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I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
And perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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He is half of my soul, as the poets say.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
In the darkness, two shadows, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in a flood like a hundred golden urns pouring out of the sun.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
That is β your friend?"
"Philtatos," Achilles replied, sharply. Most beloved.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
When he died, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with him.
β
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I am made of memories.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
We were like gods at the dawning of the world, & our joy was so bright we could see nothing else but the other.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
He smiled, and his face was like the sun.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
There are no bargains between lion and men. I will kill you and eat you raw.
β
β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
He is a weapon, a killer. Do not forget it. You can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Achillesβ eyes lift. They are bloodshot and dead. βI wish he had let you all die.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
There is no law that gods must be fair, Achilles,β Chiron said. βAnd perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone. Do you think?
β
β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
We reached for each other, and I thought of how many nights I had lain awake loving him in silence.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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Name one hero who was happy.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Name one hero who was happy."
I considered. Heracles went mad and killed his family; Theseus lost his bride and father; Jason's children and new wife were murdered by his old; Bellerophon killed the Chimera but was crippled by the fall from Pegasus' back.
"You can't." He was sitting up now, leaning forward.
"I can't."
"I know. They never let you be famous AND happy." He lifted an eyebrow. "I'll tell you a secret."
"Tell me." I loved it when he was like this.
"I'm going to be the first." He took my palm and held it to his. "Swear it."
"Why me?"
"Because you're the reason. Swear it."
"I swear it," I said, lost in the high color of his cheeks, the flame in his eyes.
"I swear it," he echoed.
We sat like that a moment, hands touching. He grinned.
"I feel like I could eat the world raw.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I have done it," she says. At first I do not understand. But then I see the tomb, and the marks she has made on the stone. A C H I L L E S, it reads. And beside it, P A T R O C L U S.
"Go," she says. "He waits for you."
In the darkness, two shadows, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in a flood like a hundred golden urns pouring out of the sun.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I will never leave him. It will be this, always, for as long as he will let me.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
This, I say. This and this. The way his hair looked in summer sun. His face when he ran. His eyes, solemn as an owl at lessons. This and this and this. So many moments of happiness, crowding forward.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Chiron had said once that nations were the most foolish of mortal inventions. "No man is worth more than another, wherever he is from.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I feel like I could eat the world raw.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Sing, O muse, of the rage of Achilles, son of Peleus, that brought countless ills upon the Achaeans.
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β
Homer (The Iliad)
β
I will never leave him. It will be this, always, for as long as he will let me.
If I had had words to speak such a thing, I would have. But there were none that seemed big enough for it, to hold that swelling truth.
As if he had heard me, he reached for my hand. I did not need to look; his fingers were etched into my memory, slender and petal-veined, strong and quick and never wrong.
βPatroclus,β he said. He was always better with words than I.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Achilles weeps. He cradles me, and will not eat, nor speak a word other than my name.
β
β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
We are all there, goddess and mortal and the boy who was both.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Bring him back to me,' he told them.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Achilles was looking at me. βYour hair never quite lies flat, here.β He touched my head, just behind my ear. βI donβt think Iβve ever told you how I like it.β
My scalp prickled where his fingers had been. βYou havenβt,β I said.
βI should have.β His hand drifted down to the vee at the base of my throat, drew softly across the pulse. βWhat about this? Have I told you what I think of this, just here?β
βNo,β I said.
βThis surely then.β His hand moved across the muscles of my chest; my skin warmed beneath it. βHave I told you of this?β
βThat you have told me.β My breath caught a little as I spoke.
βAnd what of this?β His hand lingered over my hips, drew down the line of my thigh. βHave I spoken of it?β
βYou have.β
βAnd this? Surely I would not have forgotten this.β His catβs smile. βTell me I did not.β
βYou did not.β
βThere is this too.β His hand was ceaseless now. βI know I have told you of this.β
I closed my eyes. βTell me again,β I said.
β
β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Achilles' eyes were bright in the firelight, his face drawn sharply by the flickering shadows. I would know it in dark or disguise, I told myself. I would know it even in madness.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
This is what Achilles will feel like when he is old. And then I remembered: he will never be old.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Have you no more memories?"
I am made of memories.
"Speak, then.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
There was more to say, but for once we did not say it. There would be other times for speaking, tonight and tomorrow and all the days after that. He let go of my hand.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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When I am dead, I charge you to mingle our ashes and bury us together.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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Patroclus, he says, Patroclus. Patroclus. Over and over until it is sound only.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
It is right to seek peace for the dead. You and I both know there is no peace for those who live after.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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Odysseus inclines his head. "True. But fame is a strange thing. Some men gain glory after they die, while others fade. What is admired in one generation is abhorred in another." He spread his broad hands. "We cannot say who will survive the holocaust of memory. Who knows?" He smiles. "Perhaps one day even I will be famous. Perhaps more famous than you.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Annabeth frowned. "That doesn't make sense. But why were you visiting --" Her eyes widened. "Hermes said you bear the curse of Achilles. Hestia said the same thing. Did you . . . did you bathe in the River Styx?"
"Don't change the subject."
"Percy! Did you or not?"
"Um . . .maybe a little.
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β
Rick Riordan (The Last Olympian (Percy Jackson and the Olympians, #5))
β
I stopped watching for ridicule, the scorpion's tail hidden in his words. He said what he meant; he was puzzled if you did not. Some people might have mistaken this for simplicity. But is it not a sort of genius to cut always to the heart?
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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You can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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Bury us, and mark our names above. Let us be free.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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Go," She says. "He waits for you.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I conjure the boy I knew. Achilles, grinning as the figs blur in his hands. His green eyes laughing into mine. Catch, he says. Achilles, outlined against the sky, hanging from a branch over the river. The thick warmth of his sleepy breath against my ear. If you have to go, I will go with you. My fears forgotten in the golden harbor of his arms.
The memories come, and come. She listens, staring into the grain of the stone. We are all there, goddess and mortal and the boy who was both.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Achilles glared at him and answered, "Fool, prate not to me about covenants. There can be no covenants between men and lions, wolves and lambs can never be of one mind, but hate each other out and out an through. Therefore there can be no understanding between you and me, nor may there be any covenants between us, till one or other shall fall
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β
Homer (The Iliad)
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I would know him in death, at the end of the world.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Chiron had said once that nations were the most foolish of mortal inventions. βNo man is worth more than another, wherever he is from.β
βBut what if he is your friend?β Achilles had asked him, feet kicked up on the wall of the rose-quartz cave. βOr your brother? Should you treat him the same as a stranger?β
βYou ask a question that philosophers argue over,β Chiron had said. βHe is worth more to you, perhaps. But the stranger is someone elseβs friend and brother. So which life is more important?β
We had been silent. We were fourteen, and these things were too hard for us. Now that we are twenty-seven, they still feel too hard.
He is half of my soul, as the poets say. He will be dead soon, and his honor is all that will remain. It is his child, his dearest self. Should I reproach him for it? I have saved Briseis. I cannot save them all.
I know, now, how I would answer Chiron. I would say: there is no answer. Whichever you choose, you are wrong.
β
β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Later, Achilles pressed close for a final, drowsy whisper. 'If you have to go, you know I will go with you.' We slept.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Achilles was murdered with a poisoned arrow, and Jason died alone, killed by his own rotting ship. Such is the fate of heroes.
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β
Cassandra Clare (Clockwork Princess (The Infernal Devices, #3))
β
Afterwards, when Agamemnon would ask him when he would confront the prince of Troy, he would smile his most guileless, maddening smile. βWhat has Hector ever done to me?
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
The sorrow was so large it threatened to tear through my skin. When he died, all things swift and beautiful and bright would be buried with him.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I am air and thought and can do nothing.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
What is admired in one generation is abhorred in another. We cannot say who will survive the holocaust of memory⦠We are men only, a brief flare of the torch.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
It was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. It was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came. But it was neither of those, buoyant where they were heavy, bright were they dull.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
The last thing I think is: Achilles.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I found myself grinning until my cheeks hurt, my scalp prickling till I thought it might lift off my head. My tongue ran away from me, giddy with freedom. This, and this, and this, I said to him. I did not have to fear that I spoke too much. I did not have to worry that I was too slender, or too slow. This and this and this! I taught him how to skip stones, and he taught me how to carve wood. I could feel every nerve in my body, every brush of air against my skin.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
As for the goddessβs answer, I did not care. I would have no need of her. I did not plan to live after he was gone.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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He looked different in sleep, beautiful but cold as moonlight. I found myself wishing he would wake so that I might watch the life return.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
And overpowered by memory
Both men gave way to grief. Priam wept freely
For man - killing Hector, throbbing, crouching
Before Achilles' feet as Achilles wept himself,
Now for his father, now for Patroclus once again
And their sobbing rose and fell throughout the house.
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Homer (The Iliad)
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When he was gone, would I be like Achilles, wailing over his lost lover Patroclus? I tried to picture myself running up and down the beaches, tearing at my hair, cradling some scrap of old tunic he had left behind. Crying out for the loss of half my soul.
I could not see it. That knowledge brought its own sort of pain.
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β
Madeline Miller (Circe)
β
Those seconds, half seconds, that the line of our gaze connected, were the only moment in my day that I felt anything at all.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
He is more worth to you, perhaps. But the stranger is someone else's friend and brother. So which life is more important?
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
She wants you to be a god," I told him.
"I know." His face twisted with embarrassment, and in spite of itself my heart lightened. It was such a boyish response. And so human. Parents, everywhere.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Listen, I don't care what you say about my race, creed, or religion, Fatty, but don't tell me I'm not sensitive to beauty. That's my Achilles' heel, and don't you forget it. To me, everything is beautiful. Show me a pink sunset, and I'm limp, by God. Anything. Peter Pan. Even before the curtain goes up at Peter Pan I'm a goddamn puddle of tears.
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β
J.D. Salinger (Franny and Zooey)
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I almost did not come, because I did not want to leave it."
He smiled. "Now I know how to make you follow me everywhere."
The sun sank below Pelion's ridges, and we were happy.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Great Achilles. Brilliant Achilles, shining Achilles, godlike Achilles β¦ How the epithets pile up. We never called him any of those things; we called him βthe butcherβ.
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β
Pat Barker (The Silence of the Girls (Women of Troy #1))
β
Name one hero who was happy."
"You can't." He was sitting up now, leaning forward.
"I can't."
"I know. They never let you be famous AND happy." He lifted an eyebrow. "I'll tell you a secret."
"Tell me." I loved it when he was like this.
"I'm going to be the first." He took my palm and held it to his. "Swear it."
"Why me?"
"Because you're the reason. Swear it."
"I swear it
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
When he speaks at last, his voice is weary, and defeated. He doesnβt know how to be angry with me, either. We are like damp wood that wonβt light.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
It is not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down:
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Thoβ much is taken, much abides; and thoβ
We are not now that strength which in old days
Movβd earth and heaven, that which we are, we are:
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.
β
β
Alfred Tennyson (Ulysses)
β
Achilles makes a sound like choking. βThere are no bargains between lions and men. I will kill you and eat you raw.β His spearpoint flies in a dark whirlwind, bright as the evening-star, to catch the hollow at Hectorβs throat.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
A surety rose in me, lodged in my throat. I will never leave him. It will be this, always, for as long as he will let me.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Why love what you will lose?
There is nothing else to love.
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β
Louise GlΓΌck (The Triumph of Achilles)
β
I think: this is what I will miss. I think: I will kill myself rather than miss it. I think: how long do we have?
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I lay back and tried not to think of the minutes passing. Just yesterday we had a wealth of them. Now each was a drop of heartsblood lost.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Intense love always leads to mourning.
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Louise GlΓΌck (The Triumph of Achilles)
β
I shift, an infinitesimal movement, towards him. It is like the leap from a waterfall. I do not know, until then, what I am going to do.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
This is how I think of us, when I remember our nights at Troy: Achilles and I beside each other, Phoinix smiling and Automedon stuttering through the punch lines of jokes, and Briseis with her secret eyes and quick, spilling laughter.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
After so many years even the fire of passion dies, and with it what was believed the light of the truth. Who of us is able to say now whether Hector or Achilles was right, Agamemnon or Priam, when they fought over the beauty of a woman who is now dust and ashes?
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Umberto Eco (The Name of the Rose)
β
I saw then how I had changed. I did not mind anymore that I lost when we raced and I lost when we swam out to the rocks and I lost when we tossed spears or skipped stones. For who can be ashamed to lose to such beauty? It was enough to watch him win, to see the soles of his feet flashing as they kicked up sand, or the rise and fall of his shoulders as he pulled through the salt. It was enough.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
As if he heard me, he smiled, and his face was like the sun.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
I would still be with you. But I could sleep outside, so it would not be so obvious. I do not need to attend your councils. Iβ'
'No. The Phthians will not care. And the others can talk all they like. I will still be Aristos Achaion.' Best of the Greeks.
'Your honor could be darkened by it."
'Then it is darkened.' His jaw shot forward, stubborn. 'They are fools if they let my glory rise or fall on this.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
It will make you powerful. But it will also make you weak. Your prowess in combat will be beyond any mortal's, but your weaknesses, your failings will increase as well."
You mean I'll have a bad heel?" I said. "Couldn't I just, like, wear something besides sandals? No offense.
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β
Rick Riordan (The Last Olympian (Percy Jackson and the Olympians, #5))
β
Suppose that we are wise enough to learn and knowβand yet not wise enough to control our learning and knowledge, so that we use it to destroy ourselves? Even if that is so, knowledge remains better than ignorance. It is better to knowβeven if the knowledge endures only for the moment that comes before destructionβthan to gain eternal life at the price of a dull and swinish lack of comprehension of a universe that swirls unseen before us in all its wonder. That was the choice of Achilles, and it is mine, too.
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β
Isaac Asimov
β
I will go,β he said. βI will go to Troy.β
The rosy gleam of his lip, the fevered green of his eyes. There was not a line anywhere on his face, nothing creased or graying; all crisp. He was spring, golden and bright. Envious death would drink his blood, and grow young again.
He was watching me, his eyes as deep as earth.
βWill you come with me?β he asked.
The never-ending ache of love and sorrow. Perhaps in some other life I could have refused, could have torn my hair and screamed, and made him face his choice alone. But not in this one. He would sail to Troy and I would follow, even into death. βYes,β I whispered. βYes.β
Relief broke in his face, and he reached for me. I let him hold me, let him press us length to length so close that nothing might fit between us.
Tears came, and fell. Above us, the constellations spun and the moon paced her weary course. We lay stricken and sleepless as the hours passed.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
There is no honour in betraying your friends.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
He collects my ashes himself, though this is a women's duty. He puts them in a golden urn, the finest in our camp, and turns to the watching Greeks.
'When I am dead, I charged you to mingle our ashes and bury us together.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
He knew, but it was not enough. The sorrow was so large it threatened to tear through my skin. When he died, all things swift and beautiful and bright would be buried with him.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Perhaps he simply assumed: a bitterness of habit, of boy after boy trained for music and medicine, and unleashed for murder.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Why have you come to me here, dear heart, with all these instructions? I promise you I will do everything just as you ask. But come closer. Let us give in to grief, however briefly, in each other's arms.
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β
Homer (The Iliad)
β
. . .nothing could eclipse the stain of his dirty, mortal mediocrity.
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β
Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
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I did not plan to live after he was gone.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
The rosy gleam of his lip, the fevered gleam of his eyes. There was not a line anywhere on his face, nothing creased or graying; all crisp. He was spring, golden and bright. Envious death would drink his blood, and grow young again.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Rage - Goddess, sing the rage of Peleus' son Achilles,
murderous, doomed, that cost the Achaeans countless losses,
hurling down to the House of Death so many sturdy souls,
great fighters' souls, but made their bodies carrion,
feasts for the dogs and birds,
and the will of Zeus was moving toward its end.
Begin, Muse, when the two first broke and clashed,
Agamemnon lord of men and brilliant Achilles.
β
β
Homer (The Iliad / The Odyssey)
β
Percy Jackson," Hermes said, "because you have taken on the curse of Achilles, I must spare you. You are in the hands of the Fates now. But you will never speak to me like that again. You have no idea how much I have sacrificed, how muchβ"
His voice broke, and he shrank back to human size. "My son, my greatest pride . . . my poor May . . ."
He sounded so devastated I didn't know what to say. One minute he was ready to vaporize us. Now he looked like he needed a hug.
β
β
Rick Riordan (The Last Olympian (Percy Jackson and the Olympians, #5))
β
The greater the monument, the greater the man. The stone the Greeks quarry for his grave is huge and white, stretching up to the sky. A C H I L L E S, it reads. It will stand for him, and speak to all who pass: he lived and died, and lives again in memory.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
And as we swam, or played, or talked, a feeling would come. It was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. It was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came. But it was neither of those, buoyant where they were heavy, bright where they were dull.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Youβre going to murder him too?β
βOf course I am. Slowly, too. Start with snipping the Achilleβs heel so he canβt run, and thenββ
βThat's fucked up, you're going to jail,β she cuts in, disgust curling her lip. βActually, I hope you go to prison and are sentenced to death.β
She turns with a snarl, but she doesnβt make it a step before my hand snaps out, capturing her arm and whipping her back around, directly into my chest.
Addie inhales sharply, her eyes dilating as I seize the back of her neck with one hand and grab her delectable ass with the other, lifting her up against my body.
"Will you be my last meal, baby?
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β
H.D. Carlton (Haunting Adeline (Cat and Mouse, #1))
β
I thought: Suppose, suppose just once, once, all these centuries, the slippery gods keep their word and Achilles is granted eternal glory in return for his early death under the walls of Troy...? What will they make of us, the people of those unimaginably distant times? One thing I do know: they won't want the brutal reality of conquest and slavery. They won't want to be told about the massacres of men and boys, the enslavement of women and girls. They won't want to know we were living in a rape camp. No, they'll go for something altogether softer. A love story, perhaps? I just hope they manage to work out who the lovers were.
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Pat Barker (The Silence of the Girls (Women of Troy, #1))
β
If I had had words to speak such a thing, I would have. But there were none that seemed big enough for it, to hold that swelling truth. As if he had heard me, he reached for my hand. I did not need to look; his fingers were etched into my memory, slender and petal-veined, strong and quick and never wrong. βPatroclus,β he said. He was always better with words than I.
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Madeline Miller (The Song of Achilles)
β
Democracy is a pretty word. Democracy is a captivating magic. The oppressed classes always wanted and the oppressing ones always promised a democracy. But this was precisely for democracy that the both parts had always fought. The great French Revolution proclaimed the great appeal "Liberty, Equality, Fraternity". The history showed that from the class viewpoint, they could indicate different things, distinct contents; these concepts must be filled with different sense. In the class society, in the society locked in a state, Liberty is always at the top of somebodyβs spear! Equality is the Achillesβ heel, into which this spear is plunged. Humanity is the pledge for plunging it by all force. Β
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Todor Bombov (Socialism Is Dead! Long Live Socialism!: The Marx Code-Socialism with a Human Face (A New World Order))
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A nation is born stoic, and dies epicurean. At its cradle (to repeat a thoughtful adage) religion stands, and philosophy accompanies it to the grave.
In the beginning of all cultures a strong religious faith conceals and softens the nature of things, and gives men courage to bear pain and hardship patiently; at every step the gods are with them, and will not let them perish, until they do. Even then a firm faith will explain that it was the sins of the people that turned their gods to an avenging wrath; evil does not destroy faith, but strengthens it. If victory comes, if war is forgotten in security and peace, then wealth grows; the life of the body gives way, in the dominant classes, to the life of the senses and the mind; toil and suffering are replaced by pleasure and ease; science weakens faith even while thought and comfort weaken virility and fortitude. At last men begin to doubt the gods; they mourn the tragedy of knowledge, and seek refuge in every passing delight.
Achilles is at the beginning, Epicurus at the end. After David comes Job, and after Job, Ecclesiastes.
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What are the dead, anyway, but waves and energy? Light shining from a dead star?
That, by the way, is a phrase of Julian's. I remember it from a lecture of his on the Iliad, when Patroklos appears to Achilles in a dream. There is a very moving passage where Achilles overjoyed at the sight of the apparition β tries to throw his arms around the ghost of his old friend, and it vanishes. The dead appear to us in dreams, said Julian, because that's the only way they can make us see them; what we see is only a projection, beamed from a great distance, light shining at us from a dead starβ¦
Which reminds me, by the way, of a dream I had a couple of weeks ago.
I found myself in a strange deserted city β an old city, like London β underpopulated by war or disease. It was night; the streets were dark, bombed-out, abandoned. For a long time, I wandered aimlessly β past ruined parks, blasted statuary, vacant lots overgrown with weeds and collapsed apartment houses with rusted girders poking out of their sides like ribs. But here and there, interspersed among the desolate shells of the heavy old public buildings, I began to see new buildings, too, which were connected by futuristic walkways lit from beneath. Long, cool perspectives of modern architecture, rising phosphorescent and eerie from the rubble.
I went inside one of these new buildings. It was like a laboratory, maybe, or a museum. My footsteps echoed on the tile floors.There was a cluster of men, all smoking pipes, gathered around an exhibit in a glass case that gleamed in the dim light and lit their faces ghoulishly from below.
I drew nearer. In the case was a machine revolving slowly on a turntable, a machine with metal parts that slid in and out and collapsed in upon themselves to form new images. An Inca temple⦠click click click⦠the Pyramids⦠the Parthenon.
History passing beneath my very eyes, changing every moment.
'I thought I'd find you here,' said a voice at my elbow.
It was Henry. His gaze was steady and impassive in the dim light. Above his ear, beneath the wire stem of his spectacles, I could just make out the powder burn and the dark hole in his right temple.
I was glad to see him, though not exactly surprised. 'You know,' I said to him, 'everybody is saying that you're dead.'
He stared down at the machine. The Colosseum⦠click click click⦠the Pantheon. 'I'm not dead,' he said. 'I'm only having a bit of trouble with my passport.'
'What?'
He cleared his throat. 'My movements are restricted,' he said.
'I no longer have the ability to travel as freely as I would like.'
Hagia Sophia. St. Mark's, in Venice. 'What is this place?' I asked him.
'That information is classified, I'm afraid.'
1 looked around curiously. It seemed that I was the only visitor.
'Is it open to the public?' I said.
'Not generally, no.'
I looked at him. There was so much I wanted to ask him, so much I wanted to say; but somehow I knew there wasn't time and even if there was, that it was all, somehow, beside the point.
'Are you happy here?' I said at last.
He considered this for a moment. 'Not particularly,' he said.
'But you're not very happy where you are, either.'
St. Basil's, in Moscow. Chartres. Salisbury and Amiens. He glanced at his watch.
'I hope you'll excuse me,' he said, 'but I'm late for an appointment.'
He turned from me and walked away. I watched his back receding down the long, gleaming hall.
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Donna Tartt (The Secret History)
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Thomas Merton said it was actually dangerous to put the Scriptures in the hands of people whose inner self is not yet sufficiently awakened to encounter the Spirit, because they will try to use God for their own egocentric purposes. (This is why religion is so subject to corruption!) Now, if we are going to talk about conversion and penance, let me apply that to the two major groups that have occupied Western ChristianityβCatholics and Protestants. Neither one has really let the Word of God guide their lives.
Catholics need to be converted to giving the Scriptures some actual authority in their lives. Luther wasnβt wrong when he said that most Catholics did not read the Bible. Most Catholics are still not that interested in the Bible. (Historically they did not have the printing press, nor could most people read, so you canβt blame them entirely.) I have been a priest for 42 years now, and I would sadly say that most Catholics would rather hear quotes from saints, Popes, and bishops, the current news, or funny stories, if they are to pay attention. If I quote strongly from the Sermon on the Mount, they are almost throwaway lines. I can see Catholics glaze over because they have never read the New Testament, much less studied it, or been guided by it. I am very sad to have to admit this. It is the Achilles heel of much of the Catholic world, priests included. (The only good thing about it is that they never fight you like Protestants do about Scripture. They are easily duped, and the hierarchy has been able to take advantage of this.)
If Catholics need to be converted, Protestants need to do penance. Their shout of βsola Scripturaβ (only Scripture) has left them at the mercy of their own cultures, their own limited education, their own prejudices, and their own selective reading of some texts while avoiding others. Partly as a result, slavery, racism, sexism, classism, xenophobia, and homophobia have lasted authoritatively into our timeβby people who claim to love Jesus! I think they need to do penance for what they have often done with the Bible! They largely interpreted the Bible in a very individualistic and otherworldly way. It was βan evacuation plan for the next worldβ to use Brian McLarenβs phraseβand just for their group. Most of Evangelical Protestantism has no cosmic message, no social message, and little sense of social justice or care for the outsider. Both Catholics and Protestants (Orthodox too!) found a way to do our own thing while posturing friendship with Jesus.
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