“
Can you love my brain even when it is small? When it is malevolent? When it is violent? Can you love it even when it does not love me?
”
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Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
I could study you for a lifetime, carrying all your peculiarities and discretions in the webs of my spidery palms, and still feel empty-handed
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
So when people say we¡re alone in the ether?" "Alone in everything. In time and space, in existence, in religion.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She is in all of his spaces and all of his thoughts. He contemplates formulas and degrees of rationality and they all turn into her. He thinks about time, which has only recently begun, or at least now feels different. He thinks: the Babylonians were wrong; time is made of her.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
You are brilliant. Tell your mind to be kind to you today.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
If this is what it is to burn, he thought, then I will be worth more as scattered ash than any of my unscathed pieces.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
A wise man doesn’t answer a multifaceted question with a ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ response alone. A one-word reply for an issue is a kindergarten response that has no value or meaning. Two people could basically feel the same way about an issue but still argue about it and possibly even come to hate each other because they settled on different one-word answers.
”
”
Jasun Ether (The Beasts of Success)
“
Whatever you are made of, Charlotte Regan, I am made of it, too.
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”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
I want you to say everything, anything. I want to have your thoughts, I want to bottle them, I want to put them in my drawer for safekeeping.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
In understanding the nature and the bigger picture of the game from an omniscient viewpoint, a player could manifest his own destiny infinitely more effectively than any two-dimensional-thinking dimwit on the street who repeatedly walked straight into brick walls, thinking a different outcome would magically materialize through persistence alone.
”
”
Jasun Ether (The Beasts of Success)
“
I like it,” he said.
“What?”
He loosened the wine from his lips. “Your brain.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
When you learn a new word, you suddenly see it everywhere. The mind comforts itself by believing this to be coincidence but isn’t—it’s ignorance falling away. Your future self will always see what your present self is blind to. This is the problem with mortality, which is in fact a problem of time.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
So when people say were alone in the ether?" "Alone in everything. In time and space, in existence, in religion.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
it is perilously wonderful to suffer so sweetly with you.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
I am more addicted to the thought of your name on my tongue than I am to any other form of vice.
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”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
For every sensation Regan could conjure, there was an artist who had beautifully suffered the same.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
You wouldn't make love with him, you'd make art.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Instead she thinks: I love him, and for a moment it doesn't matter whether he loves her back. It is enough to have known that the inside of her chest is more than a place for storage.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
he doesn't want to be the person she hides from, he wants to be the person she hides with.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
The world loved to take a beautiful woman and exclaim at the charm of her single imperfection
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
So this is what it is to love something you cannot control, he thought. It felt precisely like terror.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
A voice cannot carry the tongue and the lips that gave it wings. Alone must it seek the ether.
And alone and without his nest shall the eagle fly across the sun.
”
”
Kahlil Gibran
“
There are no perfect circles, Regan. Yes, there’s one, and it’s this one: They fall in love because they’re always in love. That’s circular, not a circle. He can believe whatever he wants; she knows it’s a perfect circle.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Deities themselves had changed over time, but the act of devotion had not.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
He kisses her, thinks, Go on, ruin me. Wreck me, please. She kisses him back and she does.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
... so this is for us.
This is for us who sing, write, dance, act, study, run and love
and this is for doing it even if no one will ever know
because the beauty is in the act of doing it.
Not what it can lead to.
This is for the times I lose myself while writing, singing, playing
and no one is around and they will never know
but I will forever remember
and that shines brighter than any praise or fame or glory I will ever have,
and this is for you who write or play or read or sing
by yourself with the light off and door closed
when the world is asleep and the stars are aligned
and maybe no one will ever hear it
or read your words
or know your thoughts
but it doesn’t make it less glorious.
It makes it ethereal. Mysterious.
Infinite.
For it belongs to you and whatever God or spirit you believe in
and only you can decide how much it meant
and means
and will forever mean
and other people will experience it too
through you.
Through your spirit. Through the way you talk.
Through the way you walk and love and laugh and care
and I never meant to write this long
but what I want to say is:
Don’t try to present your art by making other people read or hear or see or touch it; make them feel it. Wear your art like your heart on your sleeve and keep it alive by making people feel a little better. Feel a little lighter. Create art in order for yourself to become yourself
and let your very existence be your song, your poem, your story.
Let your very identity be your book.
Let the way people say your name sound like the sweetest melody.
So go create. Take photographs in the wood, run alone in the rain and sing your heart out high up on a mountain
where no one will ever hear
and your very existence will be the most hypnotising scar.
Make your life be your art
and you will never be forgotten.
”
”
Charlotte Eriksson (Another Vagabond Lost To Love: Berlin Stories on Leaving & Arriving)
“
Because we have agreed, collectively, that to proceed without knowledge or understanding is a stupid kind of bravery, an impulsive kind of blindness, but that to be alone without wonder or curiosity is to chip away any possible value we might discover in existing.
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”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
It frustrated him immensely that he would never be able to prove that time didn't stop when she met his eye.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
The title of the café suggested its New Age influence, but he had no idea the place would be littered with spiritual knickknacks and completely brimming with wishy-washy clientele sporting tie-dye shirts and earthy-colored, grungy pants. Dale gritted his teeth and painfully examined the place, taking in all its awfulness. The atmosphere alone felt like it was soiling his impeccable suit.
”
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Jasun Ether (The Beasts of Success)
“
She couldn't prevent the urge to know his thoughts, She wanted to lace them between her fingers, to root them in her hands, to twine them around her limbs until he'd secured her within the invisible web of his carefully ordered madness.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Eventually she looked down at her empty hands and thought: Damn it. Damn it, I love him. Then, after the smoke cleared, she could see nothing else.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
That old reflex never died; the little pang of Don't go, just stay. Settle over me like the tide, cover me like a blanket, wrap around me like the sun.
Don't go, don't go, don't go.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
It was at moments like this, high enough to inhale the promise of risk, that the whittled lines of city streets brought out his lingering melancholy; that l'appel du vide, the call of the void.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Empires have fallen like this, he thinks, but it only makes him want her more, makes him look at his hands and think, My god, what a waste of time doing anything else but holding her. What a waste, and then he says aloud, JesusfuckingChrist what have you done to me? And she says, Kiss me.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Things were always stranger in retrospect, which was a funny little consequence of time.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Pretty, that's what you think this is? You think that's all she's capable of? You fool, she's done the impossible. She has explained everything there is to know about the world in less than the time it took for your eyes to filly focus, and do you realize that I will spend a lifetime trying to do the same never come close? This is an opus!, this is a triumph!, this is the meaning of life and you would think the answer would be satire, but it isn't, its Truth. She tomd the Truth like you could never dream of telling it, and I pity you, that you could see the inside of your own soul and reduce it like this, so pitylessly. So carelessly.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Every time you love, pieces of you break off and get replaced by something you steal from someone else. It seems like it’s the right shape but it’s slightly different every time, so that eventually, very very quietly and over days and days and days, you are transformed into something unrecognizable, and it happens so slowly you don’t even notice, like shedding scales and making new ones.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She'd always thought [him] so ethereally powerful, so detached from the realm of mortals. But he was human after all, smaller and thinner than the rest of them.
And for the first time in his life, he was alone.
”
”
R.F. Kuang (The Dragon Republic (The Poppy War, #2))
“
For Aldo, to love something was to study it; to devote every spare thought to understanding it.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
this night is stolen, I want grand larceny and this is petty theft.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Art is something we do to feel human, not because we are.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She'd given him arrows and he'd shot, and now parts of her were gaping holes, flayed and filleted and left behind as open wounds.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Since we’re all One, even a single person’s thoughts and emotions can have an impact on the global consciousness, the soup we all reside in. Every single person has the power to affect the world with their thoughts and emotions alone, and when there are enough people holding beneficial temperaments, the world will transform in the blink of an eye. What one does can be important, but the conscious state one holds is infinitely more important.
”
”
Jasun Ether (The Beasts of Success)
“
When Aldo spoke of Regan his voice had a tendency to change, illumination rising near his cheeks. "You should see her work," he would say the same way someone else might have said: Come outside, come look at the stars.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
The thought of having you is more dangerous than any cocktail of drugs, the idea of belonging to you endlessly destructive.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She couldn't look away from his face, which did not say: What's wrong with you? but instead, said: Hi. Hello. Nice to meet you.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Maybe that's the big secret, that even though she hates her feelings, she'd still rather have them than not.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
He wondered how many irate L.A. drivers stuck in hellish traffic for hours on a daily basis would react if they had all the facts in their hands about their scrapped subway system. It alone would fuel horrendous rage when they realized that literally years of their lives had been, and will continue to be, unnecessarily spent in bumper to bumper traffic before retirement. Once given the facts, he was sure a good amount of L.A. drivers would completely snap, make their way to the homes of the powerful individuals responsible, march through their grand marble foyers, barge through countless mahogany doors, and fill those greedy cocksuckers full of American-hero bullets.
”
”
Jasun Ether (The Beasts of Success)
“
this is when she knows- god, she knows- that she loves him so deeply and so passionately and so devastatingly that by the time she tells him, the words will inevitably feel empty and small.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Can you love my brain even when it is small? When it is malevolent? When it's violent? Can you love it when it doesn't love me?
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
What did you learn?" he asked neutrally. That I could study you for a lifetime, carrying all of your peculiarities and discretions in the webs of my spidery palms, and still feel empty-handed.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
he was gripped with terror, understanding now what it really meant to love something. That to love a person was to forfeit the need to place limits on them, and therefore lo love was to exist in a constant, paralyzing threat.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She stared at herself in the mirror and thought: My eyes are too big, everyone will know I've seen everything, they'll know I saw the universe itself. They will look at me and they'll think: This poor girl, she knows too much, she can't go back.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
He matched her distance again, their foreheads meeting like old friends; Hello, how are you, been a long time, how nice it is to be here with you.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
He would come to share her joys until he could no longer separate them from his own, and then one day, maybe turning to her at a party or rushing to ask in a text message, he would say: What's that thing I like? And she would know the answer. She would know everything.
Eventually, all the answers to all that he was would be cradled in the palms of her hands.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
It's a fire. I used to burn out, now I just burn.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
the truth is that I have no choice but to accept that what's in my head is what's real.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Either yes, it mattered very much, because everything was a consequence of something and therefore what became of them was somehow predetermined, or no, it did not matter at all, because beginnings and endings were not as important as the moments that could have happened or the outcomes that might have been.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Softly the breezes from the forest came,
Softly they blew aside the taper's flame;
Clear was the song from Philomel's far bower;
Grateful the incense from the lime-tree flower;
Mysterious, wild, the far-heard trumpet's tone;
Lovely the moon in ether, all alone:
Sweet too, the converse of these happy mortals,
As that of busy spirits when the portals
Are closing in the west; or that soft humming
We hear around when Hesperus is coming.
Sweet be their sleep.
”
”
John Keats (Bright Star: Love Letters and Poems of John Keats to Fanny Brawne)
“
That to love a person was to forfeit the need to place limits on them, and therefore to love was to exist in a constant, paralyzing threat.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Art, a voice buzzed in her ear, was creation. It was dissecting a piece of herself and leaving it out for consumption, for speculation. For the possibility of misinterpretation and the inevitability of judgment. For the abandonment of fear the reward would have to be the possibility of ruin, and that was the inherent sacrifice.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
she wanted to bear his entire sadness for him: to hurt herself doubly, just to keep it from him, and was that illness or love? Was she really so broken that she wanted to suffer to spare him, and if that was true, then had he been right all along?
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
I want you to bet on me, Aldo. I want you to make investments, I want your future.” The last part slipped out. “I want your future, Aldo. I want it for me.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
the body will do almost anything to feel nothing.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Time.
Once upon a time.
Time to begin.
Time and time again.
Time after time.
Time is a function of lies, a trick of the light, a mistranslation.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She did that, love him invasively, exploring him like the depths of the sea.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Aldo,” Regan said, “what’s the ether?” “It’s what people used to believe the universe was filled with,” he said. “They believed light needed to pass through something, only Einstein proved light can be particles, which don't need a medium to travel through. And before that," he added, " ether was what they called the air in the realm of the gods. A shining, fluid substance." “So when people say were alone in the ether...?" "Alone in everything. In time and space, in existence, in religion.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
The thing about pills, Regan wanted to say to the doctor who had clearly never taken any, was that the ups and downs still happened; they were just different now, contained within brackets of limitation. Some inner lawlessness was still there, screeching for a higher high and clawing for a lower low, but ultimately the pills were loose restraints, a method of numbly shrinking
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Cravings were wishes that could be satisfied, but compulsions were needs that must be met.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
He thinks of all the other versions of himself making love to all the other versions of her and resolves to pluck them out of their alternate realities, out of their alternate spaces and times, to place them in this one.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She is my hope and for that she is dangerous, unequivocally, but she is also alive, unreservedly.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She cannot be, even in resurrection, what she was in life.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
You wouldn't make love with him, you'd make art. Maybe that would be worth it, but still, art is tragedy.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Commitment is fine,” he said. “Theoretically, anyway. But I find I have some difficulty understanding what other people want from me.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone with You in the Ether)
“
She should know right now that the secrets of the universe aren't in his dick.
Had he checked?
He's familiar with the real estate.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Why was her ship sinking?
Her ship? It's always sinking, she hates it, it's either sinking or it's exploding, either way it never seems to be going anywhere.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Sometimes I feel like I'm just waiting for something that will never happen," he said. "Like I'm just existing from day to day but will never really matter. I get up in the morning because I have to, because I have to do something or I'm just wasting space, or because if I don' answer the phone my dad will he alone. But it's an effort, it takes work. I have to tell myself, every day, get up. Get up, do this, move like this, talk to people, be normal, try to be social, be nice, be patient. On the inside I just feel like, I don't know, nothing. Like I'm just an algorithm that someone put in place.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Art is tragedy. Art is loss. It’s the fleeting breath of a foregone moment, the intimacy of things undone, the summer season that passes. It's the pealed lemon and bony fish in the corner of a Dutch still life, rotten and dead and gone. It's him lying next to you, legs tangled with yours, only to know he'll be a specter in your thoughts by next month, next week, ten minutes from now. This is what makes it art, Charlotte, and you've always understood that. You've always understood, above everything, that what makes beauty is pain.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
To give into something all at once was to lose yourself completely, and therefore to resist was to exchange one fleeting moment of pleasure for a more exquisite, abounding pain.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
her honesty with him was just another version of a lie.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She'd have to be measured infinitely in order to be calculated, which no one could ever do.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
It isn't constancy that keeps us alive, it's the progression we use to move us.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
When you learn how to be alone you’ll discover the difference between alone and lonely.
”
”
L.J. Vanier (Ether: Into the Nemesis)
“
The dark tips of her nails traveled the shape of his upper lip, curving with it, and in another version of this precise moment, he said, Regan, come closer, let's see what happens, let's see how the stars shine on your skin.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
She proved herself alive by proving this day had never been lived before, that this thing had never been felt or never tasted or never wanted, and now, because it existed, things were different; changed.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
He loved her fiercely for that.
He didn't see the problem in loving her that way, with a savagery that felt as ancient as his sorrows, until he realized that the could no longer recall a life without her. It was as if the older versions of him had been erased and could no longer exist. He realized that his relationship whit time, whatever it was before, was now forever altered.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
What you’re seeing is a single intake of breath - one moment. It is the beauty of the world in its most objective state, because the artist isn’t expressing any meaning. He isn’t trying to define you or teach you or tell you what place to occupy.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Because I know he'll sit for me. Because I know he won't mock me, won't suffocate me, won't kill this this fragile little thing I've found, this fledgling breath I've taken. Because he will know what it means, because he asked me to, because he asked. Because he's the thing I can't unsee. Because I don't know if I can get him right without looking, without proof, but also because I need to know, because I've already tried. Because either this is how everything changes, or this is how it ends.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
The glow from the window illuminated pieces of their silhouettes, her right side and his left. With the way moonlight fell over them it seemed to him that they were each one half of a person, divided in two, each fraction left to be the other's reflection.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Masks! I see them everywhere. That dreadful vision of the other night - the deserted town with its masked corpses in every doorway; that nightmare product of morphine and ether - has taken up residence within me. I see masks in the street, I see them on stage in the theatre, I find yet more of them in the boxes. They are on the balcony and in the orchestra-pit. Everywhere I go I am surrounded by masks. The attendants to whom I give my overcoat are masked; masks crowd around me in the foyer as everyone leaves, and the coachman who drives me home has the same cardboard grimace fixed upon his face!
It is truly too much to bear: to feel that one is alone and at the mercy of all those enigmatic and deceptive faces, alone amid all the mocking laughs and the threats embodied in those masks. I have tried to persuade myself that I am dreaming, and that I am the victim of a hallucination, but all the powdered and painted faces of women, all the rouged lips and kohl-blackened eyelids... all of that has created around me an atmosphere of trance and mortal agony. Cosmetics: there is the root cause of my illness!
But I am happy, now, when there are only masks! Sometimes, I detect the cadavers beneath, and remember that beneath the masks there is a host of spectres.
”
”
Jean Lorrain (Monsieur de Phocas)
“
Sometimes I feel like I’m just waiting for something that will never happen,” he said. “Like I’m just existing from day to day but will never really matter. I get up in the morning because I have to, because I have to do something or I’m just wasting space, or because if I don’t answer the phone my dad will be alone. But it’s an effort, it takes work. I have to tell myself, every day get up. Get up, do this, move like this, talk to people, be normal, try to be social, be nice, be patient. On the inside I just feel like, I don’t know, nothing. Like I’m just an algorithm that someone put in place.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Did it matter where it started, and would it matter where it would end? Either yes, it mattered very much, because everything was a consequence of something and therefore what became of them was somehow predetermined, or no, it did not matter at all, because beginnings and endings were not as important as the moments that could have happened or the outcomes that might have been.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone with You in the Ether)
“
Math is a difficult thing to love, he said. It’s precise and unforgiving, it’s evasive and it will never love me back, but I don’t have much of a choice, do I? It’s the thing that I can do that other people can’t, or that other people lack the patience for. Are there worthier things, more rewarding things? Yes, probably. But I don’t know what they are, they never showed themselves to me. Only math did.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
It isn't pretty, he wanted to say, it's lonely, it's desolate, it's a chilling portrait of vastness. How ignorant are you to look at this and diminish it to some kind of trinket, are you dead? It's the human condition! It's the entire universe itself! It's the depths of spacetime you utter fucking philistine and how dare you, how fucking dare you stand there and fail to weep? What kind of sad, unremarkable nothingness have you so callously lived that you can witness the splendor of her existence and not fall to your knees for having missed it, for having misunderstood it all this time? Pretty, that's what you think this is? You think that's all she's capable of? You fool, she's done the impossible. She has explained everything there is to know about the world in less than the time it took for your eyes to filly focus, and do you realize that I will spend a lifetime trying to do the same never come close? This is an opus!, this is a triumph!, this is the meaning of life and you would think the answer would be satire, but it isn't, its Truth. She told the Truth like you could never dream of telling it, and I pity you, that you could see the inside of your own soul and reduce it like this, so pitilessly. So carelessly. With the vacuous deficiency of, Oh, this is pretty.
”
”
Olivie Blake (Alone With You in the Ether)
“
Chaos and ancient Night, I come no spy,
With purpose to explore or to disturb
The secrets of your realm, but by constraint
Wand'Ring this darksome desert, as my way
Lies through your spacious empire up to light,
Alone, and without guide, half lost, I seek
What readiest path leads where your gloomy bounds
Confine with Heav'n; or if som other place
From your Dominion won, th' Ethereal King
Possesses lately, thither to arrive
I travel this profound, direct my course;
Directed no mean recompence it brings
To your behoof, if I that Region lost,
All usurpation then expelled, reduce
To her original darkness and your sway
(Which is my present journey) and once more
Erect the Standard there of ancient Night;
Yours be th' advantage all, mine the revenge.
970-987
”
”
John Milton (Paradise Lost)
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Sometimes, if the two old women
were not asleep, they heard him pacing slowly along the walks at a very
advanced hour of the night. He was there alone, communing with himself,
peaceful, adoring, comparing the serenity of his heart with the
serenity of the ether, moved amid the darkness by the visible splendor of
the constellations and the invisible splendor of God, opening his heart to
the thoughts which fall from the Unknown. At such moments, while he
offered his heart at the hour when nocturnal flowers offer their perfume,
illuminated like a lamp amid the starry night, as he poured himself out
in ecstasy in the midst of the universal radiance of creation, he could not
have told himself, probably, what was passing in his spirit; he felt
something take its flight from him, and something descend into him.
Mysterious exchange of the abysses of the soul with the abysses of the
universe!
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Victor Hugo (Les Misérables)
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When you uncork a bottle of mature fine wine, what you are drinking is the product of a particular culture and tradition, a particular soil, a particular climate, the weather in that year, and the love and labour of people who may since have died. The wine is still changing, still evolving, so much so that no two bottles can ever be quite the same. By now, the stuff has become incredibly complex, almost ethereal. Without seeking to blaspheme, it has become something like the smell and taste of God. Do you drink it alone? Never. The better a bottle, the more you want to share it with others ... and that is the other incredible thing about wine, that it brings people together, makes them share with one another, laugh with one another, fall in love with one another and with the world around them.
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Neel Burton (The Concise Guide to Wine and Blind Tasting)
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The creative life! Ascension. Passing beyond oneself. Rocketing out into the blue, grasping at flying ladders, mounting, soaring, lifting the world up by the scalp, rousing the angels from their ethereal lairs, drowning in stellar depths, clinging to the tails of comets. Nietzsche had written of it ecstatically —and then swooned forward into the mirror to die in root and flower. «Stairs and contradictory stairs,» he wrote, and then suddenly there was no longer any bottom; the mind, like a splintered diamond, was pulverized by the hammer−blows of truth. There was a time when I acted as my father's keeper. I was left alone for long hours, cooped up in the little booth which we used as an office. While he was drinking with his cronies I was feeding from the bottle of creative life. My companions were the free spirits, the overlords of the soul. The young man sitting there in the mingy yellow light became completely unhinged; he lived in the crevices of great thoughts, crouched like a hermit in the barren folds of a lofty mountain range. From truth he passed to imagination and from imagination to invention. At this last portal, through which there is no return, fear beset him. To venture farther was to wander alone, to rely wholly upon oneself. The purpose of discipline is to promote freedom. But freedom leads to infinity and infinity is terrifying. Then arose the comforting thought of stopping at the brink, of setting down in words the mysteries of impulsion, compulsion, propulsion, of bathing the senses in human odors. To become utterly human, the compassionate fiend incarnate, the locksmith of the great door leading beyond and away and forever isolate.
Men founder like ships. Children also. There are children who settle to the bottom at the age of nine, carrying with them the secret of their betrayal. There are perfidious monsters who look at you with the bland, innocent eyes of youth; their crimes are unregistered, because we have no names for them.
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Henry Miller (Sexus (The Rosy Crucifixion, #1))
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The mystery of this courage of Bauer’s is Hegel’s Phenomenology. As Hegel here puts self-consciousness in the place of man, the most varied human reality appears only as a definite form, as a determination of self-consciousness. But a mere determination of self-consciousness is a “pure category,” a mere “thought” which I can consequently also abolish in “pure” thought and overcome through pure thought. In Hegel’s Phenomenology the material, perceptible, objective bases of the various estranged forms of human self-consciousness are left as they are. Thus the whole destructive work results in the most conservative philosophy because it thinks it has overcome the objective world, the sensuously real world, by merely transforming it into a “thing of thought” a mere determination of self-consciousness and can therefore dissolve its opponent, which has become ethereal, in the “ether of pure thought.” Phenomenology is therefore quite logical when in the end it replaces human reality by “Absolute Knowledge”—Knowledge, because this is the only mode of existence of self-consciousness, because self-consciousness is considered as the only mode of existence of man; absolute knowledge for the very reason that self-consciousness knows itself alone and is no more disturbed by any objective world. Hegel makes man the man of self-consciousness instead of making self-consciousness the self-consciousness of man, of real man, man living in a real objective world and determined by that world. He stands the world on its head and can therefore dissolve in the head all the limitations which naturally remain in existence for evil sensuousness, for real man. Besides, everything which betrays the limitations of general self-consciousness—all sensuousness, reality, individuality of men and of their world—necessarily rates for him as a limit. The whole of Phenomenology is intended to prove that self-consciousness is the only reality and all reality.
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Karl Marx (The Holy Family)
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The English word Atonement comes from the ancient Hebrew word kaphar, which means to cover. When Adam and Eve partook of the fruit and discovered their nakedness in the Garden of Eden, God sent Jesus to make coats of skins to cover them. Coats of skins don’t grow on trees. They had to be made from an animal, which meant an animal had to be killed. Perhaps that was the very first animal sacrifice. Because of that sacrifice, Adam and Eve were covered physically. In the same way, through Jesus’ sacrifice we are also covered emotionally and spiritually. When Adam and Eve left the garden, the only things they could take to remind them of Eden were the coats of skins. The one physical thing we take with us out of the temple to remind us of that heavenly place is a similar covering. The garment reminds us of our covenants, protects us, and even promotes modesty. However, it is also a powerful and personal symbol of the Atonement—a continuous reminder both night and day that because of Jesus’ sacrifice, we are covered. (I am indebted to Guinevere Woolstenhulme, a religion teacher at BYU, for insights about kaphar.)
Jesus covers us (see Alma 7) when we feel worthless and inadequate. Christ referred to himself as “Alpha and Omega” (3 Nephi 9:18). Alpha and omega are the first and last letters of the Greek alphabet. Christ is surely the beginning and the end. Those who study statistics learn that the letter alpha is used to represent the level of significance in a research study. Jesus is also the one who gives value and significance to everything. Robert L. Millet writes, “In a world that offers flimsy and fleeting remedies for mortal despair, Jesus comes to us in our moments of need with a ‘more excellent hope’ (Ether 12:32)” (Grace Works, 62).
Jesus covers us when we feel lost and discouraged. Christ referred to Himself as the “light” (3 Nephi 18:16). He doesn’t always clear the path, but He does illuminate it. Along with being the light, He also lightens our loads. “For my yoke is easy,” He said, “and my burden is light” (Matthew 11:30). He doesn’t always take burdens away from us, but He strengthens us for the task of carrying them and promises they will be for our good.
Jesus covers us when we feel abused and hurt. Joseph Smith taught that because Christ met the demands of justice, all injustices will be made right for the faithful in the eternal scheme of things (see Teachings, 296). Marie K. Hafen has said, “The gospel of Jesus Christ was not given us to prevent our pain. The gospel was given us to heal our pain” (“Eve Heard All These Things,” 27).
Jesus covers us when we feel defenseless and abandoned. Christ referred to Himself as our “advocate” (D&C 29:5): one who believes in us and stands up to defend us. We read, “The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler” (Psalm 18:2). A buckler is a shield used to divert blows. Jesus doesn’t always protect us from unpleasant consequences of illness or the choices of others, since they are all part of what we are here on earth to experience. However, He does shield us from fear in those dark times and delivers us from having to face those difficulties alone. …
We’ve already learned that the Hebrew word that is translated into English as Atonement means “to cover.” In Arabic or Aramaic, the verb meaning to atone is kafat, which means “to embrace.” Not only can we be covered, helped, and comforted by the Savior, but we can be “encircled about eternally in the arms of his love” (2 Nephi 1:15). We can be “clasped in the arms of Jesus” (Mormon 5:11). In our day the Savior has said, “Be faithful and diligent in keeping the commandments of God, and I will encircle thee in the arms of my love” (D&C 6:20).
(Brad Wilcox, The Continuous Atonement, pp. 47-49, 60).
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Brad Wilcox