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If Alex could have told Darlington anything, it would have been, Come back. She would have said it in English and Spanish. She would have used the imperative.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Galaxy Stern,” Darlington said, his eyes flashing gold, “I have been crying out to you from the start.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Darlington was a good talker, but he was happiest when no one was speaking to him, when he didn’t have to perform the ritual of himself and he could simply be left to watch others.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Didn’t someone say love is a shared delusion?
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I’m bound to you, Stern. To the woman who brought me out of hell. I will serve you ’til the end of days.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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I c-c-class p-p-profanity with declarations of love. Best used sparingly and only when wholeheartedly m-m-meant.
-Darlington
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Darlington liked to say that dealing with ghosts was like riding the subway: Do not make eye contact. Do not smile. Do not engage. Otherwise, you never know what might follow you home.
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Come on Darlington,' she said. 'Let's give them hell.
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If you don't know a name," Darlington had explained, "you can't think it, and then you won't be tempted to say it." A name was a kind of intimacy.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Alex slept in Darlington's bed and dreamed that he was curled behind her on the narrow mattress.
He pulled her close, his fingers digging into her abdomen, and she could feel claws at their tips. He whispered in her ear, "I will serve you 'til the end of days."
"And love me," she said with a laugh, bold in the dream, unafraid.
But all he said was, "It is not the same.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Darlington’s smile was small. “You found me once, Stern. You’ll find me again.
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A single word. Darlington’s voice. Desperate, demanding. Wait. They’d almost done it, almost reached him. They’d been so close. He would have gotten it right. He always did.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Darlington looked at her. Undine with her slick black hair, the center part like a naked spine, her devouring eyes.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Didn't someone say love is a shared delusion?"
"Cynical, Darlington. Doesn't suit you at all." "Call it magic if you prefer. Two people reciting the same spell.
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She's seen the dead, he thought. She's witnessed horrors. But she's never seen magic.
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She was no one, a girl who had lucked ito a gift, who had done nothing to earn it. she was his queen
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...but he’d let himself [Darlington] think of her as someone who had made all of the wrong choices and stumbled down the wrong path. It hadn’t occurred to him that she was being chased.
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He had been tempted to bury his face into his soup bowl and lap at it like a greedy animal. He wanted to place himself between Alex's legs now and do the same to her
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Darlington was. He’d go to hell for me, for you, for anyone who needed saving.” “Alex,” Michelle said, dusting off her skirt, “he’d go to hell just to take notes on the climate.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Dawes had said that Alex and Darlington were tied to the underworld, but the truth was that they were all bound together now. They had seen the very worst of each other, felt every ugly, shameful, frightening thing. Four pilgrims. Four children trembling in the dark. Four fools who had attempted what should never be dared. Four shoddy heroes on a quest who were meant to survive this reckless endeavor together.
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Come on, Darlington,” she said. “Let’s give them hell.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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You killed them," he said. "All of them. Leonard Beacon. Mitchell Betts. Helen Watson. Hellie."
The silence stretched. But all she said was, "Not Hellie.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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We were trying to rescue you, Darlington. There were bound to be hiccups."
"I'm not sure I've ever noted your gift for understatement, Stern."
"Demonic hiccups.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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She was the kind of girl who was always okay. “A survivor,” Darlington had once said, admiration in his voice. “Rough around the edges, but we’ll see if we’ve mined a diamond, won’t we, Pammie?
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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She could hear Darlington's voice in her head: When was the first time you saw them? Low and halting, as if he wasn't sure whether the question was taboo. But the real question, the right question, was: When was the first time you knew to be afraid?
Alex was glad he'd never had the sense to ask.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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I'm bound to you Stern. To the women who brought me out of hell. I will serve you 'till the end of days.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Alex remembered Darlington’s delicate feet, his scream as he’d vanished.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Daniel Tabor Arlington, always the gentleman, a boy of infinite manners. But what had he become?
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In the mirror, he saw himself, a knight with bowed head, offering his service, a sword in his hand, a sword in his back. He felt no pain, only the ache in his heart. Choose me. There were tears on his cheeks, even as he felt the shame of it. She was no one, a girl who had lucked into a gift, who had done nothing to earn it. She was his queen.
"Darlington," she said. But that was not his true name any more than Alex was hers.
If only she would choose him. If only she would let him...
She touched her fingers to his face, lifted his chin. Her lips brushed his ear. He didn't understand it. He only wanted her to do it again. Stars poured through him, a cold and billowing wave of night. He saw everything. He saw their bodies entwined. She was above him and beneath him all at once, her body splayed and white as a lotus flower.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Alex stood guiltily in the middle of the kitchen, waiting for someone to chastise her, maybe even the house. But this was not the mansion on Orange with its hopeful creaks and disapproving sighs. Darlington had been the life of this place, and without him the house felt huge and empty, a shipwreck hull.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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How may we address you this night?” Darlington inquired. The wearer of the mask represented Lan Caihe, one of the eight immortals of Chinese myth, who could move amongst genders at will. At each gathering of Manuscript, a different Caihe was chosen. “Tonight I am she.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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You can't walk through hell unchanged
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No one knew who she was. Not North. Not this monster in front of her. Not Dawes or Mercy or Sandow or any of them.
Only Darlington had guessed.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Would it help to break something else?'
She was breathing hard.
'Maybe.'
Darlington rose and opened a cupboard, then another, and another, revealing shelf after shelf of Lenox, Waterford, Limoges-glassware, plates, pitchers, platters, butter dishes, gravy boats, thousands of dollar's worth of crystal and china. He took down a glass, filled it with wine, and handed it to Alex.
'Where would you like to start?
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Anselm was nothing like Darlington now. He was a tan in a suit. He was a wealthy grifter looking for an edge and willing to use her to get it. He was one more thief rummaging through artifacts in a country not his own. He was the Lethe Alex understood, not the Lethe Darlington had loved.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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It was too easy to imagine some future Darlington joking about the delicious irony of ignorant Galaxy Stern being fatally clocked in the jaw by rogue knowledge.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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The Bridegroom’s lips pursed slightly, and in that moment, he reminded her so much of Darlington, she felt a tremor pass through her.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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It could all be an act,” Darlington growled. “Should I put on some tunes?” Tripp asked. “I have this amazing Red Hot Chili Peppers double album—” Maybe they should kill him.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Darlington lay in his narrow bed, writing and rewriting angry emails in his head to the Manuscript alumni and the Lethe board, losing the thread, overwhelmed by images of Alex lit by stars, the thought of that black dress sliding from her shoulders, then returning to his rant and a demand for action. The words tangled together, caught on the spokes of a wheel, the points of a crown. But one thought returned again and again as he tossed and turned, fell in and out of dreams, morning light beginning its slow bleed through the high tower window: Alex Stern was not what she seemed.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Why raise children on the promise of magic? Why create a want in them that can never be satisfied—for revelation, for transformation—and then set them adrift in a bleak, pragmatic world? In Darlington she’d seen what grief over that loss could do to someone, but maybe the same mourning lived inside her too. The terrible knowledge that there would be no secret destiny, no kindly mentor to see some hidden talent inside her, no deadly nemesis to best.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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The stairs seemed to go on forever, turning and turning until Darlington had no idea how long they'd been climbing. He wanted to look back to make sure that Alex was still there, but he'd read enough stories to know you never looked back on your way out of hell.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Oh,” said Dawes, her eyes darting around the room as if afraid to let her gaze land anywhere, but finally settling in the far corner—the place most distant from the sight of Darlington’s cock, which was very erect and shining like a supercharged, oversized glowstick.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Good. Better. Best. That was the trajectory that got you into this place. What Darlington and probably all the rest of these eager, effortful children couldn't understand was that Alex would have happily settled for less than Yale. Darlington was all about the pursuit of perfection, something spectacular. He didn't know how precious a normal life could be, how easy it was to drift away from average. You started sleeping till noon, skipped one class, one day of school, lost one job, then another, forgot the way that normal people did things. You lost the language of ordinary life. And then, without meaning to, you crossed into a country from which you couldn't return. You lived in a state where the ground always seemed to be slipping from beneath your feet, with no way back to someplace solid.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House)
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Darlington was all about the pursuit of perfection, something spectacular. He didn’t know how precious a normal life could be, how easy it was to drift away from average. You started sleeping until noon, skipped one class, one day of school, lost one job, then another, forgot the way that normal people did things. You lost the language of ordinary life. And then, without meaning to, you crossed into a country from which you couldn’t return. You lived in a state where the ground always seemed to be slipping from beneath your feet, with no way back to someplace solid.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Darlington learned that this was always the way with New Haven. It bled industry but stumbled on, bleary and anemic, through corrupt mayors and daft city planners, through misguided government programs and hopeful but brief infusions of capital. “This town, Danny,” his grandfather liked to say, a common refrain, sometimes bitter, sometimes fond.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Where's Darlington"? Turner asked.
"Spain"
"Spain?" For the first time, Turner's mild expression gave way.
"Study abroad."
"And he left you in charge?"
"Sure did."
"He must have a lot of faith in you."
"Sure does." Alex flashed him her most winning grin, and for a second she thought Detective Turner might smile back, because it took a con to know a con. But he didn't. He'd had to be careful for too long.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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What happens if you guys miss a year?” Alex had asked when Darlington first showed her how the library worked. “It happened in 1928.” “And?” “All of the books from the collection crowded into the library at once and the floor collapsed on Chester Vance, Oculus.” “Jesus, that’s horrible.” “I don’t know,” Darlington had said meditatively. “Suffocating beneath a pile of books seems an appropriate way to go for a research assistant.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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After a long moment, he said, “Would it help to break something else?”
She was breathing hard. “Maybe.”
Darlington rose and opened a cupboard, then another, and another, revealing shelf after shelf of Lenox, Waterford, Limoges—glassware, plates, pitchers, platters, butter dishes, gravy boats, thousands of dollars’ worth of crystal and china. He took down a glass, filled it with wine, and handed it to Alex.
“Where would you like to start?
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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Why raise children on the promise of magic? Why create a want in them that can never be satisfied - for revelation, for transformation - and then set them adrift in a bleak, pragmatic world? In Darlington she'd seen what grief over that loss could do to someone, but maybe that same mourning lived inside her too. The terrible knowledge that there would be no secret destiny, no kindly mentor to see some hidden talent inside her, no deadly nemesis to best.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))
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Good. Better. Best. That was the trajectory that got you to this place. What Darlington and probably all the rest of these eager, effortful children couldn’t understand was that Alex would have happily settled for less than Yale. Darlington was all about the pursuit of perfection, something spectacular. He didn’t know how precious a normal life could be, how easy it was to drift away from average. You started sleeping until noon, skipped one class, one day of school, lost one job, then another, forgot the way that normal people did things. You lost the language of ordinary life. And then, without meaning to, you crossed into a country from which you couldn’t return. You lived in a state where the ground always seemed to be slipping from beneath your feet, with no way back to someplace solid.
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Leigh Bardugo (Ninth House (Alex Stern, #1))
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You didn’t turn away. Even when you didn’t like what you saw in me. You kept looking.” Darlington’s gaze shifted and flickered like firelight. Gold and then amber. Bright and then shadowed. “Maybe I know a fellow monster when I see one.” It felt like a cold hand shoving her away. Like a warning. She wasn’t stupid enough to ignore it. “Maybe,” Alex whispered. She made herself turn, leave the ballroom, walk down that dark hall. She forced herself not to run. Maybe they were just two killers, cursed to endure each other’s company, two doomed spirits trying to find their way home. Maybe they were monsters who liked the feeling of another monster looking back at them. But enough people had abandoned them both. She wasn’t going to be the next.
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Leigh Bardugo (Hell Bent (Alex Stern, #2))