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Reading was my escape and my comfort, my consolation, my stimulant of choice: reading for the pure pleasure of it, for the beautiful stillness that surrounds you when you hear an author's words reverberating in your head.
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Paul Auster (The Brooklyn Follies)
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The world was hers for the reading.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Look at everything always as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time: Thus is your time on earth filled with glory.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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It's a coffee cup."
She could hear the irritation in her own voice. "I know it's a coffee cup."
"I can't wait till you draw something really complicated, like the Brooklyn Bridge or a lobster. You'll probably send me a singing telegram.
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Cassandra Clare (City of Bones (The Mortal Instruments, #1))
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I know that's what people say-- you'll get over it. I'd say it, too. But I know it's not true. Oh, youll be happy again, never fear. But you won't forget. Every time you fall in love it will be because something in the man reminds you of him.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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When a person is lucky enough to live inside a story, to live inside an imaginary world, the pains of this world disappear. For as long as the story goes on, reality no longer exists.
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Paul Auster (The Brooklyn Follies)
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Dear God," she prayed, "let me be something every minute of every hour of my life. Let me be gay; let me be sad. Let me be cold; let me be warm. Let me be hungry...have too much to eat. Let me be ragged or well dressed. Let me be sincere - be deceitful. Let me be truthful; let me be a liar. Let me be honorable and let me sin. Only let me be something every blessed minute. And when I sleep, let me dream all the time so that not one little piece of living is ever lost.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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From that time on, the world was hers for the reading. She would never be lonely again, never miss the lack of intimate friends. Books became her friends and there was one for every mood. There was poetry for quiet companionship. There was adventure when she tired of quiet hours. There would be love stories when she came into adolescence and when she wanted to feel a closeness to someone she could read a biography. On that day when she first knew she could read, she made a vow to read one book a day as long as she lived.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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I hate Brooklyn.
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Cassandra Clare (City of Bones (The Mortal Instruments, #1))
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She had become accustomed to being lonely. She was used to walking alone and to being considered 'different.' She did not suffer too much.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Oh, magic hour, when a child first knows she can read printed words.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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People always think that happiness is a faraway thing," thought Francie, "something complicated and hard to get. Yet, what little things can make it up; a place of shelter when it rains - a cup of strong hot coffee when you're blue; for a man, a cigarette for contentment; a book to read when you're alone - just to be with someone you love. Those things make happiness.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Look at everything always as though you were seeing it either for the first or last time: Thus is your time on earth filled with glory.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Who knows how to make love stay?
1. Tell love you are going to Junior's Deli on Flatbush Avenue in Brooklyn to pick up a cheesecake, and if loves stays, it can have half. It will stay.
2. Tell love you want a momento of it and obtain a lock of its hair. Burn the hair in a dime-store incense burner with yin/yang symbols on three sides. Face southwest. Talk fast over the burning hair in a convincingly exotic language. Remove the ashes of the burnt hair and use them to paint a moustache on your face. Find love. Tell it you are someone new. It will stay.
3. Wake love up in the middle of the night. Tell it the world is on fire. Dash to the bedroom window and pee out of it. Casually return to bed and assure love that everything is going to be all right. Fall asleep. Love will be there in the morning.
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Tom Robbins (Still Life with Woodpecker)
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Forgiveness is a gift of high value. Yet its cost is nothing.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Sometimes I think it's better to suffer bitter unhappiness and to fight and to scream out, and even to suffer that terrible pain, than to just be... safe. At least she knows she's living.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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If there was only one tree like that in the world, you would think it was beautiful. But because there are so many, you just can't see how beautiful it really is.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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I hate all those flirty-birty games that women make up. Life's too short. If you ever find a man you love, don't waste time hanging your head and simpering. Go right up to him and say, 'I love you. How about getting married?
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Let me be something every minute of every hour of my life...And when I sleep, let me dream all the time so that not one little piece of living is ever lost.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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I need someone. I need to hold somebody close. And I need more than this holding. I need someone to understand how I feel at a time like now. And the understanding must be part of the holding.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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It's come at last", she thought, "the time when you can no longer stand between your children and heartache.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Who wants to die? Everything struggles to live. Look at that tree growing up there out of that grating. It gets no sun, and water only when it rains. It's growing out of sour earth. And it's strong because its hard struggle to live is making it strong. My children will be strong that way.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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And always, there was the magic of learning things.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Iβm not better, you know. The weight hasnβt left my head. I feel how easily I could fall back into it, lie down and not eat, waste my time and curse wasting my time, look at my homework and freak out and go and chill at Aaronβs, look at Nia and be jealous again, take the subway home and hope that it has an accident, go and get my bike and head to the Brooklyn Bridge. All of that is still there. The only thing is, itβs not an option now. Itβs justβ¦ a possibility, like itβs a possibility that I could turn to dust in the next instant and be disseminated throughout the universe as an omniscient consciousness. Itβs not a very likely possibility.
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Ned Vizzini (It's Kind of a Funny Story)
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And our lips. There isn't enough skin, enough spit, enough time, for the lost years that our lips are trying to make up for as they find each other. We kiss. The electric current switches to high. The lights throughout all of Brooklyn must be surging.
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Gayle Forman (Where She Went (If I Stay, #2))
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In teaching your child, do not forget that suffering is good too. It makes a person rich in character.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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She was made up of more, too. She was the books she read in the library. She was the flower in the brown bowl. Part of her life was made from the tree growing rankly in the yard. She was the bitter quarrels she had with her brother whom she loved dearly. She was Katie's secret, despairing weeping. She was the shame of her father stumbling home drunk. She was all of these things and of something more...It was what God or whatever is His equivalent puts into each soul that is given life - the one different thing such as that which makes no two fingerprints on the face of the earth alike.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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As she read, at peace with the world and happy as only a little girl could be with a fine book and a little bowl of candy, and all alone in the house, the leaf shadows shifted and the afternoon passed.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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But she needs me more than she needs him and I guess being needed is almost as good as being loved. Maybe better.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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They learned no compassion from their own anguish. Thus their suffering was wasted.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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All men contain several men inside them, and most of us bounce from one self to another without ever knowing who we are.
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Paul Auster (The Brooklyn Follies)
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One should never underestimate the power of books.
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Paul Auster (The Brooklyn Follies)
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My reflection tells one story.
My heart, a different one.
The difference is,
hearts don't lie.
Mirrors do.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
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There are very few bad people. There are just a lot of people that are unlucky.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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A lie was something you told because you were mean or a coward.
A story was something you made up out of something that might have happened. Only you didn't tell it like it was, you told it like you thought it should have been.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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The truth of the story lies in the details.
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Paul Auster (The Brooklyn Follies)
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We'll leave now, so that this moment will remain a perfect memory...let it be our song and think of me every time you hear it.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Magnus Bane,β said Magnus. βHigh Warlock of Brooklyn and Scrabble champion.
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Cassandra Clare (What to Buy the Shadowhunter Who Has Everything (The Bane Chronicles, #8))
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I once started out
to walk around the world
but ended up in Brooklyn,
that Bridge was too much for me.
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Lawrence Ferlinghetti (A Coney Island of the Mind)
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The beautiful thing is, music can be like a time machine. One song- the lyrics, the melody, the mood- can take you back to a moment in time like nothing else can.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
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And that's where the whole trouble is. We're too much alike to understand each other because we don't even understand our own selves.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Because," explained Mary Rommely simply, "the child must have a valuable thing which is called imagination. The child must have a secret world in which live things that never were. It is necessary that she believe. She must start out by believing in things not of this world. Then when the world becomes too ugly for living in, the child can reach back and live in her imagination. I, myself, even in this day and at my age, have great need of recalling the miraculous lives of the Saints and the great miracles that have come to pass on earth. Only by having these things in my mind can I live beyond what I have to live for.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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From that time on, the world was hers for the reading. She would never be lonely again, never miss the lack of intimate friends. Books became her friends and there was one for every mood.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Insomnia is a variant of Tourette's--the waking brain races, sampling the world after the world has turned away, touching it everywhere, refusing to settle, to join the collective nod. The insomniac brain is a sort of conspiracy theorist as well, believing too much in its own paranoiac importance--as though if it were to blink, then doze, the world might be overrun by some encroaching calamity, which its obsessive musings are somehow fending off.
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Jonathan Lethem (Motherless Brooklyn)
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I was born without a voice, one cold, overcast day in Brooklyn, New York. No one ever spoke of my condition. I did not know I was mute until years later, when I opened my mouth to ask for what I wanted and realized no one could hear me.
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Etaf Rum (A Woman Is No Man)
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There were days, rainy gray days, when the streets of Brooklyn were worthy of a photograph, every window the lens of a Leica, the view grainy and immoble. We gathered our colored pencils and sheets of paper and drew like wild, feral children into the night, until, exhausted, we fell into bed. We lay in each other's arms, still awkward but happy, exchanging breathless kisses into sleep.
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Patti Smith (Just Kids)
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If anyone asks you if youβre taken,β I said, βthe answer is yes.β
βI think I can live with that,β he promised.
βGood,β I said. βBecause you donβt want to see me be cross.β
βToo late.β
βShut up and dance, Walt.β
βShut up and dance, Walt.β
We didβwith the music of a psychotic griffin screaming behind us, and the sirens and horns of Brooklyn wailing below. It was quite romantic.
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Rick Riordan (The Serpent's Shadow (The Kane Chronicles, #3))
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Books became her friends, and there was one for every mood.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Katie had a fierce desire for survival which made her a fighter. Johnny had a hankering after immortality which made him a useless dreamer. And that was the great difference between these two who loved each other so well.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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There's a tree that grows in Brooklyn. Some people call it the Tree of Heaven. No matter where its seed falls, it makes a tree which struggles to reach the sky. It grows in boarded-up lots and out of neglected rubbish heaps. It grows up out of cellar gratings. It is the only tree that grows out of cement. It grows lushly . . . survives without sun, water, and seemingly without earth. It would be considered beautiful except that there are too many of it.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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We stand there for a moment, staring at each other, savoring it. And then all at once, we slam together. Mia's legs are off the ground, wrapped around my waist, her hands dipping in my hair, my hands tangled in hers. And our lips. There isn't enough skin, enough spit, enough time, for the lost years that our lips are trying to make up for as they find each other. We kiss. The electric current switches to high. The lights throughout all of Brooklyn must be surging.
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Gayle Forman (Where She Went (If I Stay, #2))
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I looked across the river to Manhattan. It was a great view. When Sadie and I had first arrived at Brooklyn House, Amos had told us that magicians tried to stay out of Manhattan. He said Manhattan had other problems--whatever that meant. And sometimes when I looked across the water, I could swear I was seeing things. Sadie laughed about it, but once I thought I saw a flying horse. Probably just the mansion's magic barriers causing optical illusions, but still, it was weird.
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Rick Riordan (The Throne of Fire (The Kane Chronicles, #2))
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It doesn't take long to write things of which you know nothing. When you write of actual things, it takes longer, because you have to live them first.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Well' Francie decided, 'I guess the thing that is giving me this headache is life - and nothing else but'.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Brooklynβs too cold tonight
& all my friends are three years away.
My mother said I could be anything
I wantedβbut I chose to live.
On the stoop of an old brownstone,
a cigarette flares, then fades.
I walk towards it: a razor
sharpened with silence.
A jawline etched in smoke.
The mouth where Iβll be made
new again. Stranger, palpable
echo, here is my hand, filled
with blood thin as a widowβs
tears. I am ready. I am ready
to be every animal
you leave behind.
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Ocean Vuong
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I couldn't keep a fish alive," she said. "I kill plants just by looking at them."
"I suspect I would have the same problem," Mark said, eyeing the fish.
"It is too bad - I was going to name it Magnus, because it has sparkly scales."
At that, Cristina giggled. Magnus Bane was the High Warlock of Brooklyn, and he had a penchant for glitter.
"I suppose I had better let him go free," Mark said. Before anyone could say anything, he made his way to the railing of the pier and emptied the bag, fish and all, into the sea.
"Does anyone want to tell him that goldfish are freshwater fish and can't survive in the ocean?" said Julian quietly.
"Not really," said Cristina.
"Did he just kill Magnus?" Emma asked, but before Julian could answer, Mark whirled around.
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Cassandra Clare (Lord of Shadows (The Dark Artifices, #2))
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It's come at last," she thought, "the time when you can no longer stand between your children and heartache. When there wasn't enough food in the house you pretended that you weren't hungry so they could have more. In the cold of a winter's night you got up and put your blanket on their bed so they wouldn't be cold. You'd kill anyone who tried to harm them - I tried my best to kill that man in the hallway. Then one sunny day, they walk out in all innocence and they walk right into the grief that you'd give your life to spare them from.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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She felt almost guilty that she had handed some of her grief to him, and then she felt close to him for his willingness to take it and hold it, in all its rawness, all its dark confusion.
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Colm TΓ³ibΓn (Brooklyn (Eilis Lacey, #1))
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Arenβt the scariest things in life
Those things you canβt see?
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
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She trusted him.
She had faith in him.
And he left her forever.
Something tells me she's not forgetting that anytime soon.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
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I want to live for something. I don't want to live to get charity food to give me enough strength to go back to get more charity food.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Today, I slept in until 10,
Cleaned every dish I own,
Fought with the bank,
Took care of paperwork.
You and I might have different definitions of adulthood.
I donβt work for salary, I didnβt graduate from college,
But I donβt speak for others anymore,
And I donβt regret anything I canβt genuinely apologize for.
And my mother is proud of me.
I burnt down a house of depression,
I painted over murals of greyscale,
And it was hard to rewrite my life into one I wanted to live
But today, I want to live.
I didnβt salivate over sharp knives,
Or envy the boy who tossed himself off the Brooklyn bridge.
I just cleaned my bathroom,
did the laundry,
called my brother.
Told him, βit was a good day.
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Kait Rokowski
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From that moment on, the world was hers for the reading. She would never be lonely again.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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I called my mother immediately to inform her that she was a bad parent. "I can't believe you let us watch this. We ate dinner in front of this."
"Everyone watched Twin Peaks," was her response.
"So, if everyone jumped off the Brooklyn Bridge, would you do it, too?"
"Don't be silly," she laughed, "of course I would, honey. There'd be no one left on the planet. It would be a very lonely place.
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Sloane Crosley (I Was Told There'd Be Cake: Essays)
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Intolerance is a thing that causes war, pogroms, crucifixions, lynchings, and makes people cruel to little children and each other. It is responsible for most of the viciousness, violence, terror, and heart and soul breaking of the world.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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People always think that happiness is a faraway thing β¦ something complicated and hard to get. Yet, what little things can make it up.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Some people are nice and if you talk to them properly, they can be even nicer.
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Colm TΓ³ibΓn (Brooklyn (Eilis Lacey, #1))
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The difference between rich and poor", said Francie, "is that the poor do everything with thier own hands and the rich hire hands to do things.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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She loved books. She loved them with her senses and her intellect. They way they looked and smelled; the way they felt in her hands; the way the pages seemed to murmur as she turned them. Everything there is in the world, she thought, is in books.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Life is so freaking hard. How do people do it? How do people get up every day and deal with the shit? It really makes you understand why there are so many messed-up people in the world. I mean, it's tough, trying to deal with demands coming at you from all sides.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
β
Someday you'll remember what I said and you'll thank me for it."
Francie wished adults would stop telling her that. Already the load of thanks in the future was weighing her down. She figured she'd have to spend the best years of her womanhood hunting up people to tell them that they were right and to thank them.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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How many days was I like that? Pretending to listen, but not hearing a word? Pretending to care when I hated it all? Pretending to live when I was dying inside?
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
β
It was the last time sheβd see the river from that window. The last time of anything has the poignancy of death itself. This that I see now, she thought, to see no more this way. Oh, the last time how clearly you see everything; as though a magnifying light had been turned on it. And you grieve because you hadnβt held it tighter when you had it every day.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Another long run, hoping to put distance between me and everything else. The farther, the better. Only problem is, the distance is just temporary, because no matter how far I go, I always have to come back.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
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I know now that what is tragic isnβt the moment. It is the memory.
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Jacqueline Woodson (Another Brooklyn)
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The library was a little old shabby place. Francie thought it was beautiful. The feeling she had about it was as good as the feeling she had about church. She pushed open the door and went in. She liked the combined smell of worn leather bindings, library past and freshly inked stamping pads better than she liked the smell of burning incense at high mass.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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I canβt function here anymore. I mean in life: I canβt function in this life. Iβm no better off than when I was in bed last night, with one difference: when I was in my own bedβor my momβsβI could do something about it; now that Iβm here I canβt do anything. I canβt ride my bike to the Brooklyn Bridge; I canβt take a whole bunch of pills and go for the good sleep; the only thing I can do is crush my head in the toilet seat, and I still donβt even know if that would work. They take away your options and all you can do is live, and itβs just like Humble said: Iβm not afraid of dying; Iβm afraid of living. I was afraid before, but Iβm afraid even more now that Iβm a public joke. The teachers are going to hear from the students. Theyβll think Iβm trying to make an excuse for bad work.
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Ned Vizzini (It's Kind of a Funny Story)
β
She told Papa about it. He made her stick out her tongue and he felt her wrist. He shook his head sadly and said,
"You have a bad case, a very bad case."
"Of what?"
"Growing up.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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You more than anyone should be in my dreams.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
β
She has gone back to Brooklyn,' her mother would say. And, as the train rolled past Macmire Bridge on its way towards Wexford, Eilis imagined the years already when these words would come to mean less and less to the man who heard them and would come to mean more and more to herself. She almost smiled at the thought of it, then closed her eyes and tried to imagine nothing more.
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Colm TΓ³ibΓn (Brooklyn (Eilis Lacey, #1))
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A person who pulls himself up from a low environment via the bootstrap route has two choices. Having risen above his environment, he can forget it; or, he can rise above it and never forget it and keep compassion and understanding in his heart for those he has left behind him in the cruel upclimb. The nurse had chosen the forgetting way. Yet, as she stood there, she knew that years later she would be haunted by the sorrow in the face of that starveling child and that she would wish bitterly that she had said a comforting word then and done something towards the saving of her immortal soul. She had the knowledge that she was small but she lacked the courage to be otherwise.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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All my life I've been lonely. I've been lonely at crowded parties. I've been lonely in the middle of kissing a girl and I've been lonely at camp with hundreds of fellows around. But now I'm not lonely any more.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Right and wrong
Black and white
And many shades
Of gray
I want color in my life
Color in my dreams.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
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New York! I've always wanted to see it and now I've see it. It's true what they say-- it's the most wonderful city in the world.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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I guess being needed is almost as good as being loved. Maybe better.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Motion is always preferable
to stagnation.
When you move,
things happen.
Youβre alive
Stay still too long,
And itΒ΄s hard to get moving again.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
β
Best friends are together through it all. Like soil & roots. One needing the other through chilling winters, scorching summers, through hailstorms & lightning Strikes. They weather it together.
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Lisa Schroeder (Chasing Brooklyn)
β
I hurt myself,β Syren bit out. βI make myself bleed and it feels good. It eases the pressure inside me, but it never lasts for long.β His lips trembled. βBefore I slept in your bed, Iβd never had a full nightβs sleep. Before I crawled into your arms Iβd never been safe.β He shuffled forward. βYou give me that. You hold that power and you can take it away.
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Avril Ashton (A Sinner Born (Brooklyn Sinners, #3))
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In the future, when something comes up, you tell exactly how it happened but write down for yourself the way you think it should have happened. Tell the truth and write the story. Then you won't get mixed up. It was the best advice Francie every got.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
β
But the penciled sheets did not seem like nor smell like the library book so she had given it up, consoling herself with the vow that when she grew up, she would work hard, save money and buy every single book that she liked.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
β
I hug her one more time and pull her down to the bed. And in my mind, I rise up from the bed and look down on us, and look down at everybody else in this hospital who might have the good fortune of holding a pretty girl right now, and then at the entire Brooklyn block, and then the neighborhood, and then Brooklyn, and then New York City, and then the whole Tri-State Area, and then this little corner of America- with laser eyes I can see into every house- and then the whole country and the hemisphere and now the whole stupid world, everyone in every bed, couch, futon, chair, hammock, love seat, and tent, everyone kissing or touching eachother... and i know that i'm the happiest of all of them.
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Ned Vizzini (It's Kind of a Funny Story)
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For Jenn
At 12 years old I started bleeding with the moon
and beating up boys who dreamed of becoming astronauts.
I fought with my knuckles white as stars,
and left bruises the shape of Salem.
There are things we know by heart,
and things we don't.
At 13 my friend Jen tried to teach me how to blow rings of smoke.
I'd watch the nicotine rising from her lips like halos,
but I could never make dying beautiful.
The sky didn't fill with colors the night I convinced myself
veins are kite strings you can only cut free.
I suppose I love this life,
in spite of my clenched fist.
I open my palm and my lifelines look like branches from an Aspen tree,
and there are songbirds perched on the tips of my fingers,
and I wonder if Beethoven held his breath
the first time his fingers touched the keys
the same way a soldier holds his breath
the first time his finger clicks the trigger.
We all have different reasons for forgetting to breathe.
But my lungs remember
the day my mother took my hand and placed it on her belly
and told me the symphony beneath was my baby sister's heartbeat.
And I knew life would tremble
like the first tear on a prison guard's hardened cheek,
like a prayer on a dying man's lips,
like a vet holding a full bottle of whisky like an empty gun in a war zoneβ¦
just take me just take me
Sometimes the scales themselves weigh far too much,
the heaviness of forever balancing blue sky with red blood.
We were all born on days when too many people died in terrible ways,
but you still have to call it a birthday.
You still have to fall for the prettiest girl on the playground at recess
and hope she knows you can hit a baseball
further than any boy in the whole third grade
and I've been running for home
through the windpipe of a man who sings
while his hands playing washboard with a spoon
on a street corner in New Orleans
where every boarded up window is still painted with the words
We're Coming Back
like a promise to the ocean
that we will always keep moving towards the music,
the way Basquait slept in a cardboard box to be closer to the rain.
Beauty, catch me on your tongue.
Thunder, clap us open.
The pupils in our eyes were not born to hide beneath their desks.
Tonight lay us down to rest in the Arizona desert,
then wake us washing the feet of pregnant women
who climbed across the border with their bellies aimed towards the sun.
I know a thousand things louder than a soldier's gun.
I know the heartbeat of his mother.
Don't cover your ears, Love.
Don't cover your ears, Life.
There is a boy writing poems in Central Park
and as he writes he moves
and his bones become the bars of Mandela's jail cell stretching apart,
and there are men playing chess in the December cold
who can't tell if the breath rising from the board
is their opponents or their own,
and there's a woman on the stairwell of the subway
swearing she can hear Niagara Falls from her rooftop in Brooklyn,
and I'm remembering how Niagara Falls is a city overrun
with strip malls and traffic and vendors
and one incredibly brave river that makes it all worth it.
Ya'll, I know this world is far from perfect.
I am not the type to mistake a streetlight for the moon.
I know our wounds are deep as the Atlantic.
But every ocean has a shoreline
and every shoreline has a tide
that is constantly returning
to wake the songbirds in our hands,
to wake the music in our bones,
to place one fearless kiss on the mouth of that brave river
that has to run through the center of our hearts
to find its way home.
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This could be a whole life," she thought. "You work eight hours a day covering wires to earn money to buy food and to pay for a place to sleep so that you can keep living to come back to cover more wires. Some people are born and kept living just to come to this...
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Those were the Rommely women: Mary, the mother, Evy, Sissy, and Katie, her daughters, and Francie, who would grow up to be a Rommely woman even though her name was Nolan. They were all slender, frail creatures with wondering eyes and soft fluttery voices. But they were made out of thin invisible steel.
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people always think that happiness is a far away thing, something complicated and hard to get. yet, little things can make it up; a place of shelter when it rains - a cup of strong hot coffee when you're blue; for a man, a cigarette for contentment; a book to read when you're alone - just to be with someone you love. those little things make happiness.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Most women had the one thing in common: they had great pain when they gave birth to their children. This should make a bond that held them all together; it should make them love and protect each other against the man-world. But it was not so. It seemed like their great birth pains shrank their hearts and their souls. They stuck together for only one thing: to trample on some other woman... whether it was by throwing stones or by mean gossip. It was the only kind of loyalty they seemed to have. Men were different. They might hate each other but they stuck together against the world and against any woman who would ensnare one of them.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Mother, I am young. Mother, I am just eighteen. I am strong. I will work hard, Mother. But I do not want this child to grow up just to work hard. What must I do, mother, what must I do to make a different world for her? How do I start?"
"The secret lies in the reading and the writing. You are able to read. Every day you must read one page from some good book to your child. Every day this must be until the child learns to read. Then she must read every day, I know this is the secret
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Sissy had two great failings. She was a great lover and a great mother. She had so much of tenderness in her, so much of wanting to give of herself to whoever needed what she had, whether it was her money, her time, the clothes off her back, her pity, her understanding, her friendship or her companionship and love. She was mother to everything that came her way. She loved men, yes. She loved women too, and old people and especially children. How she loved children! She loved loved the down-and-outers. She wanted to make everybody happy. She had tried to seduce the good priest who heard her infrequent confessions because she felt sorry for him. She thought he was missing the greatest joy on earth by being committed to a life of celibacy.
She loved all the scratching curs on the street and wept for the gaunt scavenging cats who slunk around Brooklyn corners with their sides swollen looking for a hole in which they might bring forth their young. She loved the sooty sparrows and thought that the very grass that grew in the lots was beautiful. She picked bouquets of white clover in the lots believing they were the most beautiful flowers God ever made...Yes, she listened to everybody's troubles but no one listened to hers. But that was right because Sissy was a giver and never a taker.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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Growing up spoiled a lot of things. It spoiled the nice game they had when there was nothing to eat in the house. When money gave out and food ran low, Katie and the children pretended they were explorers discovering the North Pole and had been trapped by a blizzard in a cave with just a little food. They had to make it last till help came. Mama divided up what food there was in the cupboard and called it rations and when the children were still hungry after a meal, she'd say, 'Courage, my men, help will come soon.' When some money came in and Mama bought a lot of groceries, she bought a little cake as celebration, and she'd stick a penny flag in it and say, 'We made it, men. We got to the North Pole.'
One day after one of the 'rescues' Francie asked Mama:
'When explorers get hungry and suffer like that, it's for a reason . Something big comes out of it. They discover the North Pole. But what big things comes out of us being hungry like that?'
Katie looked tired all of a sudden. She said something Francie didn't understand at the time. She said, 'You found the catch in it.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)
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And the child, Francie Nolan, was of all the Rommelys and all the Nolans. She had the violent weaknesses and passion for beauty of the shanty Nolans. She was a mosaic of her grandmother Rommely's mysticism, her tale-telling, her great belief in everything and her compassion for the weak ones. She had a lot of her grandfather Rommely's cruel will. She had some of her Aunt Evy's talent for mimicking, some of Ruthie Nolan's possessiveness. She had Aunt Sissy's love for life and her love for children. She had Johnny's sentimentality without his good looks. She had all of Katie's soft ways and only half of the invisible steel of Katie. She was made up of all these good and these bad things.
She was made up of more, too. She was the books she read in the library. She was the flower in the brown bowl. Part of her life was made from the tree growing rankly in the yard. She was the bitter quarrels she had with her brother whom she loved dearly. She was Kitie's secret, desparing weeping. She was the shame of her father staggering home drunk.
She was all of these things and of something more that did not come from the Rommelys nor the Nolans, the reading, the observing, the living from day to day. It was something that had been born into her and her only- the something different from anyone else in the two families. It was what God or whatever is His equivalent puts into each soul that is given life- the one different thing such as that which makes no two fingerprints on the face of the earth alike.
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Betty Smith (A Tree Grows in Brooklyn)