“
Don't take life too seriously. Punch it in the face when it needs a good hit. Laugh at it.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Question everything. Your love, your religion, your passion. If you don't have questions, you'll never find answers.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I got schooled this year
by
a
boy.
A boy that I'm seriously, deeply, madly, incredibly, and undeniably in
love
with.
And he taught me the most important thing of all...
To put the emphasis
On
life
.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
So you keep your ocean, I'll take the Lake.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Push your boundaries, that's what they're there for.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Imperfections define perfection
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
There are three questions every woman should be able to answer yes to before they commit to a man. If you answer no to any of the three questions, run like hell."
[...]
"Does he treat you with respect at all times? That's the first question. The second question is, if he is the exact same person twenty years from now that he is today, would you still want to marry him? And finally, does he inspire to be a better person? You find someone you can answer yes to all three, then you've found a good man.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Choose your battles, but don't choose very many.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Sometimes things happen in life that you didn’t plan for. All you can do is suck it up and start mapping out a new plan.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
If I were a carpenter, I would build you a window to my soul. But I would leave that window shut and locked, so that every time you tried to look through it all you would see is your own reflection. You would see that my soul is a reflection of you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Find a balance between head and heart.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
If I live the life I'm given, I won't be scared to die.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Never judge others. You both know good and well how unexpected events can change who a person is. Always keep that in mind. You never know what someone else is experiencing within their own life.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Life happens. Shit happens. And it happens a lot. To a lot of people.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Life wants you to
fight
it.
Learn how to make it your
own.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
This thing about you that you think is your flaw - it's the reason I'm falling in love with you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Never, under any circumstances, take a sleeping pill and a laxative on the same night.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Understanding a situation doesn't always make it easier
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I love being with yo so bad
When we aren't together, I miss you so bad
One of these days I'm going to marry you so bad
and it'll be
so
so
good.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
My heart pounds against my chest. Not because I'm nervous. Not even because I want her worse that I've ever wanted her before. It's pounding against my chest because I realize I've never been so sure about the rest of my life than I am in this moment. This girl is the rest of my life.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Well, you would realize…
Like i eventually realized…
That the good things about her?
All the beautiful?
It’s not real.
It’s fake.
So you keep your ocean,
I’ll take the lake.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. Unfortunately, it’s also one of the hardest things in the world to hold on to, and one of the easiest things to throw away.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
I know how you like to be asked and not told. But I'm not asking you to marry me...I'm telling you to marry me, Lake.. because I can't live without you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
A guy can tell a girl he's in love with her until he's blue in the face. Words don't mean anything to a woman when her head’s full of doubt. You have to show her.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Always remember there is nothing worth sharing, like the love that let us share our name.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
respect the hand that I was dealt. And to be grateful I was even dealt a hand.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Get out, Get out, get out, get out!" I do what any sane male would do in this situation; I run down the hall and lock myself in her bedroom.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
It's like you came along and woke up my soul
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
You want to know my sweet?" I ask her.
She nods.
I kiss her on the forehead. "You. Always you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
According to the thesaurus... and according to me... there are over thirty different meanings and substitutions for
the word
mean.
(I quickly yell the following words; the entire class flinches- including Will)
Jackass, jerk, cruel, dickhead, unkind, harsh, wicked,
hateful, heartless, vicious, virulent, unrelenting, tyrannical, malevolent, atrocious, bastard, barbarous, bitter, brutal, callous, degenerate, brutish, depraved, evil, fierce, hard, implacable, rancorous, pernicious, inhumane, monstrous, merciless, inexorable.
And my personal favorite—asshole.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I’ll never be able to give you everything you deserve, but I’ll definitely spend the rest of my life trying.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Sometimes life gets in your
way.
it gets all up in your damn
way.
But it doesn't get all up in your damn way
because it wants you to just
give up
and let it
take control.
Life doesn't get all up in your damn way because it just wants you to
hand
it all
over
and be
carried along.
Life wants you to
fight
it
Learn how to make it your
own.
it wants you to grab and
axe
and
hack
through the
wood.
It wants you to get a
sledgehammer
and
break
through
concrete.
It wants you to grab a
torch
and
burn
through the metal and
steel
until you can reach through and
grab
it.
Life wants you to
grab
all the
organized,
the
alphabetized,
the
chronological,
the
sequenced.
It wants you to mix it all
together,
stir
it up,
blend
it.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Okay. Would you rather I looked like Hugh Jackman or George Clooney?”
“Johnny Depp,” she says.
She answers a little too fast for my comfort. “What the hell, Lake? You’re supposed to say Will! You’re supposed to say you want me to look like me!”
“But you weren't one of the options,” she says.
“Neither was Johnny Depp!
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Then this girl completely shatters the window to my soul and crawls inside.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
It's not just lies they're referring to. It's life. You can't run to another town, another place, another state. Whatever it is you're running from-it goes with you. It stays with you until you find out how to confront it.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
whatever it is you're running from-it goes with you. it stays with you until you find out how to confront it.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
And life
definitely
doesn't want me
To just let it
tell
me
that the
girl
I met,
The
beautiful, amazing, strong, resilient girl
That I fell so
hard
for
Should only come in
third
Life
knows.
Life is trying to
tell
ne
That the
girl
I
love
The girl I fell
So
hard
for?
There's room for her in
first.
I'm putting
her
first.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
There are moments in every relationship that define when two people start to fall in love.
A first glance
A first smile
A first kiss
A first
fall
...
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
God Layken. How do you do it? she says. She blows her nose and grabs another tissue out of the box. How do I do what? I sniff as I continue to wipe the tears from my eyes. How do you not fall in love with him? The tears begin flowing just as quickly as they had ceased. I grab yet another tissue. I don't not fall in love with him. I don't not fall in love with him a lot!
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
You, baby girl. You’re my final piece.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
She deserves to be kissed by someone who loves her. Someone who spends every waking moment trying to do everything right by her. Someone who would rather die than see her hurt. She doesn't deserve to be kissed by anyone other than me.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
He got one of those intelligent phones. Now he's trying to twit the President.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Keep an open mind; it's the only way new things can get in.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
For once in my life, I was here and nowhere else.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Wife,” I say, staring straight into her eyes. “Think what you want, but there isn’t a single woman in this whole damn universe that I could ever love like I love you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
Sometimes life doesn't happen in chronological order.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
If I took every romantic poem, every book, every song, and every movie I've ever read, heard or seen and extracted the breathtaking moments, somehow bottling them up, they would pale in comparison to this moment.
This moment is incomparable.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
Does he treat you with respect at all times? That's the first question. The second question is, if he is the exact same person twenty years from now that he is today, would you still want to marry him? And finally, does he inspire to be a better person? You find someone you can answer yes to all three, then you've found a good man.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Laugh a lot. Never go a day without laughing at least once.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I brush her hair out of her eyes and run my finger along the edge of her face. "I love you, Lake."
"Say it again," she says.
I kiss her forehead and repeat what I said. "I love you, Lake."
"One more time."
"I." I kiss her lips. "And love." I kiss them again. "And you."
"I love you, too.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Layken Cooper, I love you. I’ve loved you since the second I laid eyes on you and I haven’t stopped loving you for a second since.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
I've never regretted it. Questioned it? Sure. But never regretted."
"Is there a difference?" I ask.
"Absolutely. Regret is counterproductive. It's looking back on a past that you can't change. Questioning things as they occur can prevent regret in the future. I questioned a lot about my relationship with your father. People make spontaneous decisions based off of their hearts all the time. There's so much more to relationships than just love.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I got so schooled this year.
By a nine year old.
He taught me that it's okay to live life
a little backwards.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Sometimes two people need to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together."
I take her hand and rest it between us, then stroke the back of it with my thumb. "Let's not fall apart again," I whisper.
She looks me in the eyes. "Never.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
I'm telling you to marry me Lake....because I can't live without you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
My sweet is that me and Kel are finally brothers. My suck is that I now know what Will and Layken did during their honeymoon.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
I love you because of you. Because of every single thing about you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
The points are not the point; the point is poetry.
”
”
Allan Wolf
“
I want to be your soulmate, even if I don't believe in them.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
Regret is counterproductive. It's looking back on a past that you can't change. Questioning things as they occur can prevent regret in the future.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I'm not giving up
You're not giving in
This battle will turn into a war
Before I let it come to an end.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
So I'm not about to apologize for loving all these things about you, no matter the reasons or the circumstances behind them.
And no, I don't need
days
, or
weeks
, or
months
to think about
why
I love you.
It's an easy answer for me.
I love you because of
you
.
Because of
every
single
thing
about
you
.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
The line isn't so black and white anymore. I'm pretty sure gray just became my new favorite color.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
I love you, Lake," he smiles as he presses his forehead against mine. "You deserve to come first.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I lie back on my pillow and think back to that day. The day that I fell for my wife.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
To my babies,
Merry Christmas. I'm sorry if these letters have caught you both by surprise. There is just so much more I have to say. I know you thought I was done giving advice, but I couldn't leave without reiterating a few things in writing. You may not relate to these things now, but someday you will. I wasn't able to be around forever, but I hope that my words can be.
-Don't stop making basagna. Basagna is good. Wait until a day when there is no bad news, and bake a damn basagna.
-Find a balance between head and heart. Hopefully you've found that Lake, and you can help Kel sort it out when he gets to that point.
-Push your boundaries, that's what they're there for.
-I'm stealing this snippet from your favorite band, Lake. "Always remember there is nothing worth sharing, like the love that let us share our name."
-Don't take life too seriously. Punch it in the face when it needs a good hit. Laugh at it.
-And Laugh a lot. Never go a day without laughing at least once.
-Never judge others. You both know good and well how unexpected events can change who a person is. Always keep that in mind. You never know what someone else is experiencing within their own life.
-Question everything. Your love, your religion, your passions. If you don't have questions, you'll never find answers.
-Be accepting. Of everything. People's differences, their similarities, their choices, their personalities. Sometimes it takes a variety to make a good collection. The same goes for people.
-Choose your battles, but don't choose very many.
-Keep an open mind; it's the only way new things can get in.
-And last but not least, not the tiniest bit least. Never regret.
Thank you both for giving me the best years of my life.
Especially the last one.
Love,
Mom
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
COMPLETELY.
Utterly.
Frozen.
My eyes drop to the table in front of me when she finishes. Her words are sinking in.
A boy that I'm seriously, deeply, madly, incredibly, and undeniably in love with.
In love with?
That's what she said.
In love with. As in present tense.
She loves me. Layken Cohen loves me.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
Butterfly.
What a beautiful word
What a delicate creature.
Delicate like the cruel words that flow right out of your mouths and the food that flies right out of your hands…
Does it make you feel better?
Does it make you feel good ?
Does picking on a girl make you more of a man?
Well, I’m standing up for myself
Like I should have done before
I’m not putting up with your Butterfly anymore."
(Kiersten slides the sack off her wrist and opens it, pulling out a handful of hand-made butterflies. She takes the microphone out of the stand and begins walking down the stairs as she continues speaking.)
“I’d like to extend to others what others have extended to me.”
(She walks up to Mrs. Brill first and holds out a butterfly)
“Butterfly you, Mrs. Brill.”
(Mrs. Brill smiles at her and takes the butterfly out of her hands. Lake laughs out loud and I have to nudge her to get her to be quiet. Kiersten walks around the room, passing out butterflies to several of the students, including the three from the lunchroom.)
“Butterfly you, Mark.
Butterfly you, Brendan.
Butterfly you, Colby.”
(When she finishes passing out the butterflies, she walks back onto the stage and places the microphone back into the stand.)
“I have one thing to say to you
And I’m not referring to the bullies
Or the ones they pursue.
I’m referring to those of you that just stand by
The ones who don’t take up for those of us that cry
Those of you who just…turn a blind eye.
After all it’s not you it’s happening to
You aren’t the one being bullied
And you aren’t the one being rude
It isn’t your hand that’s throwing the food
But…it is your mouth not speaking up
It is your feet not taking a stand
It is your arm not lending a hand
It is your heart
Not giving a damn.
So take up for yourself
Take up for your friends
I challenge you to be someone
Who doesn’t give in.
Don’t give in.
Don’t let them win.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Two more seconds without touching her and I. Will. Die.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
It’s worth all the aches,
All the tears,
the mistakes…
The heart of a man and a woman in love?
It’s worth all of the pain in the world.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Now that I have you back, I’m never letting you go. That’s a promise. I’m not letting you go again.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
What you’re feeling now, and the person you may reach with your words five years from now-that's why you write poetry.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Death. The only thing inevitable in life.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
How do you not fall in love with him?"
The tears begin flowing just as quickly as they were ceasing. I grab yet another tissue. "I don't not fall in love with him. I don't not fall in love with him a lot!
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Tonight, Let's just carve pumpkins.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Her lips are in close proximity to mine, so of course I have to kiss them.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
Sometimes when things get too real, my sarcasm takes over
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
But every smile on your face
seems to replace
A memory I'd rather not hold
Each time you laugh, it fills a
void
Each kiss heals another wound
in my soul
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
And if you've ever grown up with dreams in your head about life, and how one of these days you would pirate your own ship and have your own crew and that all of the mermaids
would love
only
you?
Well, you would realize...
Like I eventually realized...
That all the good things about her?
All the beautiful?
It's not real.
It's fake.
So you keep your ocean,
I'll take the Lake.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I press my forehead against hers. "I'm so glad you showed up," I whisper. "You changed my life forever that night.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
Nothing is permanent. The only thing any of us have in common is the inevitable.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Be accepting. Of everything. People's differences, their similarities, their choices, their personalities. Sometimes it takes a variety to make a good collection. The same goes for people.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I held this girl in my arms
She wrapped her tiny fingers around mine.
It was then that I realized.
She was the fusion.
The glue.
The cement that bound all my pieces together.
The piece that seals my puzzle.
The piece that completes my life.
The element that makes me who I am.
Who I was.
Who I'll one day be.
You, baby girl.
You're my final piece.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
There are three questions every woman should be able to answer yes to before they commit to a man:
1. Does he treat you with respect at all times?
2. If he is the exact same person twenty years from now that
he is today, would you still want to marry him?
3. Does he inspire you to want to be a better person?
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
When someone close to you dies, the memories and recollections of them are painful. It isn't until the fifth stage of grief that the memories of them stop hurting as much; when the recollections become positive. When you stop thinking about the person's death, and remember all of the wonderful things about their life.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I wish I could explain how I feel, but nothing can explain this moment. Not a vase of stars. Not a book. Not a song. Not even a poem. Nothing can explain the moment when the woman you would give your life for sees her daughter for the very first time.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
We've got an entire lifetime ahead of us to do things like get married. But sometimes things in people's lives don’t happen in chronological order like they should. Especially in our lives. Our chronological order got mixed up a long time ago.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
My name is Olivia King
I am five years old.
My mother bought me a balloon. I remember the day she walked through the front door with it. The curly hot pink ribbon trickling down her arm, wrapped around her wrist. She was smiling at me as she untied the ribbon and wrapped it around my hand.
“Here Livie, I bought this for you.”
She called me Livie.
I was so happy. I’d never had a balloon before. I mean, I always saw balloons wrapped around other kids wrists in the
parking lot of Wal-Mart, but I never dreamed I would have my
very own.
My very own pink balloon.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
This is it, Lake," I say pointing back and forth between us. "It's real now. I'm not walking away from you again. Ever."
Her eyes fill with tears. "Promise?" she whispers.
"I swear. I love you so much."
A tear rolls down her cheek. "Say it again," she whispers.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
Twenty-two hours and our war begins
Our war of limbs
and lips
and hands...
The best part of finally
Not calling retreat?
The showers above us
Raining down on our feet
While the bombs are exploding and the guns fire their rounds. Before the two of us collapse to the ground. Before the battle, before the war...
You need to know
I'd go fifty-nine more.
Whatever it takes to let you win.
I'd retreat all over
and over
again.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
BLUE SWEATER
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Do you hear that?
That's the sound of my heart beating...
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Do you hear that? That's the sound of your heart beating.
It was the first day of October. I was wearing my blue sweater, you know the one I bought at Dillard’s? The one with a double knitted hem and holes in the ends of the sleeves that I could poke my thumbs through when it was cold but I didn't feel like wearing gloves? It was the same sweater you said made my eyes look like reflections of the stars on the ocean.
You promised to love me forever that night...
and boy
did you
ever!
It was the first day of December this time. I was wearing my blue sweater, you know the one I bought at Dillard’s? The one with a double knitted hem and holes in the ends of the sleeves that I could poke my thumbs through when it was cold but I didn't feel like wearing gloves? It was the same sweater you said made my eyes look like reflections of the stars on the ocean.
I told you I was three weeks late
You said it was fate.
You promised to love me forever that night...
and boy
did you
ever!
It was the first day of May. I was wearing my blue sweater, although this time the double stitched hem was worn
and the strength of each thread tested as they were pulled tight against my growing belly. You know the one. The same one I bought at Dillard’s? The one with holes in the ends of the
sleeves that I could poke my thumbs through when it was cold but I didn't feel like wearing gloves? It was the same sweater you said made my eyes look like reflections of the stars on the
ocean.
The SAME sweater you RIPPED off of my body as you shoved me to the
floor,
calling me a
whore
,
telling me
you didn't love me
anymore.
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Do you hear that? That's the sound of my heart beating.
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Bom Bom...
Do you hear that? That's the sound of your heart
beating.
(There is a long silence as she clasps her hands to her stomach, tears streaming down her face)
Do you hear that? Of course you don't. That's the silence
of my womb.
Because you
RIPPED
OFF
MY
SWEATER!
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I could go on all night, Lake. I could go on and on and on about all the reasons I’m in love with you. And you know what? Some of them are the things that life has thrown our way. I do love you because you’re the only other person I know who understands my situation. I do love you because both of us know what it’s like to lose your mom and your dad. I do love you because you’re raising your little brother, just like I am. I love you because of what you went through with your mother.
I love you because of what we went through with your mother. I love the way you love Kel. I love the way you love Caulder. And I love the way I love Kel. So I’m not about to apologize for loving all these things about you, no matter the reasons or the circumstances behind them. And no, I don’t need days, or weeks, or months to think about why I love you. It’s an easy answer for me. I love you because of you. Because of every single thing about you.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
One million fifty-one thousand and
two hundred minutes
That's approximatley how many minutes
I've loved you
It's how many times i've thought about you
How many minutes i've worried about you
How many minutes i've thanked God for you
How many minutes i've thanked every deity in the universe for you.
One million
Fifty-one Thousand
And
Two
Hundred
Minutes
One million fifty-one thousand amd two hundred times.
It's how many times you've made me smile.
How many times you've made me dream,
How many times you've made me believe,
How many times you've made me discover,
How many times you've made me adore,
How many times you've made me cheris,
My life.
....
And exactlly one million fifty-one thousand and two hundred minutes from now, i am going to propose to you, and ask that you share all the rest of the minutes
Of your life, with me.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
I turn to head outside when the boys make their way back into the house. Kel stops in the doorway and puts his hands on his hips, then looks up at me.
“Are you my sister’s boyfriend?”
I’m thrown off by his directness. I pull my jacket on and shake my head. “Um, no. Just her friend.”
“She told my mom you were taking her on a date. I thought only boyfriends took girls on dates.”
“Well,” I pause. “Sometimes boys take girls on dates to see if they want them to be their girlfriend.”
I notice Caulder standing beside me, taking in the conversation as if he’s just as curious. I wasn’t prepared to have to explain the rules of dating right now.
“So it’s like a test?” Caulder asks. “To see if you want Layken to be your girlfriend?”
I shrug and nod. “Yeah, I guess you could say that.”
Kel laughs. “You aren’t gonna like her. She burps a lot. And she’s bossy. And she never lets me drink coffee, so she probably won’t let you have any, either. And she has really bad taste in music and sings way too loud and leaves her bras all over the house. It’s gross.”
I laugh. “Thanks for the warning. You think it’s too late to back out now?”
Kel shakes his head, missing my sarcasm completely. “No, she’s already dressed so you have to take her now.”
I sigh, pretending to be annoyed. “Well, it’s just a few hours. Hopefully she won’t burp a lot and boss me around and steal my coffee and sing to her really bad music and leave her bra in my car.”
Or hopefully she will.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
Death. The only thing inevitable in life.
People don't like to talk about death because it makes them sad.
They don't want to imagine how life will go on without them,
all the people they love will briefly grieve
but continue to breathe.
They don't want to imagine how life will go on without them,
Their children will still grow
Get married
Get old..
They don't want to imagine how life will continue to go on without them
Their material things will be sold
Their medical files stamped "closed"
Their name becoming a memory to everyone they
know.
They don't want to imagine how life will go on without them, so instead of accepting it head on, they avoid the subject all together,
hoping and praying it will somehow...
pass them by.
Forget about them,
moving on to the next one in line.
no, they didn't want to imagine how life would
continue to go on....
without them.
But death
didn't
forget.
Instead they were met head-on by death,
disguised as an 18-wheeler
behind a cloud of fog.
No.
Death didn't forget about them.
If only they had been prepared, accepted the inevitable, laid out their plans, understood that it
wasn't just their lives at hand.
I may have legally been considered an adult at the age
of nineteen, but still i felt very much
all
of just nineteen.
Unprepared
and overwhelmed
to suddenly have the entire life of a seven-year-old
in my realm.
Death. The only thing inevitable in life.
-Will
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Slammed (Slammed, #1))
“
Sorry,” Kiersten says to Lake and I. “Mom says the FCC is responsible for inventing cusswords just for media shock value. She says if everyone would just use them enough, they wouldn’t be considered cusswords anymore and no one would ever be offended by them”
This kid is hard to keep up with!
“Your mother encourages you to cuss?” Gavin says.
Kiersten nods. “I don’t see it that way. It’s more like she’s encouraging us to undermine a system flawed through overuse of words that are made out to be harmful, when in fact they’re just letters, mixed together like every other word. That’s all they are, mixed up letters. Like, take the word “butterfly” for example. What if someone decided one day that butterfly is a cussword? People would eventually start using butterfly as an insult, and to emphasize things in a negative way. The actual WORD doesn’t mean anything. It’s the negative association people give these words that make them cusswords. So if we all just decided to keep saying butterfly all the time, eventually people would stop caring. The shock value would subside…and it would just become another word again. Same with every other so-called bad word. If we would all just start saying them all the time, They wouldn’t be bad anymore. That’s what my mom says anyway.”
“Kiersten?” Eddie says. “Will you be my new best friend?”
Lake grabs a french fry off her plate and throws it at Eddie, hitting her in the face with it. “That’s Bullshit,” Lake says.
“Oh, go BUTTERFLY yourself,” Eddie says. She returns a fry in Lakes direction.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
my final piece
We’re born into the world
As just one small piece to the puzzle
That makes up an entire life.
It’s up to us throughout our years,
to find all of our pieces that fit.
The pieces that connect who we are
To who we were
To who we’ll one day be.
Sometimes pieces will almost fit.
They’ll feel right.
We’ll carry them around for a while,
Hoping they’ll change shape.
Hoping they’ll conform to our puzzle.
But they won’t.
We’ll eventually have to let them go.
To find the puzzle that is their home.
Sometimes pieces won’t fit at all.
No matter how much we want them to.
We’ll shove them.
We’ll bend them.
We’ll break them.
But what isn’t meant to be,
won’t be.
Those are the hardest pieces of all to
accept.
The pieces of our puzzle
That just don’t belong.
But occasionally . . .
Not very often at all,
If we’re lucky,
If we pay enough attention,
We’ll find a
perfect match.
The pieces of the puzzle that slide right in
The pieces that hug the contours of our own
pieces.
The pieces that lock to us.
The pieces that we lock to.
The pieces that fit so well, we can’t tell
where our piece begins
And that piece ends.
Those pieces we call
Friends.
True loves.
Dreams.
Passions.
Beliefs.
Talents.
They’re all the pieces that complete our
puzzles.
They line the edges,
Frame the corners,
Fill the centers,
Those pieces are the pieces that make us
who we are.
Who we were.
Who we’ll one day be.
Up until today,
When I looked at my own puzzle,
I would see a finished piece.
I had the edges lined,
The corners framed,
The center filled.
It felt like it was complete.
All the pieces were there.
I had everything I wanted.
Everything I needed.
Everything I dreamt of.
But up until today,
I realized I had collected all
but one piece.
The most vital piece.
The piece that completes the picture.
The piece that completes my whole life.
I held this girl in my arms
She wrapped her tiny fingers around mine.
It was then that I realized
She was the fusion.
The glue.
The cement that bound all my pieces
together.
The piece that seals my puzzle.
The piece that completes my life.
The element that makes me who I am.
Who I was.
Who I’ll one day be.
You, baby girl.
You’re my final piece.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))
“
There are moments in every relationship that define when two people start to fall in love.
A first glance
A first smile
A first kiss
A first fall…
(I remove the Darth Vader house shoes from my satchel and look down at them.)
You were wearing these during one of those moments.
One of the moments I first started to fall in love with you.
The way you gave me butterflies that morning
Had absolutely nothing to do with anyone else,
and everything to do with you.
I was falling in love with you that morning
because of you.
(I take the next item out of the satchel. When I pull it out and look up, she brings her hands to her mouth in shock.)
This ugly little gnome
With his smug little grin…
He's the reason I had an excuse to invite you into my house.
Into my life.
You took a lot of aggression out on him over those next few months.
I would watch from my window as you would kick him over every time you walked by him.
Poor little guy.
You were so tenacious.
That feisty, aggressive, strong-willed side of you….
The side of you that refused to take crap from this concrete gnome?
The side of you that refused to take crap from me?
I fell in love with that side of you
because of you.
(I set the gnome down on the stage and grab the CD)
This is your favorite CD
‘Layken’s shit.’
Although now I know you intended for shit to be possessive, rather than descriptive.
The banjo started playing through the speakers of your car
and I immediately recognized my favorite band.
Then when I realized it was your favorite band, too?
The fact that these same lyrics inspired both of us?
I fell in love with that about you.
That had absolutely nothing to do with anyone else.
I fell in love with that about you
because of you.
(I take a slip of paper out of the satchel and hold it up. When I look at her, I see Eddie slide her a napkin. I can’t tell from up here, but that can only mean she’s crying.)
This is a receipt I kept.
Only because the item I purchased that night was on the verge of ridiculous.
Chocolate milk on the rocks? Who orders that?
You were different, and you didn’t care.
You were being you.
A piece of me fell in love with you at that moment,
because of you.
This? (I hold up another sheet of paper.)
This I didn’t really like so much.
It’s the poem you wrote about me.
The one you titled 'mean?'
I don’t think I ever told you…
but you made a zero.
And then I kept it
to remind myself of all the things I never want to be to you.
(I pull her shirt from my bag. When I hold it into the light, I sigh into the microphone.)
This is that ugly shirt you wear.
It doesn’t really have anything to do with why I fell in love with you.
I just saw it at your house and thought I’d steal it.
”
”
Colleen Hoover (Point of Retreat (Slammed, #2))
“
This poem is very long
So long, in fact, that your attention span
May be stretched to its very limits
But that’s okay
It’s what’s so special about poetry
See, poetry takes time
We live in a time
Call it our culture or society
It doesn’t matter to me cause neither one rhymes
A time where most people don’t want to listen
Our throats wait like matchsticks waiting to catch fire
Waiting until we can speak
No patience to listen
But this poem is long
It’s so long, in fact, that during the time of this poem
You could’ve done any number of other wonderful things
You could’ve called your father
Call your father
You could be writing a postcard right now
Write a postcard
When was the last time you wrote a postcard?
You could be outside
You’re probably not too far away from a sunrise or a sunset
Watch the sun rise
Maybe you could’ve written your own poem
A better poem
You could have played a tune or sung a song
You could have met your neighbor
And memorized their name
Memorize the name of your neighbor
You could’ve drawn a picture
(Or, at least, colored one in)
You could’ve started a book
Or finished a prayer
You could’ve talked to God
Pray
When was the last time you prayed?
Really prayed?
This is a long poem
So long, in fact, that you’ve already spent a minute with it
When was the last time you hugged a friend for a minute?
Or told them that you love them?
Tell your friends you love them
…no, I mean it, tell them
Say, I love you
Say, you make life worth living
Because that, is what friends do
Of all of the wonderful things that you could’ve done
During this very, very long poem
You could have connected
Maybe you are connecting
Maybe we’re connecting
See, I believe that the only things that really matter
In the grand scheme of life are God and people
And if people are made in the image of God
Then when you spend your time with people
It’s never wasted
And in this very long poem
I’m trying to let a poem do what a poem does:
Make things simpler
We don’t need poems to make things more complicated
We have each other for that
We need poems to remind ourselves of the things that really matter
To take time
A long time
To be alive for the sake of someone else for a single moment
Or for many moments
Cause we need each other
To hold the hands of a broken person
All you have to do is meet a person
Shake their hand
Look in their eyes
They are you
We are all broken together
But these shattered pieces of our existence don’t have to be a mess
We just have to care enough to hold our tongues sometimes
To sit and listen to a very long poem
A story of a life
The joy of a friend and the grief of friend
To hold and be held
And be quiet
So, pray
Write a postcard
Call your parents and forgive them and then thank them
Turn off the TV
Create art as best as you can
Share as much as possible, especially money
Tell someone about a very long poem you once heard
And how afterward it brought you to them
”
”
Colleen Hoover (This Girl (Slammed, #3))