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Nobody hopped into a wardrobe to find Narnia; they hopped in, thinking it was just a wardrobe. They didn't climb up the Faraway Tree, knowing it was a Faraway Tree; they thought it was just a really big tree. Harry Potter thought he was a normal boy; Mary Poppins was supposed to be a regular nanny. It's the first and only rule. Magic comes when you're not looking for it.
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I didn't need to transform after all.
My name is Harriet Manners and I am a geek.
And maybe that's not so bad after all.
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Because here's the thing about a book: when you pick up a story, you put down your own
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You need to stop caring what people who don't matter think of you. Be who you are and let everybody else be who they are. Differences are a good thing.
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Nobody really metamorphoses. Cinderella is always Cinderella, just in a nicer dress. The Ugly Duckling was always a swan, just a smaller version. And I bet the tadpole and the caterpillar still feel the same, even when they're jumping and flying, swimming and floating.
Just like I am now.
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Your daughter is adorable. I've never seen such an alien duck in my entire life.
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1. You left a multipack of Mars Bars on top of your wardrobe. Can I have one? Dad x
2. I had three. Hope that's OK. Dad x
3. I'm just going to have one more. Dad x
4. Harriet, your Dad's made himself sick on an entire multipack of Mars Bars again. Please don't leave sweets where we can find them. A x
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She's....having an affair with a strawberry jam manufacturer?
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The internet lied to me?
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Oh." Dad frowns. "Why hasn't Annabel been teaching you how to walk in heels? I thought we had an agreement: I teach you how to be cool and she trains you how to be a girl."
I stare at him in silence. This explains so much.
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Have you been sniffing glitter again?
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Never underestimate the power of a well-placed apostrophe.
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That's the truth about people with obsessively organised plans: we're not trying to control everything in our lives. We're trying to block out the things we can't.
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...Our stories are drive by who we are and what we do, and not by the events that happens to us.
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Tortoises are incredible creatures," Dad says earnestly. "What they lack in elegance and beauty they more than make up for in the ability to curl up and defend themselves from predators."
"What, like me?
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I suddenly realise that it doesn't matter how far I go, or how lost I am, or how lonely I feel. I fit in here. I always will.
That's how I know I'm home.
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Nick? Any idea?"
Nick coughs too. "Nope. No idea at all."
Wilbur gives him a stern look. "So what was the point in doing all the Jane Austen stuff if she doesn't know about it, Poodle-bottom?
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We don't have time for all this adorable Darcy and Lizzie tension, Kitten-cheeks.
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Our future selves are only as good as our past selves believe we can be
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It's 4:40am and i'm standing in the middle of a Quentin Tarantino version of Finding Nemo
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If I tell you, you'll panic."
"I won't."
"You will. You'll panic, and then I'll panic, and then you'll panic again, and she'll be able to tell we're weak and she'll eat both of us.
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Gary nips my finger and starts clawing his way up my shoulder, hissing like an angry kettle. It's just not natural for something so cute and fluffy to be so nasty.
I look at Nick in distress. "Why is he spitting at me?"
"Maybe he thinks he's a llama.
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Why are you such terrible parents?" I yell.
"I don't know," Dad yells back. "Why are you such a naughty little spider?
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My impact on hearts is like an earthquake happening on the other side of the world: if I'm lucky, I can hope for a teacup tinkling in its saucer. And even then it's a bit of a surprise and everybody talks about it afterward.
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She's probably so mesmerized by her own beauty she can't move away from the mirror," I hear Wilbur stage-whisper. "It's why I'm always late." Then he knocks on the door as well. "Look away from the reflection, baby," he shouts through the wood. "Just look away and the spell will be broken.
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Well?" Nat says after a few seconds. "I'm surprised you're here again, Harriet. I thought you'd be busy auditioning for A Midsummer Night's Dream."
I blink a few times in surprise. "No. I'm not."
"You should be. I heard they're looking for an ass."
Oh. Now why can't I think of quips like that when I need them?
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My name," I tell Wilbur in the most dignified voice I can find, "Was inspired by Harriet Quimby, the first female American pilot and the first woman ever to cross the Channel in an aeroplane. My mother chose it to represent freedom and bravery and independence, and she gave it to me just before she died."
There's a short pause while Wilbur looks appropriately moved. Then Dad says, "Who told you that?"
"Annabel did."
"Well, it's not true at all. You were named after Harriet the tortoise, the second longest living tortoise in the world."
There's a silence while I stare at Dad and Annabel puts her head in her hands so abruptly that the pen starts to leak into her collar. "Richard," she moans quietly.
"A tortoise?" I repeat in dismay. "I'm named after a tortoise? What the hell is a tortoise supposed to represent?"
"Longevity?
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There are 7,123,024,873 people in the world, and nick keeps choosing me
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You know, I've worked out that if I lived on Mercury I'd be sixty-six years old tomorrow. I'd be twenty-six on Venus, and half a year old on Saturn. I'm only sixteen because I'm on this planet.
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Apparently humans share fifty per cent of their DNA with bananas. My father is a constant reminder of that.
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That's the beauty of the summer holidays. It's as if life is just a big Etch-a-Sketch, and once a year you get to shake it vigorously up and down and start again.
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what are you doing here?" "Obviously I'm doing laundry, Harriet." I raise my eyebrow. He looks completely at ease with this terrible excuse, which - considering the fact that he has no laundry with him - is a little worrying.
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I came to get you. I knew you'd freak out."
"But..." My head still feels like a helium balloon. "Why?"
Nick looks blank. "Because you always freak out."
I shake my head. My voice feels like I've swallowed it. "I mean, why do you care if I freak out?"
There's a long silence.
"Well," Wilbur finally bursts, "I can take a shot in the dark, if you want."
"Seriously," Nick snaps, making his fingers into a gun shape. "I'm going to take a shot in the dark in a minute and it will make contact."
Wilbur looks charmed. "Isn't he adorable?" he says fondly. "My duty as Fairy Godmother is complete, anyhoo, and I believe it's time to spread my magic dust elsewhere. So many pumpkins after all; so little time.
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Scientist say that music can change the speed of a heartbeat. They failed to add: so can a text message.
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They say fiction is the closest well ever get from magic. Open a book and an entire world will pop out and it doesn't matter if it's dragons or Victorian children or wizards. You are immediately someone else and somewhere else
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The rest of my Thursday can be summarised thus:
- Nat tells me to bite her.
- I don't.
- I am forced to sit next to Toby for the entire two-and-a-half-hour return coach journey.
- He tells me that water is not blue because it reflects the sky, but actually because the molecular structure of the water itself reflects the colour blue and therefore our art teacher is wrong and the authorities should be alerted.
- I pull my jumper over my head.
- I stay under my jumper for the next two hours.
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We don't unfold ourselves like pieces of paper for everyone to see: that's not how humans work. There are always parts of us we shut away or hide. Bits of ourselves we can't touch because they're too precious and buried too deep. Fragments of truth we barely admit to ourselves. Because sometimes editing our own story is the only way to get through it.
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People like their high-fashion models to look as deeply unhappy as physically possible You can't have beauty and contentment: it would just be unfair.
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The sad fact is, there are 7.220.400.641 people on the planet, but right now I haven't got a single one to talk to.
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This might surprise you, but here's a fact: people who plan things thoroughly aren't particularly connected with reality. It seems like they are, but they're not: they're focusing on making things bite-size, instead of having to look at the whole picture. It's procrastination in its purest form because it convinces everyoneβincluding the person who's doing itβthat they are very sensible and in touch with reality when they're not. They're obsessed with cutting it up into little pieces so they can pretend it's not there at all.
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Did you know that the chances of being in a plane crash are less than 0.00001 per cent? That means that youβre more likely to be killed by a donkey or to naturally conceive identical quadruplets.β Bunty
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Does a caterpillar sit on the same leaf when it's a butterfly? No! It goes for a little fly and sees something of the world. Does the tadpole stay in the same pond once it's a frog? No! It stretches its legs, goes for a jump, explores other waters. Did Cinderella go back cleaning hearths once she married the prince? ... Transformation means moving forward. If a butterfly stays on the same leaf and a frog stays in the same pond, then they may as well have stayed a caterpillar or a tadpole. There was no point in metamorphosing.
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I can change my plans. But I can't change my family.
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Iβm slowly beginning to realise how ironic it is that Iβm so good at learning lessons inside school, and so terrible at learning any outside it.
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Because falling in love doesn't have to mean dropping your best friend in the process.
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a) not thinking about Nick and b)
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There's a humpback whale in the ocean that sings at fifty-two hertz: too low for any other whale to hear. Scientists aren't sure if it's a genetic anomaly, or a sole survivor of an extinct species, or just a whale who accidentally learnt the wrong song. They just know that it's probably the loneliest mammal on earth.
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Don't you get it yet,Harriet?" Nick says in total exasperation. "i like that you know about the stars in the rain and the shapes of the clouds and the heartbeat rate of the hummingbird. I like that you know that giraffes don't have vocal cords and the sharks can't stop moving. I like the way you stick your little nose in the air.....
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Mr Bott sits down and gestures gracefully to the board. "As you are clearly both fascinated by this text, would you like to explain the significance of Laertes in Hamlet?" He looks at Alexa. "Please go first, Miss Roberts."
"Well..." Alexa says hesitantly. "He's Ophelia's brother, right?"
"I didn't ask for his family tree, Alexa. I want to know his literary significance as a fictional character."
Alexa looks uncomfortable. "Well then, his literary significance is in being Ophelia's brother, isn't it? So she has someone to hang out with."
"How very kind of Shakespeare to give fictional Ophelia a fictional playmate so that she doesn't get fictionally bored. Your analytical skills astound me, Alexa. Perhaps I should send you to Set Seven with Mrs White and you can spend the rest of the lesson studying Thomas the Tank Engine. I believe he has lots of buddies too.
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Why do you always rescue me?" β "Every Cinderella needs a fairy godmother. But sometimes your fairy godmother needs you right back.
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And this way, l'll leave everything behind before it gets the chance to do the same to me.
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My Best Friend and I have spent plenty of time together, despite me being in my First Ever Relationship. This is because friends should always come first.
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They say that life is just a blank chain, and precious moments are the beads we hang off it to make it beautiful.
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I loved all of this boy: the good bits and the bad. And I knew that, when it came, I would love his sadness too.
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Humans are supposed to have 70,000 thoughts a day
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There are approximately 13,914,291,404 legs in the worldβover half of them in trousersβand I had to grab this one?
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Maybe it's just a matter of thinking positively. Believing that we can all change, if we try hard enough.
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OH, MY MINI-HUMMINGBIRDS, THIS IS THE BEST DAY THAT HAS EVER BEEN BORN IF DAYS WERE BORN WHICH THEYβRE PROBABLY NOT BUT WHO CARES I MADE IT! IβM IN! IβM FINALLY IN PROPER FASSSHHHIIIOOON.
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I can only conclude that her feelings toward me are very similar to what I've read about love: passionate, random, inexplicable, and totally uncontrollable. She can't help hating me any more than Heathcliff could help loving Cathy. It's simply written in the stars. Which would be quite sweet if she wasn't such a cow all the time.
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Czar Nicholas the Second was overthrown by Lenin in 1917."
I blink in surprise. "Yes," I say, "he was."
"And do you think I want to know that? IT's not even on your exam syllabus. I never had to know that. So now it's your turn to pick up a few pairs of shoes and make ooh and aah sounds for me becuase Jo ate prawns and she's allergic and she got sick and couldn't come and I'm not sitting on a bus on my own for five hours, OK?"
Nat takes a deep breath and I look at my hands in shame. I am a selfish, selfish person. I am also a very sparkly person; my hands are covered in gold glitter.
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Iβve fought dragons, attended balls and chased a whale. Iβve won wars, lost court cases, travelled India, ridden broomsticks and stranded myself on numerous islands. Iβve died a dozen times. Because hereβs the thing about a book: when you pick up a story, you put down your own.
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Also," Bunty adds cheerfully, "how many cats did you have when you left?"
"One," Annabel says, putting her hand over her face.
"You have three now." Bunty swings hrt bag over her shoulder. "See you at Christmas, lovelies!"
And my grandmother disappears as abruptly as she arrived.
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They say fiction is the closest we ever get to magic. Forget top hats and rabbits: open a book and an entire world will pop out. And it doesn't matter if it's dragons or Victorian orphans or wizards. You are immediately somewhere else and someone else. Transported. It's not like that with textbooks.
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Every Cinderella needs a fairy godmother, Baby-baby Panda,β he says, shrugging and putting his sunglasses on. βBut sometimes your fairy godmother
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Everything will land sunny side up: all I need to do is stay positive.
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If people are kind to you, itβs because you are kind to them. If people are there for you itβs because you are there for them.
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Because that's the truth about people with obsessively organised plans: we're not trying to control everything in our lives. We're trying to block everything we can't.
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that one teaspoon of a neutron star weighs billions of tonnes,
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Love puts itself first, and makes its own plans. It maps you out instead. Maybe that's what makes it perfect
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Cinderella is always Cinderella, just in a nicer dress. The Ugly Duckling was always a swan, just a smaller version.
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If people are kind to you, it's because you're kind to them. If people are there for you, it's because you are there for them.
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Because the people I love always find their way back in the end.
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Now and then, you get to put somebody else at the top of your list.
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A friend. The kind that will happily hurt for you, and youβll hurt for in return.
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Toby βmy knees buckle when I runβ Pilgrim. Toby βI bring my own Bunsen burner to schoolβ Pilgrim. Toby βI wear bicycle clips on my trousers and I donβt even have a bikeβ Pilgrim.
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y name is Harriet Manners, and I am a geek.
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Our future selves are only as good as our past selves believe we can be.
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The blue whale has a heart big enough for a human to crawl through its ventricles.
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Because it's not the walking away from love that's the hard part: it's the falling in. It's losing yourself to it and not knowing who you are without it. It's needing somebody else more than you need yourself. It's being happier with them than you are on your own.
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Nick grinned, swooping in for another kiss and then leaning back and scruffing his hair up. βHarriet Manners, Iβm about to give you six stamps. Then Iβm going to write something on a piece of paper and put it in an envelope with your address on it.β
βOK β¦β βThen Iβm going to put the envelope on the floor and spin us as fast as I can. As soon as either of us manage to stick a stamp on it, Iβm going to race to the postbox and post it unless you can catch me first. If you win, you can read it.β
Nick was obviously faster than me, but he didnβt know where the nearest postbox was. βDeal,β I agreed, yawning and rubbing my eyes.
βBut why six stamps?β
βJust wait and see.β
A few seconds later, I understood.
As we spun in circles with our hands stretched out, one of my stamps got stuck to the ground at least a metre away from the envelope. Another ended up on a daisy. A third somehow got stuck to the roundabout.
One of Nickβs ended up on his nose.
And every time we both missed, we laughed harder and harder and our kisses got dizzier and dizzier until the whole world was a giggling, kissing, spinning blur.
Finally, when we both had one stamp left, I stopped giggling. I had to win this.
So I swallowed, wiped my eyes and took a few deep breaths.
Then I reached out my hand.
βToo late!β Nick yelled as I opened my eyes again. βGot it, Manners!β And he jumped off the still-spinning roundabout with the envelope held high over his head.
So I promptly leapt off too.
Straight into a bush. Thanks to a destabilised vestibular system β which is the upper portion of the inner ear β the ground wasnβt where it was supposed to be.
Nick, in the meantime, had ended up flat on his back on the grass next to me.
With a small shout I leant down and kissed him hard on the lips. βHA!β I shouted, grabbing the envelope off him and trying to rip it open.
βI donβt think so,β he grinned, jumping up and wrapping one arm round my waist while he retrieved it again. Then he started running in a zigzag towards the postbox.
A few seconds later, I wobbled after him.
And we stumbled wonkily down the road, giggling and pulling at each otherβs T-shirts and hanging on to tree trunks and kissing as we each fought for the prize.
Finally, he picked me up and, without any effort, popped me on top of a high wall.
Like Humpty Dumpty.
Or some kind of really unathletic cat.
βHey!β I shouted as he whipped the envelope out of my hands and started sprinting towards the postbox at the bottom of the road. βThatβs not fair!β
βCourse it is,β he shouted back. βAllβs fair in love and war.β
And Nick kissed the envelope then put it in the postbox with a flourish.
I had to wait three days.
Three days of lingering by the front door. Three days of lifting up the doormat, just in case it had accidentally slipped under there.
Finally, the letter arrived: crumpled and stained with grass.
Ha. Told you I was faster.
LBxx
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people who plan things thoroughly arenβt particularly connected with reality. It seems like they are, but theyβre not: theyβre focusing on making things bite-size, instead of having to look at the whole picture. Itβs procrastination in its purest form because it convinces everyoneβincluding the person whoβs doing itβthat they are very sensible and in touch with reality when theyβre not. Theyβre obsessed with cutting it up into little pieces so they can pretend that itβs not there at all.
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The chances of winning the lottery are approximately one in fourteen million,
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Adults almost never like doing their jobs from what I can tell.
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A slug has its bottom in its head.
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Reason to move to New York: I don't to get left behind
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99.99999999999999999 per cent of every atom consists of empty space. It
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Es la primera y ΓΊnica regla: la magia aparece cuando no la estΓ‘s buscando.
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My head feels like it's starting to rattle with words bouncing around inside it like balls. Every time Moscow, Nick, Baylee, or Metamorphosis hit the side, my entire body jolts with excitement. Every time Nat and Annabel make contact, I feel like I'm about to implode with guilt and anxiety. And every time the Alexa ball bounces, I feel like vomiting.
But it's too late. I've made my choice. So I spend the rest of the evening making an imaginary box in my head. And into this box I put all of the balls. I close the lid. And then I lock it up and temporarily misplace the key.
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Apparently, a butterfly's wings are actually transparent, but thousands of tiny scales reflect light at different wavelengths. In my stomach now, I can suddenly feel them: glinting and flickering inside me. Every color of the rainbow.
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It's not the end, Table Girl. We're just hitting pause.
LBxx
PS ILY
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Because I don't always need plans or strategies.
In this moment, I don't need bullet points and maps; I don't need to know where I'm going or where I've been. I don't need to look to the future to try to see what's coming or the past to see what has already happened; I don't need to assess or analyse or theorise or research or dissect anything.
In this precise moment, all I need is now.
All I need is me.
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People are like glass.
Some you can see straight through; others shine bright lights and iridescent colours everywhere they go. Some you look at and see parts of yourself reflected, and you look into some and see nothing but darkness.
Some people magnify so that everything around them seems bigger anc more beautiful, while others can make even the largest things seem infinitely smaller.
People can be cracked or chipped, fragile or scratched, and still stay in one piece: even more precious and loved for all of their broken parts.
But sometimes ... people shatter.
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I'm hard work, Nick. And I'm OK with that, but you need to be OK with that too because I'm not going to change." Finally, I draw to a breathless stop.
"But that's the whole point," he says slowly with a warm smile. "I don't want you to change, Harriet. You're not hard work for me." And that's when I know.
As Nick laces his fingers through mine and the golden sun in my chest starts burning so brightly it feels like it's going to explode, I realise that all that time we were focusing on our three stars, the moon had been there too.
Coming and going - waxing and waning - but never really leaving.
Always there: always shared.
Always reflecting love and light back at me.
"Acceptance," Lion Boy says, kissing me gently. "Tick.
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I don't really get sad," Nick said, staring at the ceiling. "I'm just one of those cool, aloof guys who stays chilled at all times. You know the type. We're everywhere in fiction
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Because these aren't just dresses.
They're portals: ways of time-travelling without moving. A little bit of me went into each of them, and it's as if I can see myself in each of them, standing there like a ghost. As if every emotion, every thought, every hope, every memory I had is still drifting visibly through them like smoke.
These are all part of who I am and who I was, and they're also part of who I will be.
My very own historical timeline.
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That was rather discombobulating."
I laughed. "Discombobulating? Where did that word come from?"
"I might have stolen it from you."
"You can have it on loan."
"Thanks. I'll check it back in when I don't need it any more.
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But then, with a rush, I can suddenly hear them all: every single unkind word I've ever been called
Circling in the air above my head like angry flies: buzzing and buzzing, as if they're desperate to find somewhere to land.
Ugly. Freckles. Nobody. Boring. Loser. Spotty. Carrots.
GEEK.
But for the first time, they can't seem to settle or stick on me.
There's nowhere for them to go.
Still smiling, I reach a hand up and start batting at them: hitting the words, one by one, until they're dead on the floor. Empty ghost words that have no meaning, no use, no purpose, no truth in them.
Definitions that aren't in my dictionary any more.
Because from this point onwards, nobody gets to choose the vocabulary I use for myself but me.
Smiling, I lean forward and give my beautiful, flawed and irreplaceable face a quick kiss in the mirror. After all, none of those social-networking statistics said that my sixth best friend couldn't be myself.
That's not cheating at all.
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There's a beep.
And, in that fraction of a second, I see it all
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Me in bed, covered in lipstick and talcum powder; falling down the coach aisle; smashing into a hat-stall; climbing under a table; thirty hands in the air; spinning under a spotlight; jumping in the snow; a ponytail, cut off; sitting on a catwalk; standing on a doorstep; my first kiss, on a television set.
I see a Japanese fish market and an octopus; a sumo stage; a glass box and a hundred dolls; a shining lake; a zebra crossing; a brand-new sister.
I see New York and a governess; a fairground ride; a planetarium; a party; Brooklyn Bridge. Toilet paper and Icarus; dinosaur biscuits; posters; Marrakesh and a monkey; parties of stars. Picnics and coffee; an advertising agency; a doppelganger; an Indian elephant and firework clouds of paint; a cafe, filled with pink. I see Sydney and diving and a fashion show that glittered with gold.
In short: I see a whole world, opening behind me.
And a new world, opening in front.
A world that I fit into perfectly.
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