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So, what did you tell him?” “I . . . I told him that I . . . I was fond of him, but I saw . . . no future in romance between us,” she coughed out. “That my heart was not invested in him.” “Well, that might explain his sudden departure,” I agreed, a few things from our brief, tense conversation becoming clearer. “You do realize that he would have quit Sevendor long ago, if he had not held out hope for your heart?” “That’s what he said!” she almost screamed. “In fact,” I continued, apologetically, “he put himself in grave danger last summer, helping Tyndal and Rondal in Enultramar, purely in an effort to attract your attention.” “I never asked him to do that!” she fumed. “Of course you didn’t. But that attempt . . . failed,” I said, as objectively as possible. “I’m sure the boy wanted the assurance that his efforts were not in vain before he made any further decisions.” I knew it was small comfort to my sobbing apprentice, but she needed to understand the truth. “When you did not return his affections after all he has done to impress you, and you told him in certain terms that it was a fruitless endeavor, what did you expect him to do?” “No just pack up and leave! He won’t respond to me, mind-to-mind, and I have no idea where he is!” “He’s the one who figured out how to use the Alkan Ways, on his own,” I reminded her. “I doubt he’s lingering near Sevendor. Or even in the Riverlands.” “So where did he go? I need to talk to him!” “And say what?” I asked. “That you’ve changed your mind? That you’ve found love in your heart in his absence that his presence could not produce?” I suggested. “That he doesn’t have to run away from me, just because I’m not in love with him!” “Clearly, he feels differently about that,” I pointed out. “Asking a man with a broken heart to be proximate to the one who broke it . . . that seems a cruel request, Dara.” “But I didn’t mean to break his heart! Now everyone thinks I drove him away! Banamor is pissed with me, Sire Cei isn’t happy that he’s lost one of his best aides, and the enchanters in town all hate me! Nattia isn’t even speaking to me! She thinks I was unfair to him!” “You may not have meant to do it, but it is done. Gareth is a very, very smart man, Dara. He’s one of the most intuitive thaumaturges I know, and a brilliant enchanter. He’s as determined as Azar when it comes to achieving what he wants. And when he learns that what he wants he cannot have, he's smart enough to know that lingering in your shadow, pining for what cannot be, is a torture he cannot bear.” “But I hold his friendship in the highest esteem!” she protested. “He was instrumental in the hawk project! He’s been a constant help to me, and come to my aid faithfully!” “Did you think he did that out of the goodness of his heart?” I felt compelled to ask. “Oh, he’s a wholesome and worthy lad, don’t mistake me. But if you don’t return his affections, then continuing to be at your call is . . . well, it’s humiliating, Dara. Especially when you have other suitors you hold in more favor, nearby.
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