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The slanting rays of the autumn sun,
the coldness of spring water,
the towering trees,
the birds,
the aquatic creatures,
the reptiles, and the flow of life!
In a moment,
I surrendered myself
to the icy water that burned to the bone!
I loved the cold, but feared it at the same time.
When the air is cold,
when your being is frozen,
you will experience a kind of coma that enforces justice.
When in life,
pleasure has been withheld from you,
the cold also takes away the joy of expressing your pain.
I looked at the sky,
my wandering mind and free spirit
fled to the Arctic and Antarctic!
It’s cold and frozen there too.
Always cold, and sometimes dark for long periods!
I wanted to surrender my whole being to the frost,
to let complete suppression and endless cold
dominate me!
I was overwhelmed.
If awareness is a match,
then doctrines, religions, every group, sect, country, and ideology,
are other matches to ignite hell for you!
Awareness, spirituality, humanity, or simply put, absolute perfection and beauty,
I imagine as being seven layers deep in hell,
while compounded ignorance feels like a clear and moderate sky.
The middle ground wasn’t for me,
so I found the only solution
was to seal hell and bury it
under thousands upon thousands of icy stones!
At that moment, as my body shivered in the spring water,
my soul hovered around the Arctic and Antarctic.
Ah, another spark,
another thought of winter creeping into my mind!
My mind said, the Arctic and Antarctic, over time,
through the sun’s rays or human filth, will eventually fall and melt,
what if someone arrives with unconditional love
and pulls you back to that same hell?
I was tired of empty words and impossible thoughts, but my mind was right!
I remembered the sky,
the sky always holds an answer!
Mars!
That was it,
Mars!
Mars,
which billions of years ago was a cradle of life!
What did it do?
It lost its atmosphere due to its cold core,
and the sun’s kindness wiped life away into space.
The remaining water froze somewhere inside it,
and never flowed again.
Oh, my Mars,
you are my role model.
First, I must destroy awareness and render it useless,
then I’ll seek out love to cleanse what remains of my emotions and let it go.
But Mars,
what should I do with the flowing waters of love
that will freeze inside me?
What if one day a madman from nowhere comes and gets the idea
to revive me, seeking refuge in me?
#Arash_Ghadir #ArashGhadir
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