“
sometimes you’ve got to kill 4 or 5
thousand men before you somehow
get to believe that the sparrow
is immortal, money is piss and
that you have been wasting
your time.
”
”
Charles Bukowski (Burning in Water, Drowning in Flame)
“
I Name you Echthroi. I Name you Meg.
I Name you Calvin.
I Name you Mr. Jenkins.
I Name you Proginoskes.
I fill you with Naming.
Be!
Be, butterfly and behemoth,
be galaxy and grasshopper,
star and sparrow,
you matter,
you are,
be!
Be caterpillar and comet,
Be porcupine and planet,
sea sand and solar system,
sing with us,
dance with us,
rejoice with us,
for the glory of creation,
seagulls and seraphim
angle worms and angel host,
chrysanthemum and cherubim.
(O cherubim.)
Be!
Sing for the glory
of the living and the loving
the flaming of creation
sing with us
dance with us
be with us.
Be!"
- Madeleine L'Engle, A Wind in the Door
”
”
Madeleine L'Engle
“
Sometimes we hold on to painful things, I think, because letting them go feels like letting go of the person who gave them to us.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
[John] watched the flames for a while. "I would have to say that I find God in serving His children. 'When I was hungry and you fed me, I was thirsty and you gave me to drink, I was a stanger and you welcomed me, naked and you clothed me, sick and you cared for me, imprisoned and you came to me.'"
The words lingered in the air as the fire popped and hissed softly. Sondoz had stopped pacing and stood motionless in a far corner of the room, his face in shadows, firelight glittering on the metallic exoskeleton of his hands. "Don't hope for more than that, John," he said. "God will break your heart.
”
”
Mary Doria Russell (The Sparrow (The Sparrow, #1))
“
Whats the Use of a Title?"
They don’t make it
the beautiful die in flame—
suicide pills, rat poison, rope what—
ever...
they rip their arms off,
throw themselves out of windows,
they pull their eyes out of the sockets,
reject love
reject hate
reject, reject.
they don’t make it
the beautiful can’t endure,
they are butterflies
they are doves
they are sparrows,
they don’t make it.
one tall shot of flame
while the old men play checkers in the park
one flame, one good flame
while the old men play checkers in the park
in the sun.
the beautiful are found in the edge of a room
crumpled into spiders and needles and silence
and we can never understand why they
left, they were so
beautiful.
they don’t make it,
the beautiful die young
and leave the ugly to their ugly lives.
lovely and brilliant: life and suicide and death
as the old men play checkers in the sun
in the park.
”
”
Charles Bukowski (Burning in Water, Drowning in Flame)
“
Then he said, “There isn’t an easy, direct translation into any other language…because it’s more like an idea. A feeling. We have a story in my old kingdom, that when the one you’re meant to be with enters the world, they steal a part of your soul with their first breath. “And you exist, missing that part, until they find you and breathe it back into you.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
For everyone who’s ever been told they’re ‘too much’— Go ahead and burn as brightly as you want to.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
I don’t know what you were thinking, but I never needed you to swoop in and save me. I don’t need you to burn the world down for me—if I wanted that done, I could do it myself.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
I feel…” he replied, slowly, “as though someone should have taught you not to play with fire.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
And now I feel like you and that dress should get out of my sight,” he said, “before we do something we’ll both end up regretting.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous"
i
Tell me it was for the hunger
& nothing less. For hunger is to give
the body what it knows
it cannot keep. That this amber light
whittled down by another war
is all that pins my hand
to your chest.
i
You, drowning
between my arms —
stay.
You, pushing your body
into the river
only to be left
with yourself —
stay.
i
I’ll tell you how we’re wrong enough to be forgiven. How one night, after
backhanding
mother, then taking a chainsaw to the kitchen table, my father went to kneel
in the bathroom until we heard his muffled cries through the walls.
And so I learned that a man, in climax, was the closest thing
to surrender.
i
Say surrender. Say alabaster. Switchblade.
Honeysuckle. Goldenrod. Say autumn.
Say autumn despite the green
in your eyes. Beauty despite
daylight. Say you’d kill for it. Unbreakable dawn
mounting in your throat.
My thrashing beneath you
like a sparrow stunned
with falling.
i
Dusk: a blade of honey between our shadows, draining.
i
I wanted to disappear — so I opened the door to a stranger’s car. He was divorced. He was still alive. He was sobbing into his hands (hands that tasted like rust). The pink breast cancer ribbon on his keychain swayed in the ignition. Don’t we touch each other just to prove we are still here? I was still here once. The moon, distant & flickering, trapped itself in beads of sweat on my neck. I let the fog spill through the cracked window & cover my fangs. When I left, the Buick kept sitting there, a dumb bull in pasture, its eyes searing my shadow onto the side of suburban houses. At home, I threw myself on the bed like a torch & watched the flames gnaw through my mother’s house until the sky appeared, bloodshot & massive. How I wanted to be that sky — to hold every flying & falling at once.
i
Say amen. Say amend.
Say yes. Say yes
anyway.
i
In the shower, sweating under cold water, I scrubbed & scrubbed.
i
In the life before this one, you could tell
two people were in love
because when they drove the pickup
over the bridge, their wings
would grow back just in time.
Some days I am still inside the pickup.
Some days I keep waiting.
i
It’s not too late. Our heads haloed
with gnats & summer too early
to leave any marks.
Your hand under my shirt as static
intensifies on the radio.
Your other hand pointing
your daddy’s revolver
to the sky. Stars falling one
by one in the cross hairs.
This means I won’t be
afraid if we’re already
here. Already more
than skin can hold. That a body
beside a body
must ma
”
”
Ocean Vuong (On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous)
“
Sometimes admitting we’re lost is the first step to finding the way, isn’t it?” said the red-haired woman.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
Sonnet
On hearing the Dies Irae in the Sistine Chapel
Nay, Lord, not thus! white lilies in the spring,
Sad olive-groves, or silver-breasted dove,
Teach me more clearly of Thy life and love
Than terrors of red flame and thundering.
The hillside vines dear memories of Thee bring:
A bird at evening flying to its nest
Tells me of One who had no place of rest:
I think it is of Thee the sparrows sing.
Come rather on some autumn afternoon,
When red and brown are burnished on the leaves,
And the fields echo to the gleaner's song,
Come when the splendid fulness of the moon
Looks down upon the rows of golden sheaves,
And reap Thy harvest: we have waited long.
”
”
Oscar Wilde
“
To see all sides of things is a rare gift.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Ash and Feather (Flame and Sparrow Duology, #2))
“
You have no idea what he’s done for me, all the—” “What he’s done for you?” “Yes.” “Does he remind you of those things often?” I couldn’t deny this. His eyes narrowed. “So it sounds more like he did those things for him, in hopes of locking you into some sort of contract with unspecified terms.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
I’d more or less come to the conclusion that anger was a strange well to draw from; the more you drank of it, the thirstier you became.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
Wildfire, do you not understand? I love who you are. Not what. Who you are, and who you were, and who you’re becoming. Your fire, your ashes, your everything in-between…
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Ash and Feather (Flame and Sparrow Duology, #2))
“
But they spoke of the carnage in awed tones rather than fearful ones, so eager to see themselves in the divine that they willingly overlooked the beastly parts.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Flame and Sparrow (Flame and Sparrow Duology Book 1))
“
But another question will answer this one: How can the Lord Jesus in Heaven be happy? Surely He knows all things here. He looked into Hell and heard the cries of the rich man tormented in flame. And He, with God the Father, knows the fall of every sparrow and numbers every hair on every head. He looks at the heart of every unrepentant sinner and grieves at the mistakes and failures of every Christian. Can Jesus be happy in Heaven? The Scripture answers: "He shall see of the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied" (Isa. 53:11). We know that Jesus on earth looked forward to the joy in Heaven, for we are told: "Who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God" (Heb. 12:2). Yes, Jesus, knowing all the wickedness of this world, is happy in Heaven. So are the saints in Heaven.
”
”
John R. Rice (Bible Facts About Heaven)
“
For anyone who’s ever had to pick themselves up, rearrange themselves, and try again.
”
”
S.M. Gaither (Ash and Feather (Flame and Sparrow Duology, #2))
“
It’s a phoenix,” Freddie said. “A firebird. When they die, they are reborn in their own flames, remade, stronger and more perfect than they already were.” “Just like you,” Vaughn added. “A firebrand who brought all that heat and color into our lives.” “You were born Ivy Hardigan, then became Emersyn Sharpe—but who you are is our girl, our Phoenix,” Liam caught the thread. “My Hellspawn.” “Swan.” “Sparrow.” “Starling.” “Dove.” “Little Bit.” Laughter edged those syllables, and there were tears in Mickey’s eyes. “Boo-Boo,” Freddie completed the nicknames as they were all laughing and so was I.
”
”
Heather Long (Fierce Dancer (82 Street Vandals, #9))
“
Sometimes he wished he experienced the world as simply as she did. It wasn't that Sparrow herself was simple, but rather, she lived and spoke and acted in the most uncomplicated of ways. She understood things about anger and grief and forgiveness that Elliot had not - at least, not until she'd helped him see it - but she didn't let the dark complexities of the world overwhelm or shake her convictions.
”
”
Nicki Pau Preto (Heart of Flames (Crown of Feathers, #2))
“
The angel was sitting by his bed when Simon Iddesleigh, sixth Viscount Iddesleigh, opened his eyes.
He would've thought it a terrible dream, one of an endless succession that haunted him nightly -- or worse, that he'd not survived the beating and had made that final infinite plunge out of this world and into the flaming next. But he was almost certain hell did not smell of lavender and starch, did not feel like worn linen and down pillows, did not sound with the chirping of sparrows and the rustle of gauze curtains.
And, of course, there were no angels in hell.
”
”
Elizabeth Hoyt (The Serpent Prince (Princes Trilogy, #3))