E Thomas Quotes

When you grow up as a girl, it is like there are faint chalk lines traced approximately three inches around your entire body at all times, drawn by society and often religion and family and particularly other women, who somehow feel invested in how you behave, as if your actions reflect directly on all womanhood.

Listen! The Hate U—the letter U—Give Little Infants Fucks Everybody. T-H-U-G L-I-F-E. Meaning what society give us as youth, it bites them in the ass when we wild out. Get it?” “Damn.

Never put off till tomorrow what you can do today.” “I get the feeling that’s not what Thomas Jefferson meant,” muttered Mitch.

I'm an 'intelligent' sociopath. I don't have problems with drugs, I don't commit crimes, I don't take pleasure in hurting people, and I don't typically have relationship problems. I do have a complete lack of empathy. But I consider that an advantage, most of the time. Do I know the difference between right and wrong, and do I want to be good? Sure. ... A peaceful and orderly world is a more comfortable world for me to live in. So do I avoid breaking the law because it's 'right'? No, I avoid breaking the law because it makes sense.

The sound of you, it offends me. Abomination, I command you to be silent.

Ruining people. I love the way the phrase rolls around on my tongue and inside my mouth. Ruining people is delicious. We're all hungry, empaths and sociopaths. We want to consume.

The boast of heraldry, the pomp of pow’r, And all that beauty, all that wealth e’er gave Awaits alike the inevitable hour: The paths of glory lead but to the grave.

At the cross, Jesus subjects himself to disability, and his resurrected body continues to bear his scars as a sign of God's solidarity with humanity.

The idea of formulated 'rights ... comes not from John Locke and Thomas Jefferson ... but from the canon law of the Catholic Church.

But the truth is that if you’ve made a deal with the devil, it’s probably because no one else has offered you more favorable terms.

I regularly comment on my desire to exploit my admirers or to kill babies and cute animals, and I don't even need to laugh or smile for people to think I am joking.

People always say to be careful not to confuse sex and love, but I think they should be more wary of confusing love and understanding.

One nurse thought I was "brave." I think she was talking about my steely-eyed, grin-and-bear-it kind of attitude. There were no tears, no complaints from me - a total lack of affect. In a victim, it is courage and thus admirable; in a predator, it is a lack of humanity and instills fear.

Vina e un vis, mila e singura realitate.

Don't believe everything you think.

Libertarianism is “cultish,” say the sophisticates. Of course, there’s nothing cultish at all about allegiance to the state, with its flags, its songs, its mass murders, its little children saluting and paying homage to pictures of their dear leaders on the wall, etc.

T-H-U-G L-I-F-E. Meaning what society give us as youth, it bites them in the ass when we wild out. Get it?” “Damn.

This homosexual dream of perfect metaphysical union is not so much a reflected heterosexual ideal as it is the compensation for having wept in the darkness.

Ah, bella damigella, dignità, virtù e valore non sono riposti solo nell'abbigliamento!" esclamò Balin. "La virilità e l'onore sono celati nella persona, e vi sono molti insigni cavalieri ignoti a tutti, a riprova che il pregio e l'ardimento non hanno alcun rapporto con le vesti che indossano.

Everybody slips up becaues we're not perfect; that's what mercy is for.

Is it any wonder then that sociopaths are known as being liars? There is really no other option for them, when to show their true feelings (or lack thereof) or to express their true thoughts would get them extra jail time, cause them to be branded as an antisocial, or any number of other negative consequences, simply because they do not share the same worldview as the majority.

Seltsam ist es. Beherrscht dich ein Gedanke, so findest du ihn überall ausgedrückt, du r i e c h s t ihn sogar im Winde.

You are kept apart that you may be separately fleeced of your earnings. You are made to hate each other because upon that hatred is rested the keystone of the arch of financial despotism which enslaves you both. You are deceived and blinded that you may not see how this race antagonism perpetuates a monetary system which beggars both.

The university system, a gift of Western civilization to the world, was developed by the Catholic Church.

The boast of heraldry, the pomp of power, And all that beauty, all that wealth e'er gave, Awaits alike the inevitable hour. The paths of glory lead but to the grave.

O mundo é meu país, os humanos são meus irmãos e fazer o bem é minha religião.

Signora, il suo amore era talmente ardente che avrei potuto ricambiarlo solo facendo di lei mia moglie o la mia amante. Io non accettai ma, per il grande amore che mi portava, le offrii mille lire sterline di rendita all'anno per lei e per i suoi eredi se avesse sposato un cavaliere di suo gradimento. Signora, non mi piace essere obbligato ad amare; l'amore deve nascere dal cuore, non dalla costrizione.

You want to know about the place called Hell?" he asked the curious animal. "There is no Hell," he said. "Hell is in here." He touched the raw, pink skin of his chest with the tips of his fingers. "And it will forever brun inside me for what I have done.

At a point, there is nothing you can do to make someone love you, nothing you can do to make your love better or lasting, but you want it, search for it, and make every effort to sustain it regardless.

While I don't think sociopaths have any sort of moral urge to do good things, I think they can and do act morally in the context of pursuing their own advantage. A good analogy would be a corporation. There are a lot of corporations that do things that you like, maybe even good things, like produce vaccines or electric cars, although the primary motivation is to make a profit. But just because you are trying to make a profit doesn't mean you can't do it by doing things you like, or that you are good at, or that comport with the way you see the world, or want the world to see you.

If grass grows and withers, it can only mean that it is part of a greater thing, which is even more real; not that the grass is less real than it looks. St. Thomas (Aquinas) has a really logical right to say, in the words of the modern mystic, A. E.: "I begin by the grass to be bound again to the Lord.

Told ya you were special.

The Enlightenment taught that observation unrecorded was knowledge lost.

I can read every word of your soul, become deeply engrossed in the study of it until I've comprehended every nuance and detail. But then when I'm done, I'll discard it as easily as if it were a newspaper, shaking my head at how the ink has stained my fingers gray. My desire to know every layer of you isn't feigned, but interest isn't love, and I make no promises of forever. Perhaps I do every so often, but you have no business believing me.

Some might call it manipulation, but I like to consider it simply using what God gave me. And the word manipulation is so ugly. It’s what people say to disavow their own choices. If they end up never regretting their decision, does that mean that no one has manipulated them?

It was too late, though: I was already too smart for the therapist. Or maybe I was never amenable to therapy. Either way, I wasn't going to change. I had already chosen to view the world as a set of opportunities at winning or losing in a zero-sum game, and I used every encounter to gain information to my advantage.

Thirty-five craters on the moon are named for Jesuit scientists and mathematicians.

My name is Anne; spelled with an e at the end." said Anne to Mrs. Thomas.

Thomas More's Utopia was not a recommendation. It was a warning.

Routine wears down vigilance.

C’è nostalgia, dentro, e malinconica invidia, appena un po’ di disprezzo e una grande, casta felicità.

I often wish I could just passively watch people without being expected to participate myself, like television.

As Orwell once wrote, “If liberty means anything at all, it means the right to tell people what they do not want to hear”—most especially, for him, facts that they did not want to acknowledge.

Pac said Thug Life stood for ‘The Hate U Give Little Infants Fucks Everybody.’” I raise my eyebrows. “What?” “Listen! The Hate U—the letter U—Give Little Infants Fucks Everybody. T-H-U-G L-I-F-E. Meaning what society give us as youth, it bites them in the ass when we wild out. Get it?” “Damn. Yeah.

People sometimes say that we lack remorse or guilt like it’s a bad thing. They are sure that remorse and guilt are necessary to being a “good” person.

Our founders, in the words of Thomas Paine, recognized that, “Government, even in its best state, is but a necessary evil; in its worst state, an intolerable one.

Jefferson could write, “I tremble for my country when I reflect that God is just.

I am sorry for only two things. These two things are: I am sorry that I have mistreated some few animals in my life time and I am sorry that I am unable to murder the whole darned human race

Orwell saw that people might become slaves of the state, but he did not foresee that they might also become something else that would horrify him—products of corporations, data resources to be endlessly mined and peddled elsewhere.

Today's Republican Party...is an insurgent outlier. It has become ideologically extreme; contemptuous of the inherited social and economic policy regime; scornful of compromise; unpersuaded by conventional understanding of facts, evidence, and science; and dismissive of the legitimacy of its political opposition, all but declaring war on the government. The Democratic Party, while no paragon of civic virtue, is more ideologically centered and diverse, protective of the government's role as it developed over the course of the last century, open to incremental changes in policy fashioned through bargaining with the Republicans, and less disposed to or adept at take-no-prisoners conflict between the parties. This asymmetry between the parties, which journalists and scholars often brush aside or whitewash in a quest for "balance," constitutes a huge obstacle to effective governance.

Vuole credere lei che sarei orgoglioso e felice di possedere un amico tra gli uomini? Ma fino ad ora ho avuto amici solo tra demoni, farfarelli, mostri oscuri e fantasmi afasiaci, vale a dire: tra letterati.

Dr. Robert Hare, one of the foremost researchers on sociopathy, believes that a sociopath is four times more likely to be at the top of the corporate ladder than in the janitor’s closet, due to the close match between the personality traits of sociopaths and the unusual demands of high-powered jobs.

Everyone has their different tastes in regards to power, just like everyone has their different tastes for food or sex. My bread and butter is feeling like my mind and my ideas are shaping the world around me, which is of course why I bother writing the blog.

(Catholic) monks taught metallurgy, introduced new crops, copied ancient texts, preserved literacy, pioneered in technology, invented champagne, improved the European landscape, provided for wanderers of every stripe, and looked after the lost and shipwrecked.

In books I meet the dead as if they were alive, in books I see what is yet to come... All things decay and pass with time... all fame would fall victim to oblivion if God had not given mortal men the book to aid them.

Behavior that Christians would never support in any other context suddenly becomes perfectly acceptable, even praiseworthy, simply because the state has declared that a war is under way. (That’s what Voltaire meant when he said, “It is forbidden to kill; therefore all murderers are punished unless they kill in large numbers and to the sound of trumpets.”)

The father of Egyptology was Father Athanasius Kircher.

Io sto tra due mondi, di cui nessuno e' il mio, e per questo la mia vita e' un po' difficile.

For democracies to thrive, the majority must respect the rights of minorities to dissent, loudly.

precautions are expensive, either in terms of actual costs for safety or opportunity costs for risks that you could have taken but didn’t.

A belief is essentially a point of view that we hold to be true.

The sudden urge to join the fray was intoxicating. Aaron Corbet

Man, get outta here! Tupac was the truth." "Yeah, twenty years ago." "Nah, even now. Like, check this." He points at me, which means he's about to go into one of his Khalil philosophical moments. "'Pac said Thug Life stood for 'The Hate U Give Little Infants Fucks Everybody." I raise my eyebrows. "What?" "Listen! The Hate U - the letter U - Give Little Infants Fucks Everybody. T-H-U-G L-I-F-E. Meaning what society give us as youth, it bites them in the ass when we wild out. Get it?" "Damn. Yeah.

Facing the truth about those we have loved (e.g., our parents, siblings, a treasured friend, or a spiritual leader) is unbelievably hard, but there is no glory in clinging to a lie because the truth is too painful to accept.   One

we should not be seduced into thinking that these diagnoses are anything other than summary descriptions of the people in question” and echoes the concern that they are “actually moral judgments masquerading as medical explanations.

No longer does it make sense for an inventor to ask himself, “Can I make a better mousetrap?” because the threat is greater that the government might ban his mousetrap, however safe and efficient it is.

Perhaps the most noticeable aspect of my confidence is the way I sustain eye contact. Some people have called it a “predator stare,” and it appears that most sociopaths have it. Sustained eye contact can seem hostile, and so zoo visitors are frequently advised not to stare at gorillas, lest it be taken as a sign of aggression. Most humans seem to think so, too;

failure to conform to social norms. I prefer to define my sociopathy as a set of traits that inform my personality but don’t define me: I am generally free of entangling and irrational emotions, I am strategic and canny, I am intelligent and confident and charming, but I also struggle to react appropriately to other people’s confusing and emotion-driven social cues.

I was taught in church that I am a child of God. I also read the Old Testament. There is a story in Kings where God has forty-two children dismembered by she-bears for insulting the prophet Elisha. It was not much of a stretch to believe that that God was my father.

What was a surprise was when the dog answered his question. 'Want to play ball now,' Gabriel [the dog] declared in a very clear and precise voice. Aaron opened his eyes and gazed up into the grinning face of the animal. There was no doubt now. The day's descent into madness was complete. He was, in fact, losing his mind.

Tolerance for failure is a very specific part of the excellent company culture—and that lesson comes directly from the top. Champions have to make lots of tries and consequently suffer some failures or the organization won’t learn. Thomas J. Peters and Robert H. Waterman Jr. In Search of Excellence

He's got gas," Aaron explained, his voice muffled by the hand still over his face. "It happens when he eats stuff he's not supposed to." "It's vile," Camael said, glaring at the dog. "Something should be done so that it never happens again.

I don’t want to see landscapes, i.e. scenic paintings of them, because I don’t want to see the original realities – as optical effects that is. I want to see the deeper reality underlying the scenic, the expression of what are sometimes called abstract imaginings. The ‘simply natural’ is interesting no longer.

A volte desidereresti fuggire in un'altra parte del libro. Smetti di leggere e sfogli le pagine in avanti, scorgendo di sfuggita la storia che corre, non al di sopra del mondo ma attraverso di esso, attraverso foreste e complicazioni, attraverso il caos delle intenzioni e delle città. A mano a mano che ti avvicini alle ultime pagine, affretti sempre più il ritmo della lettura, finché non ti ritrovi immerso in un groviglio di inquietudine. Poi, all'improvviso, il pollice perde la presa e fluttui fuori dalla storia tornando in te stesso. Il libro è di nuovo una fragile nave fatta di tessuto e di carta. Sei stato ovunque e in nessun posto

The single-minded focus on scoring political points over solving problems, escalating over the last several decades, has reached a level of such intensity and bitterness that the government seems incapable of taking and sustaining public decisions responsive to the existential challenges facing the country.

È sempre stata attribuita allo sport, in ogni epoca e soprattutto da ogni governo, un’importanza grandissima, per la buona ragione che lo sport intrattiene e obnubila e rimbecillisce le masse, e in primo luogo le dittature sanno bene perché sono sempre e in ogni caso favorevoli allo sport. Chi è per lo sport ha le masse a suo fianco, chi è per la cultura ha le masse contro, diceva mio nonno, e per questo tutti i governi sono sempre per lo sport e contro la cultura. Come ogni dittatura, anche la dittatura nazionalsocialista è diventata potente e quasi padrona del mondo servendosi dello sport di massa. In ogni epoca e in tutti gli Stati le masse vengono accalappiate mediante lo sport, e non c’è Stato che possa dirsi così piccolo e insignificante da non sacrificare tutto allo sport.

'Shotgun!' he bellowed, startling them as he scrambled to the front, passenger-side door. Camael looked at him, an expression of confusion on his goateed face. 'What did you Say?' 'I said shotgun,' Gabriel [the dog] explained. 'It's what you're supposed to say when you want to ride in the front seat.' Aaron could not help but laugh. No matter how many conversations he had had with the animal, Gabriel's increased intelligence still managed to surprise him.

My apologies, see, I forgot my manners. I get on the mic ’cause it’s my life. You show off for girls and cameras. You a pop star, not a rapper. A Vanilla Ice or a Hammer. Y’all hear this crap he dumping out? Somebody get him a Pamper. And a crown for me. The best have heard about me. You can only spell “brilliant” by first spelling Bri. You see, naturally, I do my shit with perfection. Better call a bodyguard ’cause you gon’ need some protection, And on this here election, the people crown a new leader. You didn’t see this coming, and your ghostwriters didn’t either. I came here to ether. I’m sorry to do this to you. This is no longer a battle, it’s your funeral, boo. I’m murdering you. On my corner they call me coroner, I’m warning ya. Tell the truth, this dude is borin’ ya. You confused like a foreigner. I’ll explain with ease: You’re just a casualty in the reality of the madness of Bri. No fallacies, I spit maladies, causin’ fatalities, And do it casually, damaging rappers without bandaging. Imagining managing my own label, my own salary. And actually, factually, there’s no MC that’s as bad as me. Milez? That’s cute. But it don’t make me cower. I move at light speed, you stuck at per hour. You spit like a lisp. I spit like a high power. Bri’s the future, and you Today like Matt Lauer. You coward. But you’re a G? It ain’t convincing to me. You talk about your clothes, about your shopping sprees. You talk about your Glock, about your i-c-e. But in this here ring, they all talking ’bout me, Bri!

Al boia che lo invita a togliersi il farsetto dice: "Non parlarmi in modo così gelido; già ho la voce rauca./ Non vorrei prendere altro freddo, sai./ Indica il ceppo; qui non ci sono stato mai". E quando quello precisa "Dal lato oriente, signore" Moro dice la su ultima battuta: "Oriente, sia./ Andiamo a spirare; fatto quello, il sonno riposo mi dia./ Qui muore l'allegria di More. E a buona ragione:/ Con la vita fragile delle carne, muore anche il buffone./ Non un occhio saluti questo mio tronco con una lacrima amara. /La nostra nascita al cielo deve essere così, senza paura".

The Church is a place where human beings have the conviction to patiently seek the truth together, in a shared life of charity, one that is both cosmopolitan and personal, both reasonable and religious, both philosophical and theological. This communion in the truth is made possible, however, only because people have first accepted to be apprenticed to revelation through a common effort of learning the truth from another (i.e., God), who is the author of truth, and from one another.

What makes America unique is not that it built MIT, or that its grads are generating economic growth and innovation, but that every state in the country has universities trying to do the same. “America has 4,000 colleges and universities,” said Allan E. Goodman, president of the Institute of International Education. “The rest of the world combined has 7,768 institutions of higher education.

Sometimes the working memory impairments of ADHD allow a momentary emotion to become too strong; the person is flooded with one emotion and unable to attend to other emotions, facts, and memories relevant to that immediate situation. At other times, the working memory impairments of ADHD leave the person with insufficient sensitivity to the importance of a particular emotion because he or she hasn't kept other relevant information sufficiently in mind or factored it into his or her assessment of the situation.

Having to amuse myself during those earlier years, I read voraciously and widely. Mythic matter and folklore made up much of that reading—retellings of the old stories (Mallory, White, Briggs), anecdotal collections and historical investigations of the stories' backgrounds—and then I stumbled upon the Tolkien books which took me back to Lord Dunsany, William Morris, James Branch Cabell, E.R. Eddison, Mervyn Peake and the like. I was in heaven when Lin Carter began the Unicorn imprint for Ballantine and scoured the other publishers for similar good finds, delighting when I discovered someone like Thomas Burnett Swann, who still remains a favourite. This was before there was such a thing as a fantasy genre, when you'd be lucky to have one fantasy book published in a month, little say the hundreds per year we have now. I also found myself reading Robert E. Howard (the Cormac and Bran mac Morn books were my favourites), Lovecraft, Clark Ashton Smith and finally started reading science fiction after coming across Andre Norton's Huon of the Horn. That book wasn't sf, but when I went to read more by her, I discovered everything else was. So I tried a few and that led me to Clifford Simak, Roger Zelazny and any number of other fine sf writers. These days my reading tastes remain eclectic, as you might know if you've been following my monthly book review column in The Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction. I'm as likely to read Basil Johnston as Stephen King, Jeanette Winterson as Harlan Ellison, Barbara Kingsolver as Patricia McKillip, Andrew Vachss as Parke Godwin—in short, my criteria is that the book must be good; what publisher's slot it fits into makes absolutely no difference to me.

There is also the story about Tyrone Slothrop, who was sent into the Zone to be present as his own assembley--perhaps heavily paranoid voices whisper, 'his time's assembley'--and there ought to be a punchline to it, but there isn't. The plan went wrong. He is being broken down instead and being scattered. His cards have been laid down, Celtic style, in the order suggested by Mr. A.E. Waite, laid out and read, but they are the cards of a tanker and feeb: they point only to a long and scuffling future, to mediocrity...-to no clear happiness or redeeming cataclysm.

Among the writers he was reading when he wrote these stories in the 1950s—and he was reading all the time, all kinds of books, dozens and dozens of them—were David Riesman, Saul Bellow, Bernard Malamud, John Cheever, James Baldwin, Randall Jarrell, Sigmund Freud, Paul Goodman, William Styron, C. Wright Mills, Martin Buber, George Orwell, Suzanne Langer, F. R. Leavis, David Daiches, Edmund Wilson, Alfred Kazin, Ralph Ellison, Erich Fromm, Joseph Conrad, Dylan Thomas, Sean O’Casey, e. e. cummings—who collectively represented a republic of discourse in which he aspired to

E mentre lo Stato e mentre la società e mentre la massa fanno di tutto per eliminare il pensiero, dice Oehler, noi ci opponiamo a questi sviluppi con tutti i mezzi a nostra disposizione, anche se noi stessi per la maggior parte del tempo crediamo all’insensatezza del pensiero, perché sappiamo che il pensiero è piena insensatezza, ma perché – d’altra parte – sappiamo con altrettanta precisione che noi senza l’insensatezza del pensiero non siamo, ovvero non siamo nulla. [...] Di tanto in tanto, però, non possiamo fare a meno, dice Oehler, di adeguarci all’errore, di abbandonarci all’errore e cioè a tutti gli errori in generale e di non essere in assoluto in nient’altro che nell’errore. Infatti, a guardar con esattezza, dice Oehler, tutto è errore, come Lei sa. [...] L’esistenza è errore, dice Oehler.

Joel Bakan, author of The Corporation: The Pathological Pursuit of Profit and Power argues that if corporations have 'person hood' under the law, then it makes sense to question what kind of people they are. He posits that corporations behave with all the classical signs of sociopathy: they are inherently amoral, they elevate their own interests above all others', and they disregard moral and sometimes legal limits on their behavior in pursuit of their own advancement. Organizations of this type would thrive under the leadership of people who have the same traits: sociopaths.

We should drop the bizarre American fiction that corporations are people, enjoying all the rights of citizens, including unfettered campaign donations as a form of free speech. Indeed, corporations possess greater rights than do people, as they cannot be jailed or executed, while citizens can and do suffer those fates. As the legal historian Zephyr Teachout has observed, the founders would have considered corporate campaign spending the essence of political corruption.

The closest analogue to a sociopath’s love is probably the love of a child: intense, accepting, selfish. And finally, like a child, the sociopath will be extremely loyal. A sociopath will never put you above himself, but if you’re worth it to him he will readily put you above all others. I confirmed this with my friend, that with regard to being friends with a sociopath, “the pros outweigh the cons.” This is not to say that my loved ones do not know who I am; most of them know me intimately and are well aware of the particular attributes that set me apart from them and most of humanity. In fact, many of the people dearest to me are extreme empaths, individuals who—with full knowledge of the tiny blackness of my heart—cannot help but place their soft, fragile hearts in my care. I reciprocate with my own brand of acceptance and devotion.

Having a gut instinct that told me how to be a moral person might be evolutionarily handy. On the other hand, emotional moral judgment also enables people to do really horrible things to each other, like lynching or “honor” killings, and justify them by calling them “moral.” Because sociopaths don’t experience morality emotionally, I would argue that we are freed to be more rational and more tolerant. There is something to be said for the impartiality of pure reason—religion-created mass hysteria among the supposedly mentally healthy populace has resulted in much worse damage and carnage in the world than anything sociopaths have caused. (Although I imagine that there may sometimes be sociopaths at the head of it all, whipping up the masses to do their bidding.)

For the company to assemble at a late hour and engage in unusual, exciting and severe exercise throughout the entire night, is often too great a tax upon the physical system. To dress too thinly, and in a state of perspiration to be exposed, as ladies at the ball frequently are, to draughts of cold, is oftentimes to plant the seeds of a disease from which they never recover. Again, to come in contact, as ladies are liable to, more especially at the public ball, with disreputable men, is sometimes to form alliances that will make a lifetime of sorrow.' —Thomas E. Hill, Evils of the Ball, 1883

Cae la noche a toda prisa y el cristal helado produce en tus manos un tintineo leve pero muy agradable. La gran ciudad parece arder en toda su amplitud, en su apabullante telón de torres recubiertas de destellos, zurcidos ahora junto al polen diamantino de un millón de luce…y el sol se ha puesto ya detrás de ellas y la vieja luz rojiza del crepúsculo queda pinta sin calor, sin violencia, sobre el río. Y allí están los botes, los remolques, las barcazas que pasan y la perspectiva alada de los puentes con su gracia exultante. De pronto, ha caído la noche y hay barcos allí, hay barcos, y una ansiedad animal e intolerable dentro de ti que no consigues calmar.

I'm not unhappy, for the most part, although I do think there is a certain emptiness and meaningless that I feel, sort of like a homesickness. People feel homesick when they are not surrounded by familiar things, when they are being seen out of context, when things change too quickly. They are faced with the transitory and delicate nature of life (i.e. their mortality), and with the fact that their secure little existence is basically a lie constructed to soothe their uneasiness about facing the world head on, with all of its unknowns. People don't like looking into the abyss, and for good reason. But a sociopath life means always being aware of the abyss.

Non lavorava come chi lavora per vivere, ma come qualcuno che non abbia altro scopo che lavorare, giudicandosi zero come uomo vivente e desiderando essere considerato solo in quanto artefice, che per il resto se ne va in giro modesto e insignificante, come un attore senza trucco, che non è nulla finchè non ha nulla da interpretare. Lavorava silenzioso, appartato, invisibile e pieno di disprezzo per quei mediocri che consideravano il genio un ornamento mondano e, poveri o ricchi che fossero, andavano in giro arruffati e cenciosi, o ricercavano il lusso con eccentriche cravatte, e insomma erano convinti di menare una vita insuperabilmente felice, affascinante e artistica; senza sapere che le opere di valore nascono solo sotto il premere di una vita cattiva, che colui che vive non lavora e che, per essere perfetti creatori, bisogna essere morti.

La solitudine è questa situazione un po’ buffa, un po’ ridicola, un po’ aggressiva di un uomo seduto al tavolo di un ristorante turistico: l’immagine di una persona incompleta, tanto goffa da sembrare stupida o arrogante. Leo deve incominciare a difendere questa sua solitudine. Non deve permettere che gli altri lo vedano come un atomo dalle valenze aperte, come qualcuno immiserito dalla mancanza di un compagno, di un amico, di un amore. La solitudine è anche scomodità. Obbliga a rivolgersi agli altri, a fare richieste continue. Sul treno lui non può lasciare i bagagli per recarsi al ristorante. Deve cercare il controllore, o un altro passeggero, e chiedergli di dare cortesemente un’occhiata alla macchina fotografica. Negli aeroporti, con il carrello carico di valigie, non riesce a raggiungere la toilette, o la cabina del telefono soprattutto se si trovano a livelli diversi da quelli in cui è stato sbarcato e allora, scaricare i bagagli, affrontare le scale, deporli, entrare in un bagno diventa un’impresa impossibile, faticosa già mentalmente. Nei ristoranti è pressato dalla gente in coda solo perché gli altri sono in due e lui, solo, sta occupando un piccolo tavolo. Negli alberghi le camere singole sono, in genere, le più strette e le più piccole: i sottotetti o le mansardine della servitù. E per giunta c’è sempre un supplemento da pagare.    La solitudine impietosisce gli altri. A volte lui sente lo sguardo indiscreto della gente posato sulla sua figura come un gesto di una violenza inaudita. Come se gli altri lo pensassero cieco e gli si accostassero per fargli attraversare la strada. Certe premure lo offendono più dell’indifferenza, perché è come se gli ricordassero continuamente che a lui manca qualcosa e che non può essere felice. Si vede con un lato del corpo sanguinante, una cicatrice aperta dalla quale è stata separata l’altra metà. Vorrebbe spiegare che sì, Thomas gli manca e di questo sta soffrendo. Ma che non avverte la propria solitudine come una disperazione. Si sta concentrando su di sé, si sta racchiudendo nelle proprie fantasie e nei propri ricordi. Sta cercando di abbracciare la parte più vera di se stesso recuperandola attraverso il ricordo, la riflessione, il silenzio.

Qui non posso non pensare a Thomas Bernhard, il grande scrittore austriaco, che non ha mai smesso di criticare e fustigare – con odio e amore, e anche con humor, – il suo paese, la sua epoca, la società in cui viveva. È morto il 12 febbraio 1989. Per lui non ci sono stati lutti nazionali o internazionali, non ci sono state false lacrime, neanche lacrime vere, forse. Solo i suoi lettori appassionati, tra i quali mi annovero, si sono resi conto dell’immensa perdita per la letteratura: Thomas Bernhard, ormai, non scriverà più. Peggio ancora: ha proibito di pubblicare i manoscritti che ha lasciato dietro di sé. È l’ultimo «no» alla società da parte del geniale autore del libro intitolato Ja. Questo libro è qui, davanti a me, sul tavolo, insieme a Cemento, Il soccombente, L’imitatore di voci, A colpi d’ascia e altro. L’ho prestato a diversi amici dicendo che non avevo mai riso tanto leggendo un libro. Me l’hanno restituito senza essere riusciti a leggerlo fino in fondo, tanto questa lettura sembrava loro «demoralizzante» e «insostenibile». Quanto all’aspetto «comico» del testo, proprio non riuscivano a vederlo. È vero che il suo contenuto è terribile, perché questo «ja» è un «sì» alla morte, e perciò un no alla vita. Tuttavia, che lo voglia o no, Thomas Bernhard vivrà eternamente per servire d’esempio a tutti coloro che pretendono di essere degli scrittori.

Ron Paul is crazy,” the guardians of respectable opinion assured us. What they really meant was that Ron Paul defied traditional political categories and advanced positions outside the Clinton-to-Romney continuum. People whose minds have been formed in ideological prison camps for 12 years have learned to confine themselves within an approved range of possibilities. Tax me 35 percent or tax me 40 percent, but don’t raise the possibility that taxation itself may be a moral issue rather than just a matter of numbers. Either bomb or starve that poor country, but don’t tell me there might be a third option. The Fed should loosen or the Fed should tighten, but don’t tell me our money supply doesn’t need to be supervised by a central planner. As always, confine yourself to the three square inches of intellectual terrain the New York Times has graciously allotted to you.

Dandogli le spalle apro il rubinetto ed aspetto si riempia l’acquaio per lavarli. Thomas mi raggiunge senza fare alcun rumore. Me ne accorgo solo quando poggia contemporaneamente le mani sui bordi del ripiano, bloccandomi tra le sue braccia. Quel contatto improvviso mi fa trasalire ed uno dei due piatti che reggo mi scivola di mano, sprofondando nella schiuma. «Ok, facciamo così» mi sussurra ad un orecchio, avvicinandosi al mio viso. «Oggi è il tuo giorno fortunato: voglio essere comprensivo. Fingerò di non aver rischiato di rompermi l’osso del collo cadendo in una buca di più di due metri. Sorvolerò sulla storia della macchina e dimenticherò di aver trascorso un’ora cercando di convincere mia zia che non sono il crudele maschilista insensibile che crede. Tu, d’altro canto, verrai con me nello studio, ti siederai e ti impegnerai a trovare un accordo ragionevole. Considera che mi sento particolarmente generoso, cosa che capita di rado».

In 1881, being on a visit to Boston, my wife and I found ourselves in the Parker House with the Ingersoll's, and went over to Charleston to hear him lecture. His subject was 'Some Mistakes of Moses,' and it was a memorable experience. Our lost leaders, -- Emerson, Thoreau, Theodore Parker, -- who had really spoken to disciples rather than to the nation, seemed to have contributed something to form this organ by which their voice could reach the people. Every variety of power was in this orator, -- logic and poetry, humor and imagination, simplicity and dramatic art, moral and boundless sympathy. The wonderful power which Washington's Attorney-general, Edmund Randolph, ascribed to Thomas Paine of insinuating his ideas equally into learned and unlearned had passed from Paine's pen to Ingersoll's tongue. The effect on the people was indescribable. The large theatre was crowded from pit to dome. The people were carried from plaudits of his argument to loud laughter at his humorous sentences, and his flexible voice carried the sympathies of the assembly with it, at times moving them to tears by his pathos. {Conway's thoughts on the great Robert Ingersoll}

Eu mai curând răsfoiesc decât citesc, să știți, și-mi place răsfoitul la fel de mult ca și cititul, în viața mea am răsfoit de un milion de ori mai mult decât am citit, dar cu răsfoitul am trăit mereu cel puțin la fel de multă bucurie și plăcere intelectuală veritabilă ca și cu cititul. E totuși mai bine să citim cu totul doar trei pagini dintr-o carte de patru sute, dar de o mie de ori mai temeinic decât cititorul obișnuit, cel care citește totul, dar nici măcar o singură pagină temeinic, spunea el. E mai bine să citim douăsprezece rânduri dintr-o carte cu maximă intensitate și să pătrundem către totalitate, cum s-ar zice, decât să citim toată cartea ca cititorul obișnuit, care la sfârșit știe la fel de puțin despre cartea citită ca și pasagerul din avion despre peisajul deasupra căruia zboară. El nu-i percepe nici măcar contururile. Așa citesc astăzi oamenii totul, în fugă, citesc tot și nu pricep nimic. Eu pășesc într-o carte și mă cufund cu totul în ea, gândiți-vă la o pagină sau două dintr-o lucrare filosofică, de parcă aș păși într-un peisaj, în natură, într-o formațiune statală, pe vreun colț al planetei, dacă vreți, cu totul și cu totul și nu doar cu jumătate din puteri și cu jumătate de inimă, pătrund în acest colț al pământului ca să-l cercetez și apoi, după ce l-am cercetat cu toată temeinicia de care sunt în stare, să conchid asupra întregului. Cine citește totul, n-a priceput nimic, spunea el. Nu-i nevoie să-l citești pe Goethe în întregime, nici pe Kant în întregime, și nici pe Schopenhauer nu-i nevoie să-l citești în întregime, câteva pagini din Werther, câteva pagini din Afinități elective, iar la sfârșit știm mai mult despre ambele cărți decât dacă le-am fi citit de la început până la sfârșit, ceea ce ne-ar priva în orice caz de plăcerea cea mai pură. Dar pentru această autolimitare drastică e nevoie de atâta curaj și de atâta forță spirituală, încât doar rareori le găsești, iar noi înșine le găsim rareori; omul care citește este lacom în modul cel mai dezgustător, și precum acel ce devorează carnea, își strică stomacul și sănătatea și capul și toată existența spirituală.