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If we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything is ready, we shall never begin.
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Ivan Turgenev
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We sit in the mud, my friend, and reach for the stars.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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The belly is an ungrateful wretch, it never remembers past favors, it always wants more tomorrow.
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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I am a rare species, not a stereotype.
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Ivan E. Coyote
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Can it be that I have not lived as one ought?" suddenly came into his head. "But how not so, when I've done everything as it should be done?
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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When you're cold, don't expect sympathy from someone who's warm.
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in Life of Ivan Denisovich (SparkNotes Literature Guide))
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Ivan Ilych's life had been most simple and most ordinary and therefore most terrible.
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilyich and Other Stories)
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Nothing is worse and more hurtful than a happiness that comes too late. It can give no pleasure, yet it deprives you of that most precious of rights - the right to swear and curse at your fate!
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Ivan Turgenev (Rudin)
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That's a good fellow,' Sturmhond said to Ivan. 'Now, I'll take the prisoner back to her quarters, and you can run off and do . . . whatever it is you do when everyone else is working.'
Ivan scowled. 'I don't thinkβ'
'Clearly. Why start now?
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Leigh Bardugo (Siege and Storm (The Shadow and Bone Trilogy, #2))
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Your relationship may be "Breaking Up," but you won't be "Breaking Down." If anything your correcting a mistake that was hurting four people, you and the person your with, not to mention the two people who you were destined to meet.
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D. Ivan Young (Break Up, Don't Break Down)
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Can a man who's warm understand one who's freezing?
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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School is the advertising agency which makes you believe that you need the society as it is.
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Ivan Illich
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Memories are precious ... they help tell us who we are.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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I like colorful tales with black beginnings and stormy middles and cloudless blue-sky endings. But any story will do.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
β
As we all know, time sometimes flies like a bird, and sometimes
crawls like a worm, but people may be unusually happy when they do not
even notice whether time has passed quickly or slowly
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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He sought his former accustomed fear of death and did not find it. "Where is it? What death?" There was no fear because there was no death.
In place of death there was light.
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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When you don't know what you're living for, you don't care how you live from one day to the next. You're happy the day has passed and the night has come, and in your sleep you bury the tedious question of what you lived for that day and what you're going to live for tomorrow.
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Ivan Goncharov (Oblomov)
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So many memories and so little worth remembering, and in front of me β a long, long road without a goal...
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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I was afraid of looking into my heart...afraid of thinking seriously about anything...I did not want to know whether I was loved, and I did not want to admit to myself that I was not loved...
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Ivan Turgenev
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Humans waste words. They toss them like banana peels and leave them to rot. Everyone knows the peels are the best part.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
β
Morning or night, Friday or Sunday, made no difference, everything was the same: the gnawing, excruciating, incessant pain; that awareness of life irrevocably passing but not yet gone; that dreadful, loathsome death, the only reality, relentlessly closing in on him; and that same endless lie. What did days, weeks, or hours matter?
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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I don't see why it's impossible to express everything that's on one's mind.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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the very fact of the death of someone close to them aroused in all who heard about it, as always, a feeling of delight that he had died and they hadn't.
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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I look up to heaven only when I want to sneeze.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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You should rejoice that you're in prison. Here you have time to think about your soul.
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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Ivan had contrived somehow in the dark of night to replace every watermelon in the watermelon patch with a gravestone, and every gravestone in the engraver's lot with a watermelon
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Kristin Cashore (Bitterblue (Graceling Realm, #3))
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β¦Many things interested her, and nothing satisfied her entirely.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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When I say forever,' Koschei whispered, 'I mean until the black death of the world. An Ivan means just the present moment, the flickering light of it, in a green field, his mouth on yours. He means the stretching of that moment. But forever isn't bright; it isn't like that. Forever is cold and hard and final.
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Catherynne M. Valente (Deathless)
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School has become the world religion of a modernized proletariat, and makes futile promises of salvation to the poor of the technological age.
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Ivan Illich (Deschooling Society)
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Whereas I think: Iβm lying here in a haystack... The tiny space I occupy is so infinitesimal in comparison with the rest of space, which I donβt occupy and which has no relation to me. And the period of time in which Iβm fated to live is so insignificant beside the eternity in which I havenβt existed and wonβt exist... And yet in this atom, this mathematical point, blood is circulating, a brain is working, desiring something... What chaos! What a farce!
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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Childhood is the one story that stands by itself in every soul.
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Ivan Doig (The Whistling Season (Morrie Morgan #1, Two Medicine Country #7))
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Most learning is not the result of instruction. It is rather the result of unhampered participation in a meaningful setting. Most people learn best by being "with it," yet school makes them identify their personal, cognitive growth with elaborate planning and manipulation.
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Ivan Illich (Deschooling Society)
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Between love and the automatic garbage chute, young people everywhere have made their choice and prefer the garbage chute. [Entre l'amour et le vide-ordure automatique la jeunesse de tous les pays a fait son choix et préfère le vide-ordure.]
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Ivan Chtcheglov
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They think I'm too old to cause trouble.
Old age is a powerful disguise.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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A withered maple leaf has left its branch and is falling to the ground; its movements resemble those of a butterfly in flight. Isn't it strange? The saddest and deadest of things is yet so like the gayest and most vital of creatures?
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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Death is finished, he said to himself. It is no more!
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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In our village, folks say God crumbles up the old moon into stars.
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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Nature cares nothing for logic, our human logic: she has her own, which we do not recognize and do not acknowledge until we are crushed under its wheel.
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Ivan Turgenev
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False. Everything by which you have lived and live now is all a deception, a lie, concealing both life and death from you.
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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The example of a syllogism that he had studied in Kiesewetter's logic: Caius is a man, men are mortal, therefore Caius is mortal, had throughout his whole life seemed to him right only in relation to Caius, but not to him at all.
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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Beat a dog once and you only have to show him the whip.
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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Homework, I have discovered, involves a sharp pencil and thick books and long sighs.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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It's all romanticism, nonsense, rottenness, art.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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And he has to live like this on the edge of destruction, alone, with nobody at all to understand or pity him
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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I burnt as in a fire in her presence ... but what did I care to know what the fire was in which I burned and melted--it was enough that it was sweet to burn and melt.
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Ivan Turgenev (First Love)
β
You asked about the Avengers. Yβwanna know the best part about being an Avenger? Having Captain America around you all the time. He justβthe guy just brings out the absolute best in people. You want to be good when heβs around. You really do.
Ivan, look around you real quick. Because right now? Captain America ainβt here.
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Matt Fraction (Hawkeye #1)
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A genius doesn't adjust his treatment of a theme to a tyrant's taste
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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It's hard to put into words. Gorillas are not complainers. We're dreamers, poets, philosophers, nap takers.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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Take for yourself what you can, and don't be ruled by others; to belong to oneself - the whole savour of life lies in that.
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Ivan Turgenev (Spring Torrents)
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A good zoo," Stella said, "is a large domain. A wild cage. A safe place to be. It has room to roam and humans who don't hurt." She pauses, considering her words. "A good zoo is how humans make amends.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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A poet must be a psychologist, but a secret one: he should know and feel the roots of phenomena but present only the phenomena themselves in full bloom or as they fade away.
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Ivan Turgenev
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To destroy is easier than to create, and that is why so many people are ready to demonstrate against what they reject. But what would they say if one asked them what they wanted instead?
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Ivan KlΓma (Love and Garbage)
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Humans. Sometimes they make chimps look smart.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
β
I think everyone must love life more than anything else in the world.'
'Love life more than the meaning of it?'
'Yes, certainly. Love it regardless of logic, as you say. Yes, most certainly regardless of logic, for only then will I grasp its meaning. That's what I've been vaguely aware of for a long time. Half your work is done, Ivan: you love life. Now you must try to do the second half and you are saved.
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Fyodor Dostoevsky (The Brothers Karamazov)
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It was only the vulgarly mediocre that repelled her.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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I always tell the truth, Stella replies. Although I sometimes confuse the facts.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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Death's an old story, but new for each person.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Children: Introduction by John Bayley)
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A close, daily intimacy between two people has to be paid for: it requires a great deal of experience of life, logic, and warmth of heart on both sides to enjoy each otherβs good qualities without being irritated by each otherβs shortcomings and blaming each other for them.
β
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Ivan Goncharov (Oblomov)
β
I don't think-"
"Clearly. Why start now?
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Leigh Bardugo (Siege and Storm (The Shadow and Bone Trilogy, #2))
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I'm incapable of describing the feeling with which I left. I wouldn't want it ever to be repeated, but I would have considered myself unfortunate if I'd never experienced it.
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Ivan Turgenev
β
Always the same. Now a spark of hope flashes up, then a sea of despair rages, and always pain; always pain, always despair, and always the same. When alone he had a dreadful and distressing desire to call someone, but he knew beforehand that with others present it would be still worse.
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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Behind me there are already so many memories (...) Lots of memories, but no point in remembering them, and ahead of me a long, long road with nothing to aim for ... I just don't want to go along it.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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My son,' he wrote to me, 'fear the love of woman; fear that bliss, that poison....
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Ivan Turgenev (First Love)
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Miles exhaled carefully, faint with rage and reminded grief. He does not know, he told himself. He cannot know... "Ivan, one of these days somebody is going to pull out a weapon and plug you, and you're going to die in bewilderment, crying, "What did I say? What did I say?"
"What did I say?" asked Ivan indignantly.
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Lois McMaster Bujold (The Warrior's Apprentice (Vorkosigan Saga, #2))
β
There is a sweetness in being the sole source, the autocratic
and irresponsible cause of the greatest joy and profoundest pain to another.
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Ivan Turgenev (First Love)
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Your beauty took my breath away, but your mind has stopped my heart.
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Ivan Rusilko (Appetizers (The Winemaker's Dinner, #1))
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Her eyes hold the pale moon in them, the way a still pond holds stars.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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It can't be that life is so senseless and horrible. But if it really has been so horrible and senseless, why must I die and die in agony? There is something wrong!
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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Though I do not believe in the order of things, still the sticky little leaves that come out in the spring are dear to me, the blue sky is dear to me, some people are dear to me, whom one loves sometimes, would you believe it, without even knowing why; some human deeds are dear to me, which one has perhaps long ceased believing in, but still honors with one's heart, out of old habit..."
--Ivan Karamazov
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Fyodor Dostoevsky
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Is there anything sweeter than the touch of another as she pulls a dead bug from your fur?
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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Work was like a stick. It had two ends. When you worked for the knowing you gave them quality; when you worked for a fool you simply gave him eyewash.
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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Right now I would give all the yogurt raisins in all the world for a heart made of ice.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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Every man hangs by a thread, any minute the abyss may open under his feet, and yet he must go and invent for himself all kinds of troubles and spoil his life.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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How can you expect a man who's warm to understand a man who's cold?
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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a person who gets angry at his own illness is sure to overcome it
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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Memories are the height of poetry only when they are memories of happiness. When they graze wounds over which scars have formed they become an aching pain.
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Ivan Goncharov (Oblomov)
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Human can surprise you sometimes. An unpredictable species, Homo sapiens
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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The names are mine, but they're not me.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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With enough time, you can get used to almost anything.
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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There is something in us that keeps us where we find ourselves. I think this is the most awful thing of all.
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P.D. Ouspensky (Strange Life of Ivan Osokin)
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The fact is that previously they were simply dunces and now they've suddenly become nihilists.
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Ivan Turgenev (Fathers and Sons)
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For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it
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Ivan Panin
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Do not become a mere recorder of facts, but try and penetrate the mystery of their origin.
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Ivan Pavlov
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There is something spiteful and yet open-hearted about you
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Fyodor Dostoevsky (The Brothers Karamazov)
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Man must choose whether to be rich in things or in the freedom to use them.
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Ivan Illich
β
it's never to late to be what you might have been
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Katherine Applegate (The One and Only Ivan (The One and Only #1))
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How often in life he has found himself a frustrated observer of apparently impenetrable systems, watching other people participate effortlessly in structures he can find no way to enter or even understand. So often that itβs practically baseline, just normal existence for him. And this is not only due to the irrational nature of other people, and the consequent irrationality of the rules and processes they devise; itβs due to Ivan himself, his fundamental unsuitedness to life. He knows this. He feels himself to have been formed, somehow, with something other than life in mind.
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Sally Rooney (Intermezzo)
β
She stood with her perfect profile turned to the glittering night sky, her hood sliding back. Snow was beginning to fall, and it caught in the dark waves of her hair. βI plant something new for every Grisha lost. Heartleaf for Marie. Yew for Sergei. Red Sentinel for Fedyor. Even Ivan has a place.β She touched her fingers to a frozen stalk. βThis will blossom bright orange in the summer. I planted it for Harshaw. These dahlias were for Nina when I thought sheβd been captured and killed by Fjerdans. They bloom with the most ridiculous red flowers in the summer. Theyβre the size of dinner plates.β Now she turned and he could see tears on her cheeks. She lifted her hands, the gesture half-pleading, half-lost. βIβm running out of room.
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Leigh Bardugo (Rule of Wolves (King of Scars, #2))
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I love you so much I spend all day with you, and it still isnβt enough for me,β he kept going.
I stopped breathing.
βI love you so much, if I canβt skate with you, I donβt want to skate with anyone else.β
Holy. Fuck.
βI love you so fucking much, Jasmine, that if I broke my ankle during a program, I would get up and finish it for you, to get you what youβve always wanted.β
It was love. All I could feel was love.
I was going to cry. I was going to fucking cry. Right. Then.
βYou mean so much to me that thatβs why whatever happens doesnβt really matter to me. Not like it used to. Not like it ever will again,β he finished, pressing his forehead against mine, his eyes intense and heartbreaking. βYouβre not ever going to be anyone elseβs partner. Not while Iβm alive, Meatball. I will drag your stubborn, beautiful ass kicking and screaming back to me because nobody else will ever be good enough for you.β
I blinked. I blinked so fast I knew I was about two point five seconds away from losing my shit.
And then Ivan ended me. He ended every worry Iβd ever had about there being someone after him. He did it right there with the tip of his nose touching my own and his forehead against mine too.
βBecause Iβm okay with you having ten other people be your favorite. But youβre always going to be my favorite person,β he finished. βAlways. No matter what.
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Mariana Zapata (From Lukov with Love)
β
Schools are designed on the assumption that there is a secret to everything in life; that the quality of life depends on knowing that secret; that secrets can be known only in orderly successions; and that only teachers can properly reveal these secrets. An individual with a schooled mind conceives of the world as a pyramid of classified packages accessible only to those who carry the proper tags.
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Ivan Illich (Deschooling Society)
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However passionate, sinning, and rebellious the heart hidden in the tomb, the flowers growing over it peep serenely at us with their innocent eyes; they tell us not of eternal peace alone, of that great peace of "indifferent" nature: they tell us, too, of eternal reconciliation and of life without end.
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Ivan Turgenev
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O youth! youth! you go your way heedless, uncaring β as if you owned all the treasures of the world; even grief elates you, even sorrow sits well upon your brow. You are self-confident and insolent and you say, 'I alone am alive β behold!' even while your own days fly past and vanish without trace and without number, and everything within you melts away like wax in the sun .. like snow .. and perhaps the whole secret of your enchantment lies not, indeed, in your power to do whatever you may will, but in your power to think that there is nothing you will not do: it is this that you scatter to the winds β gifts which you could never have used to any other purpose. Each of us feels most deeply convinced that he has been too prodigal of his gifts β that he has a right to cry, 'Oh, what could I not have done, if only I had not wasted my time.
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Ivan Turgenev (First Love)
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All his life the example of a syllogism he had studied in Kiesewetter's logic - "Caius is a man, men are mortal, therefore Caius is mortal" - had seemed to him to be true only in relation to Caius the man, man in general, and it was quite justified , but he wasn't Caius and he wasn't man in general, and he had always been something quite, quite special apart from all other beings; he was Vanya, with Mama, with Papa, with Mitya and Volodya, with his toys and the coachman, with Nyanya, then with Katenka, with all the joys, sorrows, passions of childhood, boyhood, youth. Did Caius know the smell of the striped leather ball Vanya loved so much?: Did Caius kiss his mother's hand like that and did the silken folds of Caius's mother's dress rustle like that for him? Was Caius in love like that? Could Caius chair a session like that? And Caius is indeed mortal and it's right that he should die, but for me, Vanya, Ivan Ilych, with all my feelings and thoughts - for me it's quite different. And it cannot be that I should die. It would be too horrible.
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Leo Tolstoy (The Death of Ivan Ilych)
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I suppressed a sigh. Hungary felt increasingly like reading War and Peace: new characters came up every five minutes, with their unusual names and distinctive locutions, and you had to pay attention to them for a time, even though you might never see them again for the whole rest of the book. I would rather have talked to Ivan, the love interest, but somehow I didnβt get to decide. At the same time, I also felt that these superabundant personages werenβt irrelevant at all, but somehow the opposite, and that when Ivan had told me to make friends with the other kids, he had been telling me something important about the world, about how the fateful character in your life wasnβt the one who buried you in a rock, but the one who led you out to more people.
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Elif Batuman (The Idiot)
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School prepares people for the alienating institutionalization of life, by teaching the necessity of being taught. Once this lesson is learned, people loose their incentive to develop independently; they no longer find it attractive to relate to each other, and the surprises that life offers when it is not predetermined by institutional definition are closed.
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Ivan Illich
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Literature cannot develop between the categories "permitted"β"not permitted"β"this you can and that you can't." Literature that is not the air of its contemporary society, that dares not warn in time against threatening moral and social dangers, such literature does not deserve the name of literature; it is only a facade. Such literature loses the confidence of its own people, and its published works are used as waste paper instead of being read.
-Letter to the Fourth National Congress of Soviet Writers
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Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn (One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich)
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The machine-like behavior of people chained to electronics constitutes a degradation of their well-being and of their dignity which, for most people in the long run, becomes intolerable. Observations of the sickening effect of programmed environments show that people in them become indolent, impotent, narcissistic and apolitical. The political process breaks down because people cease to be able to govern themselves; they demand to be managed.
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Ivan Illich (In the Mirror of the Past: Lectures and Adresses, 1978-1990)
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Science is opposed to theological dogmas because science is founded on fact. To me, the universe is simply a great machine which never came into being and never will end. The human being is no exception to the natural order. Man, like the universe, is a machine. Nothing enters our minds or determines our actions which is not directly or indirectly a response to stimuli beating upon our sense organs from without. Owing to the similarity of our construction and the sameness of our environment, we respond in like manner to similar stimuli, and from the concordance of our reactions, understanding is born. In the course of ages, mechanisms of infinite complexity are developed, but what we call 'soul' or 'spirit,' is nothing more than the sum of the functionings of the body. When this functioning ceases, the 'soul' or the 'spirit' ceases likewise.
I expressed these ideas long before the behaviorists, led by Pavlov in Russia and by Watson in the United States, proclaimed their new psychology. This apparently mechanistic conception is not antagonistic to an ethical conception of life.
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Nikola Tesla (Inventions, Researches and Writings of Nikola Tesla)
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I desire nothing, seek nothing but peace, the slumber of the soul. I have tasted all the hollowness and wretchedness of life and I despise it heartily. Whoever has lived and thought cannot but, in his soul, despise humanity. Activity, cares, worries, distractions - I am sick of them all. I wish for nothing, I seek nothing. I have no aim, for one gains that which one is eager for - and sees that it is all illusion. My joyous days have passed. I have cooled to them. In the educated world, amidst human beings, I feel the disadvantages of life too strongly, but alone, far from the crowd, I turn to stone. In this trance anything can happen, I see neither others nor myself. I do nothing and do not notice the actions either of others or myself - and I am at peace, I am indifferent. There can be no happiness for me, and I will not succumb to unhappiness.
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Ivan Goncharov (The Same Old Story)
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Marya put down her fork. βWhy are you doing this, Koschei? I have had lovers before. You have, too. Remember Marina? The rusalka? She and I swam together every morning. We raced the salmon. You called us your little sharks.β
The Tsar of Life held his knife so tightly Marya could see his knucklebones bulging. βWere any of them called Ivan? Were any of them human boys all sticky with their own innocence? I know you. I know you because you are like me, as much like me as two spoons nested in each other.β Her husband leaned close to her, the candlelight sparking in his dark, shaggy hair. βWhen you steal them, they mean so much more, Marousha. Trust me. I know. What did I do wrong? Was I boring? Did I ignore you? Did I not give you enough pretty dresses? Enough emeralds? Iβm sure I have more, somewhere.β
Marya lifted her hand and laid it on her husbandβs cheek. With a blinking quickness, she drove her nails deep into his face. βDonβt you dare speak to me like that. I have worn nothing but blood and death for years. I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me. I have learned all the tricks you said I must learn. I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man. I have learned to lay my finger aside my nose and disappear. I have learned to watch everything die. I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too. And if I have watched all my soldiers die in front of me, if I have only been saved by my rifle and my own hands, if I have drunk more blood than water for weeks, then I take the human boy who stumbled into my tent and hold him between my legs until I stop screaming, you will not punish me for it. Are we not chyerti? Are we not devils? I will not even hear your punishment, old man.
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Catherynne M. Valente (Deathless)