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I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am nowhere. Nothing is happening and I am getting more and more sad.
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Samantha Schutz (I Don't Want To Be Crazy)
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It turns out there's something even harder than not being able to be with the person you love when you're happy: not being able to comfort her when she's sad.
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Samantha van Leer (Between the Lines (Between the Lines, #1))
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I have every reason to be sad, but I don't have any reason to mourn. People grieve when things end. Nothing has ended tonight. One of us has simply gone ahead as we always knew it would have to be.
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Samantha Sotto Yambao (Before Ever After)
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I cry and wonder
how I'm going to fall asleep
because sleeping means waking
and going through all this again
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Samantha Schutz (I Don't Want To Be Crazy)
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You're letting me go?"
He curled his upper lip, his expression painfully bitter as he took a step back from me.
"Apparently... I never had a hold of you." He turned sharply, and without another word striding down the street into the dark.
Braden never once looked back and that was a good thing.
If he had, he'd have seen Jocelyn Butler crying real tears for the first time in a long time, and he would have known that I'd lied. And lied big. For anyone who saw me, knew they were watching a heart in the process of it breaking.
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Samantha Young (On Dublin Street (On Dublin Street, #1))
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You would think after numerous attacks of grief the human body would be unable to process any more sadness. But our hearts have an annoying amount of endurance.
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Samantha Young (Play On (Play On, #1))
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I visit him a few times downtown
while he paints.
We talk about how he's going to Spain
for the fall semester
and he shows me a painting he did
and points to this one part,
a bridge, and tells me he thought of me
when he painted it.
It is so sad
how knowing something
so small
can make me so happy.
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Samantha Schutz (I Don't Want To Be Crazy)
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Not able to stop it, I felt a small smile tilt up the corners of my mouth. "Noted. Althought I must protest that you keep forcing unwanted kisses on me."
"It's the only way to get one. Unwanted indeed." He raised a knowing eyebrow at me. Arrogant Knave. I shook my head, feeling sad and happy all at the same time. "Why do you persist, Wolfe?"
His grin was slow and wicked as he stood back from me, allowing my body and mind to breathe again. "Strategy."
"Strategy?"
He cocked his eyebrow. "At first I thought imposed isolation would make you miss me-"
"Why you arro-"
"-But then I realised that it's being near me you can't resist. And there are only so many kisses you'll take before you give in to me completely, Rogan.
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Samantha Young (Slumber (The Fade, #1))
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The sounds of a man crying is a piteous noise, almost worse than an infant's cry. Babies are either hungry, sick or bored, or need changing. This man was none of those things. He was wrapped in grief as deep as the ocean, and no one could do anything to help him.
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Samantha Hayes (Until You're Mine (DI Lorraine Fisher #1))
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Sadly, life is not a movie. Life is an impossibly long and unyielding march to the grave, peppered along the way with myriad disappointments and misfortunes.
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Samantha Irby (Wow, No Thank You.)
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The guards came after her. They hunted a ghost, for Ead Duryan was no more.
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Samantha Shannon (The Priory of the Orange Tree (The Roots of Chaos, #1))
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Sad. Very sad, Samantha. To be lost like this. Sad, sad, sad that when someone asks you, What do you want? nothing comes to mind but a pair of fists clutching little broken bits.
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Mona Awad (Bunny)
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I'm trying to decide what's worse. Someone being gone, but still out there, or someone being gone forever, dead. I think someone being gone, but still out there, might be worse. Then there’s always the chance, the hoping, the wondering if things might change. If maybe one day he’ll come back. There’s also the wondering about what his new life is like. The life without you. Is he happier? And if he is, you’re left being sad, wondering what it would be like if you were happy with him. But when someone is dead, he’s dead. He’s not coming back. There is no second chance. Death is a period at the end of a sentence. Someone gone, but still out there, is an ellipsis…or a question to be answered.
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Samantha Schutz (You Are Not Here)
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I won't lie to you. This changes things. It may even change you. I know it will change me."
"I guess it's a reminder of the uncertainty in life and the foolishness of merely existing when the world is pleading with you to live. If you take anything from this, please take that. We take life for granted. We have to stop that. We have to start living.
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Samantha Young (Fall from India Place (On Dublin Street, #4))
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I an not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am NOWHERE. Nothing is happening and I am getting more and more sad.
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Samantha Schutz (I Don't Want To Be Crazy)
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Why it is that life can change so quickly?"
"How it's possible for a heart to stop beating so suddenly, instantly breaking all the hearts that were ever connected to it? But the truth is there is no sense in what happened to Jarrod. None that I can see. I wish I had a better answer, but I don't.
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Samantha Young (Fall from India Place (On Dublin Street, #4))
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This is just how I am. IM FINE. For as long as I can remember, I've had this undercurrent of sadness that, if I'm being honest, I don't totally mind. It was easy to ignore because it doesn't bother me that much. And I don't want to be some shiny, happy idiot. This is gritty, this is real.
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Samantha Irby
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I can tell you that it's okay to feel whatever it is you're feeling right now. It's okay to miss him and it's okay to hurt and it's okay to feel lost-just as long as you come to me, or your friends, or your family, when all those feelings try to overwhelm you. Because in amongst all those feelings, some of you are going to be angry, and some of you will need someone to blame. It's okay to be angry. I can't tell you if it's right or wrong to feel blame, but what I can say is don't be angry for too long and don't hold on to the blame forever. That kind of anger can take away a piece of you, a piece of you that you might not get back.
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Samantha Young (Fall from India Place (On Dublin Street, #4))
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Emotion clogged my throat. Not just because I was sad that Roane felt that way. But because for the first time in a very long time, I felt like someone saw me. Understood me. Truly.
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Samantha Young (Much Ado About You)
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There is a lot of this kind of sadness here. It slips in like the fog at night. The fog that creeps out of the ocean to survey the land that one day she thinks will eventually be hers.
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Samantha Hunt (The Seas)
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It would seem that losing the sadness would be a good thing, but it has been replaced by nothing -a quiet acceptance of this boring, everyday life. I think it's even worse than being miserable. At least being miserable is active.
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Samantha Schutz (I Don't Want To Be Crazy)
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I stare and stare and stare into the red, beady eyes of the bunny. It just sits there, burrowed into itself like a furry little Fuck You. You have no idea at all, do you? the bunny seems to say to me. Sad. Very sad, Samantha. To be lost like this. Sad, sad, sad that when someone asks you, What do you want? nothing comes to mind but a pair of fists clutching little broken bits.
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Mona Awad (Bunny)
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Like she’s my therapist, and I’m trying to pull a fast one on her, which she’d expected, but come on, Samantha, let’s get, you know, serious here. Like she knows I think I’m better than everyone else. Like my stammering shyness, my headphones, my dark, unassuming clothes, my politeness are all well and good but she can see through it, yes, Samantha, and what she sees, what it’s masking, is a very deep hate, a very deep rage, a very deep social bruise, what happened there, Samantha? Like she knows that I have nicknamed them all and, well, how sad, really. But being a moon goddess, a more highly evolved artist, a being full of nothing but love and tropical shore (though she is Upper West Side via Charleston), she’s going to tolerate it, love me from a distance all the same, wish me well on my stunted little path where I clutch my rage close like a book or a pet rat. We are all on our own paths after all, aren’t we?
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Mona Awad (Bunny)
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The young girl giggled again and Jake shook his head in amazement. Not only was the U.S. dark operative cooking pancakes, but it seemed he'd won over the timid teenager in no time flat.
"I've been entertaining this pretty girl with my vast repertoire of daring and heroic adventures from around the globe."
Jake snorted as he opened the refrigerator and pulled out the container of orange juice. "You sound like Blackbeard the pirate. Don't believe a word he says, Alyssa. He's actually Insurance salesman and lies like a rug."
"An Insurance salesman?" She narrowed her eyes at Carter as he flipped three pancackes off the electric griddle sitting on the island and onto a plate for her. "I knew you were conning me," she chastised, then rolled her eyes toward Jake. "He said he was a government spy, like James Bond."
After filling a glass, Jake smirked at his friend who shrugged his shoulders and gave the girl a sad puppy-dog expression. "Who are you going to believe, me or Jake from State Farm?
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Samantha A. Cole (Topping the Alpha (Trident Security, #4))
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Samantha, my mother says now, sadly, shaking and shaking her head. Looking up, up, up at where I’m tangoing in the blue hour with a woman I conjured from a swan. Like I’m a cat that has scrambled up yet another tall tree from which I now refuse to come down. But this time it’s different. Her face says, this is different. This is the tallest one I’ve ever climbed. This is the farthest I’ve ever traveled from the ground. This is the deepest I’ve ever retreated into the golden-green leaves she knows I love so.
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Mona Awad (Bunny)
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So the next time I see you will be at the tour.”
“Yes.”
I feel quite sad that I’m not going to see him for two weeks.
“Some best-friend you are,” I pout, jokingly. “You do remember that in the contract for being my best friend it has a beck-and-call clause in it don’t you. I mean what if I need … I don’t know – chocolates from Belgium, who’s gonna get them while you’re off in LA. I don’t know Jake, I might have to seriously consider trading you in,” I grin.
He chuckles, amused. “Don’t worry, I’ll make sure you don’t miss me.”
“I never said I’d miss you.”
“You never said you wouldn’t.”
God, he’s so bloody quick. I’m getting whip-lash just sitting here with him.
“I just want you for your cupcakes
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Samantha Towle (The Mighty Storm (The Storm, #1))
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Any prize off this bottom row,” the guy tells us, walking away to a waiting customer.
“You did it!” I jump down off the counter and wrap my arms around his neck. “You won me a prize!”
“Thank fuck.” His arms wrap around me. “I was starting to worry for a moment there. Felt like I was losing my man card.”
I reach up on my tiptoes and kiss his lips. “Never. And thank you.” I tip my head back to look into his face.
His hands slide down my back to my ass, and he gives it a squeeze. “Go pick your prize, Boston.”
Leaving Liam, I head back to the counter and lean over, looking at the bottom row of prizes. I see all kinds of crap here, including really cheap-looking stuffed animals and dolls.
I definitely do not want a doll. They freak me out.
Then, I spy this sad-looking odd toy. Reaching over, I grab it.
Liam comes up behind me as I right myself. His chest is pressed to my back. “Is that a…fucking knitted jellyfish?”
I turn my head to look up at him. He’s squinting at the toy I’ve picked up.
I look back down at it in my hands, and I think he’s right. It is a knitted jellyfish toy. “I think so.”
It’s white and pink and looks like a little princess jellyfish. And the more I look at it, the cuter it becomes…in a weird knitted jellyfish way.
“She looks like a jellyfish princess,” I say.
“It looks like a piece of shit.”
“Hey! You’ll hurt her feelings.” I jab him in the arm. Then, I hug her. “I shall call her Squishy, and she shall be mine.” I laugh, meeting Liam’s blank expression. “Finding Nemo? No?” I say.
Liam slowly shakes his head, looking at me like I’ve lost my mind.
“Okay, makes sense. You were probably too old to watch it when it first came out—you know, when I was still in diapers and you were out serenading teenage girls with the Backstreet Boys—hey!” I squeal when he digs me in the ribs with his fingers. “We’ll watch Nemo later, and then you’ll get the reference.”
I turn to the guy. “I’ll take Squishy,” I tell him, holding the stuffed animal up.
“Okay, what’s next?” I hook my arm through Liam’s, holding Squishy to my chest.
“Hook a Duck.”
“Hook a what?” I give him a confused look.
“Duck.”
“And what’s Hook a Duck?”
“You don’t know what Hook a Duck is?” Liam looks appalled.
“No…but I feel like I should.”
“You should.”
“What’s so special about it?”
“Well, nothing special per se, but it’s like a rite of passage. Every kid plays Hook a Duck when they come to the fair.”
“Hate to break it to you, Hunter, but we’re not kids.”
“Maybe not. But it’s your first time at a fair in England, and you have to play.” Liam grabs my hand and sets off, I assume, in search of this Hook a Duck game.
We find one a few minutes later, and it’s closed. All shut up with the tarpaulin covering the booth.
“It’s closed. Never mind,” I say to him.
I start to walk away, but Liam tugs me back by the hand he’s holding.
“Like a little thing like it being closed is going to stop us from playing.”
He gives me a grin and drops my hand. I watch as he unhooks the tarpaulin at the bottom and lifts it just enough so that he can sneak in underneath it.
“Hunter, what are you doing?” I hiss.
He ducks his head back out. “Come on,” he whispers, holding the material up for me to go under.
“I’m not going in there.”
“Yes you are. Now hurry the fuck up, or you’ll get me arrested for breaking into a Hook a Duck tent,” he whispers.
“Ugh,” I complain.
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Samantha Towle (The Ending I Want)
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She shook her head sadly. “I’m afraid I wasn’t the one he needed to help him get over it.” Ian thought of how he usually soothed
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Samantha Kane (At Love's Command (Brothers in Arms, #4))
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doubted that it was the whole truth but there really wasn’t anything she could do about it. “I’m just really disappointed, Ted,” she said sadly. “You’re the only family I have and now I’m not even going to get to spend Christmas with you. It’s not fair.” “I really am sorry. I thought I was doing a good thing.” For who? She sighed. “Maybe
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Samantha Chase (Stranded: Moonlight in Winter Park / One Night in the Ice Storm)
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I like sad and soothing shit.
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Samantha Irby (Wow, No Thank You.: Essays)
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Something, somewhere, pulls me from the dark and explodes inside me, a rush of vivid scenes that fly at me like memories with wings, shimmering and breathing, moments from my life, most keenly felt, an infinite gallery of my own experiences coming at random, one on top of another, side by side, singular then merging into one, a sweeping view of my entire existence, but every detail and color exact, all lift and movement just as it had been. I relive every emotion precisely as it had felt, every wound and disappointment, but enchantment too; and not only my own feelings - I can go inside someone else and know what they'd seen and felt, known all the sadness and joy they carried from their own lives. Not only people, but animals and things - the whole universe alive to sensation and feeling - now alive to me! There is no progression, not even time at all, a second and a thousand years, both and neither. Everything at once and separate, present, and then gone, but indelible. Everything I have told you little bird. Al this reached for me and gathered me in its arms. Carried me across the gateway, and back to life.
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Samantha Silva (Love and Fury)
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Henri was distraught, and his heart felt so sad.
If nobody liked him, did it mean he was bad?
He stared at his reflection.
"I'm a Pig Dog!" he exclaimed.
He should have known sooner.
He felt so ashamed.
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Samantha Childs (Henri and the Magnificent Snort : A Children's Book about Bullying, Belonging, and Love)
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I was a flesh case full of secrets and other sad things. If our marriage did get worse—if he ever did decide to graduate from fist to knife and cut me open—all his secrets would come tumbling out. I would stain the carpet with our failed marriage. What would I be then, I wondered?
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Samantha Kolesnik (Waif)
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Is this what all the years of schooling were for?
To prepare me for this
Sense of being stuck in the middle?
What was the point?
No one said I was going to be this sad.
No one said I would still be crying.
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Samantha Schutz (I Don't Want To Be Crazy)
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I want more. I want a relationship with you, but you won’t give me that And I don’t want to hide what I feel from you, let alone anyone else. I have real feelings for you, Eredine. This isn’t just sex.” He ran a hand through his hair and let out a huff of sad laughter. “If I’m honest, it never was.
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Samantha Young (Be With Me (Adair Family #4))
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And I realized that terrible things happen, things that hurt so bad, it's almost debilitating, but in the end, you get through it. Time, if not a healing agent, is kind of a numbing agent. Almost everything is survivable. Sad, frightening things happen in life, but I truly believe there's nothing more frightening than fear itself.
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Samantha Young (Here With Me (Adair Family, #1))
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Because if I told the truth half the time, I'd cry. People don't want to know if you're sad or hurt or angry or depressed, Robbie. Not even so-called friends. They just want you to say that you're fine so they don't have to expend emotional energy on you.
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Samantha Young (There with You (Adair Family, #2))
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I’d happily pay the fine to Sad Kermit for my crimes.
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Samantha Irby (Quietly Hostile)
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scared. Like the doorman where she lived still not admitting to anyone else he was gay. Like the aunt who was conducting a secret pen friend affair with a lifer in prison. Mum used to say Alex had been born with the face of someone who’d signed a confidentiality agreement. Secrets were often seen as dark and deceptive, but sometimes they were simply sad truths that people tried to hide. Perhaps that had been the problem with her third book – readers had worked out that, secretly, her heart wasn’t in it. Her husband’s cheating was one factor that had pushed her to become an author, to forge an independent, successful existence. During the first year or two that followed, the series of her young lovers, a binge of light-hearted romance, had translated into two huge best-sellers, leaving readers clamouring for more of her heart-breaking heroes and arousing paragraphs. Trouble was, that binge eventually left Alex so sated that by the time she came to write the third novel, simply the word ‘romance’ turned her stomach. ‘Mum had been Dad’s life for so long, the two of them were each other’s school sweetheart, so the coffee shop became his life instead,’ Tom continued. ‘My mates loved this place. We’d pile in after school for Coke floats and they’d pester their parents to visit at the weekend. Slowly, by word of mouth, its fried breakfasts gained a reputation. Benedict Cumberbatch came in once when he studied drama at the university. We even served the
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Samantha Tonge (The Memory of You)
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I am just an old garbage bag full of blood patiently waiting for death to rescue me, but sometimes when I tell people that, their immediate response is HOW CAN YOU BE SAD, YOU’RE HILARIOUS!!!!! and then for five seconds I’m like, “This person who has never met me before is correct. I’m so funny I should stop thinking life is a trash can.” But five seconds after that, some human roadkill yells at the grocery store bagger or pulls his scrotum out on the train, and I get the insatiable urge to peel my skin off like the layers of an onion and jam my thumbs into my eye sockets, just hoping that I’ll disappear down the garbage disposal of human existence straight into hell.
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Samantha Irby (We Are Never Meeting in Real Life.)
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Echoes of my mother’s voice reverberated in my mind as I tossed and turned, fighting away the demons who taunted me. I chiseled away at memories made of stone and flesh and bone until I walked down a pathway alone.
I could picture sadness crawling beneath my mother’s skin, though her eyes were without tears. Her hands rested in her lap with nothing to do because “in her lap with nothing to do because there were no shoeboxes of photographs to sort through, and no memories of me remained. Thousands of black wings filled the sky until they covered it in darkness. Endless shadows serenaded the emptiness. Tears were the only currency I possessed, but they weren’t for sale, so I couldn’t “pay the piper.”
My mother repeated this phrase a lot to me while growing up—meaning I had to accept the consequences of my actions. The only way she could justify knowing her father abused me was by convincing herself it was all my fault. I had to pay some imaginary piper for all my evil deeds and wrongdoings.
I woke up realizing it was time for me to let the piper know I owed him nothing. The piper owed me plenty, though, and I intended to collect.”
Excerpt From: Samantha Hart. “Blind Pony.” iBooks.
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Samantha Hart
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The man had a routine and I was privy to nearly all of its time slots, including pre and post one-night stands. It made me sad for some reason, seeing him take no effort to find a woman who actually deserved him.
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Samantha Whiskey (Grinder (Seattle Sharks, #1))