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Hospital chaplaincies provide support to those in need. Sometimes that is all we provide; other times, we also spread the love of Jesus Christ. We are respectful to all cultures and religions and, if you can permit me to be so bold, I might suggest that respect is an area in which you are lacking.”
“Like butter?”
“What?”
“You said you spread Jesus’ love. When people say that, I think of them spreading Jesus’ love like they spread butter.”
“Lenni, it’s not butter —“
“Jam, then.”
“Jesus’ love is not jam.”
“Why not? He can be bread and grapes and a sheep and a lion and a ghost, but he can’t be jam?”
Derek inhaled loudly and then stood up from his place in the pew beside me, navigated past my empty wheelchair, and disappeared into the chaplaincy office. I interpreted this as his sign of surrender, but he reappeared moments later carrying a book.
“Here,” he said, passing it to me. The book is called ‘Questions About Jesus.’ On the front were three friends of different races all smiling around a copy of the Bible. “Obviously something about the church calls to you,” he said. “Why else would you keep coming back?” He gave me a shark smile. “I put it to you that the thing making you come back over and over isn’t that you like to challenge people, or your fondness for Father Arthur, but that you are searching for something to believe in.”
He stood up from his crouching position and I heard all the bones in his knees click. “And now,” he said, “I take my leave of this conversation.”
“Aren’t you going to give me any answers?”
“I’m going to make my scheduled visit to the Scovell Ward.”
“But you can’t leave. I have ‘Questions About Jesus!
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