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The priest and his desires
Not alone, but a lonely monastery priest,
Resisting hard not to venture out and pursue the need for love and passion driven heist,
Bound by his sanctum and religion,
He tries not to give in to any seduction,
Adam and Eve blamed the devil,
The priest is baffled to decide who shall he blame for this evil,
He rolls and turns restlessly in the bed of his desires,
And every night after the Church service he deals with these raging fires,
He is dressed in his black robe on the much anticipated Sunday mass,
But he is distracted and sees passions and desires cast on peoples faces and even on mosaic glass,
At the end of the service he serves all some fine and red wine,
And when he stands face to face with a beautiful woman his inner self says “I wish you were mine!’”
His Sunday night is spent in her curled hair locks,
He is shackled to her beautiful face and desires that fasten around him like unbreakable locks,
He often touches his cross that he wears always,
Still his nights are restless and now it is so even during the sunny Spring days,
He bows before the Altar and makes a solemn confession,
“My Lord! her face and her overpowering beauty have become my obsession,
Am I still worthy of worshipping you my God?
For I have silently started worshiping this feeling of loving her and I do not feel odd,
It is her thoughts that possess me even during my sermons,
In her absence, not yours My Lord, everything presents itself like bad omens,
To tame my wandering thoughts I refer to the Holy Book,
But through it too peeps her face and her mesmerising look,
I wonder if I shall quit clergy,
And adopt this new synergy,
I am drowning farther and farther in this mental eclipse,
And I only want to think of her beautiful face, her warm skin and her red lips,
Shall I forsake my black robe, My Lord, and not Thee?
Or Forsake her and thereby my black robe and Thee?
Because without her I do not feel anything that is a part of me,
And without being me, how can I anything else be,
Perhaps I am supposed to be a man of God but not a man,
Never to fulfillmy own desires for I am busy fulfilling Your plan,
So let me live with my state and the social taboo,
While every night I place my desires in the coffin along with the happy morning cuckoo.”
The Lord smiles at him,
“It is your personal battle and it is grim,
You desire her, her face, her charming ways,
You think of her during nights and during the bountiful days,
But you think of me too and that is enough for me to know,
So seek her and kiss her grace, for then you shall better baptise in my glow,
And before you fall too low,
Rise to your calling and you shall reap as you shall sow,
Whether you wear a black robe or her kisses,
I shall judge you on how you made others feel with or without your kisses.”
Said the Lord in His emphatic voice,
And the priest stood up and made the right choice!
To love the woman he loved and missed,
And he felt something divine within him, whenever her deep beauty he kissed!
Source of inspiration : The Thorn Birds 1983 Drama
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