Aon Quotes

You are better than you think. A-one, a-two a-three.

Katar," Raoden called. Yes, My Lord?" Do you know what it is? The secret, I mean?" Kahar smiled. "I havent't been hungry in days, my lord. It is the most amazing feeling in the world-I don't evern notice the pain anymore." Raoden nodded, and Kahar left. The man had come looking for a magical solution to his woes, but he had found an answer much more simple. Pain lost its power when other things became more importan. Kahar didn't need a potion or an Aon to save him-he just needed something to do.

Pain lost it's power when other things became more important.Kahar didn't need a potion or an Aon to save him-he just needed something to do.-Brandon sanderson(Elantris)

The man had come looking for a magical solution to his woes, but he had found an answer much more simple. Pain lost its power when other things became more important. Kahar didn't need a potion or an Aon to save him—he just needed something to do.

Oh, blessed Domi!" the Aon exclaimed, approaching quickly. "Ashe!" she said, wiping her eyes with a quivering hand, numbed by shock. "You never use the Lord's name!" "If He has brought me to you, then He has His first Seon convert," Ashe said, pulsing excitedly.

To save her?” Aon was grinning behind his mask. Nothing else mattered. Nothing. “I will burn it all to dust.

You have to go to the Source from where you come from in order to feel what you are in your essence, and your higher potential.

Aon leaned his head to whisper to her. “I would have you rise as my equal in this world. I would have you tear down all who stand in your way. I would have you build this forsaken world to be your throne. For I love you, and I think I always have…

Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.’ Rumi

We seek from others what we lack within ourselves. Why don’t we give what we most need instead?

Girl, you my A-one since day one. I would have never given up on you.

Usiwe na wasiwasi, Peter. Hizo ni hisia zangu tu. Huwezi kuwa mpelelezi. Lakini, kusema ule ukweli, ningependa sana kuonana na John Murphy. Kuna kazi binafsi ningependa kumpa. Wewe unatoka Afrika, hujawahi kumwona?” Debbie alizidi kumshtua Murphy. “Nani?” Murphy aliuliza huku akitabasamu. “John Murphy wa Afrika.” “Sijawahi kumwona. Mbona unamuulizia hivyo?” Debbie alitulia. Kisha akarusha nywele ili aone vizuri. “Nampenda sana!” “Kwa nini?” “Simpendi kwa mahaba, lakini.” “Ndiyo. Kwa nini?” “OK. Nampenda kwa kipaji chake. Alichopewa na Mungu, cha ujasusi. Kusaidia watu.” “Ahaa!” Murphy alidakia, sasa akifikiri sana. “Murphy ana mashabiki wengi hapa Meksiko bila yeye mwenyewe kujua, kwa sababu ya kupambana na wahalifu wa madawa ya kulevya – hasa wa huku Latino. Tatizo lake haonekani. Wengi hudhani ni hadithi tu, kwamba hakuna mtu kama huyo hapa duniani.” “Hapana! Murphy yupo! Ni mfanyabiashara maarufu huko Tanzania. Lakini ndiyo hivyo kama unavyosema ... Haonekani!

Divine Love is the primary Quality of God. Divine Love is an emotion of God, and as such is a substance that God can transmit to humans. Divine Love can be received by the human soul if the human soul exercises its Free Will to receive Divine Love, and desires to eradicate all those emotions within itself that prevents the flow and demonstration of Love.

Self-responsibility and self-empowerment go hand in hand. Once you accept you have created all that has happened to you in order that you might learn and grow, then you can truly unravel and heal both personal and collective wounds. It is here that women tap in to their real feminine strength and access the will to feel what was previously rejected within.

For that day so long ago when he had taken Qta’s life, he had demanded Qta make for him a queen. He had demanded he build someone to love him. Qta refused, and Aon murdered him in his rage. In the desire to love, and more importantly, to be loved, he had destroyed the world. Now, on the eve of their destruction, they taunted him with hope, only to dash it away upon the cobblestones. They chose to mock him with that he could never have. Touché. “Take her now, for you would not have her then.” Aon took a step deeper into the water, sank now up to his waist, and lowered the girl into the pool. Lydia’s body was pulled from his grasp by unseen hands, their power dragging her down into the chasm. Aon climbed from the liquid and returned to the altar, putting the metal mask back on his face. There was comfort in it. He could bury his sorrow there. He could hide it all. He turned to look back at the pool for one last time. “Know that I will be the death that will rain down upon all you have made.

The WOUND of LOVE In our wound-ships and romances, we make something of others that they are not, we make them what we want them to be that suits us, so we can stop feeling ourselves, so that our wound stays out of reach, hidden, buried. And then if the wound does come up, it becomes about them! The most common projection is a lack of love within one’s own self, which then reaches out to another to fill this need, appearing loving in the process, because of mutual charge and the mutual hole resonating.

I therefore,  m a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to  n walk in a manner worthy of  o the calling to which you have been called, 2with all  p humility and  q gentleness, with  r patience,  s bearing with one another in love, 3eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in  t the bond of peace. 4There is  u one body and  v one Spirit—just as you were called to the one  w hope that belongs to your call— 5 x one Lord,  y one faith,  z one baptism, 6 a one God and Father of all,  b who is over all and through all and in all.

openness, your yearning for Divine Love, your willingness to search for, embrace and heal any and all soul wounds that stand in its way, with continual dedication, self inquiry and prayer. The most important thing is to do this, because once a soul walks through this door, once Divine Love is tasted and allowed in fully, once enough wounding is removed by Divine Love, then Divine Love can always be asked for and received. Whenever you ask for it, in one second it will come and fill you. Ask and you shall receive, knock on the door and the door will open. This is a massive key and is worth giving EVERYTHING for.

This aspect of love will never work to solve your problems, for even when you reach the pinnacle, the zenith of human love, feeling joyful, relatively happy and content in your life, you will, one day, realize you cannot go any further, that there is something missing, that there is something more. It is at this point that you will become confused, wondering what is next, why you have stopped evolving. This is when God can come in, if you choose so, and are humble enough. Of course, some people will never feel this and will stay in a nice state for a long time, thinking that this is it – they have reached the pinnacle. But it is not.

This is a Pathway of Sacred Tears, tears shed for the beauty, the pain and the breaking down of self in devastatingly real moments of humbly accepted personal ‘truth.’ Embracing and sticking with Divine Truth at all costs means all else pales into insignificance besides the Only Thing that really matters. There is a big difference between tears cried about the effects of a wound, and tears sobbed and released from the primal place within the soul where the causes of its deepest pains, suffering and heartbreaks dwell. The tears of crying on the surface of an emotion have little emotional impact, and are not felt by those more sensitive to truth and the deeper reality of the soul.

To realize we love another to get love because we do not love our own self is one of our core human wounds. For each of the two parts of this prayer meditation, express out loud or silently these sentences. Let the feelings and memories come. Express the feelings intuitively, changing and adding to the sentences if it helps. You can repeat one sentence several times in a row until you feel it, or go straight into the next one. You can improvise sentences that may better fit your feelings. One may also experience spirit interference in this prayer meditation. This can manifest as voices and feelings disagreeing with it. Unless you are living as unconditional love, you can be sure these are negative spirits trying to dissuade you from traveling deeper into your own wounds to release them, thereby banishing these spirit influences forever. Do each part for one hour. This meditation prayer can be about two hours long. Center yourself and drop into a prayerful, silent heartful space. Ask to become vulnerable and open your heart. Part One: I am not loved I am not loved I am not loved I have never been loved My parents did not love me I need love I need love I need love Please love me My quest for love has never worked My quest for love will never work Nobody really loves me Nobody really loved me How do you feel? Part Two: I am love I am love I am love God loves me God loves me God loves me God desires me God desires me God desires me I am love I am love I am love (from your heart) I am not loved I have never been loved I am not loved I am not LOVED I am just not loved No one has ever loved me No one loves me I am not loved I am not loved I do not love myself I do not love myself I do not love myself I am loved I am loved I am loved I am LOVED God is not here for me God has never been here for me God is not here for me God has left me I am not loved I have never been loved No one loves me God loves me God LOVES me God wants me God wants me God LOVES me God WANTS me God desires me I don’t want God I don’t want God I don’t want God I want fear I want fear I want fear I AM LOVED I AM LOVED I AM LOVED God wants me God desires me God loves me What does this make you feel? The experience of love and need in co-dependent relationships In such a relationship, one or both partners cover each others emotions by giving false comfort, false ‘love’ and other placating behaviors that prevent the other in deeply feeling and owning their own emotions. When you want to get out of this pattern, this prayer meditation will help. It will let both partners feel the truth of the unspoken demand of love and how they respond to it. Simply sit in front of your partner and express out loud these sentences as a way to reveal the unconscious behavior that is being played out between you both.

We feel Divine Love entering us firstly through gentle, soft, humbling, kind and loving feelings, independent of any other person. This can be experienced as gently overwhelming as it increases, dependent on the depth of our desire for It. As we heal further, and more of our negative, repressed emotions and causal soul wounds are removed, the entering of Divine Love into our souls becomes stronger and stronger, bringing deep tears, powerful sensations and expansions in the heart and soul in immense gratitude, humility and feelings of great love and even more yearning for God. There may also be whole body tingling and sensations, crown chakra and heart explosions, feelings of being fully bathed in love and light, great feelings of humility, awe and wonder at the indescribable nature of God’s Love, and at how much He loves you. Receiving Divine Love can feel like being immersed in a bath of love all over, in every part of you, every cell. Deep peace, joy and waves of ecstasy, rapture and bliss arise and flow all over, and great humility washes over the soul. Immense love for God as the most wondrous, awe inspiring Soul that He Is is felt. A deepening into the essence of your pure soul occurs, along with the deep desire to give more of your soul to God. You feel deeply nurtured and embraced in God’s Arms. There is nothing better than resting and dropping into This. You feel the purity of His Love that is the most pleasurable feeling your soul will ever experience. Heat, pressure, inner and outer movements, pulsing, physical shifts and alignments can occur as you open and embody more Divine Love and the feeling of Blessedness this brings. This Blessedness also arises in felt feelings of forgiveness and mercy. Divine Love is Perfect in its trust and tenderness. We become more and more like a child; innocent, joyful, playful and beautiful as we were created to Be. This play is a pure and glorious sensation, wishing to share itself freely and touching all others. Receiving Divine Love can also become so powerful that we are brought to our knees in immense gratitude, rapture, pain and bliss, sometimes all at once. Receiving Divine Love in its fullness is overwhelming, and can even be physically painful in the heart as it inflows to such a degree that the heart actually stretches to accommodate It all. It is both rapturous and ecstatic, as the body may rock, sway and stretch as it receives more and more Divine Love.8 There is no better feeling in all universes than to receive this Greatest Love of all loves, the most pleasurable feelings a soul can experience as it has actually been designed this way, yet our physical bodies cannot take too much of it at one time! When I receive Divine Love in a rapturous way, it is blissful to the soul yet sometimes painful to the physical. Sometimes I have to stop praying as the body becomes too tired.

Sharing affection with your ‘enemies,’ being kind to them in their anger or fear towards you, is a sign of this love being perfected. Another way Divine affection manifests is when the soul moves through its trials and tribulations of healing and releasing; at this time it can be comforted, when appropriate, through a ‘touch of love.’ This can be through The Comforter of The Holy Spirit, (God’s Messenger of Love) Divine Love guides or Divine Spirits, but can also come through consciously loving humans, our Friends of the Heart, who are moved by love yet also stand in Divine Truth so as to not interfere with our soul’s journey or try to comfort us to stop us (or themselves) feeling our own, very necessary emotions.

Ask to feel: •  the times you did not love yourself •  the times you projected mother and father wounds onto the other and vice versa •  all the times you felt and received emotional pain and did not express or release it (even if you did not feel it at the time) •  all the times you allowed yourself to be used or abused because you did not love yourself or allow yourself to feel your own pains •  all the times you felt betrayed and abandoned; or all the times you felt judged and separated from, not just in intimate relations but for all the instances this has occurred in your soul Free your soul to meet your soul mate in a truthful and loving way! The Healing Prayer and The Divine Love Prayer at the end of this book will especially help with this.

You are at the start of a magnificent journey and know not where it will take you, but you feel compelled and more trusting to ride with this wave nonetheless. Physical travel, a break from work or a total resignation to discover oneself are part of the inner journey here, as you seek to discover your soul in a series of new and unknown contexts. Who am I and what am I here to do is the guiding force here, as you start to search for the happiness that lies at the end of all things. You can sense it, not knowing what it is, but your soul beckons you forward, and a whole multitude of glorious synchronicities, guides, books, people and angels seen and unseen come flooding into your life to kick start this new and exciting adventure into pastures fertile with promise.

To move from First Sphere to Second Sphere, one has to welcome, ask for, pray for and embrace fear consistently. One has to dive into any and all fears and deeper pains you have. Then more Divine Love can enter, once the emotion is felt and released fully. Moving through the First Sphere takes the longest time and is painful ‘work’ as you have the most resistance, pride, unwillingness, judgment and blame. It takes discipline, commitment, a guide, self love, good health and vigilance. However, it is so worth it as you begin to feel Divine Love, and each time you do, It spurs you on, deepening your humility and trust. ‘When you find your path, have sufficient courage to make mistakes. Disappointment, defeat and despair are the tools God uses to show us the way.’ Paulo Coelho

In not compromising how you are being, at any time to any person for any reason, your pure soul voice becomes stronger, clearer. Loving your own soul will always benefit everyone around you, even if it does not seem to be at the time because of your own fears. To receive the fullness of Divine Love, which is to become At-One with God, all other loves are de-prioritized so Divine Love becomes the center of your being, the center of your desires, the center of your life and your very existence, the central pillar in your soul around which all else revolves. Then, all other things, all other loves, can be added on for your relative happiness, and will in fact be given to you with little effort or strategizing on your behalf because they will now be in their rightful place and context in your life:

To move more into living in love, we need to see how we are substituting for love and truth in our life. We create substitutes to stop us from feeling our deeper wounds, and these substitutes, needs and addictions keep us circling round and round in the effects of these deep seated emotions that form the very fabric of our wounded soul. The more we circle, the more frustrated we can become at our lack of progress, at our own unwillingness to feel deeper, until something has got to give. We fill the holes of our wounds with cheap, pale imitations and substitutes from the world and other people around us. All these substitutes are medications for the causal wound underneath. It is like covering over a bleeding, cut-off stump of an amputated arm with a piece of tissue paper, and hoping it will stick and do the job.

Body of Christ EPHESIANS 4 I therefore,  ma prisoner for the Lord, urge you to  nwalk in a manner worthy of  othe calling to which you have been called, 2with all  phumility and  qgentleness, with  rpatience,  sbearing with one another in love, 3eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in  tthe bond of peace. 4There is  uone body and  vone Spirit—just as you were called to the one  whope that belongs to your call— 5 xone Lord,  yone faith,  zone baptism, 6 aone God and Father of all,  bwho is over all and through all and in all. 7But  cgrace was given  dto each one of us  eaccording to the measure of Christ’s gift. 8Therefore it says, f“When he ascended on high  ghe led a host of captives, and he gave gifts to men.” [1] 9( hIn saying, “He ascended,” what does it mean but that he had also descended into  ithe lower regions, the earth? [2] 10He who descended is the one who also  jascended  kfar above all the heavens, that he might  lfill all things.) 11And  mhe gave the  napostles, the prophets, the  oevangelists, the  pshepherds [3] and teachers, [4] 12 qto equip the saints for the work of ministry, for  rbuilding up  sthe body of Christ, 13until we all attain to  tthe unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God,  uto mature manhood, [5] to the measure of the stature of  vthe fullness of Christ, 14so that we may no longer be children,  wtossed to and fro by the waves and carried about by every wind of doctrine, by human cunning, by craftiness in  xdeceitful schemes. 15Rather,  yspeaking the truth in love, we are to  zgrow up in every way into him who is  athe head, into Christ, 16 bfrom whom the whole body, joined and held together by every joint with which it is equipped,  cwhen each part is working properly, makes the body grow so that it builds itself up in love.

The soul grows through: 1 Humility and self-responsibility, your desire to totally and completely feel all your emotions, and to make it no one else’s fault, neither punishing, blaming, judging or harming yourself or others. 2 Desire to receive Divine Love and Truth as the priority: human love is secondary 3 Free will choice: being educated about all the possibilities available to you 4 Being sovereign: having your own connection to God and Truth within you dependent on no one else 5 Having a heartfelt determination, commitment and discipline 6 Merging with the spirit body vehicle and caring for the physical: The Holy Trinity 7 Loving and serving others in all dimensions 8 Developing the six forms of Love 9 Living by the 64 moral codes of love: Ma’at 10 Discernment and wisdom regarding what is love and what is truth; investigating and applying this consistently with everyone in all aspects of your life without exception

Zapalił światło i stała się światłość. Wezwał Bernata, żeby mu pomógł zaplanować idealny porządek, jakby Bernat był Platonem, a on Peryklesem, a mieszkanie w dzielnicy Eixample hałaśliwymi Atenami. Obaj mędrcy zdecydowali, że w gabinecie pozostaną rękopisy, inkunabuły, które kiedyś kupię, delikatne przedmioty, książki rodziców, płyty, nuty oraz najczęściej używane słowniki, i oddzielili wody na dole od wód na górze, i powstało niebo z chmurami, oddzielone od wód pod sklepieniem. W sypialni rodziców, którą udało mu się przerobić na własną, zmieściła się poezja oraz wydawnictwa muzyczne, i zebrał wody spod nieba w jedno miejsce tak, że ukazała się powierzchnia sucha, a tę suchą powierzchnię nazwał ziemią, a zbiorowisko wód morzem i oceanem. W dziecięcym pokoju, pilnowanym nieustannie przez szeryfa Carsona i dzielnego Czarnego Orła, zawsze na straży na nocnej szafce, opróżnili z książek, które mu towarzyszyły w dzieciństwie, wszystkie regały, nie wnikając w ich zawartość, a ich miejsce zajęła historia, od niepamiętnych czasów aż po dzień dzisiejszy. A także geografia, a na ziemi pojawiły się drzewa i nasiona, wydające trawy i kwiaty.

We can cry tears for our abandoning of God, tears for our betrayals of love, tears for our children, parents, friends and animals, tears for our denials of love, tears for our judgments of love, tears for the loss of our cherished yet naïve ideals about love, tears for our separations from love, tears for things we know not what we are crying for, and there is no need to know. We can cry tears of compassion for others’ pain as our own, we cry tears for our own heartbreak. We can cry and laugh at the same time, feeling both sadness and joy, heartbreak and hilarity. In this, we are not attached to the negative emotion (from the soul’s perspective) and can feel both sides of release and expansion at the same time. Tears of sweet madness, tears of pain, tears of sorrow, tears like honey that drip like nectar, remaking anew all that they touch. There are the tears of sweet sorrow, being the vessel for the woes of the world to be felt on behalf of all; someone has to cry if no one else does. The tears of grief as you feel your deepest pains with the aid of your greatest love of all loves, God; the tears of the sheer joy of the soul, the tears of loving orgasm as you make love with your Beloved whilst in prayer with God; the intimate tears of adoration for a Soul Mate in the act of making love, as the soul is touched on every level of love, human and Divine. Tears of gratitude, being touched by God in new and virgin places that have always been pure; tears of being touched in the ecstatic yearning, desire, shaking prayer and inflowing of God’s Love; tears borne from your desire to receive that love so keenly, so heartfully; tears of expansion and release. The intimacy of tears of adoration, of wondrous awe and loving gratitude for Beloved God, and more, and more, and more … Some tears can never be described, for they encompass all emotions at the same time. I wish you these tears of all tears.

When you say, ‘I love you’ to other people you may be actually saying: •  I don’t want to feel certain emotions hidden deep within me. •  I love you because I don’t want to feel heavy. •  I love you because I don’t want to feel shitty. •  I love you because I don’t want to feel lonely. •  I love you so I do not have to feel the huge gaping hole within me. •  I love you because I don’t want to feel out of control. •  I love you so I can stay in control. •  I love you so I don’t have to feel angry. •  I love you so I can feel angry. •  I love you because I really don’t want to feel lost. •  I love you because I don’t want to feel how hopeless my life is. •  I love you because I don’t want to feel my own pain. •  I love you because you fit the fantasy in my head of what my lover should be like. •  I love you because I do not want to feel empty. •  I love you because I do not love myself. •  I love you because someone in my past did not love me. •  I love you because I am addicted to sex, to comfort. •  I love you because you make me feel good and stop me feeling other emotions I do not wish to feel. •  I love you because you fill me up. •  I love you because you make me feel scared and that’s what love is for me. •  I love you because you remind me of how I have been abused and how I have abused others. •  I love you because you serve me and do not bother me. •  I love you because other people say I do, and we look good together. •  I love you because society demands that I should, and it is right to. •  I love you because I am too scared to be myself and step out into the world alone. •  I love you because you give me security, stability and because I am obliged to because we have children and a home. •  I love you because my parents, friends and culture want me to. •  I love you because you make me feel needed. •  I love you because I need you. •  I love you because I want to take care of you and make you, and me, feel good. •  I need to do something to deserve love. •  I need to do something to give love. •  I need to do something to receive love. •  Love is need. Need is love. •  I can only love when I am perfect and good. •  I can only love and be loved when I am perfect and good. •  I can only love myself when I am perfect and good. Is any of this really love? Does love use anything? Does love manipulate anybody? So why are you doing it everyday? Why do you grab hold of anyone else to stop you feeling these things?

Ever since I was a kid, I've just done what was assigned, made an A on it, and then waited for somebody to give me the next assignment. Now people are telling me I get to choose, that it's a nonpunitive democracy. How am I supposed to know what I want? I want to get well, feel good, and enjoy the rest of my life. Would somebody please tell me what to do?

If you ever need to quickly get the attention of a roomful of American musicians, “A-one!” will do it every time. Warning: do not use this command frivolously.

The spirit body merges with the soul to facilitate At-One-ment with God. As the spirit body is innately connected to the material body, many mystics have done fasts, cleanses and extreme physical acts to facilitate this three-fold marriage with God. From the perspective of the spirit body, healing is accomplished by moving energy. Everything in life is vibration moving at different frequencies and speeds of spin. Molecules

The door of entry into this castle is prayer and meditation. If a person does not realize Whom he is addressing, and understand what he is asking for, and who it is that is asking and of Whom he is asking it, he is not praying at all even though he is constantly moving his lips. Souls without prayer are like people whose bodies or limbs are paralyzed: they possess feet and hands but they cannot control them. In the same way, there are souls so infirm and so accustomed to busying themselves with outside affairs that nothing can be done for them, and it seems as though they are incapable of entering within themselves at all.

Lack of love-making in long-term relationships and the emotional repression that this involves starts to be questioned from an emotional standpoint, as does the validity and worth of such relationships in the context of your soul’s growth.

You can grow in love, and if you make different choices you can degrade in love. If you make a choice that is disharmonious with love, and out of truth, out of alignment with your soul, then your soul condition degrades. When you make a choice that is harmonious with love and is aligned and in truth, your soul condition expands. You can feel this happening, as in you can feel the joy, the expansion and the peaceful clarity of making choices harmonious with love, and feel the contraction, the pain, and the roughness of making choices disharmonious with love. For example, when you are generous with someone without wanting something back, how do you feel? What happens within yourself when you are harsh to someone, or judge another? Feel the truth of each of these choices and actions. When you choose love, when you do an action of love, you feel that inside yourself and you grow a little bit more in love.

The Second, the Fourth and the Sixth Spheres are for those who desire to grow in their mental and moral pursuits of natural love. In contrast, the Third, Fifth and Seventh Spheres are the ones specially prepared for those who are seeking the development of Divine Love in their souls. Divine Love is what is yearned for, and acquired. It is wise to remember that with soul development in Divine Love comes the mental, meditational, energetic and moral development of natural love; but the meditational, energetic, mental and moral development of natural love does not lead to the acquiring of Divine Love.30

When you come to love yourself exactly as God Loves you, remembering God wishes to give you everything if you but allow It and follow the Laws of Love, you will be loving others as God Loves them. Then you will be sharing God’s feelings and desires, acting on them in the world for the benefit of all beings. You will be sharing God’s Will and Plan for humanity and the cosmos, not just your own version of it.

The human spirit body and its mind begins to dissolve when your soul enters the Seventh Sphere, and begins the New Birth Process into The Divine Soul.19 Love

Everyone who wishes to enter the Second Sphere will be well advised to try to put aside all unnecessary affairs and business of this world. For those who hope to reach the principal Mansion, of At-One-ment with God, this is so important that unless you begin in this way you will never be able to get there. Beware of cares, which have nothing to do with you.

You may have done spiritual work before this but this is the beginning of the path of Divine Love, for your soul drives you forwards with its first taste of Divine Love. So already you are beginning to feel that passion. While there still may be fear, pain and control, your soul feels compelled to start letting go of all these things that are blocking your way to receive more and more Divine Love.

And then there come the tears, the pain, the letting go of things once held so dear, so comfortable, so much a part of who you thought you were, and what defined you. Identity weakens. Divine Love is yearned for, a new feeling. The healing begins. Sexuality starts to be explored consciously as a way to share and exchange energy, as a way to elevate and expand, as a way to heal and release, as a way to trigger and evolve, as a way to express a deeper love and connect more parts of yourself together, designed to lead towards the sacred.

The First Sphere is more about surviving than living, more about living your conditioning than living your authenticity. You live for the outside; defined by job, status, social agreements, and you follow what is expected by family and partner living in these patterns.

Do not let us suppose that if we weep a great deal we have done everything that matters; let us also work hard and practise the virtues, for these are what we most need. Let the tears come when God is pleased to send them: we ourselves should make no efforts to induce them. They will leave this dry ground of ours well watered and will be of great help in producing fruit; but the less notice we take of them, the more they will do, because they are the water which comes from Heaven. When we ourselves draw water, we tire ourselves by digging for it, and the water we get is not the same; often we dig till we wear ourselves out without having discovered so much as a pool of water, still less a wellspring.

When the friendship is purely spiritual, the love of God grows with it; and the more the soul remembers it, the more it remembers the Love of God, and the greater desire it has for God, so that as one grows, the other grows also. The Spirit of God has this property, that it increases good by adding more good to it. But when this love arises from the vice of sensuality (human love alone) it produces contrary effects; for the more the one grows, the more the other decreases, and the remembrance of it likewise.

The ultimate use of free will as envisaged by God is for your soul to desire to become At-One with God, thus transforming it into a Divine Soul. This is God’s deep desire for us,

Each Death marks your increasing dependence on Divine Love and Truth, on God, as the very lifeblood of your existence and purpose for being alive. The Five Deaths become Five Steps to Eternal and Divine Life, the ever increasing life of the expanding soul, the openings into the Reality of Divine Love through the permanent establishing of deep humility as your foundation, burning desire as your guiding, living light, holy choice as perpetual harmony, and your total willingness to obey the laws of love at all times in all parts of your life simply because it is true and what you desire most of all.

At times it can feel like you are being nailed to the cross of Divine laws and truths, which dissolves all your own personal truths as surely as night follows day. This happens externally through the judgments, fears and persecutions of others unwilling to allow your soul to follow God out of fear of what it means for them and their attachments. Internally this occurs as you burn in your resistance to following divine laws, feeling the flame burning you up through your total feeling of any and all emotions, refusing projection onto anyone, or anything. This is your road and the fulfilling of your desire to meet God fully. As Christ said, ‘If anyone desires to come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily, and follow Me.’33 The Passion is not a linear journey: we can experience some of the symptoms of each death at differing times, but to establish oneself in a new Sphere of love is another thing. It is a soulful journey, not for hard-core Buddhists or Yogis, although it can be. It is a journey of the Beloved, of the Lover of God.

What moves the soul through each death are the keys of humility, desire, choice and prayer.

God is Perfect and orchestrates everything for the fullest benefit of all concerned, always. It is always a win-win-win situation for everyone in love!

it is God’s desire that a clear map of the Divine Love Path becomes freely available to help guide souls through some of the beauties and pitfalls, the graces and the fears, the incredible Love, wonders and mystical pains that happen as we move closer and closer to God. God loves us all perfectly and gives us what we need to grow perfectly also. I became aware of the pitfalls of the Sphere I was moving into as I started to write this book, and without knowing this, I could have been stuck there for a long time. I trust that others who read this will not become tempted or too lazy to stay in relative happiness, but keep progressing into ultimate happiness. Faith is ever growing until we are At-One with God.

There are deeply mystical experiences of interior soul pain, trials, and the inexplicably arid desolation of the human soul as it dies bit by bit as it moves through the higher Spheres; and this is balanced by your soul experiencing more joy, peace, gratitude, flow, life force, beauty and interior rest (and your sharing of life and love with your soul half if you have met) in fully desiring and deserving all that God wishes to give you. Anything within us that feels it does not deserve Divine Love in its fullness is part of our wounding, in particular our Original Wounding, and is not how God created us to be.

These souls are much absorbed in worldly affairs, but their desires are good; infrequently they pray to God and think about the state of their souls, though not carefully. They pray a few times a month, and as a rule think all the time of their preoccupations, for they are much attached to them; where their treasure is, there is their heart also.

Before commencing any soul work, pray to God to guide you within it.

These negative spirits are less successful with those who are nearer God’s dwelling-place; but at this early stage, as the soul is still absorbed in worldly affairs, engulfed in worldly pleasure and puffed up with worldly honors and ambitions, its vassals, which are the senses and the faculties given to it by God as part of its nature, have not the same power, and such a soul is easily vanquished, although it may desire not to break Divine Laws and may even perform good works.

True perfection consists in the love of God and of our neighbor, and the more perfect is our observance of these two commandments, the nearer to perfection we shall be. If we attain them perfectly we are doing His will and so shall be united with Him.

Worldly pursuits, attachments, all start to be left behind as you search for something new, a deeper purpose, a deeper meaning, and a fuller feeling. You start to recognize the hole within yourself, places where you have not let love in, where you have abandoned love and denied it, where you are not following your deeper passions and desires, instead compromising, betraying and sacrificing your soul for your ideas of love and how you should be according to the world’s ideas about what love is, what it should feel like, and how it acts.

You begin to recognize, with grace and with guidance, that your own personal truths and ways of doing things are not working, and that there are laws in life which do work in bringing more love and truth to you. You start to recognize, enjoy and work more with your deeper feelings and desires, you begin to identify with these more, and start to see the patterns within you that deny love; and you desire to do something about it.

Very few humans desire to feel their pain because it is painful!

USING GOD as an EXCUSE Do you want to receive Divine Love so you do not have to feel painful emotions? Because if your desire is not strong, you will not receive Divine Love. You can have moments when your desire is pure and you will receive some Divine Love, and then there will be moments when your desire is not pure and you are wanting Divine Love to not feel these emotions; and of course you will not receive Divine Love because God loves you Perfectly in Truth and will not entertain your illusions.

We shall never succeed in knowing ourselves unless we seek to know God; by looking at His purity we shall see our foulness; by meditating upon His humility, we shall see how far we are from being humble. There are two advantages in this. First, it is clear that anything white looks very much whiter against something black, just as the black looks blacker against the white. Secondly, if we turn from self towards God, our understanding and our will become nobler and readier to embrace all that is good.

As we receive Divine Love, parts of us may arise that resist this. We may feel a sense of separation, of distance, of missing God as we receive His Love, realizing the distance between Him and us that we have created, and realizing how beautiful a feeling we have left out of our lives. We may feel unworthy and small; we may feel pain and disconnection to God rapidly

Each Sphere makes us more humble than the previous one, ‘for he that humbles himself is exalted in love, and he that exalts himself is humbled.’ Greatness is humility. Within each Sphere are ups and downs, we receive some Divine Love and blessing, and then pain or a deep lesson arises for us to feel and process. We are ascending and descending continually within the sub-levels of each Sphere. It is like a ladder that we move up and down on. God rests at the summit of this ladder, desiring us to reach into His substance and Great Soul. And then the ladder continues on, in a new way …

God recognizes and respects our independent will and the choices all of us make. He does not force us to seek His Love, but waits until we, by our own experience, learn that what we once thought was sufficient for our happiness is not sufficient. Realizing this insufficiency, we become dissatisfied, and with such dissatisfaction comes the wish and yearning to learn about the great unknown, which causes us to feel a dependence upon a source of happiness and love not coming from within our own self. This is the scary thing for most people on the spiritual path today, which teaches self-reliance, not God Reliance. The great advantage in striving to enter the Divine Love Spheres and Divine Heavens is that you not only gain your soul’s development, which is eternal and permanent, but also the development of your mind and moral nature. And so you understand: ‘Seek first the Kingdom of God, and all other things shall be added unto you.

So, how do you now relate with this bubble of false love now popping? Just sit with this, pray to God about it, and an implosion can start to happen that is beautiful at the same time as it is scary. You can only get to a deeper degree of receiving Divine Love and pure desire once these other things are recognized and felt.

And this charge plays out with partners, parents, friends, families and even our children. Many parents unconsciously ‘use’ their children so the parent can feel loved, important, special, and needed under the mask of being unconditionally loving to their children. The parent needs the child in order for the parent to feel love. This need is not love, simply another excuse for the parent to not feel their own lack and wound, and of course when the child acts up and does not meet their expectations, then the child receives harmful projections and verbal and physical abuse.

The soul’s condition determines your destiny. From the perspective of the soul journeying towards Union with God, healing is accomplished through receiving Divine Love from God. Everything in life is here to faciliate this purpose, and to uncover and release any blocks to receiving more of this Love.

Love honors the truth of the soul in you and others, the soul created by God. •  Love chooses and is totally willing and desiring to feel any and all emotions. •  Love speaks truth always, to everyone. •  Love moves forward to grow more. •  Love welcomes its Law of Attraction and seeks its causal emotions. •  Love seeks out where it is absent. •  Love gives with truth, and gives freely in this. •  Loving yourself means you know yourself, wounds and strengths. •  Love follows Truth, no matter what Truth looks like. •  Love’s behavior is not dependent on what anyone else says, thinks, does or reacts to. •  Love stands by Itself and only needs Itself to be Itself. •  Love freely chooses and desires love for its own sake. •  Love accepts and appreciates. •  Love allows everyone to choose what they wish to choose, desire what they wish to desire, and create what they wish to create. •  Love is humble. •  Love is the only protection.

Love wants more truth, because that will lead to more love, and that is what love desires, more of itself. Love loves Love.

What I seem to like may not be what my soul actually desires.

to discover what love’s truth is, we have to recognize what it is not. •  Love does not nurse others through their own emotions, making it all better. •  Love does not refuse or run away from feeling al your own emotions. •  Love does not rescue anyone from feeling his or her own emotions. •  Love does not give itself away to feed another’s needs. •  Love is not running to be with others who will agree with you and your wounds. •  Love does not refuse to speak truth, no matter what your fears are around this. •  Love does not demand or expect anything from anyone. •  Love does not give to get. •  Love is not painful. •  Love does not retaliate. •  Love does not bargain. •  Love does not compromise. •  Love does not need to be loved. •  Love does not need to be needed, but can be desired from God. •  Love does not take anything or anyone for granted. •  Love does not sacrifice Itself for anyone or anything. •  Love is not martyring yourself. •  Love is not giving yourself away, placating your own ego or another. •  Love is not a duty or obligation for any reason. •  Love does not lie for any reason. •  Love does not hide itself for any reason. •  Love may not look like love to the world or other people who are invested in you. •  Love does not give out of fear, duty, coercion, pressure or because it is meant to. •  Love does not depend on anything or anyone for Its existence. •  Love does not run away from Truth but runs towards it, no matter what the cost. •  Love does not delay or postpone its growth and expansion within you. •  Love does not ignore or justify its Law of Attraction and mirrors. •  Love does not deny, avoid or escape anything. •  Love does not use anyone or anything because love does not need anyone or anything. •  Love does not fill its absence with temporary substitutes and addictions. •  Love does not run away from the pain of its felt absence within you. •  Love has no shame and feels no loss. •  Love does not need to be understood or explain its feelings. •  Love does not gossip.

In our lives, we generally place these other objects before Divine Love: 1 Our fears, addictions and substitutes for Divine 2 Love, such as busyness and work 3 Our children, parents, partners, brothers and sisters 4 Our jobs, homes, possessions, material objects, 5 status and reputation 6 Our friends 7 Our pets After this, Divine Truth and Divine Love may become important! It is curious that many who say This is so important place it low in their list of priorities and actual time they spend putting It into action. It becomes an add-on to your life to make your life happier, rather than the central pillar.

Love is a warm consciousness that always speaks and shares truth, and does not support illusion of any kind. Yet it can Comfort us (at times and as soulfully appropriate) in our genuine yearning for Truth and Love as we see our illusions, false beliefs and our façade breaking down. The more you feel, the more you heal.

Our filter bubble affects our ability to consciously choose how our soul wants to live. We may think we are guiding our own destiny, but what we have left unfelt and unhealed from the past, determines our present and what we do next. You can get stuck in a static, ever-narrowing version of yourself – an endless you-loop. 23

Oczywiście o ile wcześniej nie umrę w przedziale drugiej klasy pociągu InterCity gdzieś pomiędzy Warszawą a Krakowem lub pomiędzy Poznaniem a Wrocławiem, co pewnie byłoby upokarzające, w ogóle umieranie w Polsce jest, jak sądzę, upokarzające, szczególnie gdy jest to zejście z powodów naturalnych, można powiedzieć, że śmierć na skutek nowotworu lub schorzeń układu krążenia jest w Polsce śmiercią wstydliwą, upokarzającą, wręcz upodlającą, zarówno w pociągu, jak i w szpitalu, nie widzę większej różnicy i nie potrafiłbym się zdecydować, gdzie wolałbym umrzeć, śmierć w Polsce jest ponadto śmiercią nieludzką, bo tutaj umierający człowiek pozostaje człowiekiem jedynie wtedy, gdy zabijają go za ojczyznę, a on umiera, odmawiając różaniec, ponieważ umierać należy jedynie na wojnach, w powstaniach oraz w katastrofach narodowych, względnie w masowych wypadkach komunikacyjnych, wtedy natychmiast ogłaszana jest żałoba narodowa, a więc stan, który naród uwielbia, oczywiście władza także, kiedy ruszają korowody trumien, nakazuje się: zabaw hucznych nie urządzać, a jeśli nie jest to akurat ogólnopolska żałoba narodowa, ukochane igrzyska i karnawał śmierci, to bywa przynajmniej wojewódzka, bo przecież wciąż słyszymy o wypadkach autokarów z dziećmi jadącymi na kolonie, busów wiozących robotników sezonowych, górników przysypanych na kilkuset metrach swoim czarnym złotem, odnoszę wrażenie, że stan żałoby narodowej jest stanem wyczekiwanym z utęsknieniem, choć oczywiście nie przez tych, którzy zabawy huczne urządzają. Od kiedy nie prowadzimy wojny narodowowyzwoleńczej, pozostaje nam hołubienie śmierci w katastrofach narodowych, ponieważ musimy umierać spektakularnie, żeby umierać przyzwoicie, niemęczeńska śmierć jest śmiercią niemęską, niepolską, taka śmierć nie podoba się Bogu, ponieważ Bóg ma inne plany wobec Polski, Bóg chce przecież, żebyśmy umierali, to nie jest Bóg miłosierny, to jest jakiś Bóg nieustannie miotający pioruny na cały naród i na każdego z osobna, ja sam czuję czasami, że mnie piorun strzela, tyle już tych piorunów przyjąłem, że nie mam miejsca na następne. W kraju, w którym z upodobaniem ryje się na nagrobkach sentencję: „Bóg tak chciał”, od Boga wymaga się nie miłosierdzia i miłości, ale zabijania. Nigdy nie rozumiałem, jak można napisać na grobie dwuletniego dziecka, że Bóg tak chciał. A że ludzie, którzy kazali ów napis wyryć, idą potem do kościoła i modlą się za duszę swego zmarłego dziecka, tego już całkiem nie jestem w stanie pojąć, śmierć dziecka i śmierć zwierzęcia są śmierciami najstraszniejszymi, gdyż tylko dziecko i zwierzę są niewinne, w człowieku dorastającym zaczyna się już budzić ukryty grzech pierworodny, grzech zła i potworności, budzi się i rozkwita, i jeśli się go w odpowiednim momencie nie zetnie, będzie rozsiewał wokół swe nasiona. Te wszystkie zbiorowe żałoby także są emanacjami zła, odnoszę wrażenie, że wszyscy wciąż czekają w napięciu, aż będą mogli wywiesić biało-czerwone flagi z kirem, zjednoczyć się w bólu, ponieważ ludzie tutaj, ci wszyscy moi kolejowi współpasażerowie, są w stanie jednoczyć się jedynie w bólu, jakiekolwiek inne jednoczenie nie zostało im dane, tyle że z bólu straty rodzi się ból nienawiści, stan żałoby jest tak wygodny, tak wspaniały, bo nie przewiduje żadnej refleksji, a jedynie cierpienie, cierpienie zaś najlepsze jest wtedy, gdy jest bezrefleksyjne.

Search in yourself and feel the times of your burning desire for God. Pray: how do I block myself from Your Divine Love? What unfelt emotions block me from feeling Your Love more? The answer could also be that you are not loving yourself, that you are judging yourself, that you are living in a false hope, that you have abandoned your love for yourself in your life, that you give it away cheaply to others, that you compromise it because you think it is the right thing to do, that to be a martyr is right, that to ignore your own feelings is the spiritual way.

Because of the intensity of the pleasure and the pains involved in meeting and being with your soul mate, the wisest thing to do is to prepare: fully feel and release the wounds of all previous intimate relations and do as much soul healing as possible before even calling in your soul mate.

Soul mate love lasts forever, providing the twin souls seek and obtain Divine Love. This love is only a complete One when these two apparently independent soul ‘halves’ come together in perfect unity. This unity comes when both have become At-One with God FIRST. One cannot unite fully with their soul mate until one is united with God first, although glimpses can be tasted and even lived in.

However, the union of separate soul mates is not necessary for enjoying the full happiness of Divine Love. It is not necessary for becoming At-One with God, and indeed cannot be fully enjoyed as the perfect One Soul until well after At-One-ment with God has occurred. So, At-One-ment with God is still At-One-ment with God, and is the primary goal, the focus of each soul mate’s life. At-One-ment with God is not dependent on being with your soul mate.

For me, there are five main desires which relate to why I wished to be with my Twin Soul / Soul Mate, and what these desires are now revealing in living with my Twin. 1. To accelerate my At-One-ment with God by feeling, expressing and humbly releasing all emotions that are not loving. By coming more into our One Soul, I feel more of how much God loves us, and wishes us to enjoy and be Truly happy in life, which will only be fulfilled when we are At-One with Him. 2. To accelerate my and our At-One-ment by feeling the purest, most innocent, core joy and human love it is possible to experience. All within me that is not of love arises in this meeting. And, just by having this experience and living it more, something is released and relieved from Our Soul. Sharing and playing with my soul mate, the other side of me, allows us to eventually merge with each other into One Soul, after first becoming At-One with God. 3. In feeling, accepting and understanding my soul mate and how she acts, lives and moves through life, her qualities and how she understands and feels about everything, her emotional movements and expressions, her desires, I have come to a deeper, more intimate understanding of my soul, our Soul, and the very nature of love itself. We are the same but in polarity, yet these polarities lie within me too. In being with her, I discover these polarities within me, for it to all come into balance. This is a rocket ship to God and to love. 4. In experiencing making love with my soul mate, I have experienced the ultimate soul-sexual experience I have always desired to have. And there is more, including the ultimate transmutation of the sexual force into light, into transcendental sexual electricity that is a fuel for our Union with God. Soulful sexual union with my soul mate activates latent soul codes and gifts, helping to bring each of us into Soul Realization. It may bring sadness to feel you can only ever be fulfilled in your soul’s sexuality with your soul mate, but also inspiration, joy and desire to heal yourself fast to attract this other. 5. To share and assist others into coming closer to God.

Divine Love is given to us in: •  Prayer to receive Divine Love •  Prayer to feel your soul wounds as gateways to Divine Love •  Spontaneous moments of Grace as desired by God •  Soul Mate Love in harmony with desire for God •  Receiving and praying for Divine Love in making love •  Following Divine Laws and Truths at all costs •  Being chosen as a vessel, conduit or Teacher of Divinity. Being surrendered and dependent on God enables Divine Love to flow through a dedicated human soul, to others, through humility and giving of all glory to God by the soul.

Once this Call is sincerely put out from your heart, many times, every day, your Law of Attraction will provide all the means necessary for you to achieve this, through your actions in all you do, and with everyone you know. This is guaranteed. This can be a beautiful unfolding of God’s Love for you in your life, which can be totally unexpected, mind blowing and delightful, as well as challenging.

When one receives more and more Divine Love, the value of human love diminishes – its importance becomes less and less. Paradoxically, this enables one to become more and more humanly loving with others. A gentle, soft and loving ‘detaching’ occurs because no more is human love needed. You get given all these things when you no longer ‘need’ them to fill yourself up. And it matters not when you are given them, because your very center is no longer focused on or needing this AT ALL.

Deep desire in true humility leads to the pain of feeling your deepest wounds, and the loss of control, security and to dependence solely on your own self, which is one of the greatest fears one can have. This is where courage comes in, the action of desire for God in all aspects of your life. Pray for courage to be soft and vulnerable to feelings. Submit to being weak, humble and vulnerable, which is true strength. Submit to the real feelings – surrender to them. This is part of your deep desire for God put into action. Then help will come in abundance.

Focus on your desire for Divine Love. Feel and release the wounds of your soul and their deepest causes. And then, you will be given something far more amazing than you could think of when you had all your wounds, because many of the intentions you had when you were living in your wounds will largely be error based because they are coming from the false information generated by your wounds. So forget about them. Do not intend anything. Just desire God and everything will be given, everything will be added unto you, and it will be far more amazing, glorious and loving than whatever you can think about right now. This is True abundance.

And every day I pray many, many times –40, 50, 60 times a day. I pray without words in pure feelings, which is the language of the soul communicating directly with God, and this sharing and communion happens in two seconds. This is what you will start to experience and know. A whole prayer can be felt and received, and Divine Love can be shared with you in just two seconds. ‘God, help me to receive more of your Divine Love,’ or words/feelings to that effect; it is as simple as that.

It is far more difficult to love fellow human beings with all their imperfections and defects. One can only know what one is capable of loving. There is no wisdom without love. Unless we learn to love God’s Creation, we can neither truly love nor truly know God. Yet to love God first and foremost, receiving Her Love, allows us to love all of God’s Creation unconditionally, and in its right place.

We do not feel God’s Love because we have chosen to become self-reliant. It is hard for Divine Love to come in when you say ‘Ah, there is no God,’ or ‘I can do this without God.’ We think we can do it all ourselves. Deep in your soul you know there is a God, but it is surrounded with many layers of betrayal, denial and abandonment. You do not feel Divine Love because you do not yet feel or put into action your burning desire for God, you do not yet feel the passion for Truth. You are still identified with the wound. It is by choice and desires that you separated from God, and it is by choice and desire that you come to Union with God also. If you are not receiving Divine Love, and yet you ‘feel’ you are longing for it, then the cause for your not receiving It is that your own longings and desires are not pure, truthful or sincerely motivated, and that you are maybe using these longings to escape feeling your own emotions. This means YOU are lying to yourself, refusing to see your own wounds and be humble to them, being in victim mode or giving your power away to God, hoping He will make it all better.

Self love is accepting yourself as you are right now, with all your flaws and mistakes, and desiring to grow beyond this state at the same time. On the Path to God, you accept yourself, you desire to grow your soul, and you desire to receive God’s Love and love God fervently, and with devotion. This is the ultimate Self love, as by loving your soul in this Way, you will eventually come to love yourself as God loves you.

You, with the help of God, make your own destiny. The desire to know your Creator, That which has created you, instills a deeper longing within you to ask for and receive more and more Divine Love, for what greater thing is there? Over time, you will cease to be just a created being, but become a new, Celestial Soul born of the Divine, not born of the human. Many (including myself until I had actually received Divine Love and felt the vast difference between it and natural love, realizing how I had not had it until this time, and indeed until I had received Divine Love many, many times) believe that everyone possesses ‘a Divine spark,,’ that there is some divinity within us which only needs development to make us Divine. This is wrong, and reminds us that a huge part of Christ’s Message was ignored, avoided and minimized. His deepest and simplest Message, given to him by God, is that we do not have within us the Divine or the divine spark, and never can or will have, until we receive and develop Divine Love through the simplest ways of deep desire, educated choice, constant humility, deep prayer and vulnerable, transparent and total, honest release of the soul’s wounds.

God always loves us in our weakness. We may only feel Divine Love in glimpses and flashes because we only allow ourselves to feel this Love briefly. Only you yourself can block God’s Love. This Love is always waiting to enter you through your deep desire for it.

You may be receiving Divine Love, but not be conscious of it because of the strong emotions that are being released at the same time. If we are clearing things emotionally, we may find that we do not feel the more overt feelings of Divine Love until after the emotions have cleared. As we clear more, more Divine Love can come to us. If Divine Love is not coming to us when we ask, we have to look deeply at our own selves, inquire within, to see where we are blocking it, and what emotions we are most scared of, for it is these emotions that we have to feel in order to allow God in.

Why we do not receive Divine Love The reason we may not feel Divine Love coming into us, even though we pray for It, is because we ourselves are blocking it. We refuse to let it in because we are unwilling to feel our own wounds, and are not truly willing to feel these pains, even if we say we do. This is where we have to be honest with ourselves and investigate our own inner resistances, asking God to help us feel the fear and pain within us, to Be with us, to take our hand as we dive down into the depths of our own suffering.

God did not create us or want us to be unworthy or falsely humble, but rather rejoice in the gifts that He has so generously given us.

I share this so that it may be of some benefit to you in your soul progression. Maybe one day it may be easier for us to reach God than others who have come before us with no map and have had to suffer more, to carve out a pathway. May our Path be easier, for we stand on the shoulders of the giants who came before us, who bravely and humbly ventured into the unknown, and in whose steps we can now tread more lightly. Amen. Both Teresa and John had keys to share, but these keys were bound in religious doctrines and aspects of their childhood wounding. Once these outer layers were dissolved, the gold of their souls’ wisdom, given to them by God but then filtered through their wounds, was easily apparent, and with their help and my own gifts, all three of us could transcribe the purity of what part of this Pathway to God is all about.

That would actually be being genuine …or ‘I need you.’ And you can use all of these above excuses in your relationship with God and ‘desiring’ prayers to Him – except He will not respond and you will be left alone or at worse the prey of negative spirits. Many people try to use God as the ultimate substitute, but end up hooking into negative spirits pretending to be God, or pretending to help you. So how does it feel to use someone, usually your partner or children, every day?

True self love manifests when we no longer need anything from any other person on any level to make us who we are or make us whole. (Need is different to desire, passion and yearning.) This is true self-responsibility. True self love and true self-responsibility in humility create the solid foundation for a soul that is becoming truly loving and journeying to becoming At-One with God.