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Would you like something to eat?" "No." "A little water to drink, then?" "I do not want anything." "But you must be hungry . . . thirsty . . ." "Please, child. Just leave me alone." He needed to grieve in privacy, to try to come to terms with what had happened to him, to think what to do next. He needed to contact his commanding officer, Lieutenant Colonel Maddison; he needed to get a letter off to Lucien in England; and oh, God, he needed Juliet. Badly. He dug his knuckles into his eyes to stop the sudden threat of tears. Oh, so very, very badly — He wiped a hand over his face, and as he did, his elbow hit a tankard the girl, who was getting to her feet, was holding, sloshing its contents all down his chin and neck. Charles's temper, normally under as tight a control as everything else about him, exploded. "Plague take it, woman, just leave me the devil alone! I am in torment enough without someone trying to nanny me!" "I'm only trying to help —" "Then go away and leave me be, damn you!" he roared, plowing his fingers into his hair and gathering great hunks of it in his fists. "Go away, go away, go away!" Stunned silence. And then he heard her get to her feet. "I'm sorry, Captain de Montforte. I should have realized that you'd need time to come to terms with what's happened to you." A pause. "I'll leave this jug of hard cider next to you in case you get thirsty. It's not as potent as rum, but maybe it'll let you escape from your troubles for a while." Her voice had lost its sparkle, and Charles knew then — much to his own dismay and self-loathing — that she was a sensitive little thing beneath that cheerfulness, and that he'd hurt her feelings. He suddenly felt like a monster, especially when her voice faltered and she said, "I'll be just across the room, peeling vegetables for supper . . . if you need anything, just call and I'll be right there." She
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