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It’s such an intense feeling. I remember thinking, “I’ll never be a real person.” And you know, I wasn’t totally wrong about that. Sometimes I feel like a character in a book. I look at the solidity of a guy like Bill, the analytical precision of Clive or Derek, the raw energy of the bluesmen, Mindy’s capacity for pleasure, Oothoon’s <> That’s real. I don’t think I’m the way I am because of what happened to me as a kid, but I just feel like there’s this hypersensitivity I‘ve always had. This way another guy could make me feel like I’m not real. Even if he wasn’t trying, and I don’t just mean the bullies.
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