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Stupid dreams. Even the good ones are bad, because they remind you how poorly reality measures up.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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In a perfect world everything would be either black or white, right or wrong, and everyone would know the difference. But this isn't a perfect world. The problem is people who think it is.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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I'd rather be partly great than entirely useless.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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...One thing you learn when you've lived as long as I have-people aren't all good, and people aren't all bad. We move in and out of darkness and light all of our lives. Right now, I'm pleased to be in the light.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Unwinds didn't go out with a bang-they didn't even go out with a whimper. they went out with the silence of a candle flame pinched between two fingers.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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You can't change laws without first changing human nature.'
-Nurse Greta
You can't change human nature without first changing the law.'
-Nurse Yvonne
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Words don't hurt you." Which is one of the hugest criminal lies perpetrated by adults against children in this world. Because words hurt more than any physical pain.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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You see, a conflict always begins with an issue - a difference of opinion, an argument. But by the time it turns into a war, the issue doesn't matter anymore, because now it's about one thing and one thing only: how much each side hates the other.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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It's funny how a flame can only burn your hand if you move too slow, you can tease it all you want and it never gets you, if you're quick enough.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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We all need something to help us unwind at the end of the day. You might have a glass of wine, or a joint, or a big delicious blob of heroin to silence your silly brainbox of its witterings but there has to be some form of punctuation, or life just seems utterly relentless.
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Russell Brand (My Booky Wook)
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The sad truth about humanity...is that people believe what they're told. Maybe not the first time, but by the hundredth time, the craziest of ideas just becomes a given.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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All day and all night my desire for you unwinds like a poisonous snake.
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Samar Sen
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But these thoughts broke apart in his head and were replaced by strange fragments: This is my soul and the world unwinding, this is my heart in the still winter air.
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Emily St. John Mandel (Station Eleven)
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I'm scared," he says.
"I know," says the nurse.
"I want you all to go to Hell."
"That's natural.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Would you rather die, or be unwound? Now he finally knows the answer. Maybe this is what he wanted. Maybe it's why he stood there and taunted Roland. Because he'd rather be killed with a furious hand than dismembered with cool indifference.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Looks are deceiving," Risa says. "After all, when I first saw you I thought you looked reasonably intelligent.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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How you must have suffered getting accustomed to me,
my savage, solitary soul, my name that sends them all running.
So many times we have seen the morning star burn, kissing our eyes,
and over our heads the grey light unwinds in turning fans.
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Pablo Neruda (Twenty Love Poems and a Song of Despair)
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That's what law is: educated guesses at right and wrong.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Fight, flight, and screw up royaly.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Getting to know someone in blind darkness changes your impression of them.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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The measure of a man is not how much he suffers in the test, but how he comes out at the end.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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Hope can be bruised and battered. It can be forced underground and even rendered unconscious, but hope cannot be killed.
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Neal Shusterman (UnSouled (Unwind, #3))
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Sure, I can talk like you, but I choose not to, It's like an art, you know? Picasso had to prove to the world he could paint the right way, before he goes putting both eyes on the side of a face... See if you paint wrong because that's the best you can do, you just a chump. But you do it because you want to? Then you're an artist...You can take that to the grave and dig it up when you need it.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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How body from spirit slowly does unwind, until we are pure spirit at the end.
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Theodore Roethke
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...the first sign of civilization is always trash.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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What he's really saying is: Please be a human being. With a life so full of rules and regiments, it's so easy to forget that's what they are. She knowsβshe seesβhow often compassion takes a back seat to expediency.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Flushed with starlight and moonlight drowned,
All the dreamers are castle-bound.
At midnightβs stroke, we will unwind,
Revealing fantasies soft or unkind.
Show me debauched nightmares or sunniest daydreams.
Come not as you are but as you wish to be seen.
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Erin A. Craig (House of Salt and Sorrows (Sisters of the Salt, #1))
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Between Ennui and Ecstasy unwinds our whole experience of time.
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Emil M. Cioran (All Gall is Divided: Aphorisms)
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...if more people had been organ donors, unwinding never would have happened...but people like to keep what's theirs, even after they're dead.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Most people have two emergency modes. Fight and Flight. But Conner always knew he had three. Fight, Flight, and Screw Up Royally.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Would you rather die, or be unwound?
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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The perpetual movement of the water, rolling from and to unknown destinations, the voices of the sea shield us from the raging furies and shrieking sounds of dystopian surroundings, creating an unwinding veil for stilled happiness, acquainting us with the gentle, cosmic rhythms of an extraneous world. They are a soothing relief and let us listen to the voices of our inner world. ("Voices of the sea" )
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Erik Pevernagie
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Either things happen for a reason, or they happen for no reason at all. Either one's life is a thread in a glorious tapestry or humanity is just a hopelessly tangled knot.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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Anger is only our friend when we know its caliber and how to aim it.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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[...] every time he forces himself to think before acting, it's her voice in his head telling him to slow down. He wants to tell her, but she's always so busy in the medical jetβand you don't just go to somebody and say, "I'm a better person because you're in my head.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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No true hero ever believes that they are one.
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Neal Shusterman (UnSouled (Unwind, #3))
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When we see our world is about to unwind,God sees an image of His perfect design.
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Carolyn Cutler Hughes (Through God's Eye)
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When we push ourselves to pursue relentlessly external accomplishments, we often fail to align with the flow of life and forget to honor our need for reflection and inner retreat. . (βFinally unwindβ)
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Erik Pevernagie
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Roland glares at Connor and Connor glares back. Then he says what he always says at moments like this.
"Nice socks."
Although Roland doesn't look down right away, it derails him just enough for him to back off. He doesn't check to see if his socks match until he thinks Connor isn't looking. And the moment he does, Connor snickers. Small victories are betΒter than none.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Hey," says Hayden, "I'm Switzerland; neutral as can be, and also with great chocolate."
"Get lost," Roland tells him.
"Already am." And Hayden strolls away.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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They signed the unwind order just to spite each other,but laugh,laugh,laugh,Hayden, because if you ever stop laughing,it might just tear you apart worse than a Chop Shop.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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Fate will unwind as it must!
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Burton Raffel (Beowulf)
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I was asking if unwinding kills you, or if it leaves you alive somehow. C'monβit's not like we haven't thought about it." (...)
What do you think, Connor?" asks Hayden. "What hapΒpens to your soul when you get unwound?"
Who says I even got one?"
For the sake of argument, let's say you do."
Who says I want an argument?
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Somewhere in the center of my soul, a rusty chain began to unwind. It freed itself, link by link, from where it had rested, unobserved, waiting for him. My hands, which had been balled up and pressed against his chest, unfurled with it. The chain continued to drop, to an unfathomable depth where there was nothing but darkness and Matthew. At last it snapped to its full length, anchoring me to a vampire. Despite the manuscript, despite the fact that my hands contained enough voltage to run a microwave, and despite the photograph, as long as I was connected to him, I was safe.
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Deborah Harkness (A Discovery of Witches (All Souls, #1))
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The good thing about being explosive is that no one can beat you.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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How do you judge the brightness of a light when youβre the source? A spotlight can never see the shadows it casts.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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Conner Lassiter. Scheduled to be unwound the 21st of November-until you went AWOL. You caused an accident that killed a bus driver, left dozens of others injured, and shut down an interstate highway for hours. Then, on top of it, you took a hostage AND shot a Juvey-cop with his own tranq gun."
..."He's the Akron AWOL?!
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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The woman wears a floral print blouse with lots of leaves and pink flowers. Risa would like to attack her with a weed whacker.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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I gotta go to the bathroom," Emby mumbles.
"You should have thought of that before you left," says Hayden, putting on his best mother voice. "How many times do we have to tell you? Always use the potty before climbing into a shipping crate.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Creating a breathing space- away from society's pressures and expectations- is not a sign of weakness or defeat but a recognition of the natural rhythms of life and our need for self-compassion. (βFinally unwind β)
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Erik Pevernagie
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Which is worse, Risa often wondered, to have tens of thousands of babies that no one wanted or to silently make then go away before they were even born
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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There's ordinary people out there doing extraordinary things.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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And then I unwind her.
One strand for my mother.
One for my father.
One for me.
I unravel the rage until it courses through my veins like fuel in an engine. I let it become a part of me, but not all of me. Hot, scorching pain under my skin, under my tongue, under my nails. I let it spread through meβuntil there is no more βBeforeβ and no more βAfter.β
I am her and she is me.
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Tracy Deonn (Legendborn (The Legendborn Cycle, #1))
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Cowards hide [...] but warriors lie and wait [...] the only difference is whether you're motivated by fear or purpose.
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Neal Shusterman (UnSouled (Unwind, #3))
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One cannot let the events of one's past murder one's future.
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Neal Shusterman (UnSouled (Unwind, #3))
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You...you lost your faith?"
"No...just my convictions. I still very much believe in God- just not a god who condones human tithing."
Lev begins to feel himself choking up with an unexpected flood of feeling, all the emotions that had been building up throughout their talk- throughout the weeks- arriving all at once like a sonic boom.
"I never knew there was a choice.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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How many kids are in the Graveyard?"
"A bunch."
"Who sends your supplies?"
"George Washington. Or is it Abraham Lincoln? I forget."
"How often do you receive new arrivals?"
"About as often as you beat your wife.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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And he thinks that if his soul had a form, this is what it would be. A baby sleeping in his arms.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Tools are neither demonic nor divine. Itβs all about who wields them.
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Neal Shusterman (UnDivided (Unwind, #4))
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I'm Switzerland; neutral as can be, and also with great chocolate.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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It's amazing that something as simple as a kiss can overpower the worst of worries.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Connor smiles with mocking warmth at him, and glances at the tattoo on his wrist. "I like your dolphin.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Whether consciousness is implanted in us by something divine, or whether it is created by the efforts of our brains, the end result is the same. We are.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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When you live a life without questions, you're unprepared for the questions when they come.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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They meet in the girls' bathroom. The last time they were forced to meet in a place like this, they took separate, isolated stalls. Now they share one. They hold each other in the tight space, making no excuses for it. There's no time left in their lives for games, or for awkwardness, or for pretending they don't care about each others, and so they kiss as if they've done it forever. As if it is as crucial as the need for oxygen.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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The way I see it, it's got nothing to do with all of that. It has to do with love...A person don't got a soul until that person is loved. If a mother loves her baby--wants her baby--it's got a soul from the moment she knows it's there. The moment you're loved, that's when you got your soul.
--Diego
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Best way to save humanity is to turn the monsters against one another.
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Neal Shusterman (UnDivided (Unwind, #4))
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It holds no fear for her now, because the shark has been tamed by the soul of a boy. No--the soul of a man.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Fine," Connor tells him. "Think about stuff until your head explodes. But the only thing I want to think about is surviving to eighteen."
I find your shallowness both refreshing and disappointing at the same time. Do you think that means I need therapy?
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Who says I'm insane?"
"Oh you're sane alright.
You're so sane, you scare me.
You're so sane, it's insane.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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The moment you're loved, that's when you got your soul.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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She plays music to heal herself, but nothing can heal her brokenness.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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How can we finally unplug in a hustling world? We often notice we simply do not have the knack for unwinding and finding moments of stillness. Learning to align our commitments to our needs or values and keeping our time budget under surveillance can be incredibly grounding and energizing. If we put boundaries around our time and energy patterns, we can succeed in leading a balanced and inspiring life without regret. (βFinally unwindβ)
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Erik Pevernagie
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You should never apologize for existing, Lev. Not even to all those people out there who wish you didn't.
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Neal Shusterman (UnSouled (Unwind, #3))
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You have robbed me, and everyone here, of their purpose. That's not salvation, that's damnation.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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I'm alone. And I'm crying. And no one is coming to the crib. And the nightlight has burned out. And I'm mad. I'm so mad. Left frontal lobe. I...I...I don't feel so good. Left occipital lobe. I... don't remember where...Left parietal lobe. I...I...I can't remember my name,but...but...Right temporal...but I'm still here. Right frontal. I'm still here... Right occipital.I'm still...Right parietal. I'm...Cerebellum. I'm...Thalamus. I...Hypothalamus. I...Hippocampus...Medulla........................
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Small victories are betΒter than none.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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I don't know what happens to our consciousness when we're unwound," says Connor. "I don't even know when that consciousness starts. But I do know this." He pauses to make sure all of them are listening. "We have a right to our lives!"
The kids go wild.
"We have a right to choose what happens to our bodies!"
The cheers reach fever pitch.
"We deserve a world where both those things are possibleβ and it's our job to help make that world.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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He does not deserve this. He has done many things, not all good, but he does not deserve this. And he never did get his priest.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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The thing about champagne,you say, unfoiling the cork, unwinding the wire restraint, is that is the ultimate associative object. Every time you open a bottle of champagne, it's a celebration, so there's no better way of starting a celebration than opening a bottle of champagne. Every time you sip it, you're sipping from all those other celebrations. The joy accumulates over time.
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David Levithan (The Lover's Dictionary)
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One thing yo learn when you've lived as long as I have-people aren't all good, and people aren't all bad. We move in and out of darkness and light all of our lives. Right now, I'm pleased to be in the light.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Already Roland feels his limbs starting to go numb. He swallows hard.
"I hate this. I hate you. I hate all of you."
"I understand.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Good in Crisis; Sucks at Normal.β That about sums up my whole life, doesnβt it?
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Neal Shusterman (UnSouled (Unwind, #3))
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All this time, Lev ever realized what he needed. He did not need to be adored or pitied. He needed to be forgiven. Not by God, who is all forgiving. Not by people like Marcus and Pastor Dan, who would always stand by his side. He needed to be forgiven by an unforgiving world.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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Respect doesn't come without a little resentment.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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Beautiful is dangerous.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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...facts never prevent the ignorant from jerking their knees into the groin of science.
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Neal Shusterman (UnDivided (Unwind, #4))
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A pedestal is the most insidious prison ever devised.
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Neal Shusterman (UnSouled (Unwind, #3))
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We'll never be ready. So I guess that means we're as ready as we'll ever be.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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What can fingerprints mean when theyβre not necessarily yours?
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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Sure, when you're in the midst of your own suffering, it's easy to convince yourself that you're no goodβbut we are all tested in this life...The measure of a man is not how much he suffers in the test, but how he comes out at the end.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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Please what? the teacher thinks. Please break the law? Please put myself and the school at risk? But, no, that's not it at all. What he's really saying is: Please be a human being. With a life so full of rules and regiments, it's so easy to forget that's what they are. She knowsβshe seesβhow often compassion takes a back seat to expediency.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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What if . . . what if . . .
"What if it's a harvest camp after all?" says Emby. Connor doesn't tell him to shut up this time, because he's thinking the same thing.
It's Diego who answers him. "If it is, then I want my fin gers to go to a sculptor. So he can use them to craft something that will last forever."
They all think about that. Hayden is the next to speak.
"If I'm unwound," says Hayden, "I want my eyes to go to a photographer β one who shoots supermodels. That's what I want these eyes to see."
"My lips'll go to a rock star," says Connor.
"These legs are definitely going to the Olympics."
"My ears to an orchestra conductor."
"My stomach to a food critic."
"My biceps to a body builder."
"I wouldn't wish my sinuses on anybody."
And they're all laughing as the plane touches down.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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I jump up: it would be much better if I could only stop thinking. Thoughts are the dullest things. Duller than flesh. They stretch out and there's no end to them and they leave a funny taste in the mouth. Then there are words, inside the thoughts, unfinished words, a sketchy sentence which constantly returns: "I have to fi. . . I ex. . . Dead . . . M. de Roll is dead . . . I am not ... I ex. . ." It goes, it goes . . . and there's no end to it. It's worse than the rest because I feel responsible and have complicity in it. For example, this sort of painful rumination: I exist, I am the one who keeps it up. I. The body lives by itself once it has begun. But though I am the one who continues it, unrolls it. I exist. How serpentine is this feeling of existing, I unwind it, slowly. ... If I could keep myself from thinking! I try, and succeed: my head seems to fill with smoke . . . and then it starts again: "Smoke . . . not to think . . . don't want to think ... I think I don't want to think. I mustn't think that I don't want to think. Because that's still a thought." Will there never be an end to it?
My thought is me: that's why I can't stop. I exist because I think . . . and I can't stop myself from thinking. At this very moment, it's frightful, if I exist, it is because I am horrified at existing. I am the one who pulls myself from the nothingness to which I aspire: the hatred, the disgust of existing, there are as many ways to make myself exist, to thrust myself into existence. Thoughts are born at the back of me, like sudden giddiness, I feel them being born behind my head ... if I yield, they're going to come round in front of me, between my eyes, and I always yield, the thought grows and grows and there it is, immense, filling me completely and renewing my existence.
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Jean-Paul Sartre (Nausea)
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Suddenly it was obvious to Connor why they don't teach it. Once education was restructured and corporatized, they didn't want kids knowing how close they came to toppling the government. They didn't want kids to know how much power they really had.
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Neal Shusterman (UnWholly (Unwind, #2))
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October Fullnessβ
Little by little, and also in great leaps,
life happened to me,
and how insignificant this business is.
These veins carried
my blood, which I scarcely ever saw,
I breathed the air of so many places
without keeping a sample of any.
In the end, everyone is aware of this:
nobody keeps any of what he has,
and life is only a borrowing of bones.
The best thing was learning not to have too much
either of sorrow or of joy,
to hope for the chance of a last drop,
to ask more from honey and from twilight.
Perhaps it was my punishment.
Perhaps I was condemned to be happy.
Let it be known that nobody
crossed my path without sharing my being.
I plunged up to the neck
into adversities that were not mine,
into all the sufferings of others.
It wasnβt a question of applause or profit.
Much less. It was not being able
to live or breathe in this shadow,
the shadow of others like towers,
like bitter trees that bury you,
like cobblestones on the knees.
Our own wounds heal with weeping,
our own wounds heal with singing,
but in our own doorway lie bleeding
widows, Indians, poor men, fishermen.
The minerβs child doesnβt know his father
amidst all that suffering.
So be it, but my business
was
the fullness of the spirit:
a cry of pleasure choking you,
a sigh from an uprooted plant,
the sum of all action.
It pleased me to grow with the morning,
to bathe in the sun, in the great joy
of sun, salt, sea-light and wave,
and in that unwinding of the foam
my heart began to move,
growing in that essential spasm,
and dying away as it seeped into the sand.
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Pablo Neruda (The Essential Neruda: Selected Poems)
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Damn right! The time of your life! Gotta wrap up all those life events, all those parties, into one - birthdays, wedding, funeral." THen he turns to their father. "Very efficient, right, Dad?"....
"Here's to my brother, Lev," Marcus says. "And to our parents! Who have always done the right thing. The appropriate thing. Who have always given generously to charity. Who have always given 10 percent of everything to our church. Hey, Mom - we're lucky you had ten kids instead of five, otherwise we'd end up having to cut Lev off at the waist!
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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So tell us," says Connor, "in The World According to Hayden, when do we start to live?"
A long silence from Hayden, and then he says quietly, uneasily, "I don't know."
Emby razzes him. "That's not an answer."
But Connor reaches out and grabs Emby's arm, to shut him up- because Emby's wrong. Even though Connor can't see Hayden's face, he can hear the truth of it in his voice. There was no hint of evasion in Hayden's words. This was raw honesty, void of Hayden's usual flip attitude. It was perhaps the first truly honest thing Connor had ever heard him say. "Yes, it is an answer," Connor says. "Maybe it's the best answer of all. If more people could admit they really don't know, maybe there never would have been a Heartland War.
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Neal Shusterman (Unwind (Unwind, #1))
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[excerpt] The usual I say. Essence. Spirit. Medicine. A taste. I say top shelf. Straight up. A shot. A sip. A nip. I say another round. I say brace yourself. Lift a few. Hoist a few. Work the elbow. Bottoms up. Belly up. Set βem up. Whatβll it be. Name your poison. I say same again. I say all around. I say my good man. I say my drinking buddy. I say git that in ya. Then a quick one. Then a nightcap. Then throw one back. Then knock one down. Fast & furious I say. Could savage a drink I say. Chug. Chug-a-lug. Gulp. Sauce. Motherβs milk. Everclear. Moonshine. White lightning. Firewater. Hootch. Relief. Now youβre talking I say. Live a little I say. Drain it I say. Kill it I say. Feeling it I say. Wobbly. Breakfast of champions I say. I say candy is dandy but liquor is quicker. I say Houston, we have a drinking problem. I say the cause of, and solution to, all of lifeβs problems. I say god only knows what Iβd be without you. I say thirsty. I say parched. I say wet my whistle. Dying of thirst. Lap it up. Hook me up. Watering hole. Knock a few back. Pound a few down. My office. Out with the boys I say. Unwind I say. Nurse one I say. Apply myself I say. Toasted. Glow. A cold one a tall one a frosty I say. One for the road I say. Two-fisted I say. Never trust a man who doesnβt drink I say. Drink any man under the table I say. Then a binge then a spree then a jag then a bout. Coming home on all fours. Could use a drink I say. A shot of confidence I say. Steady my nerves I say. Drown my sorrows. I say kill for a drink. I say keep βem cominβ. I say a stiff one. Drink deep drink hard hit the bottle. Two sheets to the wind then. Knackered then. Under the influence then. Half in the bag then. Out of my skull I say. Liquored up. Rip-roaring. Slammed. Fucking jacked. The booze talking. The room spinning. Feeling no pain. Buzzed. Giddy. Silly. Impaired. Intoxicated. Stewed. Juiced. Plotzed. Inebriated. Laminated. Swimming. Elated. Exalted. Debauched. Rock on. Drunk on. Bring it on. Pissed. Then bleary. Then bloodshot. Glassy-eyed. Red-nosed. Dizzy then. Groggy. On a bender I say. On a spree. I say off the wagon. I say on a slip. I say the drink. I say the bottle. I say drinkie-poo. A drink a drunk a drunkard. Swill. Swig. Shitfaced. Fucked up. Stupefied. Incapacitated. Raging. Seeing double. Shitty. Take the edge off I say. Thatβs better I say. Loaded I say. Wasted. Off my ass. Befuddled. Reeling. Tanked. Punch-drunk. Mean drunk. Maintenance drunk. Sloppy drunk happy drunk weepy drunk blind drunk dead drunk. Serious drinker. Hard drinker. Lush. Drink like a fish. Boozer. Booze hound. Alkie. Sponge. Then muddled. Then woozy. Then clouded. What day is it? Do you know me? Have you seen me? When did I start? Did I ever stop? Slurring. Reeling. Staggering. Overserved they say. Drunk as a skunk they say. Falling down drunk. Crawling down drunk. Drunk & disorderly. I say high tolerance. I say high capacity. They say protective custody. Blitzed. Shattered. Zonked. Annihilated. Blotto. Smashed. Soaked. Screwed. Pickled. Bombed. Stiff. Frazzled. Blasted. Plastered. Hammered. Tore up. Ripped up. Destroyed. Whittled. Plowed. Overcome. Overtaken. Comatose. Dead to the world. The old K.O. The horrors I say. The heebie-jeebies I say. The beast I say. The dtβs. Bβjesus & pink elephants. A mindbender. Hittinβ it kinda hard they say. Go easy they say. Last call they say. Quitting time they say. They say shut off. They say dry out. Pass out. Lights out. Blackout. The bottom. The walking wounded. Cross-eyed & painless. Gone to the world. Gone. Gonzo. Wrecked. Sleep it off. Wake up on the floor. End up in the gutter. Off the stuff. Dry. Dry heaves. Gag. White knuckle. Lightweight I say. Hair of the dog I say. Eye-opener I say. A drop I say. A slug. A taste. A swallow. Down the hatch I say. I wouldnβt say no I say. I say whatever heβs having. I say next oneβs on me. I say bottoms up. Put it on my tab. I say one more. I say same again
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Nick Flynn (Another Bullshit Night in Suck City)