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I often wished that more people understood the invisible side of things. Even the people who seemed to understand, didn't really.
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People who don't see you every day have a hard time understanding how on some days--good days--you can run three miles, but can barely walk across the parking lot on other days,' [my mom] said quietly.
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Jennifer Starzec (Determination (5k, Ballet, #2))
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Somewhere inside that hurting body, there is something better, something stronger, something real.
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R. M. Drake
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Believing you have chronic pain or illness can cause it to be so. So too, believing you are healing can cure you.
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Todd Perelmuter (Spiritual Words to Live by : 81 Daily Wisdoms and Meditations to Transform Your Life)
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I had learned quickly that life doesn't always go the way I want it to, and that's okay. I still plod on.
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Sarah Todd Hammer (Determination (5k, Ballet, #2))
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Pain diminishes us, and it is so important to remember, in the midst of pain and everything that pain takes from you, that still ... you are enough. You are enough just as you are. You are worthy of love and kindness. You are enough. And you have enough.
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Steve Leder (More Beautiful Than Before: How Suffering Transforms Us)
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Even the littlest things were now a challenge, one I didn't understand.
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Sarah Todd Hammer
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I guess it's human nature to question yourself, to question why all the pain has had to happen? sometimes there isn't any answers it just is what it is and how we make ourselves feel and see through that, is what will determine how we move forward.
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Nikki Rowe
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Nothing worked. This blazing pain seemed only to be getting worse.
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Jennifer Starzec
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Those of us with chronic pain have something unique to offer, not in spite of our pain, but because of it. It's okay to grieve the losses of chronic illness. It's okay to be broken; everyone is in some way. Just because we're unfixable doesn't mean we're worthless.
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Allison Alexander (Super Sick: Making Peace with Chronic Illness)
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What if...the doctors couldn't find anything wrong? What if I was over-exaggerating the pain, weakness, and weird sensations?
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Jennifer Starzec
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The weekend was a much-needed breath of fresh air; Monday always seemed to not only take that breath right back, but add a few extra pounds to my shoulders as well.
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Jennifer Starzec (Determination (5k, Ballet, #2))
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We can't escape from our problems, but we can learn to live with them in a way that is peaceful and joyful.
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Pema Chodron (The Wisdom of No Escape: How to Love Yourself and Your World)
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The video was still playing, although I didn't know why. It seemed as if the able-bodied dancers were mocking me.
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Sarah Todd Hammer (Determination (5k, Ballet, #2))
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Fatigue had started to set in...and now my eyes showed it as I struggled to keep them open.
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Jennifer Starzec
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When confronted with challenge,I discover my inner strength.
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Celeste Cooper (Spring Devotions (Broken Body, Wounded Spirit: Balancing the See-Saw of Chronic Pain Book 4))
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Mindfulness describes a "state of becoming" that places the individual beyond judgment and definition.
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Celeste Cooper (Spring Devotions (Broken Body, Wounded Spirit: Balancing the See-Saw of Chronic Pain Book 4))
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What is ahead of me is fueled by the experiences behind me.
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Celeste Cooper (Spring Devotions (Broken Body, Wounded Spirit: Balancing the See-Saw of Chronic Pain Book 4))
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Usually I take this opportunity to say something inspiring, about how my illness has changed me for the better and given me a clear purpose in life for both the work I do and the person I want to be. While all these things are true, the fact is that sometimes I'm in a physical state where I just donβt have it in me to be inspirational. And thatβs all right β inspirational words are meaningless without the context of genuine human struggle.
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As I sat up I turned my head to the side, but immediately straightened it again when I felt a sharp pain shoot through my neck.
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Jennifer Starzec (5k, Ballet, and a Spinal Cord Injury (5k, Ballet, #1))
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Dancing with a spinal cord injury is a challenge like no other, but I aspired to prove to myself that I could still be phenomenal dancer even with an SCI
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Sarah Todd Hammer (5k, Ballet, and a Spinal Cord Injury (5k, Ballet, #1))
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My life is more than a waiting period; it is an expedition. How I perceive it, and how I improve upon it is solely up to me.
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Celeste Cooper (Summer Devotions (Broken Body, Wounded Spirit: Balancing the See-Saw of Chronic Pain, Vol. 2))
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I wondered if there was anything [the doctor] could do to to make the pain disappear and my arms work again. I wondered if I was going to get any worse than I already was. If so, I wondered if he could fix that, too.
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Jennifer Starzec
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I have another scan this week," I say lightly, hoping to reassure my loved ones that it is safe to rejoin my orbit. There is always another scan, because this is my reality. But the people I know are often busy contending with mildly painful ambition and the possibility of reward. I try to begrudge them nothing, except I'm not alongside them anymore.
In the meantime, I have been hunkering down with old medical supplies and swelling resentment. I triedβ haven't I tried? β to avoid fights and remember birthdays. I showed up for dance recitals and listened to weight-loss dreams and kept the granularity of my medical treatments in soft focus. A person like that would be easier to love, I reasoned.
I try a small experiment and stop calling my regular rotation of friends and family, hoping that they will call me back on their own. _This is not a test. This is not a test._ The phone goes quiet, except for a handful of calls. I feel heavy with strange new grief. Is it bitter or unkind to want everyone to remember what I can't forget? Who wants to be confronted with the reality that we are all a breath away from a problem that could alter our lives completely? A friend with a very sick child said it best: I'm everyone's inspiration and and no one's friend.
I am asked all the time to say that, given what I've gained in perspective, I would never go back. Who would want to know the truth? Before was better.
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Kate Bowler (No Cure for Being Human: And Other Truths I Need to Hear)
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A physical therapist told me that chronic pain is treatable, sometimes by training people to experience it differently, but the sufferer "has to be ready to give up their story." Some people love their story that much even if it's of their own misery, even it ties them to unhappiness, or they don't know how to stop telling it. Maybe it's about loving coherence more than comfort, but it might also be about fear--you have to die a little to be reborn, and death comes first, the death of a story, a familiar version of yourself.
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Hebrews 11:8, NASB, says, βBy faith Abraham, when he was called, obeyed by going out to a place which he was to receive for an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing where he was going.β
I sure do not know what Iβm going to do here this semester or in Togo, but I do know that God knows what He is doingβso my attitude must be to trust God entirely.
Iβm glad He doesnβt let us know what He has planned next; He just continues to reveal who He is.
Some days I feel alone here, but being alone with God isnβt bad either.
My solitude with Him has been special.
--Shirley Cropsey, January 13, 1982
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He was stubborn and combative and intensely playful; fiercely self-righteous and enormously sensitive to the needs of others; often inspiring, frequently ornery, never punctual, endlessly original, chronically cross-grained, and almost invariably a colossal pain in the ass.
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Consider, for instance, Jill Hubbard Bowman, an intellectual property (IP) attorney in Austin, Texas, who publishes a legal blog, IP Law for Startups, iplawforstartups.com, and an inspiring career website for young women, lookilulu.com. Jill Hubbard Bowman: Unexpected Twists and Turns I had a dream to be a trial attorney who would fight big legal battles and win. And then my dream was derailed by a twin pregnancy that almost killed me. Literally. It was a shock and awe pregnancy. It caused the death, destruction, and rebirth of my identity and legal career. I was working as an intellectual property litigation attorney for a large law firm in Chicago when a pregnancy with twins caused my heart to fail. After fifteen years of infertility, the twin pregnancy was an unexpected surprise. Heart failure because of the pregnancy was an even bigger shock. The toll on my legal career was even more unexpected. Although I was fortunate to survive without a heart transplant, I eventually realized that I needed a career transplant. As my heart function recovered, I valiantly tried to cling to my career dream and do the hard work I loved. But the long hours and travel necessary for trial work were too much for my physical self. I was exhausted with chronic chest pain, two clinging toddlers, and a disgruntled husband. I was tired of being tired. My law firm was exceptionally supportive but I didnβt have the stamina to keep all of the pieces of my life together. Overwhelmed, I let go of my original dream. I backed down, retrenched, and regrouped. I took a year off from legal work to rest, recover, spend time with my toddlers, and open myself to new possibilities.
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My course, navigating the sea of life, begins with a goal sighted in the lens of my telescope.
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Celeste Cooper (WINTER DEVOTIONS (Broken Body, Wounded Spirit: Balancing the See-Saw of Chronic Pain)
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Looking back ten years, knowing how I feel today, I appreciate the now because in ten years I will look back and remember these days as the good days.
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Every star that lights up the sky, every bee pollinating the flowers, every pet asking for a treat exposes us to energy that echoes throughout our universe.
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Celeste Cooper (Summer Devotions (Broken Body, Wounded Spirit: Balancing the See-Saw of Chronic Pain, Vol. 2))
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May our spirit fill us with understanding of victory and defeat, the gift of collaboration, the wisdom to choose the right path, and opportunities that inspire hope.
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I am thankful for the warmth of the sun, for it makes my spirit shine.
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Celeste Cooper (Summer Devotions (Broken Body, Wounded Spirit: Balancing the See-Saw of Chronic Pain, Vol. 2))
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When we chronically disregard the inner voice of the body, our unresolved emotional needs and traumas may start to emerge physically as various pains, tensions, and symptoms. Our muscles remember what our mind tries to forget.
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A few weeks after my injury, when I was in the rehab center, I found someone willing to travel to the center to give me a massage. Partway through, she suggested trying something called Reiki. This is where instead of touching you, the masseuse waves their hands through the air over you to βadjust your energy fields.β You can probably tell by the way that I describe this that I think this is a bunch of BS. Does it work for some people? Of course it does. The placebo effect can work with any type of treatment or medication by providing someone with an improvement if and when they expect to get one. The nice doctor in the white lab coat gives you some pills and says, βTake two of these each morning, and your pain should feel much better.β The medication that the doctor gives you could be nothing more than sugar pills. Still, if you really believe that youβll benefit from it, your brain finds a way to make at least some improvement come true. In double-blind studies, itβs been proven that the placebo effect can provide as much as a 32 percent improvement. Because of this, for new drugs to be approved in the US, they need to test at a level thatβs higher than the 32 percent placebo level of improvement. So, if Iβd believed in Reiki, then I may have experienced some benefit from it, but I donβt, so I didnβt get anything out of the treatment. That said, I think itβs interesting that when dealing with chronic pain, the temptation is to try almost anything, no matter how crazy it sounds. The hope is that maybe, just maybe, youβll be able to get some relief from your ongoing pain.
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But the years had also taken their toll. Some of it was just a function of my getting
older, I suppose, for if you are paying attention, each successive year will make you
more intimately acquainted with all of your flaws β the blind spots, the recurring habits
of thought that may be genetic or may be environmental, but that will almost certainly
worsen with time, as surely as the hitch in your walk turns to pain in your hip. In me,
one of those flaws had proven to be a chronic restlessness; an inability to appreciate, no
matter how well things were going, those blessings that were right there in front of me.
Itβs a flaw that is endemic to modern life, I think β endemic, too, in the American
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But the years had also taken their toll. Some of it was just a function of my getting older, I suppose, for if you are paying attention, each successive year will make you more intimately acquainted with all of your flaws β the blind spots, the recurring habits of thought that may be genetic or may be environmental, but that will almost certainly worsen with time, as surely as the hitch in your walk turns to pain in your hip. In me, one of those flaws had proven to be a chronic restlessness; an inability to appreciate, no matter how well things were going, those blessings that were right there in front of me. Itβs a flaw that is endemic to modern life, I think β endemic, too, in the American
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