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Sometimes, the sun sets earlier. Days donβt last forever, you know. But Iβll fight as hard as I can. I can promise you that.
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Iβve been searching a long time for something I think I lost.
I felt like I found something when I saw you back there.
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It hurts every day, the absence of someone who was once there.
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Then Day reaches out and touches my hand with his. He encloses it in a handshake. And just like that, I am linked with him again, I feel the pulse of our bond and his- tory and love through our hands, like a wave of magic, the return of a long-lost friend. Of something meant to be. The feeling brings tears to my eyes. Perhaps we can take a step forward together.
βHi,β he says. βIβm Daniel.β
βHi,β I reply. βIβm June.
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You drive me insane June. You're the scariest, most clever, bravest person I know, and sometimes I can't catch my breath because I'm trying so hard to keep up. There will never be another like you. You realize that, don't you? Billions of people will come and go in this world, but there will never be another like you.
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I scream for everything that has gone wrong. I scream for everything broken in our lives.
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I hope,β he replies softly, βto get to know you again. If you are open to it. There is a fog around you that I would like to clear away.
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Hi,β he says. βIβm Daniel.β
βHi,β I reply. βI'm June.
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He loves you, really he does. He'd love you even if it destroyed him. He matches you.
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Time heals all wounds. But not this one. Not yet.
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We can heal. Perhaps we can return to that same place we once stood, when we were both young and innocent.
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I can feel his presence here in every stone he has touched, every person he has lifted up, every street and alley and city that he has changed in the few years of his life, because he is the Republic, he is our light, and I love you, I love you, until the day we meet again I will hold you in my heart and protect you there, grieving what we never had, cherishing what we did. I wish you were here.
I love you, always.
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Where I come from, we're more about efficiency,' he replies. 'A knife like this'll skewer food, smear butter, and slit throats all at the same time.
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June laughs. "I have to say, you look better than most people I see. I've heard a lot about you."
"I hear about you a lot too," Eden replies in a rush, "mostly from Daniel. He thinks you're really hot.
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Tell me there is still good in the world. Tell me there is still hope for all of us.
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I feel so out of place here. No matter how much money the Republic throws at me, I will forever be the boy from the streets.
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There's a conflicted look in Day's eyes, a joy and a grief, that makes him so vulnerable. I realize how little defense he has against my words. He loves so wholly. It is his nature.
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I always knew, on some level, that I wouldn't live long. It's simply not written in my stars.
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Without emotion, whatβs the point of being human?
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Now, as we stand three feet apart and stare at each other, I feel the full distance that comes with spending so much time apart, a moment filled with the electricity of a first meeting and the uncertainty of strangers.
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My heart's been torn wide open, just like I feared it would be, and I have no willpower to close it back up.
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No matter what happens in the future, no matter where our paths take us, this moment will be ours.
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Clouds suit my mood just fine.
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Day, the champion of the people, the one who can't bear to see those around him suffer on his behalf, who would gladly give his life for those he loves.
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I'm so tired. I don't know if I can ever outrun how I used to be.
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Please don't take him away from this world. Please don't let him die here in my arms, not after everything we've been through together, not after You've taken so many others. Please, I beg You, let him live. I am willing to sacrifice anything to make this happen- I'm willing to do anything You ask. Maybe you'll laugh at me for such a naive promise, but I mean it in earnest, and I don't care if it makes no sense or seems impossible. Let him live. Please. I can't bear this a second time.
Tell me there is still good in this world. Tell me there is still hope for all of us.
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Day just smiles at me, an expression so sad that it breaks through my numbness, and I begin to cry. Those bright blue eyes. Before me is the boy who has bandaged my wounds on the streets of Lake, who has guarded his family with every bone in his body, who has stayed by my side in spite of everything, the boy of light and laughter and life, of grief and fury and passion, the boy whose fate is intertwined with mine, forever and always.
"I love you," he whispers. "Can you stay awhile?
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That's why I'm sorry. I'm sorry because you shouldn't have to be everything to me. I had you, but I'd forgotten that I had myself too. It's a new feeling, something I'm getting used to.
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A MILLION THOUGHTS POUR THROUGH MY HEAD, BUT LIKE HER, I STAY SILENT. THEREβS SIMPLY NOTHING TO SAY.
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Can one mistake really destroy a lifetime together?
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Mom used to say that having three boys was kind of like having a pet tornado that talked back.
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He loves so wholly. It is his nature. He blinks, then tries to find the right response. "I-" he stumbles. "I'm so afraid, June. So afraid of what might happen to-" I put two fingers against his lips to hush him. "Fear makes you stronger," I whisper. Before I can stop myself, I put my hands on his face and press my mouth to his.
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For a small moment, I fix my eyes on his, telling him silently everything that I'll never say to him aloud.
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I took an oath June. I am still bound by that oath. I will die with honor for sacrificing everything I have-everything-for my country.. And yet, Day is a legend, while I am to be executed." His voice finally breaks with all his anger and inner torment, the injustice he feels. "It makes no sense."
I stand up. Behind me, guards move toward the cell door. "You're wrong," I say sadly. "It makes perfect sense."
"Why?"
"Because Day chose to walk in the light." I turn my back on him for the last time. The door opens; the cell's bars make way for the hall, a new rotation of prison guards, freedom. "And so did Metias.
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Day will move on and live his life. So will I. We will be okay. Someday, perhaps in the far and distant future, we'll find each other again.
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Heyβwith your metal leg and half a brain, and my four leftover senses, we almost make a whole person.
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Absolute power is absolute power, no matter what itβs called.
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I feel the pulse of our bond and history and love through our hands, like a wave of magic, the return of a long-lost friend. Of something meant to be. The feeling brings tears to my eyes. Perhaps we can take a step forward together.
'Hi,' he says. 'I'm Daniel.'
'Hi,' I reply. 'I'm June.
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Even the illusion of June is enough to send a stabbing pain through my chest. Hell. I miss her so much.
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My wandering has led me to the beginning of our journey together. I suppose it's only fitting for me to be here at that journey's end.
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He has tears in his eyes now. The sight is more than I can bear. He takes two steps away from me and then turns back like a caged animal. βDo you even love me?β he suddenly asks. He grips both of my shoulders. βIβve said it to you before, and I still mean it. But Iβve never heard it from you.
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I reach out to touch one of the walls, imagining that I can feel his life and warmth through it, and I look around again, up toward the rooftops and then all the way to the night sky where a few faint stars can be seen, and there I think I really can see him. I can feel his presence here in every stone he has touched, every person he has lifted up, every street and alley and city that he has changed in the few years of his life, because he is the Republic, he is our light, and I love you, I love you, until the day we meet again I will hold you in my heart and protect you there, grieving what we never had, cherishing what we did. I wish you were here. I love you, always.
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I wasn't meant to live long. It simply wasn't written in my stars.
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I see pieces of memories in his eyes. Pieces of us. They are broken, and scattered, but they are there, gradually coming together again at the sight of me.
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When had Eden grown up? I feel like I blinked and missed it.
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So long as I remain in Day's life, I will hurt him. Any other alternative is impossible.
Now, he is free.
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The Republic is weak and broken." I narrow my eyes. "But it is still your country. Fight for it. This is your home, not theirs.
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I love you," I whisper over and over again. "Don't go," I close my eyes. My tears fall on his cheeks.
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She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, easily the most breathtaking girl in the room.
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I love you, until the day we meet again I will hold you in my heart and protect you there, grieving what we never had. cherishing what we did. I wish you were here.
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Not long ago, the city patrols would have arrested him on sight. Now, heβs leaving the Republic as their champion, to be celebrated and remembered for a lifetime.
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He doesn't know who I am.
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Whatβs the point of keeping in touch with the girl youβre crazy about, when youβre dying?
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So, when I thought June might take you away, I didnβt know what to do. I felt like she was taking everything that mattered to me. I felt like she was taking away from you all the things that I didnβt have. Thatβs why Iβm sorry. Iβm sorry because you shouldnβt have to be everything to me. I had you, but Iβd forgotten that I had myself too.
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Because Day chose to walk in the light.β I turn my back on him for the last time. The door opens; the cellβs bars make way for the hall, a new rotation of prison guards, freedom. βAnd so did Metias.
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Billions of people will come and go in this world, but there will never be another like you.
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I stand in the darkness for a long time, letting myself sink into the memories we once shared.
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As I run my sector, I canβt help but smile. Iβm free again, I can taste the wind and touch the sky.
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Until the day we meet again I will hold you in my heart and protect you there, grieving what we never had, cherishing what we did.
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Thomas stares at the floor between us with hollow eyes. βI loved him, June,β he says after a moment. βI really did. Everything I did as a soldier, all my hard work and training, was to impress him.β His guard is finally down, and I can see the true depth of his torture now.
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Someone's going to be very pleased to see you."
"I don't think the Elector will be as excited as you think."
"I wasn't talking about the Elector."
My heart jumps at that.
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He loves so wholly. It is his nature.
No one compares to him. And right now, I want nothing else.
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Letβs play. You have no idea who youβre dealing with.
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And what if they donβt respond to your call?β June says. I shoot her a quick smile. βHave some faith, sweetheart. The people love me.
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You drive me insane, June,β he murmurs against my hair. βYouβre the scariest, most clever, bravest person I know, and sometimes I canβt catch my breath because Iβm trying so hard to keep up. There will never be another like you. You realize that, donβt you?β I tilt my face up to see him. His eyes reflect the faint lights from the JumboTrons, a rainbow of evening colors. βBillions of people will come and go in this world,β he says softly, βbut there will never be another like you.
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I stand there for a while, then sit cross-legged before it and bow my head. "Hi, Metias," I say in a soft voice. "Today's my birthday. Do you know how old I am now?"
I close me eyes, and through the silence surrounding me I think I can sense a ghostly hand on my shoulder, my brother's gentle presence that I'm able to feel every now and then, in these quiet moments. I imagine him smiling down at me, his expression relaxed and free.
"I'm twenty-seven today," I continue in a whisper. My voice catches for a moment. "We're the same age now."
For the first tine in my life, I am no longer his little sister. Next year I will step across the line and he will still be in the same place. From now on, I will be older than he ever was.
I try to move on to other thoughts, so I tell my brother's ghost about my year, my struggles and successes in commanding my own patrols, my hectic workweeks. I tell him, as I always do, that I miss him. And as always, I can hear the whisper of his ghost against my ear, his gentle reply that he misses me too. That he's looking out for me, from wherever he is.
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How can the boy who stirred an entire nation be dying?
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I exchange a long glance with June. She's okay, she's unharmed. And yet, I'm afraid that she'll disappear if I'm careless enough to look away.
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Itβs the duty of a Republic soldier to be loyal to the end, and Iβm still a soldier. I will be one until I die.
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You are Dayβs weakness, June. Heβll listen to you.
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Iβm twenty-seven today,β I continue in a whisper. My voice catches for a moment. βWeβre the same age now.β For the first time in my life, I am no longer his little sister. Next year I will step across the line and he will still be in the same place. From now on, I will be older than he ever was.
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Someday, youβll learn that life isnβt always what you want it to be. That you wonβt always get what you want.
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Metias would be more merciful in my position.
But I was never as good a person as my brother.
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My life became the lives of Day and June, and through them I saw my own fears, hopes and aspirations play out across their canvas. Now I've reached the point where our stories diverge. They are off to live beyond the confines of the trilogy; I am left waving to them from the sidelines. I don't know where they'll go but I think they're going to be okay.
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I've heard a lot about you."
"I hear about you a lot too, mostly from Daniel. He thinks you're really hot.
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Iβve had this dream too many times. I donβt want it taken away again.
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Thatβs something youβll learn when you grow up. People by nature are unjust, unfair, and conniving.
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Through a blurry veil of tears,
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There's no question that the Republic has done some horrible things to us all, that they might still be doing those things. But... maybe I've also been seeing the things I want to see. Maybe now that the old elector is gone, the Republic's soldiers have started to shed their masks too.
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My heart's been torn wide open, just like I feared it would be, and I have no willpower to close it back up. Any barrier I might've succeeded in putting up around myself, any resistance I might've built up against my feelings for her, is now completely gone. Shattered.
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No. I will never let you hurt Day like that. Not the way I've already hurt him.
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Every morning, everythingβs possible again. Right?
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I love you. No matter what happens between us.
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I try to imitate the effortless grace that Day and Pascao have in this urban jungle.
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I look on, it manages to hit the Colonies plane and ignite one of its engines, sending it careening wildly to one side and leaving a trail of dark smoke behind
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there are forces out of your control that will shape you into who you are.
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No. I will never let you hurt Day like that. Not the way Iβve already hurt him. βYouβre the Elector. You donβt have to do anything. And if you care about the Republic, you wonβt risk angering the one person who the public believes in.
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I felt like she was taking everything that mattered to me. I felt like she was taking away from you all the things that I didn't have.
That's why I'm sorry. I'm sorry because you shouldn't have to be everything to me. I had you, but I'd forgotten that I had myself too.
It's a new feeling, something I'm still getting used to.
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I'm not some invincible super-soldier--I'm a dying boy who's about to be stuck, helpless, in the hospital while an enemy takes over our country.
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I wonder if the last shreds of my sanity wouldβve vanished. I feel like Iβm hanging on by a thread.
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Maybe sheβll fight better this way. Nothing motivates you like being alone and cornered on the streets.
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What do you have in mind?β I put my hands in my pockets and put my arrogant mask back on. βWhat Iβve always been good at.
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I know that something has answered my prayer, and at the same time has also told me what my sacrifice must be. I have been offered a chance to never hurt Day again.
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You do what you need to do.
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But fairness does not power nations, Day, does it? I have read histories about nations where every person is given an equal start in life, where everyone contributes to the greater good and no one is richer or poorer than anyone else. Do you think that system worked? Not with people, Day. That's something you'll learn when you grow up. People by nature are unjust, unfair, and conniving. You have to be careful with them--you have to find a way to make them think that you are catering to their every whim. The masses can't function on their own. They need help. They don't know what's good for them.
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Until the day we meet again I will hold you in my heart and protect you there, grieving what we never had, cherishing what we did. I wish you were here. I love you, always.
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He draws closer, until I feel his lips
against my ear. My entire body trembles. βDo you have any idea?β he says in a soft, broken, hoarse whisper. βDo you know how . . . how badly I wish . . .β
He pulls away long enough to look me
desperately in the eyes. βIf you donβt love me, just say itβyou have to help me. Itβd probably be for the best. Itβd make it easier to stay away from you, wouldnβt it? I can let go.β He
says it like heβs trying to convince himself. βI can let go, if you donβt love me.β
He says this as if he thinks Iβm the
stronger one. But Iβm not. I canβt keep this up any better than he can. βNo,β I say through gritted teeth and blurry vision. βI canβt help you. Because I do love you.β There it is, out in the open. βIβm in love with you,β I repeat.
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I know you don't love me that way. Don't you think I know that by now? But you don't know how I feel about you. No one does."
"Tell me, then."
"Day, you mean more to me than some crush. When the entire world turned its back on me and left me to die, you took me in. You were the person that cared about what might happen to me. You were everything. Everything. You became my entire family - you were my parents and my siblings and my caretaker, my only friend and companion, you were both my protector and someone who needed protecting. You see? I didn't love you in the way you might've thought I did, although I can't deny that was part of it. But the way I feel goes beyond that.
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Hi, Metias,β I say in a soft voice. βTodayβs my birthday. Do you know how old I am now?β
I close my eyes, and through the silence surrounding me I think I can sense a ghostly hand on my shoulder, my brotherβs gentle presence that I'm able to feel every now and then, in these quiet moments. I imagine him smiling down at me, his expression relaxed and free.
βI'm twenty-seven today,β I continue in a whisper. My voice catches for a moment. βWeβre the same age now.β
For the first time in my life, I am no longer his little sister. Next year I will step across the line and he will still be in the same place. From now on, I will be older than he ever was.
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You once told me why you chose 'Day' as your street name,' she says firmly. 'Every morning, everything is possible again. Right?' A river of tingles run up my spine. I want to take her face in my hands again, kiss her cheeks and study her dark, sad eyes and tell her I'll be okay. But that would just be another lie. Half of my heart is breaking at the pain in her face; the other half, I realize quiltily, is swelling with happiness to know that she still cares. There's love in her tragic words, in the folds of that thin metal ring. Isn't there?
Finally I take a deep breath. 'Sometimes, the sun sets earlier. Days don't last forever, you know. But I'll fight as hard as I can. I can promise you that.
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