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231. That month I touched myself every night in my narrow bed and came thinking of you, knowing all the while that I was planting the seeds of a fresh disaster. The disaster did not come then, but it did come later. “Though six days smoothly run, / The seventh will bring blue devils or a dun” (Byron, 1823). The most I can say is that this time I learned my lesson. I stopped hoping.
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