Vans Van Gogh Quotes

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It is good to love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is well done.
Vincent van Gogh
I dream my painting and I paint my dream.
Vincent van Gogh
Be clearly aware of the stars and infinity on high. Then life seems almost enchanted after all.
Vincent van Gogh
...and then, I have nature and art and poetry, and if that is not enough, what is enough?
Vincent van Gogh
There is nothing more truly artistic than to love people.
Vincent van Gogh
A great fire burns within me, but no one stops to warm themselves at it, and passers-by only see a wisp of smoke
Vincent van Gogh
I don't know anything with certainty, but seeing the stars makes me dream.
Vincent van Gogh
Normality is a paved road: It’s comfortable to walk, but no flowers grow on it.
Vincent van Gogh
If you hear a voice within you say you cannot paint, then by all means paint and that voice will be silenced.
Vincent van Gogh
I put my heart and soul into my work, and I have lost my mind in the process.
Vincent van Gogh
I often think that the night is more alive and more richly colored than the day.
Vincent van Gogh
I would rather die of passion than of boredom.
Émile Zola (The Ladies' Paradise (Les Rougon-Macquart #11))
The sadness will last forever.
Vincent van Gogh
What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?
Vincent van Gogh
If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is a grass in the beginning.
Vincent van Gogh
Art is to console those who are broken by life.
Vincent van Gogh
I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart.
Vincent van Gogh
If you truly love nature, you will find beauty everywhere.
Vincent van Gogh
The fishermen know that the sea is dangerous and the storm terrible, but they have never found these dangers sufficient reason for remaining ashore.
Vincent van Gogh
Close friends are truly life's treasures. Sometimes they know us better than we know ourselves. With gentle honesty, they are there to guide and support us, to share our laughter and our tears. Their presence reminds us that we are never really alone.
Vincent van Gogh
Great things are not done by impulse, but by a series of small things brought together.
Vincent van Gogh
I want to touch people with my art. I want them to say 'he feels deeply, he feels tenderly'.
Vincent van Gogh
I try more and more to be myself, caring relatively little whether people approve or disapprove.
Vincent van Gogh
The heart of man is very much like the sea, it has its storms, it has its tides and in its depths it has its pearls too
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
I am always doing what I cannot do yet, in order to learn how to do it.
Vincent van Gogh
I always think that the best way to know God is to love many things.
Vincent van Gogh
It is with the reading of books the same as with looking at pictures; one must, without doubt, without hesitations, with assurance, admire what is beautiful.
Vincent van Gogh
The beginning is perhaps more difficult than anything else, but keep heart, it will turn out all right.
Vincent van Gogh
It is looking at things for a long time that ripens you and gives you a deeper meaning.
Vincent van Gogh
La tristesse durera toujours. [The sadness will last forever.]
Vincent van Gogh
There is peace even in the storm
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
So often, a visit to a bookshop has cheered me, and reminded me that there are good things in the world.
Vincent van Gogh
There may be a great fire in our soul, yet no one ever comes to warm himself at it, and the passers-by see only a wisp of smoke.
Vincent van Gogh
I’m trying now to exaggerate the essence of things, and to deliberately leave vague what’s obvious.
Vincent van Gogh (Complete Letters of Vincent Van Gogh - III vols)
To suffer without complaint is the only lesson we have to learn in this life
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
I wish they would take me as I am.
Vincent van Gogh
Someday death will take us to another star.
Vincent van Gogh
Admire as much as you can. Most people do not admire enough.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
What am I in the eyes of most people — a nonentity, an eccentric, or an unpleasant person — somebody who has no position in society and will never have; in short, the lowest of the low. All right, then — even if that were absolutely true, then I should one day like to show by my work what such an eccentric, such a nobody, has in his heart. That is my ambition, based less on resentment than on love in spite of everything, based more on a feeling of serenity than on passion. Though I am often in the depths of misery, there is still calmness, pure harmony and music inside me. I see paintings or drawings in the poorest cottages, in the dirtiest corners. And my mind is driven towards these things with an irresistible momentum.
Vincent van Gogh
The sunflower is mine, in a way.
Vincent van Gogh
If it weren't for greed, intolerance, hate, passion and murder, you would have no works of art, no great buildings, no medical science, no Mozart, no Van Gogh, no Muppets and no Louis Armstrong.
Jasper Fforde (The Big Over Easy (Nursery Crime, #1))
Your profession is not what brings home your weekly paycheck, your profession is what you're put here on earth to do, with such passion and such intensity that it becomes spiritual in calling.
Vincent van Gogh
I can't change the fact that my paintings don't sell. But the time will come when people will recognize that they are worth more than the value of the paints used in the picture.
Vincent van Gogh
The only time I feel alive is when I'm painting.
Vincent van Gogh
If you don’t have a dog--at least one--there is not necessarily anything wrong with you, but there may be something wrong with your life.
Vincent van Gogh
In spite of everything, I shall rise again; I will take up my pencil, which I have forsaken in my great discouragement, and I will go on with my drawing.
Vincent van Gogh
I will not live without love.
Vincent van Gogh
I am still far from being what I want to be, but with God's help I shall succeed.
Vincent van Gogh
At present I absolutely want to paint a starry sky. It often seems to me that night is still more richly coloured than the day; having hues of the most intense violets, blues and greens. If only you pay attention to it you will see that certain stars are lemon-yellow, others pink or a green, blue and forget-me-not brilliance. And without my expatiating on this theme it is obvious that putting little white dots on the blue-black is not enough to paint a starry sky.
Vincent van Gogh
In the end we shall have had enough of cynicism, skepticism and humbug, and we shall want to live more musically.
Vincent van Gogh
Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night.
Vincent van Gogh
I don't think it was pain that made [Vincent Van Gogh] great - I think his painting brought him whatever happiness he had.
David Lynch
He has Van Gogh’s ear for music.
Billy Wilder
When I have a terrible need of - shall I say the word - religion, then I go out and paint the stars.
Vincent van Gogh
Whoever loves much, performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well.
Vincent van Gogh
I'm such a nobody.
Vincent van Gogh
It is a pity that, as one gradually gains experience, one loses one's youth.
Vincent van Gogh
Let us keep courage and try to be patient and gentle. And let us not mind being eccentric, and make distinction between good and evil.
Vincent van Gogh
I confess I do not know why, but looking at the stars always makes me dream.
Vincent van Gogh
Only when I fall do I get up again.
Vincent van Gogh
One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul and yet no one ever came to sit by it. Passers-by see only a wisp of smoke from the chimney and continue on their way.
Vincent van Gogh
I experience a period of frightening clarity in those moments when nature is so beautiful. I am no longer sure of myself, and the paintings appear as in a dream.
Vincent van Gogh
Don't lose heart if it's very difficult at times, everything will come out all right and nobody can in the beginning do as he wishes.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
But for one's health as you say, it is very necessary to work in the garden and see the flowers growing.
Vincent van Gogh
What is done in love is done well.
Vincent van Gogh
Love is eternal -- the aspect may change, but not the essence. There is the same difference in a person before and after he is in love as there is in an unlighted lamp and one that is burning. The lamp was there and was a good lamp, but now it is shedding light too, and that is its real function. And love makes one calmer about many things, and that way, one is more fit for one's work.
Vincent van Gogh
For my part I know nothing with any certainty, but the sight of the stars makes me want to dream.
Vincent van Gogh (Van Gogh's Starry Night Notebook)
I think that I still have it in my heart someday to paint a bookshop with the front yellow and pink in the evening...like a light in the midst of the darkness.
Vincent van Gogh
Success is sometimes the outcome of a whole string of failures.
Vincent van Gogh (VAN GOGH)
Seek only light and freedom and do not immerse yourself too deeply in the worldly mire.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
If I cease searching, then, woe is me, I am lost. That is how I look at it - keep going, keep going come what may.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
The best way to know life is to love many things
Vincent van Gogh
Though I am often in the depths of misery, there is still calmness, pure harmony and music inside me.
Vincent van Gogh
Keep your love of nature, for that is the true way to understand art more and more.
Vincent van Gogh
Though I am often in the depths of misery, there is still calmness, pure harmony and music inside me. I see paintings or drawings in the poorest cottages, in the dirtiest corners. And my mind is driven towards these things with an irresistible momentum.
Vincent van Gogh
The lamps are burning and the starry sky is over it all.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
One must work and dare if one really wants to live.
Vincent van Gogh
I long so much to make beautiful things. But beautiful things require effort and disappointment and perseverance.
Vincent van Gogh
I shouldn't precisely have chosen madness if there had been any choice, but once such a thing has taken hold of you, you can't very well get out of it.
Vincent van Gogh
Wasn't he the one who sliced off his ear and mailed it to his girlfriend?" "Van Gogh," said Varen, in a monotone that suggested he might be in pain. "Van Gogh," Gwen said, leaning away, waving the apple. "Edgar Allan Poe. Close enough!
Kelly Creagh (Nevermore (Nevermore, #1))
And when I read, and really I do not read so much, only a few authors, - a few men that I discovered by accident - I do this because they look at things in a broader, milder and more affectionate way than I do, and because they know life better, so that I can learn from them.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
What preys on my mind is simply this one question: what am I good for, could I not be of service or use in some way?
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
Let’s not forget that the little emotions are the great captains of our lives and we obey them without realizing it.
Vincent van Gogh
We are surrounded by poetry on all sides...
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
What color is in a picture, enthusiasm is in life.
Vincent van Gogh
No matter how old you are now. You are never too young or too old for success or going after what you want. Here’s a short list of people who accomplished great things at different ages 1) Helen Keller, at the age of 19 months, became deaf and blind. But that didn’t stop her. She was the first deaf and blind person to earn a Bachelor of Arts degree. 2) Mozart was already competent on keyboard and violin; he composed from the age of 5. 3) Shirley Temple was 6 when she became a movie star on “Bright Eyes.” 4) Anne Frank was 12 when she wrote the diary of Anne Frank. 5) Magnus Carlsen became a chess Grandmaster at the age of 13. 6) Nadia Comăneci was a gymnast from Romania that scored seven perfect 10.0 and won three gold medals at the Olympics at age 14. 7) Tenzin Gyatso was formally recognized as the 14th Dalai Lama in November 1950, at the age of 15. 8) Pele, a soccer superstar, was 17 years old when he won the world cup in 1958 with Brazil. 9) Elvis was a superstar by age 19. 10) John Lennon was 20 years and Paul Mcartney was 18 when the Beatles had their first concert in 1961. 11) Jesse Owens was 22 when he won 4 gold medals in Berlin 1936. 12) Beethoven was a piano virtuoso by age 23 13) Issac Newton wrote Philosophiæ Naturalis Principia Mathematica at age 24 14) Roger Bannister was 25 when he broke the 4 minute mile record 15) Albert Einstein was 26 when he wrote the theory of relativity 16) Lance E. Armstrong was 27 when he won the tour de France 17) Michelangelo created two of the greatest sculptures “David” and “Pieta” by age 28 18) Alexander the Great, by age 29, had created one of the largest empires of the ancient world 19) J.K. Rowling was 30 years old when she finished the first manuscript of Harry Potter 20) Amelia Earhart was 31 years old when she became the first woman to fly solo across the Atlantic Ocean 21) Oprah was 32 when she started her talk show, which has become the highest-rated program of its kind 22) Edmund Hillary was 33 when he became the first man to reach Mount Everest 23) Martin Luther King Jr. was 34 when he wrote the speech “I Have a Dream." 24) Marie Curie was 35 years old when she got nominated for a Nobel Prize in Physics 25) The Wright brothers, Orville (32) and Wilbur (36) invented and built the world's first successful airplane and making the first controlled, powered and sustained heavier-than-air human flight 26) Vincent Van Gogh was 37 when he died virtually unknown, yet his paintings today are worth millions. 27) Neil Armstrong was 38 when he became the first man to set foot on the moon. 28) Mark Twain was 40 when he wrote "The Adventures of Tom Sawyer", and 49 years old when he wrote "Adventures of Huckleberry Finn" 29) Christopher Columbus was 41 when he discovered the Americas 30) Rosa Parks was 42 when she refused to obey the bus driver’s order to give up her seat to make room for a white passenger 31) John F. Kennedy was 43 years old when he became President of the United States 32) Henry Ford Was 45 when the Ford T came out. 33) Suzanne Collins was 46 when she wrote "The Hunger Games" 34) Charles Darwin was 50 years old when his book On the Origin of Species came out. 35) Leonardo Da Vinci was 51 years old when he painted the Mona Lisa. 36) Abraham Lincoln was 52 when he became president. 37) Ray Kroc Was 53 when he bought the McDonalds Franchise and took it to unprecedented levels. 38) Dr. Seuss was 54 when he wrote "The Cat in the Hat". 40) Chesley "Sully" Sullenberger III was 57 years old when he successfully ditched US Airways Flight 1549 in the Hudson River in 2009. All of the 155 passengers aboard the aircraft survived 41) Colonel Harland Sanders was 61 when he started the KFC Franchise 42) J.R.R Tolkien was 62 when the Lord of the Ring books came out 43) Ronald Reagan was 69 when he became President of the US 44) Jack Lalane at age 70 handcuffed, shackled, towed 70 rowboats 45) Nelson Mandela was 76 when he became President
Pablo
I feel such a creative force in me: I am convinced that there will be a time when, let us say, I will make something good every day , on a regular basis....I am doing my very best to make every effort because I am longing so much to make beautiful things. But beautiful things mean painstaking work, disappointment, and perseverance.
Vincent van Gogh
Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.
Vincent van Gogh
If you work with love and intelligence, you develop a kind of armour against people's opinions, just because of the sincerity of your love for nature and art. Nature is also severe and, to put it that way, hard, but never deceives and always helps you to move forward.
Vincent van Gogh
Do you know why we have the sunflowers? It’s not because Vincent van Gogh suffered. It’s because Vincent van Gogh had a brother who loved him. Through all the pain, he had a tether, a connection to the world. And that is the focus of the story we need – connection.
Hannah Gadsby
Just slap anything on when you see a blank canvas staring you in the face like some imbecile. You don't know how paralyzing that is, that stare of a blank canvas is, which says to the painter, ‘You can't do a thing’. The canvas has an idiotic stare and mesmerizes some painters so much that they turn into idiots themselves. Many painters are afraid in front of the blank canvas, but the blank canvas is afraid of the real, passionate painter who dares and who has broken the spell of `you can't' once and for all.
Vincent van Gogh
There was a sentence in your letter that struck me, “I wish I were far away from everything, I am the cause of all, and bring only sorrow to everybody, I alone have brought all this misery on myself and others.” These words struck me because that same feeling, just the same, not more nor less, is also on my conscience.
Vincent van Gogh (Dear Theo)
If one feels the need of something grand, something infinite, something that makes one feel aware of God, one need not go far to find it. I think that I see something deeper, more infinite, more eternal than the ocean in the expression of the eyes of a little baby when it wakes in the morning and coos or laughs because it sees the sun shining on its cradle.
Vincent van Gogh
Those who love much, do much and accomplish much, and whatever is done with love is done well.... Love is the best and noblest thing in the human heart, especially when it is tested by life as gold is tested by fire. Happy is he who has loved much, and although he may have wavered and doubted, he has kept that divine spark alive and returned to what was in the beginning and ever shall be. If only one keeps loving faithfully what is truly worth loving and does not squander one's love on trivial and insignificant and meaningless things then one will gradually obtain more light and grow stronger.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
Looking at the stars always makes me dream, as simply as I dream over the black dots representing towns and villages on a map. Why, I ask myself, shouldn’t the shining dots of the sky be as accessible as the black dots on the map of France? Just as we take a train to get to Tarascon or Rouen, we take death to reach a star. We cannot get to a star while we are alive any more than we can take the train when we are dead. So to me it seems possible that cholera, tuberculosis and cancer are the celestial means of locomotion. Just as steamboats, buses and railways are the terrestrial means. To die quietly of old age would be to go there on foot.
Vincent van Gogh
Beasts bounding through time. Van Gogh writing his brother for paints Hemingway testing his shotgun Celine going broke as a doctor of medicine the impossibility of being human Villon expelled from Paris for being a thief Faulkner drunk in the gutters of his town the impossibility of being human Burroughs killing his wife with a gun Mailer stabbing his the impossibility of being human Maupassant going mad in a rowboat Dostoevsky lined up against a wall to be shot Crane off the back of a boat into the propeller the impossibility Sylvia with her head in the oven like a baked potato Harry Crosby leaping into that Black Sun Lorca murdered in the road by the Spanish troops the impossibility Artaud sitting on a madhouse bench Chatterton drinking rat poison Shakespeare a plagiarist Beethoven with a horn stuck into his head against deafness the impossibility the impossibility Nietzsche gone totally mad the impossibility of being human all too human this breathing in and out out and in these punks these cowards these champions these mad dogs of glory moving this little bit of light toward us impossibly
Charles Bukowski (You Get So Alone at Times That it Just Makes Sense)
When Van Gogh was a young man in his early twenties, he was in London studying to be a clergyman. He had no thought of being an artist at all. he sat in his cheap little room writing a letter to his younger brother in Holland, whom he loved very much. He looked out his window at a watery twilight, a thin lampost, a star, and he said in his letter something like this: "it is so beautiful I must show you how it looks." And then on his cheap ruled note paper, he made the most beautiful, tender, little drawing of it. When I read this letter of Van Gogh's it comforted me very much and seemed to throw a clear light on the whole road of Art. Before, I thought that to produce a work of painting or literature, you scowled and thought long and ponderously and weighed everything solemnly and learned everything that all artists had ever done aforetime, and what their influences and schools were, and you were extremely careful about *design* and *balance* and getting *interesting planes* into your painting, and avoided, with the most astringent severity, showing the faintest *acedemical* tendency, and were strictly modern. And so on and so on. But the moment I read Van Gogh's letter I knew what art was, and the creative impulse. It is a feeling of love and enthusiasm for something, and in a direct, simple, passionate and true way, you try to show this beauty in things to others, by drawing it. And Van Gogh's little drawing on the cheap note paper was a work of art because he loved the sky and the frail lamppost against it so seriously that he made the drawing with the most exquisite conscientiousness and care.
Brenda Ueland (If You Want to Write: A Book about Art, Independence and Spirit)
There is a great difference between one idler and another idler. There is someone who is an idler out of laziness and lack of character, owing to the baseness of his nature. If you like, you may take me for one of those. Then there is the other kind of idler, the idler despite himself, who is inwardly consumed by a great longing for action who does nothing because his hands are tied, because he is, so to speak, imprisoned somewhere, because he lacks what he needs to be productive, because disastrous circumstances have brought him forcibly to this end. Such a one does not always know what he can do, but he nevertheless instinctively feels, I am good for something! My existence is not without reason! I know that I could be a quite a different person! How can I be of use, how can I be of service? There is something inside me, but what can it be? He is quite another idler. If you like you may take me for one of those.
Vincent van Gogh (The Letters of Vincent van Gogh)
عزيزي ثيو: إلى أين تمضي الحياة بي؟ ما الذي يصنعه العقل بنا؟ إنه يفقد الأشياء بهجتها ويقودنا نحو الكآبة... ... إنني أتعفن مللا لولا ريشتي وألواني هذه، أعيد بها خلق الأشياء من جديد.. كل الأشياء تغدو باردة وباهتة بعدما يطؤها الزمن.. ماذا أصنع؟ أريد أن أبتكر خطوطا وألوانا جديدة، غير تلك التي يتعثر بصرنا بها كل يوم. كل الألوان القديمة لها بريق حزين في قلبي. هل هي كذلك في الطبيعة أم أن عيني مريضتان؟ ها أنا أعيد رسمها كما أقدح النار الكامنة فيها. في قلب المأساة ثمة خطوط من البهجة أريد لألواني أن تظهرها، في حقول "الغربان" وسنابل القمح بأعناقها الملوية. وحتى "حذاء الفلاح" الذي يرشح بؤسا ثمة فرح ما أريد أن أقبض عليه بواسطة اللون والحركة... للأشياء القبيحة خصوصية فنية قد لا نجدها في الأشياء الجميلة وعين الفنان لا تخطئ ذلك. اليوم رسمت صورتي الشخصية ففي كل صباح، عندما أنظر إلى المرآة أقول لنفسي: أيها الوجه المكرر، يا وجه فانسان القبيح، لماذا لا تتجدد؟ أبصق في المرآة وأخرج ... واليوم قمت بتشكيل وجهي من جديد، لا كما أرادته الطبيعة، بل كما أريده أن يكون: عينان ذئبيتان بلا قرار. وجه أخضر ولحية كألسنة النار. كانت الأذن في اللوحة ناشزة لا حاجة بي إليها. أمسكت الريشة، أقصد موس الحلاقة وأزلتها.. يظهر أن الأمر اختلط علي، بين رأسي خارج اللوحة وداخلها... حسنا ماذا سأفعل بتلك الكتلة اللحمية؟ أرسلتها إلى المرأة التي لم تعرف قيمتي وظننت أني أحبها.. لا بأس فلتجتمع الزوائد مع بعضها.. إليك أذني أيتها المرأة الثرثارة، تحدثي إليها... الآن أستطيع أن أسمع وأرى بأصابعي. بل إن إصبعي السادس "الريشة" لتستطيع أكثر من ذلك: إنها ترقص وتب وتداعب بشرة اللوحة... أجلس متأملاً : لقد شاخ العالم وكثرت تجاعيده وبدأ وجه اللوحة يسترخي أكثر... آه يا إلهي ماذا باستطاعتي أن أفعل قبل أن يهبط الليل فوق برج الروح؟ الفرشاة. الألوان. و... بسرعة أتداركه: ضربات مستقيمة وقصيرة. حادة ورشيقة..ألواني واضحة وبدائية. أصفر أزرق أحمر.. أريد أن أعيد الأشياء إلى عفويتها كما لو أن العالم قد خرج تواً من بيضته الكونية الأولى. مازلت أذكر: كان الوقت غسقا أو ما بعد الغسق وقبل الفجر. اللون الليلكي يبلل خط الأفق... آه من رعشة الليلكي. عندما كنا نخرج إلى البستان لنسرق التوت البري. كنت مستقراً في جوف الشجرة أراقب دودة خضراء وصفراء بينما "أورسولا" الأكثر شقاوة تقفز بابتهاج بين الأغصان وفجأة اختل توازنها وهوت. ارتعش صدري قبل أن تتعلق بعنقي مستنجدة. ضممتها إلي وهي تتنفس مثل ظبي مذعور... ولما تناءت عني كانت حبة توت قد تركت رحيقها الليلكي على بياض قميصي.. منذ ذلك اليوم، عندما كنت في الثانية عشرة وأنا أحس رحيقها الليلكي على بياض قميصي.. منذ ذلك اليوم، عندما كنت في الثانية عشرة وأنا أحس بأن سعادة ستغمرني لو أن ثقباً ليلكياً انفتح في صدري ليتدفق البياض... يا لرعشة الليلكي ... الفكرة تلح علي كثيراً فهل أستطيع ألا أفعل؟ كامن في زهرة عباد الشمس، أيها اللون الأصفر يا أنا. أمتص من شعاع هذا الكوكب البهيج. أحدق وأحدق في عين الشمس حيث روح الكون حتى تحرقني عيناي. شيئان يحركان روحي: التحديق بالشمس، وفي الموت.. أريد أن أسافر في النجوم وهذا البائس جسدي يعيقني! متى سنمضي، نحن أبناء الأرض، حاملين مناديلنا المدماة .. - ولكن إلى أين؟ - إلى الحلم طبعاً. أمس رسمت زهوراً بلون الطين بعدما زرعت نفسي في التراب، وكانت السنابل خضراء وصفراء تنمو على مساحة رأسي وغربان الذاكرة تطير بلا هواء. سنابل قمح وغربان. غربان وقمح... الغربان تنقر في دماغي. غاق... غاق.. كل شيء حلم. هباء أحلام، وريشة التراب تخدعنا في كل حين.. قريباً سأعيد أمانة التراب، وأطلق العصفور من صدري نحو بلاد الشمس.. آه أيتها السنونو سأفتح لك القفص بهذا المسدس: القرمزي يسيل. دم أم النار؟ غليوني يشتعل: الأسود والأبيض يلونان الحياة بالرمادي. للرمادي احتمالات لا تنتهي: رمادي أحمر، رمادي أزرق، رمادي أخضر. التبغ يحترق والحياة تنسرب. للرماد طعم مر بالعادة نألفه، ثم ندمنه، كالحياة تماماً: كلما تقدم العمر بنا غدونا أكثر تعلقا بها... لأجل ذلك أغادرها في أوج اشتعالي.. ولكن لماذا؟! إنه الإخفاق مرة أخرى. لن ينتهي البؤس أبداً... وداعاً يا ثيو، "سأغادر نحو الربيع".
Vincent van Gogh
Then I thought of the drive back, late at night, along the starlit river to this rickety antique New England hotel on a shoreline that I hoped would remind us both of the bay of B., and of Van Gogh's starry nights, and of the night I joined him on the rock and kissed him on the neck, and of the last night when we walked together on the coast road, sensing we'd run out of last-minute miracles to put off his leaving. I imagined being in his car asking myself, Who knows, would I want to, would he want to, perhaps a nightcap at the bar would decide, knowing that, all through dinner that evening, he and I would be worrying about the same exact thing, hoping it might happen, praying it might not, perhaps a nightcap would decide - I could just read it on his face as I pictured him looking away while uncorking a bottle of wine or while changing the music, because he too would catch the thought racing through my mind and want me to know he was debating the exact same thing, because, as he'd pour the wine for his wife, for me, for himself, it would finally dawn on us both that he was more me than I had ever been myself, because when he became me and I became him in bed so many years ago, he was and would forever remain, long after every forked road in life had done its work, my brother, my friend, my father, my son, my husband, my lover, myself. In the weeks we'd been thrown together that summer, our lives had scarcely touched, but we had crossed to the other bank, where time stops and heaven reaches down to earth and gives us that ration of what is from birth divinely ours. We looked the other way. We spoke of everything but. But we've always known, and not saying anything now confirmed it all the more. We had found the stars, you and I. And this is given once only.
André Aciman (Call Me by Your Name)