Dept Of Speculation Quotes

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But now it seems possible that the truth about getting older is that there are fewer and fewer things to make fun of until finally there is nothing you are sure you will never be.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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If I had to sum up what he did to me, I’d say it was this: he made me sing along to all the bad songs on the radio. Both when he loved me and when he didn't.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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She thinks before she acts. Or more properly, she thinks instead of acts. A character flaw, not a virtue.
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Three things no one has ever said about me: You make it look so easy. You are very mysterious. You need to take yourself more seriously.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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A thought experiment courtesy of the Stoics. If you are tired of everything you possess, imagine that you have lost all these things.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The only love that feels like love is the doomed kind. (Fun fact.)
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Some women make it look so easy, the way they cast ambition off like an expensive coat that no longer fits.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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This is another way in which he is an admirable person. If he notices something is broken, he will try to fix it. He won’t just think about how unbearable it is that things keep breaking, that you can never fucking outrun entropy.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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A few nights later, I secretly hope that I might be a genius. Why else can no amount of sleeping pills fell my brain? But in the morning my daughter asks me what a cloud is and I cannot say.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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My plan was to never get married. I was going to be an art monster instead. Women almost never become art monsters because art monsters only concern themselves with art, never mundane things. Nabokov didn't even fold his own umbrella. Vera licked his stamps for him.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The Buddhists say there are 121 states of consciousness. Of these, only three involve misery or suffering. Most of us spend our time moving back and forth between these three.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Also she signed away the right to self-destruct years ago. The fine print on the birth certificate, her friend calls it.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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And that phrase - 'sleeping like a baby.' Some blonde said it blithely on the subway the other day. I wanted to lie down next to her and scream for five hours in her ear.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There is still such crookedness in my heart. I had thought loving two people so much would straighten it.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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But my agent has a theory. She says every marriage is jerry-rigged. Even the ones that look reasonable from the outside are held together inside with chewing gum and wire and string.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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When God is a father, he is said to be elsewhere. When God is a mother, she is said to be everywhere.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Anger looked like fireworks. Love was an indistinct blur.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Advice for wives circa 1896: The indiscriminate reading of novels is one of the most injurious habits to which a married woman can be subject. Besides the false views of human nature it will impart … it produces an indifference to the performance of domestic duties, and contempt for ordinary realities.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There are 60 seconds in a minute, 60 minutes in an hour, 24 hours in a day, 7 days in a week, 52 weeks in a year, and X years in a life. Solve for X.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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It is important if someone asks you to remember one of your happiest times to consider not only the question but also the questioner. If the question is asked by someone you love, it is fair to assume that this person hopes to feature in this recollection he has called forth.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Of course it is difficult. You are creating a creature with a soul, my friend says.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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What Rilke said: Surely all art is the result of one’s having been in danger, of having gone through an experience all the way to the end, to where no one can go any further.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The baby’s eyes were dark, almost black, and when I nursed her in the middle of the night, she’d stare at me with a stunned, shipwrecked look as if my body were the island she’d washed up on.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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How had she become one of those people who wears yoga pants all day? She used to make fun of those people. With their happiness maps and their gratitude journals and their bags made out of recycled tire treads. But now it seems possible that the truth about getting older is that there are fewer and fewer things to make fun of until finally there is nothing you are sure you will never be.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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When she tells people she might move to the country, they say, But aren’t you afraid you’re going to get lonely? Get?
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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What did you do today, you’d say when you got home from work, and I’d try my best to craft an anecdote for you out of nothing.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The reason to have a home is to keep certain people in and everyone else out. A home has a perimeter. But sometimes our perimeter was breached by neighbors, by Girl Scouts, by Jehovah’s Witnesses. I never liked to hear the doorbell ring. None of the people I liked ever turned up that way.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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For years, I kept a Post-it note above my desk. WORK NOT LOVE! was what it said. It seemed a sturdier kind of happiness.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Sometimes at night I conduct interviews with myself. What do you want? I don't know. What do you want? I don't know. What seems to be the problem? Just leave me alone.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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My husband gets a new job.... The pay is better. It has benefits. How is it, people ask. "Not bad," he says with a shrug. "Only vaguely soul-crushing.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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But lately I'm like a beatnik in a movie. Fuck this bourgeois shit, baby! Let's be pure of heart again!
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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You think that the mental anguish you are experiencing is a permanent condition, but for the vast majority of people it is only a temporary state. (But what if I’m special? What if I’m in the minority?)
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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No such thing as the world becoming an easy place to save your soul in.
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John Keats
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What would it be like to make it so late into life before trouble hit? To always have someone on the front porch, calling you to dinner? The husband doesn’t have even a touch of this raised-by-wolvesness.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There is a story about a prisoner at Alcatraz who spent his nights in solitary confinement dropping a button on the floor then trying to find it again in the dark. Each night, in this manner, he passed the hours until dawn. I do not have a button. In all other respects, my nights are the same.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There is a picture of my mother holding me as a baby, a look of naked love on her face. For years, it embarrassed me. Now there is a picture of me with my daughter looking exactly the same way.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Dizzying, this happiness.
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Whenever the wife wants to do drugs, she thinks about Sartre. One bad trip and then a giant lobster followed him around for the rest of his days.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Evolution designed us to cry out if we are being abandoned. To make as much noise as possible so the tribe will come back for us.
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Once when he was still young, I saw a bit of his scalp showing through his hair and I was afraid. But it was just a cowlick. Now sometimes it shows through for real, but I feel only tenderness.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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What Rilke said: I want to be with those who know secret things or else alone.
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get a job writing fortune cookies instead. I could try to write really American ones. Already, I’ve jotted down a few of them. Objects create happiness. The animals are pleased to be of use. Your cities will shine forever. Death will not touch you.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The thing is this: Even if the husband leaves her in this awful craven way, she will still have to count it as a miracle, all of those happy years she spent with him. β€œIt was a fucking miracle that I found him,” she tells the philosopher.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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I write to close my eyes.
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Franz Kafka
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I bought a warmer coat with many ingenious pockets. You put your hands in all of them.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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I tried to figure out if I felt calmer with a blanket over my head. No I did not was the answer.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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At night, they lie in bed holding hands. It is possible if she is stealthy enough that the wife can do this while secretly giving the husband the finger.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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That night on TV, I saw the tattoo I wished my life had warranted. If you have not known suffering, love me. A Russian murderer beat me to it.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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If you are tired of everything you possess, imagine that you have lost all these things.
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Also because I’m always saying he could quit his job if he wanted and we’ll go somewhere cheap and live on rice and beans with our kid. My husband doesn’t believe me about that last bit. And why should he? Once I spent $13 on a piece of cheese.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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I met an Australian who said he loved to travel alone. He talked about his job as we drank by the sea. When a student gets it, when it first breaks across his face, it’s so fucking beautiful, he told me. I nodded, moved, though I’d never taught anyone a single thing. What do you teach, I asked him. Rollerblading, he explained.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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We stayed at a cheap hotel that had a view out the window more beautiful than anything I’d ever seen. The water was wickedly blue. A cliff of dark rock jutted out of the sea. I wanted to cry because I was sure I would never get to be in such a place again.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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She remembers the first night she knew she loved him, the way the fear came rushing in. She laid her head on his chest and listened to his heart. One day this too will stop, she thought. The no, no, no of it.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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She says every marriage is jerry-rigged. Even the ones that look reasonable from the outside are held together inside with chewing gum and wire and string.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Her neighbor’s husband fell in love with a girl who served coffee to him every morning. She was twenty-three and wanted to be a dancer or a poet or a physical therapist. When he left his family, his wife said, β€œDoes it matter to you how foolish you look? That all our friends find you ridiculous?” He stood in the doorway, his coat in his hand. β€œNo,” he said. The wife watched her neighbor get fat over the next year. The Germans have a word for that. Kummerspeck. Literally, grief bacon.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The adultery book says to say affirmations of some sort each day, about yourself or your marriage. The wife doesn't like the ones that are suggested so she makes up her own. Nerves of Steel No favors for fuckers
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There is a man who travels around the world trying to find places where you can stand still and hear no human sound. It is impossible to feel calm in cities, he believes, because we so rarely hear birdsong there. Our ears evolved to be our warning systems. We are on high alert in places where no birds sing. To live in a city is to be forever flinching.
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The wife reads about something called β€œthe wayward fog” on the Internet. The one who has the affair becomes enveloped in it. His old life and wife become unbearably irritating. His possible new life seems a shimmering dream. All of this has to do with chemicals in the brain, allegedly.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Something in her past that makes her want to tear things to shreds.
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Life equals structure plus activity.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There is a time between being a wife and being a divorcΓ©e, but no good word for it. Maybe say what a politician might say. Stateless person. Yes, stateless.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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It is so easy now for the wife to be patient and kind to the daughter. She will never love anyone or anything more. Never. It is official.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Are animals lonely? Other animals, I mean.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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What Simone Weil said: Attention without object is a supreme form of prayer.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Memories are microscopic. Tiny particles that swarm together and apart. Little people, Edison called them. Entities.
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For fifteen, maybe twenty minutes, she’d suspend her fierce judgment of the world and fall silent there. And when she did, a tiny space would clear in my head and I could think again.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The days with the baby felt long but there was nothing expansive about them. Caring for her required me to repeat a series of tasks that had the peculiar quality of seeming both urgent and tedious. They cut the day up into little scraps.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There is a husband who requires mileage receipts, another who wants sex at three a.m. One who forbids short haircuts, another who refuses to feed the pets. I would never put up with that, all the other wives think. Never. But my agent has a theory. She says every marriage is jerry-rigged. Even the ones that look reasonable from the outside are held together with chewing gum and wire and string.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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I hate often and easily. I hate, for example, people who sit with their legs splayed. People who claim to give 110 percent. People who call themselves "comfortable" when what they mean is decadently rich. You're so judgmental, my shrink tells me, and I cry all the way home, thinking of it.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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I learned you were fearless about the weather. You wanted to walk around the city, come rain come snow come sleet, recording things. I bought a warmer coat with many ingenious pockets. You put your hands in all of them.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The reason to have a home is to keep certain people in and everyone else out.
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The invention of the ship is also the invention of the shipwreck.
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Both have trouble working up the nerve to go into the Little Theater of Hurt Feelings.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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You know what’s punk rock about marriage? Nothing. You know what’s punk rock about marriage? All the puke and shit and piss.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Sometimes she just stands and looks out the window where the people whose lives are intact enough not to have to take yoga live.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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But the truth is she has good impulse control. That is why she isn't dead. Also why she became a writer instead of a heroin addict. She thinks before she acts. Or more properly, she thinks instead of acts. A character flaw, not a virtue.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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There is a man who travels around the world trying to find places where you can stand still and hear no human sound.
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Studies show that 110% of men who leave their wives for other women report that their wives are crazy.
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Here is what happens in middle age: Some friends and acquaintances who were merely eccentric for years become unmistakably mad.
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found a book called Thriving Not Surviving in a box on the street. I stood there, flipping through it, unwilling to commit.
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Would you like to be a doctor when you grow up?” I ask her. She looks at me oddly. β€œI’m already a doctor,” she says.
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I slipped it into your papers to see if you would notice.” The Zen master Ikkyu was once asked to write a distillation of the highest wisdom. He wrote only one word: Attention.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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What Kafka said: I write to close my eyes.
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I read an article written by a woman living alone who got them. She talks about how depressing it is to have no one to help her with all the spraying and washing and cooking and bagging. She’s spent all her money, hasn’t had a date in years. I show it to my husband. β€œIt’s true. We’re lucky,” he says.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Hard to believe I used to think love was such a fragile business. Once when he was still young, I saw a bit of his scalp showing through his hair and I was afraid. But it was just a cowlick. Now sometimes it shows through for real, but I feel only tenderness.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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It is during this period that people burn their houses down. At first the flames are beautiful to see. But later when the fog wears off they come back to find only ashes.
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Sometimes at night I conduct interviews with myself. What do you want? I don’t know. What do you want? I don’t know. What seems to be the problem? Just leave me alone.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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In Paris, even the subways are required to be beautiful.
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Einstein wondered if the moon would exist if we didn’t look at it.
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Do you have a secret life? This is what she asks all her friends.
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Memories are microscopic. Tiny particles that swarm together and apart.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The wife watched her neighbor get fat over the next year. The Germans have a word for that. Kummerspeck. Literally, grief bacon.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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The best thing with crazy people, Grandma Win used to say – the only thing, really – is to be somewhere else.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Du slΓΆsar antagligen bort tid pΓ₯ sΓ₯dant som att Γ€ta och sova" sa Barthelme. "Sluta med det, och lΓ€s all filosofi och all litteratur." Och konst, tillade han. Och politik.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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Once ether was everywhere. The crook of an arm, say. (Also the heavens.) It slowed the movement of the stars, told the left hand where the right hand went. Then it was gone, like hysteria, like the hollow earth. The news came over the radio. There is only air now. Abandon your experiments.
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How is that even possible?” the philosopher says. β€œHe’s one of the kindest people I’ve ever met.” She knows. She knows. So it begs the question, doesn’t it? Did she unkind and ungood and untrue him?
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It is impossible to feel calm in cities, he believes, because we so rarely hear birdsong there. Our ears evolved to be our warning systems. We are on high alert in places where no birds sing. To live in a city is to be forever flinching.
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Jenny Offill (Dept. of Speculation)
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We are as tired of each other's company as we are of the cold monotony of the black night and of the unpalatable sameness of our food. Physically, mentally, and perhaps morally, then, we are depressed, and from my past experience... I know that this depression will increase.
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Someone had given my daughter a doctor's kit. Carefully, she takes her own temperature, places the pressure cuff around her arm. Then she takes the cuff off and examines it. "Would you like to be a doctor when you grow up?" I ask her. She looks at me oddly. "I'm already a doctor," she says.
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My best friend came to visit from far away. She took two planes and a train to get to Brooklyn. We met at a bar near my apartment and drank in a hurry as the babysitter's meter ticked. In the past, we'd talked about books and other people, but now we talked only of our respective babies, hers sweet-faced and docile, mine at war with the world. We applied our muzzy intellects to a theory of light. That all are born radiating light but that this light diminished slowly (if one was lucky) or abruptly (if one was not). The most charismatic peopleβ€”the poets, the mystics, the explorersβ€”were that way because they had somehow managed to keep a bit of this light that was meant to have dimmed. But the shocking thing, the unbearable thing it seemed, was that the natural order was for this light to vanish. It hung on sometimes through the twenties, a glint here or there in the thirties, and then almost always the eyes went dark.
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