Nova Quotes

CHORONZON: I am a dire wolf, prey-stalking, lethal prowler. MORPHEUS: I am a hunter, horse-mounted, wolf-stabbing. CHORONZON: I am a horsefly, horse-stinging, hunter-throwing. MORPHEUS: I am a spider, fly-consuming, eight legged. CHORONZON: I am a snake, spider-devouring, posion-toothed. MORPHEUS: I am an ox, snake-crushing, heavy-footed. CHORONZON: I am an anthrax, butcher bacterium, warm-life destroying. MORPHEUS: I am a world, space-floating, life-nurturing. CHORONZON: I am a nova, all-exploding... planet-cremating. MORPHEUS: I am the Universe -- all things encompassing, all life embracing. CHORONZON: I am Anti-Life, the Beast of Judgment. I am the dark at the end of everything. The end of universes, gods, worlds... of everything. Sss. And what will you be then, Dreamlord? MORPHEUS: I am hope.

Heroism wasn't about what you could do, it was about what you did. It was about who you saved when they needed saving.

The master said You must write what you see. But what I see does not move me. The master answered Change what you see.

You're like my favorite song, Nova. The one that I never want to forget. That I want to play over and over again.

Once we have total power, what's to keep us from becoming villains ourselves?

Your days of villainy are over, Nightmare.” She scoffed. “You sound like you've read too many comics.” “You sound like you think that's a bad thing,” he retorted.

There's no rule that says you have to be a prodigy to be a hero," she insisted. "If people wanted to stand up for themselves or protect their loved ones or do what they believe in their hearts is the right thing to do, then they would do it. If they wanted to be heroic, they would find ways to be heroic, even without supernatural powers.

Most people, in the end, really are all on their own.

I can't tell if that was arrogant,” Ruby muttered, “Or just... you know, honest.” “The two aren't mutually exclusive.

There are no unimportant jobs,” said Nova, leaning the mop against Snapshot’s desk, “only pretentious, small-minded individuals who seek to inflate their own importance by demoralizing everyone else.

But for some reason she had left off the metal mask, and though Adrian knew he shouldn't assign it any significance, he couldn't help it. Without the mask, he still didn't see her as Nightmare. He could only see Nova. Nova, who had betrayed him a hundred different ways. But still Nova.

No...?" Winston started... "Excuse me?" said Adrian, "No...no. Uh..." Winston glanced once, briefly, at Nova, then back at Adrian. "No... reen." He coughed. "Her name is Noreen.

You mean people don't like to see hypocrisy in their leadership? Shocking.

But sometimes stuff happens and we find ourselves lost, and suddenly we're standing in a place we don't recognize and can't remember walking-or falling-there, and we're unsure how to get back or if we even want to.

Our private tastes in books showed a hint of our secret selves.

I keep going back as if Im looking for something I have lost back to the motherland, sisterland, fatherland back to the beacon, the breast the smell and taste of the breeze, and the singing of the rain.

Ruby’s stories didn’t have morals. They meant one thing in the light and one thing in the dark and another thing entirely when she was wearing sunglasses.

Sometimes Nova felt like the Renegades of the past had more in common with the Anarchists than anyone dared to admit.

Nova studied the city beneath her. It WAS a good reminder of what she was fighting for. But Callum was wrong about one thing. Sometimes, things did have to be destroyed before something better could be built.

DETOX your mind, body, AND your contact list.

It amazed Nova that he could create something real and tangible out of nothing. He could go on like this forever, creating a dream within a dream within a dream.

Apparently, she already stabbed him once,” Jasper informed the Guardian. “In the heart.” Nova looked at me. “And she cut me earlier tonight. Threw a knife right at my face another time,” Casteel ticked off his fingers. “Then this one time, in the woods, she—” “No one wants to hear about how many times I’ve made you bleed,” I snapped. “I do,” Jasper remarked. Emil raised his hand. “So do I.

Never be discouraged. If I were sunk in the lowest pits of Nova Scotia, with the Rocky Mountains piled on me, I would hang on, exercise faith, and keep up good courage, and I would come out on top.

...Where does she get her supplies?" Winston held his gaze. Blinked. Licked his lips. Opened his mouth. Hesitated. Swallowed. Coughed. Finally responded, "The hardware store?" "The hardware store?" "Yes." Winston's head bobbed. "That's where she gets her stuff." "Is that code for something?" "No? Just the hardware store." ... "Any specific hardware store?" Asked Adrian. "Hmmm." Winston seemed to consider this. Then, "Nope. She likes them all.

Over thinking ruins moods and kills good vibes.

For the record, while it's very charming that you keep trying to protect me, I would like to remind you that I actually know how to defend myself." He grimaced. "I know. It's just... instinct." "Well, stop it." He held his hands up. "Won't happen again." He hesitated. I mean, unless I'm pretty sure you're about to die, then I'm absolutely going to rescue you, whether you like it or not.

There was something to be said for the bodiless feeling that came after the cold. Something I would always remember. When you forget how bad it hurts, you feel so free.

Connor; "Push me and you might just find yourself locked in the trunk of a car and on a ferry headed off to Nova Scotia. . .Again" he said Softly loving the way she practically shook with rage against him. "I knew that was you, you bastard" She snarled, looking torn between going for his nipples again or just out right killing him. "You deserved it", he felt obligated to remind her. She scoffed. "I was twelve!" "you super glued my shorts to my ass!" the smile that teased her lips transformed her face from beautiful to breathtakingly beautiful in a matter of seconds. . . She chuckled softly as she moved to put a little space between them. "I actually forgot about that".

na hora de pôr a mesa, éramos cinco: o meu pai, a minha mãe, as minhas irmãs e eu. depois, a minha irmã mais velha casou-se. depois, a minha irmã mais nova casou-se. depois, o meu pai morreu. hoje, na hora de pôr a mesa, somos cinco, menos a minha irmã mais velha que está na casa dela, menos a minha irmã mais nova que está na casa dela, menos o meu pai, menos a minha mãe viúva. cada um deles é um lugar vazio nesta mesa onde como sozinho. mas irão estar sempre aqui. na hora de pôr a mesa, seremos sempre cinco. enquanto um de nós estiver vivo, seremos sempre cinco

The worst disability in life is a bad attitude.

Life. We'd long known it was cruel.

We were alive. I remember it that way. We were still alive, and we couldn't see how close we were to the end.

In quella parte del libro de la mia memoria dinanzi a la quale poco si potrebbe leggere, si trova una rubrica la quale dice: INCIPIT VITA NOVA

This is how I know blood is meaningless family connections are a lot like old gum -you don't have to keep chewing. You can always spit it out and stick it under the table. You can walk away.

Nem sempre a família que nasce com a gente vai nos entender. Nem sempre eles vão ficar do nosso lado para sempre. Mas isso nunca vai te impedir de escolher uma família nova.

If I were in the deepest coalpit of Nova Scotia, and had the Rocky Mountains piled on top of me, I would not be discouraged, and I would come out on top!

Deus nos concede, a cada dia, uma página de vida nova no livro do tempo. Aquilo que colocarmos nela, corre por nossa conta.

I’m pretty certain my worthless heart shatters inside my chest, and she steals one of the pieces. If it didn’t already belong to someone else I probably would have handed her all the pieces right then and there.

What if there were health food stores on every corner in the hood, instead of liquor stores!?

I rolled my eyes. “Kit is looking for a job in Nova Scotia.” “Canada?” Despite everything, Hi chuckled. “Have a good time, eh? Don’t fight with any moose. Meese. Whatever.” “Shut up.” Against all expectation, I giggled. At least I had my friends.

We were gasoline rushing for a lit match. We bared our teeth. Balled fists.

Danna’s face crumpled apologetically. “I’m so sorry, Adrian, but … it’s her.” Her voice was barely a whisper. “Nova is Nightmare.

How people loved to see a dream shatter, thought Nova from far away. To see the dreamer hobbled and lamed, foundering in the shards of their broken hopes. This is what you get for believing that you could have more. You’re no better than us. You’re nothing special.

In a church of my own we're perfect together I recognize you in the stained glass

People say that time heals all wounds, and maybe they're right. But what if the wounds don't heal correctly, like when cuts leave behind nasty scars, or when broken bones mend together, but aren't as smooth anymore? Does it mean they're really healed? Or is it that the body did what it could to fix what broke...

Death. It's around more than people realize. Because no one wants to talk about it or hear about it. It's too sad. Too painful. Too hard. The list of reasons is endless.

Something I would always remember. When you forget how bad it hurts, you feel so free.

I was an echo of her.

The world doesn’t revolve around the Renegades!

The word is now a virus. The flu virus may have once been a healthy lung cell. It is now a parasitic organism that invades and damages the central nervous system. Modern man has lost the option of silence. Try halting sub-vocal speech. Try to achieve even ten seconds of inner silence. You will encounter a resisting organism that forces you to talk. That organism is the word.

então me vens e me chegas e me invades e me tomas e me pedes e me perdes e te derramas sobre mim com teus olhos sempre fugitivos e abres a boca para libertar novas histórias e outra vez me completo assim, sem urgências, e me concentro inteiro nas coisas que me contas, e assim calado, e assim submisso, te mastigo dentro de mim enquanto me apunhalas com lenta delicadeza deixando claro em cada promessa que jamais será cumprida, que nada devo esperar além dessa máscara colorida, que me queres assim porque é assim que és... À beira do mar aberto

Nova started. “Your mom?” Adrian gave her a look, at first surprised, then amused. Leaning toward her, he fake-whispered, “I’m not actually related to the Captain and the Dread Warden, you know.

Evening. The dead sheathed in the earth's crust and turning the slow diurnal of the earth's wheel, at peace with eclipse, asteroid, the dusty novae, their bones brindled with mold and the celled marrow going to frail stone, turning, their fingers laced with root, at one with Tut and Agamemnon, with the seed and the unborn.

What came to mind was a dinosaur. A tiny velociraptor, no bigger than her thumb. Relatively small, bur surprisingly ferocious. When the hasty drawing was finished, he looked into Nova's face, but she was staring at the creature inked onto her palm. "He's adorable," she murmured. He swallowed. "Here we go," he said swirling the pad of his finger over the drawing. The creature roared to life...

How do you get through to someone who doesn’t want you to get to them? How do you save someone who doesn’t want to be saved?

As coisas feias são tão próprias do mundo como as bonitas. Tu és muito nova, menina, e, no colégio, não fazem outra coisa senão tapar-te os olhos- o que é um engano, menina. Conhecer o mal é já uma defesa. Onde não há inocência, pode haver pecado; mas onde não há sabedoria, há sempre desgraça.

Esperaram pelo sono para se mudarem para o dia seguinte. Havia sempre esperança na travessia nocturna. Cada deus revia a criação no quieto da noite. Acender os dias era sempre a possibilidade de uma nova criação. Era importante dormir com esperança.

Stuff happens. We get lost. We try to control what will happen. We give up. We do things that don’t make sense. We search for things in the wrongest of ways. We lose our way, but sometimes, if we’re really, really strong, we manage to find our way back.

He crossed his arms stiffly over his chest. "Oh yeah," he said, with a pleased nod. "Bad cop is ready." -Oscar

...I sat there in the boat under her stars and her moon gated on all sides by the mountains watching the last bits of her breath float up and away.

And what I was feeling was the wonder Of being more than me, of being more Than mere here and now allowed I had become a shining star, a burning nova Exploded with love Flying through an endlessly Expanding universe Away from the me that was Toward a me that is beyond Understanding.

You let me be who I am. So many people ask me why I need to take pictures all the time. Why I'm staring at something they can't see. It's like I have to apologize for having eyes. But you've never rushed me. I'm at my best around you. You're my nova. You light me up.

They won’t tell you fairy tales of how girls can be dangerous and still win. They will only tell you stories where girls are sweet and kind and reject all sin. I guess to them it’s a terrifying thought, a red riding hood who knew exactly what she was doing when she invited the wild in. ~ Nikita Gill ~

The music never leaves. Once you have it, you can't lose it.

Ni za jednu životnu stazu ne postoji vodič, svaka je neispitana, neponovljiva, zato je u životu avantura pravilo, a ne izuzetak, jer je putovanje kroz neispitane predjele, koje niko poslije nas ne može ponoviti, sve se staze potiru, uvijek nanovo se stvara nova konfiguracija, uvijek se ukazuje drugi pejzaž, druga klima, za svakog posebno. Zato moram da budem svoj vlastiti vodič, prvi i posljednji putnik na putu kojim samo ja mogu proći. Lako ću pregaziti opasne bujice ne gazeći ni do članaka, ili ću se udaviti u smiješnom potočiću, kao niko. Ali ne mogu da čekam, ne mogu da stojim, i sve ću vidjeti tek kad se desi.

In reality I was a pencil drawing of a photocopy of a Polaroid of my sister- you could see the resemblance in a certain light if you were seeking it out because I told you first if you were being nice.

Life’s too short to constantly be worrying about everything that could go wrong.

This is called closure, and it’s also called justice, and they are not always the same thing.

What the people needed was to learn to take care of themselves, but that would never happen so long as superheroes were running things.

Sometimes the weak must be sacrificed so that the strong may flourish.

You can be bored with anything if you try hard enough.

You saved me, you should remember me.

When you forget how bad it hurts, you feel so free.

Home is where the heart is, and where the hell is, and where the hate is, and where the hopelessness is. Which made Aurora Hills pretty much like home.

Sometimes it could be the smallest thing that could topple over a whole life, and, in the end, destroy it.

Why do I always have so many fucking questions in my head?

First," said Adrian, "you missed a sprinkle." He reached out and brushed a thumb across the corner of Nova's mouth. She froze, the touch sending a quiver through her insides. When he pulled back, a small orange sprinkle was resting on the pad of his thumb, which he popped into his mouth, eyes teasing. "Second, you're absolutely right.

Everyone wants to be a hero. When you think about it, it’s a little sad that so few actually get to be one.” Nova couldn’t contain a derisive sniff. “It would be sad, except they don’t actually mean it.” Adrian cocked his head at her. “What do you mean?” “There’s no rule that says you have to be a prodigy to be a hero,” she insisted. “If people wanted to stand up for themselves or protect their loved ones or do what they believe in their hearts is the right thing to do, then they would do it. If they wanted to be heroic, they would find ways to be heroic, even without supernatural powers.” She waggled her fingers in mockery of said powers. “It’s easy to say you want to be a hero, but the truth is most people are lazy and complacent. They have the Renegades to do all the rescuing and saving, so why should they bother? It’s easier to just call the hotline, then turn the other way and pretend it’s not your problem to solve.

Perception of a state is not the state.

Gag. Ew. Bleh.

Above us, stars. Beneath us, constellations. Five billion miles away, a galaxy dies like a snowflake falling on water. Below us, some farmer, feeling the chill of that distant death, snaps on his yard light, drawing his sheds and barn back into the little system of his care. All night, the cities, like shimmering novas, tug with bright streets at lonely lights like his.

Teenage girls know more than we're given credit for. We sense danger even when everyone's telling us it's fine, he's a perfectly nice man, an upstanding member of our community, have you tasted his sugar-cream pie?

She gathers my half of the blankets around her and curls up against the wall. She will sleep for hours more, dreaming endless landscapes and novas of colour both gorgeous and frightening. If I stayed she would wake up and describe them to me. All the mad plot twists and surrealist imagery, so vivid to her while so meaningless to me. There was a time when I treasured listening to her, when I found the commotion in her soul bitter-sweet and lovely, but I can no longer bear it.

Don't let sickness, depression, and disease THUG YOU OUT. Eat healthier, think healthier, speak healthier, and more positively over your life. When you do so, you will soon begin to conquer your life and your health through new found empowerment- mind, body, and spirit.

Your body is a Temple. You are what you eat. Do not eat processed food, junk foods, filth, or disease carrying food, animals, or rodents. Some people say of these foods, 'well, it tastes good'. Most of the foods today that statically cause sickness, cancer, and disease ALL TATSE GOOD; it's well seasoned and prepared poison. THIS IS WHY SO MANY PEOPLE ARE SICK; mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually; because of being hooked to the 'taste' of poison, instead of being hooked on the truth and to real foods that heal and provide you with good health and wellness. Respect and honor your Temple- and it will honor you.

How are things going with you and Nova?" said Hugh. Adrian gawked at him, and, for the first time, began to regret coming up here. He should have just gone ahead and done the painting. It's not like they ever went down there. He probably would have grown up and moved out before they discovered it. But no---he was trying to be responsible, and this is what he got. "What do you mean?" "Are you two...dating?" When Adrian returned his question with a somewhat horrified stare, Hugh raised his palms. "We are allowed to ask that, aren't we?

Home. Home was BAMA, the Sprawl, the Boston-Atlanta Metropolitan Axis. Program a map to display frequency of data exchange, every thousand megabytes a single pixel on a very large screen. Manhattan and Atlanta burn solid white. Then they start to pulse, the rate of traffic threatening to overload your simulation. Your map is about to go nova. Cool it down. Up your scale. Each pixel a million megabytes. At a hundred million megabytes per second, you begin to make out certain blocks in midtown Manhattan, outlines of hundred-year-old industrial parks ringing the old core of Atlanta...

The 'Other Half' is the word. The 'Other Half' is an organism. Word is an organism. The presence of the 'Other Half' is a separate organism attached to your nervous system on an air line of words can now be demonstrated experimentally. One of the most common 'hallucinations' of subject during sense withdrawal is the feeling of another body sprawled through the subject's body at an angle...yes quite an angle it is the 'Other Half' worked quite some years on a symbiotic basis. From symbiosis to parasitism is a short step. The word is now a virus. The flu virus may have once been a healthy lung cell. It is now a parasitic organism that invades and damages the central nervous system. Modern man has lost the option of silence. Try halting sub-vocal speech. Try to achieve even ten seconds of inner silence. You will encounter a resisting organism that forces you to talk. That organism is the word.

In the feudal fiefdom of school, rank was determined early. You could change your hair and clothes. You could, having learned your lesson, not write a paper on Julius Caesar entirely in iambic pentameter or you could not tell anyone if you did. You could switch to contact lenses, compensate for your braininess by not doing your homework. Every boy in school could grow twelve inches. The sun could go fucking nova. And you'd still be the same grotesque you'd always been.

PLANETARIUM Thinking of Caroline Herschel (1750–1848) astronomer, sister of William; and others. A woman in the shape of a monster a monster in the shape of a woman the skies are full of them a woman ‘in the snow among the Clocks and instruments or measuring the ground with poles’ in her 98 years to discover 8 comets she whom the moon ruled like us levitating into the night sky riding the polished lenses Galaxies of women, there doing penance for impetuousness ribs chilled in those spaces of the mind An eye, ‘virile, precise and absolutely certain’ from the mad webs of Uranusborg encountering the NOVA every impulse of light exploding from the core as life flies out of us Tycho whispering at last ‘Let me not seem to have lived in vain’ What we see, we see and seeing is changing the light that shrivels a mountain and leaves a man alive Heartbeat of the pulsar heart sweating through my body The radio impulse pouring in from Taurus I am bombarded yet I stand I have been standing all my life in the direct path of a battery of signals the most accurately transmitted most untranslatable language in the universe I am a galactic cloud so deep so invo- luted that a light wave could take 15 years to travel through me And has taken I am an instrument in the shape of a woman trying to translate pulsations into images for the relief of the body and the reconstruction of the mind.

I think it’s tragic. For someone to be given these incredible abilities, only to have them stripped away? It’s so wasteful. To know what this world could look like, what humanity could be, if only we all chose to do our best, to help others, to … to be, well, heroes. I don’t like to think of that chance being taken away from someone before they’ve lived up to their potential.” “Right,” said Nova. “Except, having superpowers doesn’t automatically turn you into some selfless hero. People are greedy and cruel, and … for some, having superpowers just makes them even more greedy and cruel.

Tell me something. Do you believe in God?' Snow darted an apprehensive glance in my direction. 'What? Who still believes nowadays?' 'It isn't that simple. I don't mean the traditional God of Earth religion. I'm no expert in the history of religions, and perhaps this is nothing new--do you happen to know if there was ever a belief in an...imperfect God?' 'What do you mean by imperfect?' Snow frowned. 'In a way all the gods of the old religions were imperfect, considered that their attributes were amplified human ones. The God of the Old Testament, for instance, required humble submission and sacrifices, and and was jealous of other gods. The Greek gods had fits of sulks and family quarrels, and they were just as imperfect as mortals...' 'No,' I interrupted. 'I'm not thinking of a god whose imperfection arises out of the candor of his human creators, but one whose imperfection represents his essential characteristic: a god limited in his omniscience and power, fallible, incapable of foreseeing the consequences of his acts, and creating things that lead to horror. He is a...sick god, whose ambitions exceed his powers and who does not realize it at first. A god who has created clocks, but not the time they measure. He has created systems or mechanisms that serves specific ends but have now overstepped and betrayed them. And he has created eternity, which was to have measured his power, and which measures his unending defeat.' Snow hesitated, but his attitude no longer showed any of the wary reserve of recent weeks: 'There was Manicheanism...' 'Nothing at all to do with the principles of Good and Evil,' I broke in immediately. 'This god has no existence outside of matter. He would like to free himself from matter, but he cannot...' Snow pondered for a while: 'I don't know of any religion that answers your description. That kind of religion has never been...necessary. If i understand you, and I'm afraid I do, what you have in mind is an evolving god, who develops in the course of time, grows, and keeps increasing in power while remaining aware of his powerlessness. For your god, the divine condition is a situation without a goal. And understanding that, he despairs. But isn't this despairing god of yours mankind, Kelvin? Is it man you are talking about, and that is a fallacy, not just philosophically but also mystically speaking.' I kept on: 'No, it's nothing to do with man. man may correspond to my provisional definition from some point of view, but that is because the definition has a lot of gaps. Man does not create gods, in spite of appearances. The times, the age, impose them on him. Man can serve is age or rebel against it, but the target of his cooperation or rebellion comes to him from outside. If there was only a since human being in existence, he would apparently be able to attempt the experiment of creating his own goals in complete freedom--apparently, because a man not brought up among other human beings cannot become a man. And the being--the being I have in mind--cannot exist in the plural, you see? ...Perhaps he has already been born somewhere, in some corner of the galaxy, and soon he will have some childish enthusiasm that will set him putting out one star and lighting another. We will notice him after a while...' 'We already have,' Snow said sarcastically. 'Novas and supernovas. According to you they are candles on his altar.' 'If you're going to take what I say literally...' ...Snow asked abruptly: 'What gave you this idea of an imperfect god?' 'I don't know. It seems quite feasible to me. That is the only god I could imagine believing in, a god whose passion is not a redemption, who saves nothing, fulfills no purpose--a god who simply is.

Sometimes I wonder if there are some memories the mind doesn’t want to deal with and that if it really wants to, it can block out the images, shut down, numb the pain connected to what we saw—what we didn’t want to see. If we allow it to, the numbness can drown out everything, even the spark of life inside us. And eventually the person we once were is nothing but a vanishing memory.

Adrian briefly closed his eyes. "It's alright, Winston. We're just trying-" "No, it's not all right," said Oscar, slamming his fist on the table. "It's obvious you know something, and we're not leaving this room until you tell us what it is!" Winston frowned. "They said we only had fifteen minutes." "That-" started Oscar, holding up a finger. Then he deflated, clearing his throat. "- was actually true...

Nunca consegui perceber as pessoas que gostam de tudo: na minha cabeça, gostar de tudo é não gostar verdadeiramente de nada. Só quem gosta muito de alguma coisa, por exemplo, de bolo de chocolate, sabe que vale a pena deixar outros bolos de lado. Quem gosta genuinamente de bolo de chocolate sabe que esse bolo, por ser melhor, tem a capacidade de anular os outros - não vale a pena usar as papilas gustativas com bolos assim-assim, quando já se provou o melhor.

The wheels of the cars stormed underneath. Woods and pastures ran up and receded, the rails of sidings sheathed in rust, the dipping racing wires, and on the right the blue of the Sound, deeper, stronger than before. Then the enameled shells of the commuters' cars, and the heaped bodies of junk cars, the shapes of old New England mills, with narrow, austere windows; villages, convents; tugboats moving in the swelling fabric-like water; and then plantations of pine, the needles on the ground of a life-giving russet color. So, thought Herzog, acknowledging that his imagination of the universe was elementary, the novae bursting and the worlds coming into being, the invisible magnetic spokes by means of which bodies kept one another in orbit. Astronomers made it all sound as though the gases were shaken up inside a flask. Then after many billions of years, light-years, this childlike but far from innocent creature, a straw hat on his head, and a heart in his breast, part pure, part wicked, who would try to form his own shaky picture of this magnificent web.

Retórica dos namorados, dá-me uma comparação exata e poética para dizer o que foram aqueles olhos de Capitu. Não me acode imagem capaz de dizer, sem quebra da dignidade do estilo, o que eles foram e me fizeram. Olhos de ressaca? Vá, de ressaca. É o que me dá ideia daquela feição nova. Traziam não sei que fluido misterioso e enérgico, uma força que arrastava para dentro, como a vaga que se retira da praia, nos dias de ressaca. Para não ser arrastado, agarrei-me às outras partes vizinhas, às orelhas, aos braços, aos cabelos espalhados pelos ombros, mas tão depressa buscava as pupilas, a onda que saía delas vinha crescendo, cava e escura, ameaçando envolver-me, puxar-me e tragar-me. Quantos minutos gastamos naquele jogo? Só os relógios do céu terão marcado esse tempo infinito e breve. A eternidade tem as suas pêndulas; nem por não acabar nunca deixa de querer saber a duração das felicidades e dos suplícios. Há de dobrar o gozo aos bem-aventurados do céu conhecer a soma dos tormentos que já terão padecido no inferno os seus inimigos; assim também a quantidade das delícias que terão gozado no céu os seus desafetos aumentará as dores aos condenados do inferno. Este outro suplício escapou ao divino Dante; mas eu não estou aqui para emendar poetas. Estou para contar que, ao cabo de um tempo não marcado, agarrei-me definitivamente aos cabelos de Capitou, mas então com as mãos, e disse-lhe, – para dizer alguma cousa, – que era capaz de os pentear, se quisesse. – Você? – Eu mesmo. – Vai embaraçar-me o cabelo todo, isso sim. – Se embaraçar, você desembaraça depois. – Vamos ver.

Sabes qual é o erro que cometemos sempre? Acreditar que a vida é imutável, que, mal escolhemos um carril, temos de o seguir até ao fim. Contudo, o destino tem muito mais imaginação do que nós... Precisamente quando se pensa que se está num beco sem saída, quando se atinge o cúmulo do desespero, com a velocidade de uma rajada de vento tudo muda, tudo se transforma, e de um momento para o outro damos por nós a viver uma nova vida. […] Se, esteja onde estiver, arranjar maneira de te ver, só ficarei triste, como fico triste sempre que vejo uma vida desperdiçada, uma vida em que o caminho do amor não conseguiu cumprir-se. Tem cuidado contigo. Sempre que à medida que fores crescendo, tiveres vontade de converter as coisas erradas em certas, lembra-te que a primeira revolução a fazer é dentro de nós próprios, a primeira e a mais importante. Lutar por uma ideia sem se ter uma ideia de si próprio é uma das coisas mais perigosas que se pode fazer. Quando te sentires perdida, confusa, pensa nas árvores, lembra-te da forma como crescem. Lembra-te que uma árvore com muita ramagem e poucas raízes é derrubada à primeira rajada de vento, e que a linfa custa a correr numa árvore com muitas raízes e pouca ramagem. As raízes e os ramos devem crescer de igual modo, deves estar nas coisas e estar sobre as coisas, só assim poderás dar sombra e abrigo, só assim, na estação apropriada, poderás cobrir-te de flores e de frutos. E quando à tua frente se abrirem muitas estradas e não souberes a que hás-de escolher, não metas por uma ao acaso, senta-te e espera. Respira com a mesma profundidade confiante com que respiraste no dia em que vieste ao mundo, e sem deixares que nada te distraia, espera e volta a esperar. Fica quieta, em silêncio, e ouve o teu coração. Quando ele te falar, levanta-te, e vai onde ele te levar.

Jebi se, Nina. Jebi se ti i tvoje zelene oči i tvoj Beograd i sve u što se mogu zaljubiti. Neka se jebu tvoje ruke i trbuh i kosa. Jebo te tvoj fakultet. Samo 30 slova, a tolike knjige. Jebo nas oboje smisao za kombiniranje. Jebala te košava i ekipa iz kraja koja misli da je uhvatila boga za muda, a nikad nije bila ni do Pančeva. Jebo te tvoj dečko, vjerojatno neki hipster koji misli da je maslačak najbolja salata na svijetu i obožava prirodu. Jebalo te svako slovo koje si napisala. Bilo bi pošteno da boli. Jebo te ormar u koji se sakrivaš kako bismo razgovarali. Jebo te tvoj mazni glas. Jebala te nova godina na vikendici. Jebo te način na koji se krećeš između kafanskih stolova. Jebalo te izluđivanje koje to izaziva. Jebala te zahvalnost koju nikad nećeš iskazati jer nemaš petlje da potpuno poludiš. Pravi, jebi se, salatu od maslačka na vikendici. Jebo te tvoj broj telefona. Jebalo mene što pomislim da je ključ od raja. Jebale te tvoje poruke koje zvuče kao dahtanje pod prstima. Jebali te ranojutarnji razgovori s muškarcima koje ne poznaješ. Jebo želju da budemo sretni. Jebo nesposobnost i kukavičluk da to pokušamo. Jebo opet novu godinu. Jebem svaku misao o tebi i to što znam nešto o rasparenim čarapama u kojima stojiš dok režeš meso za večeru. Jebi se, Nina, jer nikad se nećemo voljeti dok nas ne zaboli. Jebale te električne instalacije u tvom stanu i prošli životi koji nas plaše. Jebo Lisabon, treba ga bombardirati da vidimo hoće li tada biti romantičan. Jebeš mene, jer mogu biti lud toliko da mi nedostaješ, a da te nikad nisam dodirnuo, da čak ne znam ni kako izgledaš na dnevnoj svjetlosti. I jebeš dnevnu svjetlost. Tad su ljudi budni a ja želim da nema nikoga. Jebeš i to što ipak želim da si ti ovdje. Jebeš to što si moguća iznimka. I, opet, jebeš mene jer mogu vjerovati u sve to.

Ali od sveg njegovog lika, vidljivog i nevidljivog, samo sam ociju bila svjesna, sivih, velikih, upornih, nepomicnih. Te oci... o, Boze, kakve oci! Oci koje osvoje i ne pustaju... Koje zovu. Mame i oduzimaju um. Oci kojim ne treba rijec. Ledene, s dubokim crnim zjenicama u kojim kao da su bili hipnoticki virovi i kao da ih je okruzivala tanka nit od zlata koja se spustala u spirali sve do u dubinu njegove duse. A kad me njegov pogled dotaknuo, ta nit se pruzala preko prostora i sputala me. Osjecala sam da ne zelim da me pusti ikad vise. Stajala sam nepomicna i sledena nasred puste ulice. On, tamo u uglu, zasjenjenog lica, leda okrenutih svjetlosti, nije davao znak zivota od sebe. Kao da je lutka koju je netko za salu ostavio da stoji na uglu. Samo njegove oci su bile zive. I od tog sjaja ili mozda zracenja, koje sam mogla osjetiti kako jaca, nesto se oslobodi u meni, panicno se trgne kao da u ljudskoj utrobi postoji kakav mjerni uredaj koji vristi kad se sretne s necime sto dise drugim zivotom. Nova zapazanja, ponovno izdvojena iz konteksta. Kosa mu je bila boje staroga zlata i padala je do ramena i mutna je svjetlost cinila da ta boja postane tamnija i toplija. A lice, koje nije bilo blijedo vec bijelo, bijelo poput papira ili zida iza njega, sjalo je na nacin na koji ljudsko lice nebi smjelo sjati. I bila sam svjesna toga da zaboravljam crte njegovog lica svakoga trenutka i svakoga ga trenutka ponovno upoznajem, uvijek s onim istim odusevljenjem i s mislju: Zaista, to je najljepse lice koje sam ikad vidjela. I bila sam svjesna toga da je ostatak njegovog tijela sjena i da uopce nije vazno tko je on i sto je on, da je vazno samo to da je on sad tu i da sam ja tu i onda bi se to ponavljalo, ta ideja u mojoj glavi, kako je to u redu, kako je to upravo ono kako bi trebalo biti i da nema razloga za strah, jer on je tu i ja sam tu i to je upravo kako treba biti... u beskonacnost, stvarajuci blagu vrtoglavicu i osamucenost.