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The appeal of reading, she thought, lay in its indifference: there was something undeferring about literature. Books did not care who was reading them or whether one read them or not. All readers were equal, herself included. Literature, she thought, is a commonwealth; letters a republic.
Alan Bennett (The Uncommon Reader)
You're in a world full of color and you want to see it in black and white.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
You won’t understand anything about the imagination until you realise that it’s not about making things up, it’s about perception.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
The other side’s got an energy that our side en’t got. Comes from their certainty about being right. If you got that certainty, you’ll be willing to do anything to bring about the end you want. It’s the oldest human problem, Lyra, an’ it’s the difference between good and evil. Evil can be unscrupulous, and good can’t. Evil has nothing to stop it doing what it wants, while good has one hand tied behind its back. To do the things it needs to do to win, it’d have to become evil to do ’em.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
What is the world of the spirits? It is nothing I know about. I don't know what spirit is." "Spirit is what matter does.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Books did not care who was reading them or whether one read them or not. All readers were equal, herself included. Literature, she thought, is a commonwealth; letters a republic.
Alan Bennett (The Uncommon Reader)
You won't understand anything about imagination until you realise that it's not about making things up, it's about perception.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Had reason ever created a poem, or a symphony, or a painting? If rationality can’t see things like the secret commonwealth, it’s because rationality’s vision is limited. The secret commonwealth is there. We can’t see it with rationality any more than we can weigh something with a microscope: it’s the wrong sort of instrument. We need to imagine as well as measure ...
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
But then she remembered what the gyptians had said: Include things, don’t leave them out. Look at things in their context. Include everything.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Your mom doesn't know about the movie, does she?" "My mom doesn't know about the book," he said, "It turns out a novel isn't the worst place to hide things.
Ann Patchett (Commonwealth)
It was nothing more than what it was.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Knowledge is like water: it always finds gaps to leak through. There are too many people, too many journals, too many places of learning, who already know something about it.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Keep away from the literal-minded folk, and ignore the scoffers.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Here in Jacksonville there’s a road called Commonwealth Blvd., and today as I was driving on it, I realized how socialist the name sounds.
Jarod Kintz (This Book Has No Title)
She couldn't get any further at that point. The sky full of stars seemed dead and cold, everything in it the result of the mechanical, indifferent interactions of molecules and particles that would continue for the rest of time whether Lyra lived or died, whether human beings were conscious or unconscious: a vast silent empty indifference, all quite meaningless. Reason had brought her to this state. She had exalted reason over every other faculty. The result had been - was now - the deepest unhappiness she had ever felt.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Mr. Scoresby...told me there were truthtellers, and they needed to know what the truth was, so as to tell it. And there were liars, and they needed to know what the truth was, so they could change it or avoid it. And there were bullshitters, who didn't care about the truth at all. They weren't interested. What they spoke wasn't the truth and it wasn't lies; it was bullshit. All they were interested in was their own performance.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
[I]f justice is the end of law, law the work of the prince, and the prince the image of God; then by this reasoning, the law of the prince must be modelled on the law of God.
Jean Bodin (On Sovereignty: Four Chapters from The Six Books of the Commonwealth (Cambridge Texts in the History of Political Thought))
We need to imagine as well as measure.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Lyra bent over the open vessel and found the concentrated fragrance of every rose that had ever bloomed: a sweetness and power so profound that it moved beyond sweetness altogether and out of the other side of its own complexity into a realm of clear and simple purity and beauty. It was the smell of sunlight itself.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
But we shouldn't believe things because it makes us happy to, she thought. We should believe things because they're true, and if that makes us unhappy, that's very unfortunate, but it's not the reason of fault.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
You used to be optimistic. You used to think that whatever we did would turn out well. Even after we came back from the north, you used to think that. Now you're cautious, you're anxious… You're pessimistic." She knew he was right, but it wasn't right that he should speak to her accusingly, as if it was something to blame her for. "I used to be young," was all she could find to say.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Somebody's going to have to make the money to buy you all those books." "They're free," Franny said. "I check them out of the library." "Well, thank God for libraries," Caroline said.
Ann Patchett (Commonwealth)
It’s the oldest human problem, Lyra, an’ it’s the difference between good and evil. Evil can be unscrupulous, and good can’t. Evil has nothing to stop it doing what it wants, while good has one hand tied behind its back. To do the things it needs to do to win, it’d have to become evil to do ’em.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
I wept for my children and all black children who have been denied a knowledge of their heritage; I wept for all white children, who, through daily miseducation, are taught that the Negro is an irrelevant entity in American society; I wept for all the white parents and teachers who are forced to overlook the fact that the wealth of cultural and technological progress in America is a result of the commonwealth of inpouring contributions.
Martin Luther King Jr. (Where Do We Go from Here: Chaos or Community? (King Legacy Book 2))
they have separated their intelligences from their other faculties. And that is not an intelligent thing to do.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
She’d hardly been aware of feeling anxious, but that was because anxiety was everywhere, built into the very molecules of the world, or so it had seemed.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
with his lumpish sow dæmon sprawled on the ground beside him, gnawing a turnip.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Then excuse me, Miss Silver, but they have separated their intelligences from their other faculties. And that is not an intelligent thing to do.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
That’s interesting,” said Dr. Lieberson. “History’s not over, you see. It’s happening all the time.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
But we shouldn't believe things because it makes us happy, she thought. We should believe things because they're true, and if that makes us unhappy that's very unfortunate, but it's not the fault of reason.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
The moon was climbing the sky, and the vast sweep of the milky way stretched above, every one of those minute specks a sun in its own system, lighting and warming planets, maybe, and life, maybe, and some kind of wondering being, maybe, looking out at the little star that was her sun, and at this world, and at Lyra.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
The question was, she thought, was the universe alive or dead?
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Le soleil noir de la Mélancolie.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
What’s the secret commonwealth?” “The world of fairies, and ghosts, and the jacky lanterns.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
All these things that are changing…like ice breaking under your feet.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
The strength was draining out of him minute by minute. Maybe he’d never move again.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
She was not beautiful—she would never be that, nor pretty, nor conventionally attractive…
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
She felt light-headed, as if part of her were somewhere else and dreaming of this, and she’d wake up soon and find everything normal.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
She felt half inclined to lie down and die. But her body wanted food and drink, and she took this as a sign that her body at least wanted to go on living.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
There were areas of her life about which she cared passionately and which he was indifferent to or simply unaware of.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
But just now she lacked inventiveness, or energy, or chutzpah. She was tired and lonely and frightened.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Then she felt dizzy. This was all impossible, and it was all happening.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
All she could do was hope, and she kept trying to do that in spite of the fear and loneliness.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
They gave her another image: she was enticing monsters out of the darkness of herself.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
But he was a human being, or part of one, and he felt just as Lyra did: unhappy, and guilty, and wretchedly lonely.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
…and it would all go back to the way it used to be. At the same time, he knew it wouldn’t, but he had to hold on to something in the dark nights, and imagination was all he had.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Being invisible was hard work, unrewarding, soul-crushing work.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Thoughts that didn’t bear thinking kept crowding in and shouldering aside her pretended passivity.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Spirit is what matter does.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
I am their father.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Or had she imagined it, and was her imagination just a spindrift of falsity?
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Reason had brought her to this state. She had exalted reason over every other faculty. The result had been—was now—the deepest unhappiness she had ever felt.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
When she came back she gave him a paperback called Commonwealth. “It was a very big deal last year, won the National Book Award, sold through the roof. Do you know it?
Ann Patchett (Commonwealth)
jeunesse dorée
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
but he wondered how many others had seen the loneliness in her expression when she wasn’t guarding it.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
like a little thorn that catches for a moment on a traveler’s sleeve, only to pull out when the traveler walks on.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
maybe from other experiences as well, that there are more ways than one, more than two, of seeing things and perceiving their meanings.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
but knowing that she could do it wasn’t the same as being able to do it just then.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Ik wist niet eens dat u Alice heette. - Lyra
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
De blik die hij zich zo goed herinnerde van toen hij haar lesgaf, die uitdrukking van blanco, ongenaakbaar verzet, schuilde achter haar ogen.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Dingen veranderen, Lyra. - Alice
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Ze zijn ingetogen in hun kleding, en hebben de houding van panters. Jij kunt dat. Je doet het al, alleen weet je het niet. - Farder Coram tegen Lyra
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
In the world of the spirits your name is famous.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
He’s saying that everything you know is going to change. Things that you are familiar with will become strange and alien, and things you have never imagined will become normal.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
The meaning of something is its connection to something else
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Phantoms. Ghasts of this kind or that. Emissaries of the Evil One." "Do you believe that?" "Of course. It would be an intellectual failure to do anything else.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Jill, the time’s come. They’re going to close us down. Tell all the Heads of Section that Christabel is now in operation.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
In Malcolm’s view the story was almost insufferable,
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
La nature est un temple où de vivants piliers / Laissent parfois sortir de confuses paroles.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
he sent a note to Lyra inviting her to dine with him in the Master’s lodging on the evening after the Founder’s Feast. She was a little puzzled, but not much concerned.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Leave it on the desk. Have you spoken to anyone else about this?” “No, monsieur.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
But events have consequences, and sometimes the effects of what we once did take a long time to become fully apparent.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
The best expedient for preserving the state is never to grant a prerogative of sovereignty to any subject, much less a stranger, for it is a stepping stone to sovereignty.
Jean Bodin (On Sovereignty: Four Chapters from The Six Books of the Commonwealth (Cambridge Texts in the History of Political Thought))
You’re hardly even in the book.” Caroline laughed. “Maybe that’s what irritated me about it. Anyway, if I was going to sue I’d make it a class-action case, get the whole family involved.
Ann Patchett (Commonwealth)
He picked up a book that lay on the floor. “Are you reading this?” he said. It was Simon Talbot’s The Constant Deceiver. “Yes,” she said. “I’m not sure about it.” “That should please him.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Lives had been spent here—people had loved one another and eaten and drunk and laughed and betrayed and been afraid of death—and not a single fragment of that remained. White stones, black shadows.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
She felt so alone. She felt as if her life had gone into a kind of hibernation, as if part of her were asleep and maybe dreaming the rest. She let herself be passive; she accepted whatever happened.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Lyra was so tired, she felt on the verge of delirium. She wanted to sleep quite desperately, but she knew that if she gave in and put her head down, she wouldn’t wake up till the morning was filling the sky.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
…in a little adventure that had culminated in her thinking that everything meant something, if only she could read it. The universe had seemed alive then. There were messages to be read everywhere you looked.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
But everyone will know...' 'So what? It's nothing to be ashamed of. Things happen to people's families all the time and it's not their fault. If you cope with it by being brave, people will admire you for it.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
Pan hated seeing people die, because of what happened to their dæmons: they vanished like a candle flame going out. He wanted to console this poor creature, who knew she was going to disappear, but all she wanted to do was feel a last touch of the warmth she’d found in her man’s body all their lives together. The man took a shallow, rasping breath, and then the pretty hawk dæmon drifted out of existence altogether.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
His quarry stands to the hunter as our clients to us; those who buy to the tradesman; the enemies of the Commonwealth to the soldier; the governed to the governors; men to women. All love that which they destroy.
Gene Wolfe (Shadow & Claw (The Book of the New Sun, #1-2))
I can’t do that anymore. That was just fancy. I was spinning tales out of the air, nothing more than that; there was nothing solid in them. Maybe Pan was right, and I haven’t got a real imagination. I was bullshitting.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
an’ it’s the difference between good and evil. Evil can be unscrupulous, and good can’t. Evil has nothing to stop it doing what it wants, while good has one hand tied behind its back. To do the things it needs to do to win, it’d have to become evil to do ’em.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Have you ever heard the term ‘the secret commonwealth’ ?” “No. What does it refer to?” “To the world of half-seen things and half heard whispers. To things that are regarded by clever people as superstition. To fairies, spirits, hauntings, things of the night.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
And she found herself thinking about roses and Dust. The street below her was saturated in Dust. Human lives were generating it, being sustained and enriched by it; it made everything glow as if it was touched by gold. She could almost see it. It brought with it a mood that she hadn't felt for so long that it was unfamiliar, and she welcomed it almost apprehensively: it was a quiet conviction, underlying every circumstance, that all was well and that the world was her true home, as if there were great secret powers that would see her safe.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
The appeal of reading, she thought, lay in its indifference: there was something undeferring about literature. Books did not care who was reading them or whether one read them or not. All readers were equal, herself included. Literature, she thought, is a commonwealth; letters a republic. Actually she had heard this phrase, the republic of letters, used before, at graduation ceremonies, honorary degrees and the like, though without knowing quite what it meant. At that time talk of a republic of any sort she had thought mildly insulting and in her actual presence tactless to say the least. It was only now she understood what it meant. Books did not defer. All readers were equal and this took her back to the beginning of her life. As a girl, one of her greatest thrills had been on VE night when she and her sister had slipped out of the gates and mingled unrecognised with the crowds. There was something of that, she felt, to reading. It was anonymous; it was shared; it was common. And she who had led a life apart now found that she craved it. Here in these pages and between these covers she could go unrecognised.
Alan Bennett (The Uncommon Reader)
I said he had called them because it was from his mind that we drew them, seeking those who hated him, or at least had reason to. The giant you saw might have mastered the Commonwealth, had Severian not defeated him. The blond woman could not forgive him for bringing her back from death.
Gene Wolfe (The Urth of the New Sun (The Book of the New Sun, #5))
These people you call anabaptists will take no oaths. They will serve no kings. Not only do they deny the commonwealth their labour, the magistrate their obedience, but they deny the child his book. They love ignorance. They say we live in the last days, so why learn anything? Why tend crops, why store grain: there is no need of a harvest.
Hilary Mantel (The Mirror & the Light (Thomas Cromwell, #3))
You used to be optimistic. You used to think that whatever we did would turn out well. Even after we came back from the north, you used to think that. Now you’re cautious, you’re anxious…you’re pessimistic.” She knew he was right, but it wasn’t right that he should speak to her so accusingly, as if it was something to blame her for. “I used to be young,” was all she could find to say.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
his greatest ambition for England is this: the prince and his commonwealth should be in accord. He doesn’t want the kingdom to be run like Walter’s house in Putney, with fighting all the time and the sound of banging and shrieking day and night. He wants it to be a household where everybody knows what they have to do, and feels safe doing it. He says to Rice, ‘Stephen Gardiner says I should write a book.
Hilary Mantel (Bring Up the Bodies (Thomas Cromwell, #2))
Gradually, as Lyra watched, she found her mood lifting. She’d hardly been aware of feeling anxious, but that was because anxiety was everywhere, built into the very molecules of the world, or so it had seemed. But now it was disappearing, like heavy gray clouds thinning and dispersing and finding their great banks of vapor drifting into wisps that wafted away into invisibility, leaving the sky clear and open.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
I cannot understand the people who take literature seriously; but I can love them, and I do. Out of my love I warn them to keep clear of this book. It is a collection of crude and shapeless papers upon current or rather flying subjects; and they must be published pretty much as they stand. They were written, as a rule, at the last moment; they were handed in the moment before it was too late, and I do not think that our commonwealth would have been shaken to its foundations if they had been handed in the moment after. They must go out now, with all their imperfections on their head, or rather on mine; for their vices are too vital to be improved with a blue pencil, or with anything I can think of, except dynamite. Their chief vice is that so many of them are very serious; because I had no time to make them flippant. It is so easy to be solemn; it is so hard to be frivolous.
G.K. Chesterton (All Things Considered)
We are not cruel. We take no delight in what we do, except in doing it well, which means doing it quickly and doing neither more nor less than the law instructs us. We obey the judges, who hold their offices because the people consent to it. Some individuals tell us we should do nothing of what we do, and that no one should do it. They say that punishment inflicted with cold blood is a greater crime than any crime our clients could have committed. ‘There may be justice in that, but it is a justice that would destroy the whole Commonwealth. No one could feel safe and no one could be safe, and in the end the people would rise up – at first against the thieves and the murderers, and then against anyone who offended the popular ideas of propriety, and at last against mere strangers and outcasts. Then they would be back to the old horrors of stoning and burning, in which every man seeks to outdo his neighbor for fear he will be thought tomorrow to hold some sympathy for the wretch dying today.
Gene Wolfe (The Sword of the Lictor (The Book of the New Sun, #3))
Maybe Pan was right, and I haven’t got a real imagination. I was bullshitting.” “You were what?” “That’s a word Mr. Scoresby taught me. He told me there were truth tellers, and they needed to know what the truth was, so as to tell it. And there were liars, and they needed to know what the truth was, so they could change it or avoid it. And there were bullshitters, who didn’t care about the truth at all. They weren’t interested. What they spoke wasn’t the truth and it wasn’t lies; it was bullshit. All they were interested in was their own performance.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
There exists between them [the beast handlers] and the animals they bring to the pits a bond much like that between our clients and ourselves. Now I have traveled much farther from our tower, but I have found always that the pattern of our guild is repeated mindlessly in the societies of every trade, so that they are all of them torturers, just as we. His quarry stands to the hunter as our clients to us; those who buy to the tradesman; the enemies of the Commonwealth to the soldier; the governed to the governors; men to women. All love that which they destroy.
Gene Wolfe (The Shadow of the Torturer (The Book of the New Sun, #1))
She lay there trying not to think, but thought was like a tide coming in. Little trickles of awareness—an essay to finish, her clothes that needed washing, the knowledge that unless she got to the hall by nine o’clock there’d be no breakfast—kept flowing in from this direction or that and undermining the sandcastle of her sleepiness. And then the biggest ripple yet: Pan and their estrangement. Something had come between them, and neither of them knew fully what it was, and the only person each could confide in was the other, and that was the one thing they couldn’t do.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust #2))
Ahead of her the dead bones of the town lay almost white in the moonlight. Lives had been spent here—people had loved one another and eaten and drunk and laughed and betrayed and been afraid of death—and not a single fragment of that remained. White stones, black shadows. All around her, things were whispering, or it might only have been night-loving insects conversing together. Shadows and whispers. Here was the tumbled ruins of a little basilica: people had worshipped here. Nearby a single archway topped with a classical pediment stood between nothing and nothing. People had walked through the arch, driven donkey carts through, stood and gossiped in its shade in the heat of a long-dead day…
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))
II I have added a few more chapters in the manner of the old ones, and would have added others, but one loses, as one grows older, something of the lightness of one's dreams; one begins to take life up in both hands, and to care more for the fruit than the flower, and that is no great loss per haps. In these new chapters, as in the old ones, I have invented nothing but my comments and one or two deceitful sentences that may keep some poor story-teller's commerce with the devil and his angels, or the like, from being known among his neighbours. I shall publish in a little while a big book about the commonwealth of faery, and shall try to make it systematical and learned enough to buy pardon for this handful of dreams. 1902. W. B. YEATS.
W.B. Yeats (The Celtic Twilight)
She gathered the little cards together with an automatic hand. That was the phrase that came to her, as if her hand were purely mechanical, not alive at all, as if the messages from her skin and her nerves were changes in the anbaric current along a copper wire, not anything conscious. With that vision of her body as something dead and mechanical came a sense of listless desolation. She felt not only as if she were dead now, but that she’d always been dead, and had only dreamed of being alive, and that there was no life in the dream either: it was only the meaningless and indifferent jostling of particles in her brain, and nothing more. But that little chain of ideas provoked a spasm of reaction, and she thought, No! That’s a lie! That’s slander! I don’t believe it! Except that she did believe it, just then, and it was killing her.
Philip Pullman (The Secret Commonwealth (The Book of Dust, #2))