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Many mornings, most mornings, I stand in my closet, trying to figure out what I am going to wear for the day. Really, this is part of an elaborate, exhausting performance in which the end result is always the same. But I have mad elusions and I entertain them with alarming frequency and vigorous. I try on various outfits and marvel at all the cute clothes I own. If I am feeling particularly brave, I take a look at myself in the mirror. It's always surprising to see myself out of my usual clothes, to see how my body looks shrouded in color or something other than denim and cotton.
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