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You branded my virginity with the Union Jack, your English accent, your Welsh heritage.
I look from your face to your genitals…..You look so ugly there!
But can’t you make me come, like you do? Can’t I have that too?
Words are hieroglyphics for much bigger events.
I make light of my disappointment. “I don’t know. I was a virgin a minute ago and don’t know if I still am. What happened?”
I caress your penis only to discover I am pulling on your Puritan horrors.
I recall all your careers and wonder if you still want to be an oceanographer, journalist, radio-TV newsman, reporter, electrician, electronics specialist or a Star Trek crew member.
It is as if I live on Joseph Conrad’s lifeboat and you on Fellini’s Romaluxury liner, insisting you do not need luxury, but find it comfortable.
“Is that all you think about? Your precious baby-free sex?”
I wonder that what you feel for me (is)… some nebulous middle-class sense of “This is okay for a while relationship but nothing serious.”
Color is as necessary to the soul as food is to the body.
“When will you learn we were all young then? We’ve grown up and changed. We all hurt each other, but we all loved each other.”
“I tried to live how other people say life should be lived, but I tired of it too quickly. It drains the soul to live a conventional life.”
“God, I love Americans! They have such damn awful energy! Canadians just sit back on their arses and bad-rap Americans because they’re so jealous.”
“I walk around for years,” you say, “for years, a virgin! But now, I am not. And in lovely San Francisco with a beautiful, older American woman!” you say and kiss my mouth.
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