stores, and the doctors, and the eyes as you walk down the street all telling you there is something wrong with you? No. You cannot be happy. Because, you poor darling baby, you believe them.
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Nick Dunne took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money. He took and took from me until I no longer existed. Thatβs murder.
β
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Gillian Flynn (Gone Girl)
β
No one is guaranteed happiness. It's not a human right. It's a house you have to build yourself. Your family and friends can help, but they're all busy building their own houses too. You're just bitter because you built a shit house.
β
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Exurb1a (The Bridge to Lucy Dunne)
β
I'll say I love you,
Which will lead, of course,
to disappointment,
but those words unsaid
poison every next moment.
I will try to disappoint you
better than anyone else has.
β
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Stephen Dunn (Different Hours)
β
I get glimpses of the horror of normalcy. Each of these innocents on the street is engulfed by a terror of their own ordinariness. They would do anything to be unique.
β
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
She never got a chance to fall out of love, to do it properly, slowly and thoroughly, and the result was he was like a phantom limb. Gone but still there. And like a true phantom limb, the preponderance of feelings associated with him were painful.
β
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Sarah Dunn
β
I have been a believer in the magic of language since, at a very early age, I discovered that some words got me into trouble and others got me out.
β
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Katherine Dunn
β
Why does anyone stay in an unhappy relationship? Because people do. They do it all the time. And the truth is, when youβre in it, when youβre up to your neck in the everyday part of life with another human being, sometimes you donβt exactly notice how bad things really are. Itβs not always as apparent as it would seem. Unhappiness, when it involves another person, can be like that line from The Sun Also Rises about going bankrupt, how it happens two ways: gradually, and then suddenly.
β
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Sarah Dunn
β
My dear Rosie,
Unbeknownst to you I took this chance before, many, many years ago. You never received that letter and I'm glad because my feelings since then have changed dramatically. They have intensified with every passing day.
I'll get straight to the point because if I don't say what I have to say now, I fear it will never be said. And I need to say it.
Today I love you more than ever; I want you more than ever. I'm a man of fifty years of age coming to you, feeling like a teenager in love, asking you to give me a chance and love me back.
Rosie Dunne, I love you with all my heart. I have always loved you, even when I was seven years old and I lied about falling asleep on Santa watch, when I was ten years old and didn't invite you to my birthday party, when I was eighteen and had to move away, even on my wedding days, on your wedding day, on christenings, birthdays and when we fought. I loved you through it all. Make me the happiest man on this earth by being with me.
Please reply to me.
All my love,
Alex
β
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Cecelia Ahern (Love, Rosie)
β
When your mama was the geek, my dreamlets," Papa would say, "she made the nipping off of noggins such a crystal mystery that the hens themselves yearned toward her, waltzing around her, hypnotized with longing.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
There are the those whose own vulgar normality is so apparent and stultifying that they strive to escape it. They affect flamboyant behaviour and claim originality according to the fashionable eccentricities of their time. They claim brains or talent or indifference to mores in desperate attempts to deny their own mediocrity.
β
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
She knew that what she was going through was nothing special, just garden-variety heartbreak, the sort of thing that poets and novelists had been writing about for hundreds of years, but she also knew, from those same books, that there were people who never recover form it, ones who go on through life beset by a dim and painful longing.
β
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Sarah Dunn
β
A true freak cannot be made. A true freak must be born.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Maybe thereβs a universe out there β happening now β where we end up together.
Maybe thereβs a universe where Iβm the right person for you. Where I adore every nice thing you did for me without starting to resent you. A universe where you actually end up with someone who appreciates you. Where no one becomes a doormat. Where both of us can shed our baggage and curiosity and issues.
If you think of it all this way, then itβs like neither of us did anything wrong.
You just found me in the wrong universe. Thatβs all.
Because you could have loved me forever. And maybe in another universe, I let you.
β
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Gaby Dunn
β
You've got to let people be just, you know, people. Everyone does bad things sometimes, for all sorts of reasons. You've got to at least understand.
β
β
Sarah Dunn (Secrets to Happiness)
β
Iβve had it with all stingy-hearted sons of bitches.
A heart is to be spent.
β
β
Stephen Dunn (Different Hours)
β
Altruism is for those
who can't endure their desires.
There's a world
as ambiguous as a moan,
a pleasure moan
our earnest neighbors
might think a crime.
It's where we could live.
I'll say I love you,
Which will lead, of course,
to disappointment,
but those words unsaid
poison every next moment.
I will try to disappoint you
better than anyone else has.
--Mon Semblable
β
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Stephen Dunn (Different Hours)
β
I love what's left after love has been tested.
β
β
Stephen Dunn
β
Stories are meant to comfort the afflicted, and afflict the comfortable.
β
β
Finley Peter Dunne
β
I'm so much happier now that I'm dead. Technically missing. Soon to be presumed dead. Gone. And my lazy lying shitting oblivious husband will go to prison for my murder. Nick Dunne took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money. He took and took from me until I no longer existed. That's murder. Let the punishment fit the crime.
β
β
Gillian Flynn (Gone Girl)
β
That's life for you," said McDunn. "Someone always waiting for someone who never comes home. Always someone loving some thing more than that thing loves them. And after a while you want to destroy whatever that thing is, so it can't hurt you no more.
β
β
Ray Bradbury (The Fog Horn)
β
When someone loves you, there's nothing they won't do for you. When they stop loving you, there's nothing they will.
β
β
Matt Dunn (The Ex-Boyfriend's Handbook (Ed & Dan, #1))
β
But some jokes are hilarious until they become true and theyβre not so funny anymore.
β
β
Jonathan Dunne (Lighthouse Jive)
β
Today we queried, questioned, and inquired. Promise me that come tomorrow, we will not stop asking why.
β
β
Mark Dunn (Ella Minnow Pea: A Novel in Letters)
β
My old man always told me never do anything during the day that will keep you awake at night.
β
β
Jonathan Dunne
β
But I think everybody should write. I think those people with stories who don't write should be stomped on.
β
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Katherine Dunn
β
We survive until, by sheer stamina, we escape into the dim innocence of our own adulthood and its forgetfulness.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Ordinarily, I am the person who falls in love quickly and somewhat inappropriately and then goes on to destroy what is a good thing. That's always been my style. So, you know: I get it. And I feel right now the way I imagine all those guys felt with me. And I have to say, for the first time in my life, I feel something approaching compassion for them.
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Sarah Dunn (Secrets to Happiness)
β
Even if we donβt have a clock, weβre all on the clock β from clocking in and out at work to clocking in and out of this world.
β
β
Jonathan Dunne (Hearts Anonymous)
β
He must love me, i thought, amazed. A faint whiff of nausea hit me at seeing pain as proof of love, but it seemed true. Unavoidable.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Our focus has to be on changing reality, not changing laws.
β
β
Sheryl WuDunn (Half the Sky: Turning Oppression into Opportunity for Women Worldwide)
β
There are parts of Texas where a fly lives ten thousand years and a man can't die soon enough. Time gets strange there from too much sky, too many miles from crack to crease in the flat surface of the land.
β
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
There had to be one universe β just this one β where we donβt end up together. Here and now just happens to be it.
β
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Gaby Dunn (Maybe in Another Universe: The Best of Gaby Dunn, Vol. 1)
β
A relationship needs constant attention. Itβs a living thing, not just a habit. Youβve got to keep on top of it.
β
β
Matt Dunn (Best Man)
β
You have the power to make your dreams come true so reach for them and don't accept anything less.
β
β
Deanie Humphrys-Dunne (Tails of Sweetbrier)
β
In the beginning there was Nothing but Nothing is unstable so Something came about.
β
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Exurb1a (The Bridge to Lucy Dunne)
β
It's no accident that the countries that have enjoyed an economic take off have been those that educated girls and then gave them the autonomy to move to the cities to find work
β
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Sheryl WuDunn (Half the Sky: Turning Oppression into Opportunity for Women Worldwide)
β
Don't limit your challenges; challenge your limits.
β
β
Jerry Dunn
β
My worst is all out in the open. It makes it necessary for people to tell you about themselves.
β
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Katherine Dunn
β
Connubial
Because with alarming accuracy
sheβd been identifying patterns
I was unaware ofβthis tic, that
tendency, like the way I've mastered
the language of intimacy
in order to conceal how I feltβ
I knew I was in danger
of being terribly understood.
β
β
Stephen Dunn
β
Because that's what unfaithfulness is, isn't it? A cancer that's always there in the back of your mind, eating away at the foundations of the relationship.
β
β
Matt Dunn (The Ex-Boyfriend's Handbook (Ed & Dan, #1))
β
Iβll always deny that I kissed her.
I was just whispering into her mouth.
β
β
Stephen Dunn (Loosestrife)
β
When I stop becoming, that's when I worry.
β
β
Stephen Dunn
β
And then you run into Nick Dunne on the Seventh Avenue as you're buying diced cantaloupe, and pow, you are known, you are recognized, the both of you. You both find the exact same things worth remembering (Just one olive, though.) You have the same rhythm. Click. You just know each other. All of a sudden you see reading in bed and waffles on Sunday and laughing at nothing and his mouth on yours. And it's so far beyond fine that you know you can never go back to fine. That fast. You think: Oh, here is the rest of my life. It's finally arrived.
β
β
Gillian Flynn (Gone Girl)
β
There is such solace in the mere sight of water. It clothes us delicately in its blowing salt and scent, gossamer items that medicate the poor soul
β
β
Sebastian Barry (On Canaan's Side (Dunne Family #4))
β
It is, I suppose, the common grief of children at having to protect their parents from reality. It is bitter for the young to see what awful innocence adults grow into, that terrible vulnerability that must be sheltered from the rodent mire of childhood.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Now and again I feel the astonishment of being alive like this, in this body.
β
β
Stephen Dunn (New and Selected Poems, 1974-1994)
β
Trust everybody, but always cut the cards.
β
β
Finley Peter Dunne
β
Although I know it's unfair, I reveal myself one mask at a time.
β
β
Stephen Dunn
β
I make myself up from everything I am, or could be. For many years I was more desire than fact. When I stop becoming, thatβs when I worry.
β
β
Stephen Dunn (Walking Light)
β
It was one of those perfect New York October afternoons, when the explosion of oranges and yellows against the bright blue sky makes you feel like your life is passing through your fingers, that you've felt this autumn-feeling before and you'll probably get to feel it again, but one day you won't anymore, because you'll be dead.
β
β
Sarah Dunn (Secrets to Happiness)
β
I want to forget everything you told me. I want to wash away how uncertain you made me. How scared I was of losing you. How I lost you anyway. I donβt want to know how your hands feel or what makes you smile. I donβt want to see you in photos, familiar like a dream I had once or a book I never finished.
β
β
Gaby Dunn
β
There are parts of Texas where a fly lives ten thousand years and a man can't die soon enough.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
All I wanted was a job like a book so good I'd be finishing it for the rest of my life.
β
β
Stephen Dunn
β
In the end I would always pull up with a sense of glory, that loving is the strong side. It's feeble to be an object. What's the point of being loved in return, I'd ask myself.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
My goal in life is to be the kind of person my dog thinks I am.
β
β
Paul Dunn
β
American culture is torn between our long romance with violence and our terror of the devastation wrought by war and crime and environmental havoc.
β
β
Katherine Dunn
β
What greater gift could you offer your children than an inherent ability to earn a living just by being themselves?
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
May you turn
stone, my daughter,
into silk. May you make men better
than they are.
β
β
Stephen Dunn (New and Selected Poems 1974-1994)
β
Would you mind doing this last thing for me? Pack my box with fivedozen liquor jugs?
β
β
Mark Dunn (Ella Minnow Pea: A Novel in Letters)
β
[Pride and power] are the same except that pride leaves the lights on and power can do it in the dark.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
You must have wished a million times to be normal.β
βNo.β
βNo?β
βIβve wished I had two heads. Or that I was invisible. Iβve wished for a fishβs tail instead of legs. Iβve wished to be more special.β
βNot normal?β
βNever.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Originality, of course, is what occurs when something new arises out of what's already been done.
β
β
Stephen Dunn (Walking Light)
β
I will try to disappoint you
better than anyone else has.
β
β
Stephen Dunn (Different Hours)
β
Th' first thing to have in a libry is a shelf.
Fr'm time to time this can be decorated with lithrachure.
But th' shelf is th' main thing.
β
β
Finley Peter Dunne (Mr. Dooley Says)
β
Only a lunatic would want to be president. These lunatics are created deliberately by those who wish to be presided over.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
It's humbling to become the very thing you once mocked.
β
β
Gillian Flynn (Gone Girl)
β
The truth is always an insult or a joke. Lies are generally tastier. We love them. The nature of lies is to please. Truth has no concern for anyoneβs comfort.β β
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
All good poems are victories over something.
β
β
Stephen Dunn
β
Because thatβs what unfaithfulness is, isnβt it? A cancer thatβs always there in the back of your mind, eating away at the foundations of the relationship. Itβs happened once, it could happen again, so youβre always looking for telltale signs or symptoms to show that itβs reappeared...
β
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Matt Dunn (The Ex-Boyfriend's Handbook (Ed & Dan, #1))
β
when sex is conceptualized as a need, it creates an environment that fosters menβs sense of sexual entitlement. Nicholas Kristof and Sheryl WuDunnβs book Half the Sky illustrates how the assumption that boys require outlets to βrelieve their sexual frustrationsβ facilitates the sexual enslavement of impoverished girls. If you think of sex as a drive, like hunger or thirst, that has to be fed for survival, if you think that men in particularβwith their 75 percent spontaneous desireβneed to relieve their pent-up sexual energy, then you can invent justifications for any strategy a man might use to relieve himself. Because if sex is a drive, like hunger, then potential partners are like food. Or like animals to be hunted for food.
β
β
Emily Nagoski (Come as You Are: The Surprising New Science that Will Transform Your Sex Life)
β
Decades from now, people will look back and wonder how societies could have acquiesced in a sex slave trade in the twenty-first century that is... bigger than the transatlantic slave trade was in the nineteenth. They will be perplexed that we shrugged as a lack of investment in maternal health caused half a million women to perish in childbirth each year.
β
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Sheryl WuDunn (Half the Sky: Turning Oppression into Opportunity for Women Worldwide)
β
Then there are those who feel their own strangeness and are terrified by it. They struggle toward normalcy. They suffer to exactly that degree that they are unable to appear normal to others, or to convince themselves that their aberration does not exist. These are true freaks, who appear, almost always, conventional and dull.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
there are those who feel their own strangeness and are terrified by it. They struggle toward normalcy. They suffer to exactly that degree that they are unable to appear normal to others, or to convince themselves that their aberration does not exist. These are true freaks, who appear, almost always, conventional and dull.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Understand, daughter, that the only reason for your existing was as a tribute to your uncle-father. You were meant to love him. I planned to teach you how to serve him and adore him. You would be his monument and his fortress against mortality.
Forgive me. As soon as you arrived I realized that you were worth far more than that.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
I wanted a boyfriend who was a Christian but who wasn't uptight about it, who was good-looking and intelligent and had an interesting job and a sense of humor, who said "fuck" when the situation warranted it, who had attempted to but been unable to finish St. Augustine's City of God, who could argue politics with my mother and talk business with my father, who liked Indian food and had nice friends and knew how to dress and would like someday to live abroad.
β
β
Sarah Dunn (The Big Love)
β
A carnival in daylight is an unfinished beast, anyway. Rain makes it a ghost. The wheezing music from the empty, motionless rides in a soggy, rained-out afternoon midway always hit my chest with a sweet ache. The colored dance of the lights in the seeping air flashed the puddles in the sawdust with an oily glamour.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
There are those whose own vulgar normality is so apparent and stultifying that they strive to escape it. They affect flamboyant behavior and claim originality according to the fashionable eccentricities of their time. They claim brains or talent or indifference to mores in desperate attempts to deny their own mediocrity. These are frequently artists and performers, adventurers and wide-life devotees.
Then there are those who feel their own strangeness and are terrified by it. They struggle toward normalcy. They suffer to exactly that degree that they are unable to appear normal to others, or to convince themselves that their aberration does not exist. These are true freaks, who appear, almost always, conventional and dull.
β
β
Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
The child, screaming for refuge, senses how feeble a shelter the twig hut of grown-up awareness is. They claim strength, these parents, and complete sanctuary. The weeping earth itself knows how desperate is the child's need for exactly that sanctuary. How deep and sticky is the darkness of childhood, how rigid the blades of infant evil, which is unadulterated, unrestrained by the convenient cushions of age and its civilizing anesthesia.
Grownups can deal with scraped knees, dropped ice-cream cones, and lost dollies, but if they suspected the real reasons we cry they would fling us out of their arms in horrified revulsion. Yet we are small and as terrified as we are terrifying in our ferocious appetites.
β
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Katherine Dunn
β
It is, I suppose, the common grief of children at having to protect their parents from reality. It is bitter for the young to see what awful innocence adults grow into, that terrible vulnerability that must be sheltered from the rodent mire of childhood.
Can we blame the child for resenting the fantasy of largeness? Big, soft arms and deep voices in the dark saying, "Tell Papa, tell Mama, and we'll make it right." The child, screaming for refuge, senses how feeble a shelter the twig hut of grown-up awareness is. They claim strength, these parents, and complete sanctuary. The weeping earth itself knows how desperate is the child's need for exactly that sanctuary. How deep and sticky is the darkness of childhood, how rigid the blades of infant evil, which is unadulterated, unrestrained by the convenient cushions of age and its civilizing anesthesia.
Grownups can deal with scraped knees, dropped ice-cream cones, and lost dollies, but if they suspected the real reasons we cry they would fling us out of their arms in horrified revulsion. Yet we are small and as terrified as we are terrifying in our ferocious appetites.
We need that warm adult stupidity. Even knowing the illusion, we cry and hide in their laps, speaking only of defiled lollipops or lost bears, and getting lollipop or a toy bear'd worth of comfort. We make do with it rather than face alone the cavernous reaches of our skull for which there is no remedy, no safety, no comfort at all. We survive until, by sheer stamina, we escape into the dim innocence of our own adulthood and its forgetfulness.
β
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
On Wednesday, July 19, the Council, having gleaned and discerned, released its official verdict: the fall of the tile bearing the letter "Z" constitutes the terrestrial manifestation of an empyrean Nollopian desire, that desire most surely being that the letter "Z" should be utterly excised--fully extirpated--absolutively heave-ho'ed from our communal vocabulary!
β
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Mark Dunn (Ella Minnow Pea: A Novel in Letters)
β
Iβve often wondered, even to this day, why during painful times some people seem to step away from themselves and make decisions that fall far out of their usual line of character and behaviour. Perhaps a natural reluctance to sit still is central, or perhaps, like the lesser animals, instinct forces us to go on even if grief has left us not up to the taskβ¦. In one fleeting moment, I stripped away the petals of my future, let them catch wind, and fly away
β
β
Ann Howard Creel (The Magic of Ordinary Days)
β
Perhaps in time, Ella, the words we have lost will fade, and we will all stop summoning them by habit, only to stamp them out like unwanted toadstools when they appear. Perhaps they will eventually disappear altogether, and the accompanying halts and stammers as well: those troublesome, maddening pauses that at present invade and punctuate through caesura all manner of discourse. Trying so desperately we all are, to be ever so careful.
β
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Mark Dunn (Ella Minnow Pea: A Novel in Letters)
β
Only a lunatic would want to be president. These lunatics are created deliberately by those who wish to be presided over. Youβve seen it a thousand times. We create a leader by locating one in the crowd who is standing up. This may well be because there are no chairs or because his knees are fused by arthritis. It doesnβt matter. We designate this victim as a βstand-up guyβ by the simple expedient of sitting down around him.β ARTURISM:
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
And all those boys of Europe born in those times, and thereabouts those times, Russian, French, Belgian, Serbian, Irish, English, Scottish, Welsh, Italian, Prussian, German, Austrian, Turkish β and Canadian, Australian, American, Zulu, Gurkha, Cossack, and all the rest β their fate was written in a ferocious chapter in the book of life, certainly. Those millions of mothers and their million gallons of motherβs milk, millions of instances of small talk and baby talk, beatings and kisses, ganseys and shoes, piled up in history in great ruined heaps, with a loud and broken music, human stories told for nothing, for ashes, for deathβs amusement, flung on the mighty scrapheap of souls, all those million boys in all their humours to be milled by the millstones of a coming war.
β
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Sebastian Barry (A Long Long Way (Dunne Family #3))
β
Beside Mama, in my own folding chair, with my feet sticking out in front of me, I thought about my own innards. Just a few months before I'd had no idea whether my reproductive equipment worked. There was no evidence. But that week I had become a full-fledged bleeder and was still absorbed by this first change in myself that I had ever noticed. The click and buzz of my synapses kept making the same connection. If you can change, you can also end. Death had always been a theory to me. Now I knew. The terror hurt good and I nursed it and played it like a loose tooth.
β
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
Consider the whole thing as occupational therapy. Power as cottage industry for the mad. The shepherd is slave to the sheep. A gardener is in thrall to his carrots. Only a lunatic would want to be president. These lunatics are created deliberately by those who wish to be presided over. You've seen it a thousand times. We create a leader by locating one in the crowd who is standing up. This may well be because there are no chairs or because his knees are fused by arthritis. It doesn't matter. We designate this victim as a 'stand-up guy' by the simple expedient of sitting down around him.
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
The roses started him thinking, how the oddity of them was beautiful and how that oddity was contrived to give them value. βIt just struck me β clear and complete all at once β no long figuring about it.β He realized that children could be designed. βAnd I thought to myself, now that would a rose garden worthy of a manβs interest.β
We children would smile and hug him and he would grin around at us and send the twins for a pot of cocoa from the drink wagon and me for a bag of popcorn because the red-haired girls would just throw it out when they finished closing the concession anyway. And we would all be cozy in the warm booth of the van, eating popcorn and drinking cocoa and feeling like Papaβs roses.
β
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
β
She talks. People talk easily to me. They think a bald albino hunchback canβt hide anything. My worst is all out in the open. It makes it necessary for people to tell you about themselves. They begin out of simple courtesy. Just being visible is my biggest confession, so they try to set me at ease by revealing our equality, by dragging out their apparent deformities. Thatβs how it starts. But I am like a stranger on the bus and they get hooked on having a listener. They go too far because I am one listener who is in no position to judge or find fault. They stretch out their dampest secrets because a creature like me has no values or morals. If I am βgood" (and they assume that I am), itβs obviously for lack of opportunity to be otherwise. And I listen. I listen eagerly, warmly, because I care. They tell me everything eventually.
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
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Dear daughter, I won't try to call my feeling for Arty love. Call it focus. My focus on Art was an ailment, noncommunicable, and, even to me all these years later, incomprehensible. Now I despise myself. But even so I remember, in hot floods, the way he slept, still as death, with his face washed flat, stony as a carved tomb and exquisite. His weakness and his ravening bitter needs were terrible, and beautiful, and irresistible as an earthquake. He scalded or smothered anyone he needed, but his needing and the hurt that it caused me were the most life I ever had. Remember what a poor thing I have always been and forgive me.
He saw no use for you and you interfered with his use of me. I sent you away to please him, to prove my dedication to him, and to prevent him from killing you...
My job was to come back [from the convent] directly, with nothing leaking from beneath my dark glasses, to give Arty his rubdown and then paint him for the next show, nodding cheerfully all the while, never showing anything but attentive care for his muscular wonderfulness. Because he could have killed you. He could have cut off the money that schooled and fed you. He could have erased you so entirely that I never would have had those letters and report cards and photos, or your crayon pictures, or the chance to spy on you, and to love you secretly when everything else was gone.
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)
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I think Iβm getting a notion of how to do this. O.K., a carnival works because people pay to feel amazed and scared. They can nibble around a midway getting amazed here and scared there, or both. And do you know what else? Hope. Hope theyβll win a prize, break the jackpot, meet a girl, hit a bullβs-eye in front of their buddies. In a carnival you call it luck or chance, but itβs the same as hope. Now hope is a good feeling that needs risk to work. How good it is depends on how big the risk is if what you hope doesnβt happen. You hope your old auntie croaks and leaves you a carload of shekels, but she might leave them to her cat. You might not hit the target or win the stuffed dog, you might lose your money and look like a fool. You donβt get the surge without the risk. Well. Religion works the same way. The only difference is that itβs more amazing than even Chick or the twins. And itβs a whole lot scarier than the Roll-a-plane or the Screamer, or any simp twister. This scare stuff laps over into the hope department too. The hope you get from religion is a three-ring, all-star hope because the risk is outrageous. Bad! Well, Iβm working on it. Iβve got the amazing part down. And the scary bits are a snap. But Iβve got to come up with a hope.
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Katherine Dunn (Geek Love)